All characters are Stephenie Meyers. I don't own them I wish I did ;o)

Sorry everyone I left all of you with a cliffy. I had to do it sometime. I don't think I had one in this story yet. I am going to try to finish this story off today. Please don't hate me for the last chapter. I have a method to my madness. This chapter is a little easier on you.

Enjoy!

Oh and there is lemony goodness in this one LOL.

Here is the last little bit from the previous chapter.

I wasn't paying attention to the conversation Alice was having with Jasper. I didn't care. They could be talking about the moon, and I didn't care. There was somebody else there. I couldn't see them. They were hidden. The shadows had come out. I finally laid my head down and my eyes closed. He didn't come. I didn't see him. It wasn't like before. He left me behind. I tried to drown out the conversation going on but bits and pieces were coming through.

"She's not going to snap out of this. It was too much too soon."

"I couldn't change her emotions. She tossed me aside and blocked me. I don't know how, but she did."

"She will snap out of it tonight. Alice prepare for the next stage okay."

That voice…..

That voice…. That familiar god like voice. How I could listen to it every day. How could I not see this person? How did I know this person? I needed to hear that voice. It was familiar. It was home. The voice of my home. Home was……. Edward.

~munchkin1978



Why?

Chapter 23

BPOV (still…. LOL)

My eyes flew open as they searched the room I was in. His room. Our room. I looked for the voice… I saw Alice and Jasper leave. They left me with the shadow. The moving shadow with the familiar voice.

I starred as the figure detached itself from the darkness. Pale and perfect. Not a bronze hair out of place. Golden eyes made from liquid. The shadow figure moved towards the bed and stopped in front of me. I looked at him as he was revealed to me.

Edward…..

"Edward….." I gushed out in a barely audible sound.

I closed my eyes and passed out.

I woke wrapped in a blanket. My hair pulled back from my face. I didn't want to open my eyes. I knew where I was and that I was going cuckoo because he was gone again. Open your eyes Bella the little voice inside me said. Open your eyes the shadow wants to see you.

The shadow….

Edward….

I bolted up from where I was and was rigid as a flat board. My eyes flew open and I searched the room for the shadow. Every movement my eyes caught until it lay upon what I wanted to see. The darkness jumped out at me. There is where the shadow was.

The shadow was there…..

Edward was there….

Edward was the shadow. He stood at the end of the bed not saying a word or moving. I watched him as he was watching me. He was waiting for me to make the first move. I pulled my feet under me making the blankets fall away. I think I was crazy for wanting to touch a shadow. For wanting the shadow to hold me close, to kiss me and tell me I was not crazy. I waited a few more moments tormenting myself. I was not crazy.

I'd had enough of this. I moved crawling across the bed. Fears forgotten I waited at the end for just a moment before I moved, closing the distance off. I sat on my knees and leaned over the edge of the bed till I was nose to nose with the shadow. I moved in and kissed him. Hoping that I wasn't crazy and not seeing what I was seeing I was half expecting to fall off the end of the bed. But I didn't fall. The shadow wrapped his arms around me and kissed me back. I was drawn into the darkness and I wasn't going to be letting go. I pressed myself into that darkness not caring if I slipped over the edge. I should have kept an arms length but I didn't care.

The shadow moved me across the bed as he kissed me deeper and deeper. I pulled at my clothes. They were getting in the way. I wanted to feel it closer. I wanted it to be draped across me. I wanted the shadow to love me, like I knew it did. I moved with it as clothes were tossed aside. Then I got my wish. The shadow moved across my now naked body placing heat filled kisses across my stomach and chest only to return to my mouth. I kissed it as it felt real. The shadow felt as real….as real as the real thing. I didn't want to wait any longer. I pulled it down towards me inviting it into me. I didn't have to wait long as it obliged my every move. I moved one way and it moved with me. It was like we were dancing a special dance just for us. Hot and cold together melting away into each other.

Time was all I had. I had more time in the world than anyone else right now. I could have thought of anything or anyone but my mind settled on one person.

Edward.

I felt the blanket wrap around me and the shadow move to stay beside me, as I felt the movement in the bed. It pulled the loose strands of hair as it breathed to my ear like a real human would.

"I told you to trust me. I'm not going to leave you Isabella Swan…." I felt the cold breath on my ear. The sweet icy breath that he branded. "I'm yours forever."

My eyes flew open again. I gasped in air and blew it out just as fast. My mind was racing. I thought moments ago I was dreaming. I hadn't fallen off the bed but it was real.

"Edward…." I gasped out again.

I turned over getting tangled in the blanket. He pulled the blanket down from around my face and pulled the loose hairs away.

"I'm not leaving you Bella. I made a promise to you."

I watched him talk. Like an angel would talk. My eyes were wide. Not frightened nor worried just in shock. I had to be dreaming. I had heard him that day when James had bit me. I had slipped out of reality that day. I watched him as he blinked and caressed my cheek with his hand. His cold, yet soft hand. I had to be dreaming. I had to be.

"You're not dreaming love. I am not leaving you. It was…."

