Okay so here is chapter Eight. I had a lot of fun writing it, Leah is so fun to work with. I love giving her smartass things to say haha and I also thought Seth needed some bonding time with big sis. So here you go, enjoy and reviews are always nice =)

-DaringReality

Seth's POV

Jake left a little while after dinner. I kept telling him he should go, but we sat in my room with the door shut, and each kiss made it harder to be persistent on the matter. I'd hoped he hadn't gotten into to much trouble when he finally arrived home. I had told him he should be leaving but I can't deny I didn't want him too. His dad was probably worried, he clearly told me he snuck out of the house to see me, which made me even happier than he already had. I'd thought that wasn't possible but he has these ways of proving me wrong.

I couldn't help but feel cold as I lay here in bed without Jacob near me, it's as if I've experienced true warmth and nothing, no heat trapped within a blanket or electric heater could ever reproduce. Jacob warmed my body, warmed my soul…Jacob warmed my heart.

I could still smell Jacob on me too, he was on my hands, in my sheets, It was as if he was still here. The sweet smell of his body wash and aftershave lingering in my room. I curled up under my sheets and pretended to still be in his arms, my favorite place to be.

Just as I was getting comfortable again, Leah busts through the door like she owned the place. Last time I checked it was my room.

"Seth…" She tried to whisper, but failed. She was such a loudass it wasn't even funny, "Seth are you awake?"

"Yea Leah." I groaned, I had had the lights turned out and was getting all comfortable and ready to sleep, but no Seth can't get comfortable with Leah around, Seth can't sleep.

Okay so that was a bit dramatic. I'm just really tired, today has been one hell of a day.

"Can we talk little bro?" she asked, something apparently bothering her. Why was she serious all of a sudden, where was the smartass remarks, the snide comments about life itself?

Where was my sister?!?!

"Yea…sure." I said with a yawn. She turned on the lights and I squinted my eyes trying to get used to the brightness.

What could she possibly want to talk about? I looked over at my clock on the night stand, the red numbers telling me it was 12:00 A.M. Couldn't she have waited until the morning, at a sensible hour?

"What do you want Leah?" I asked, trying to urge her to get on with it. She was just standing there in the doorway looking lost in thought biting her lip.

What the hell could make Leah uncomfortable?

"I wanted to talk to you about Jake." she said, a bit hesitant.

So that was what's been bothering her. I completely forgot about her seeing us today in such a…close position. She'd kept quiet during dinner, and apparently she didn't hate me with every fiber of her being like I thought, because if she'd uttered one word, dad would have had a heart attack and mom wouldn't be so thrilled with Jake anymore.

The odd thing is I sort of trusted Leah, I didn't really care that she knew. I dreaded this conversation that was about to take place however. She'd probably be a smartass saying stuff like "Always use a rubber". We just started getting intimate today, sex was so far off on our 'to do' list it was near the bottom. For me anyway, I don't know about Jake, but I'm scared (even though the thought of sex appealed to me so very much. I may be gay but I'm still a guy.)

"What about him?" I asked, sitting up in my bed and giving her a confused look.

Play the ignorance card Seth, let her squirm.

Wow…never realized I had such a sadistic side to me. She seemed to have trouble coming up with what to say. I liked a speechless Leah.

"You…you know what I wanna talk about." She stated simply, trying to avoid being blunt. "You two were awfully close today…" She added and I could feel she stopped her sentence short. There was a question she was holding back. She wanted to ask me something, I could tell it.

"Yea…so?" I asked, enjoying this way to much. I wanted to hear her say it, I wanted her to ask me if I'm gay.

She looked down at her feet, worrying her lip some more, it was probably about to bleed after she'd been biting it so much.

"Seth…" She started and her eyes met mine for the first time since she'd came in my room.

Here it comes…

"Are you and Jake fucking?"

What the hell? That's not the question she was supposed to ask, she was supposed to ask if I'm gay!

My face turned red again, just like it did today when she first saw me and Jake, and about twenty more shades of red could be added to the ones from today.