I suddenly snapped out of my state. I sat up and realized that Edward was laying beside me half clothed wit me in a blanket.

"You left." I spat out.

"I didn't really leave. I was in the house the whole time. I had to do it as part of the plan."

My eyes were shrinking back to their normal size but getting smaller. They were filling with anger.

"You left me again." I started to get up.

"It was part of the plan, love."

My mind raced. What plan? What was he talking about? Then it clicked. Just moments ago he told me trust. "Trust…."

"Yes Bella. I asked you to trust me. Do you remember? I asked you to trust me. I needed your reaction. The reaction you had is going to help with the next part of the plan."

I started to connect the dots from the selling of the house to him supposedly being killed. I should be mad. I should be angry, well beyond angry. I was still in shock. I didn't know what to say. I was trying to formulate a response. Something that was full of what I was feeling or should be feeling. It came out before I even knew it had.

"Are you going to tell me?"

"I never meant to keep it from you Bella. I needed your reaction. The next part involves you." He paused watching me his eyes darkening for the moment. "And your human death…."

What? Wait…what did he just say? Human death…. My human death.

"You have to die of a broken heart. You're not really going to die Bella. We are just going to show the wolves that you have died. Very similar to Romeo and …."

"Juliet." I said out loud.

Romeo and Juliet. He was thinking of Romeo and Juliet. He was watching as my mind was processing what he had just said. He had to die to get the reaction for a broken heart. Then I had to die of a broken heart. All so we could leave without the wolves' knowledge. That way I could….. Oh…. Oh….. All this was for….

"You're going to change me."

He reached for my arm. I didn't shrink back like I should when someone was upset and angry. His touch was gentle. I loved his touch. I wanted his touch. "I am going to change you Bella. I realized that you didn't want to be anywhere else but with me. You didn't want to die alone like Charlie. I don't want to be alone either. I don't want to live without you there every single day for forever."

My anger dissipated in that split moment. It was gone. It wasn't going to come back out. My eyes watered instead.

"Is that a …"

"In a way yes." He paused. "I do want to marry you Bella."

I didn't have to think it over. I knew my mind would. But my mouth was talking before my mind had caught up. "I accept."

Edward the shadow who was really actually Edward moved from the bed to the closet. He came back out with a box. He opened it up and inside was two rings intertwined into one.

"One was the ring Charlie gave to me for you. The other was my mothers. I combined the two. Past, present and future."

Oh my….

"It's beautiful." I took the ring out and he took it from me and placed it on my finger. I sat up again as an errant thought ran through my head. "Wait if I wear it now won't they notice?"

"I don't think so. I think they will by pass it."

I heard a knock and Edward spoke out. "Give Bella a moment Alice. She'll be right out."

I got up from the bed and dressed in the clothes I had worn before Alice had dressed me for the funeral. Alice couldn't wait so she entered as Edward was doing up the last button on his shirt.

"I don't want to know how you two made up or how you told her you were really alive. I told you from the start it was a bad idea." Alice started in on Edward.

"Alice it's okay. I'm okay with what he did. He explained it." I was still going over some of the finer details but the anger was gone.

"Oh..." She paused for a moment. "Well I'm sorry I couldn't tell you. If I had a beating heart it would have broken watching you the way you were."

"Thanks Alice. Thank you for looking after me. I hope I wasn't too much trouble."

"Jasper had tried to calm you on several occasions but he couldn't. You just pushed his gift away. What did you do?"

"I don't remember. I was kind of out of it."

"Oh… Well I am glad you're okay and back to normal. Now let's see that ring?"

"Alice you knew I would be okay with all this didn't you?"

"I saw it about an hour ago. I also happened to block out what had just transpired but I got the after part just right."

"Thanks." I was glad on one part that she blocked out the shadow sex. I'm not sure I wanted to know what I looked like at that point.

"So now we have to plan your death and your wedding."

I looked at Edward he was watching us and reading thoughts. "Sorry, didn't mean to startle you. Everyone is waiting downstairs for us." He paused. "They want to know if you're okay. You apparently gave them quite a scare with the state you were in. They almost had to get me to step in."

I shook my head. I didn't know what to think. I wasn't mad. I wasn't upset anymore. I trusted Edward. Now more than ever. Now I knew what was going to happen to some degree. Could I play the part of a broken hearted girlfriend? Could I do this with him in the same room?



Well what did you think?

Well I hope I am in the good books again!

I was all over the place with this chapter when I was writing it. I think it came out okay. I am planning on finishing typing this out today. I am going to work on Truth today too if I can.

I have been reading the Vampire Diaries. Some similarity but totally different story. I am also reading the Mortal Instruments series by Cassandra Clare. It is very good and very highly praised by Stephenie Meyer. On the box cover she even says she is spending the weekend with Jace over Edward and Jacob. I am on the second book City of Ashes.

If you haven't read Truth go read it--- It is 9200 words for the first chapter but it is all human and the first chapter is in Edwards's eyes. I like it and it was begging to come out and be born. Please read and review that one too!

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~munchkin1978~