"What?!" I asked incredulously. She's really good at embarrassing the fuck out of me. She deserves an Oscar. But really, had I expected any less. She was acting so un-Leah-like that I forgot who I was dealing with here.

"You two were so close today…" She continued, "I just don't want you to get hurt Seth, take it from me, sex may just ruin a relationship…" She trailed off, a sadness in her voice I knew was because of Sam. "Plus, when the relationship ends…you may regret ever giving yourself to that person."

Was she actually concerned about me? Why was she trying to be all sisterly all of a sudden? Where the heck is my real sister?!

"I-I…NO!" I screamed. This startled her and I didn't mean to she just caught me so off guard.

"Well don't get your panties in a bunch…I was only looking out for ya." She said, the smartass in her finally resurfacing and beating down the sister part.

"But-but…aren't you wondering about…ya know." great now its turned on me, my face couldn't get any redder.

"Seth I've known you preferred the penis since forever." She said. My eyes shot wide and anger swelled up inside me, my face burning so hot I thought it was going to explode. "Plus you've been head over heals for Jake since you were in diapers."

"How the hell did you know?!" I asked, my mind racing. Had I been that obvious? Jake never seemed to notice…are we just that stupid?

"Seth, I'm your sister." She stated matter-of-factly. No duh sis. "I know you better than you know yourself, whether you want to admit it or not, sissy knows." she said with a smile. Damn…I hope no one else saw through my charade. I'm not ready for anyone to know just yet and I doubt Jake is either.

"You knew all this time…" I said practically to myself, looking down again in wonder. "And you don't mind?" My head shot up to ask her to her face. I needed to see if there was any hint of disgust in her face.

"Having a fag for a younger brother?" she asked, waving off the question like it was nothing. "Course not, Seth you're my lil bro, no matter what you do I'll still love you."

My mouth dropped at that. She was a master at the art of coupling an insult with an endearing remark.

"Wow…thanks sis." I said, mouth still agape. She just snickered and walked forward and sat on the bed with me, the sound of the springs creaking and the mattress giving in pulling me out of my thoughts.

"No problem little bro." She said pulling me into a one armed hug. "And I'm glad you too finally seemed to take notice of one another…I thought I might have to kill you both if you kept dodging it like it wasn't even there."

She let me go and sat there for another moment. I really couldn't believe what I was hearing. Leah was being great, smartass and all she still was being great. I actually was grateful to have her as my sister at that point in time.

"Also Seth, you know its going to be rough right?" I gave her a confused look. She better not be talking about sex, she better not ruin this moment.

"Huh?" I asked, bracing myself for what she was about to say.

"Being in a gay relationship." she stated, "There are many close minded people in the world Seth, not everyone is going to be as accepting as I am of your and Jacob's relationship."

Oh, wow, that was…not what I expected.

"Some people will discriminate against you guys, and gay rights isn't something everyone is for." she continued and I listened to what she was saying intently. She sounded so much older now, not like my sister, but like an adult. She sounded like someone I could depend on.

I hugged her this time and she returned it, patting my back and laughing softly. "Thanks sis." I told her and meant it with everything in me. I didn't know it but I needed this talk. I was aware of what lies ahead for me and Jake but I'm willing to take it one step at a time, and it was refreshing to know that one person was at least fine with it. Maybe we'll have the strength to tell others.

"Oh and one more tip of advice," she started, and I smiled at her waiting for her to continue. "It's going to hurt like fucking shit if your going to be the bitch of the relationship. You know, taking it in the ass, I assumed you were the bottom seeing as how big of a beast Jake is."

Yep, just what I needed, old Leah back. My poor face, it really is going to melt off one day.

She got up to leave and left me there to ponder that thought. I'm not dumb, I knew it'd hurt…but then it'd feel better right? Right?!

"Oh and tell your little boyfriend I'll chop his dick off if he hurts you." She said with a evil smirk before turning off my light and heading back to her room. I'll keep that tidbit of information away from Jake, I know she would follow through with her words, and I know Jake won't hurt me so no use in scaring him.

I laid down in bed for the second time and drifted off to sleep, dreaming about Jacob.