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K: Here it is… the final thoughts of Daddysper. *sniffles* It seems like just yesterday we were calling him dicksper and he won a place in our hearts. Thanks to everyone for putting up with my crap when I'm having fail moments; most of all to Robs cause she gets the brunt of it lol.
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fAshes to Ashes
I couldn't believe someone had the nerve to call at eleven o'clock at night. The first ring, I figured it was some drunken kid dialing the wrong number. The second ring, maybe it was someone in the family and would get the hint. But that third ring was enough. Something was up.
I reached over to grab my phone. 'M. Salas' flashed on the screen. I saw Alice scowl at the screen and shook my head at her.
It's not Maria, I thought as I flipped the phone open.
"Mari?" I asked and saw the confusion on Alice's face.
I could hear Marharette, Maria's mom taking shaky breaths on the other line and wondered what was wrong.
"Mari, it's Jazz…"
"Jazz?" she asked.
"Yeah, it's me. Mari what's wrong? Is Momma okay?"
"No, no, no. Jazz she's fine. It's… it's… my Maria…" she cried into the phone.
"Shit," I muttered as I got out of bed. Alice tilted her head and quirked an eyebrow at me. I leaned over and gave her a kiss before leaving the bedroom to talk to Marharette.
Marharette was Maria's mom and for all intensive purposes, a better person then Maria would ever be. Too often Mari and Maria were at each other's throats over me. Mari didn't approve of Maria's actions towards me and Maria accused her mom of not loving her. I often wondered if that's why she treated Jordan the way she did at times.
I loved Mari; I always did ever since I first started dating Maria. She always treated me like family and of course being close with Momma didn't hurt her chances in my book. Even when all the shit with Maria went down Mari was always on my side, begging for Maria to stop the games.
The only time I hear from Mari now is when she calls Jordy. More often than not, she gets to talk with Jordy when Momma calls. So for her to be callin' now, it's safe to say something's wrong.
"Mari what's wrong?"
"She finally did it Jasper. She didn't listen to me. I told her that, that…" she exhaled deeply before sobbing again. "Jazz's she gone."
"Mari, I'm sure she'll be back. You know Maria, she just-"
"No Jasper, she's dead."
Come again? Did she just say dead? As in no blood running through her veins, no longer breathing, buried six feet in the ground, worm food dead?
"Jazz?"
"Yeah sorry Mari, that's just… I just spoke to her yesterday…" I shook my head. "What happened? Do you know?"
Mari went on to tell me how the most she knows is that it was a cocaine overdose. The cops apparently went to bust her and Laurent, they found her dead and Laurent higher than kite. Even though the tox screen hasn't come back, both Mari and I know that was very likely.
"The funeral is in three days," she told me sniffling. "Your momma's gonna be there."
Oh shit, I know what's coming next.
"Mari I don't know if-" I started but she started crying harder. Jesus I'm screwed.
"I'm sorry Jasper, I know you have your wife and the new baby, but you and Jordan are all I have left."
I sighed and rested my head on the back of the couch. "I know Mari. You know I wasn't happy with Maria and quite honestly Alice wasn't her biggest fan either. I've fucked up with Jordy and I don't know if this is gonna be a good way to fix things."
"I understand Jasper. Trust me I do. I agree that maybe Jordan shouldn't come but I need you to help Marcus and the others."
Marcus, ah yes the owner of the diner Maria worked at. "How's that?"
"I would like you to be a pallbearer."
Shit.
"I'm not family," I protested.
"You are in my heart Jasper. You know I've always thought of you as a son."
"Even though I married another woman?" I countered.
"Yes, because you found happiness. Even though I've never met your wife, I love her too. She makes you happy. She makes my little Jordan happy."
I groaned rubbed at my face. "I have to think about the pallbearer thing. But I'll be there, out of respect for you Mari. I can't promise Jordan will be there, but I can pretty much guarantee that Alice and Jackson will not be there." I sighed, thinking about Rose and Bella. "I don't know if the girls will be there either."
Mari sniffled slightly. "Give them my love Jasper?"
"Of course, and I'm sure they want me to send you their condolences."
Mari laughed slightly. "No, now don't go lying Jasper, you were the worst at it. I know those girls, they'll probably sing 'Ding dong the witch is dead' when you tell them."
I bit hard on my cheek to keep from laughing. She knew my sister and cousin well, that's for sure. Hell I think Alice would join in on that.
"I am sorry though that she's dead…" I said softly.
"I know Jasper. You never really had it in you to hate people."
"Yeah, listen I'm gonna go and talk to Alice about me being gone. I'll call you or Momma as soon as I have flight info and such."
"Thank you Jasper," she said before hanging up. I shut the phone off and looked up to see Alice scowling at me.
I tossed my phone at the edge of the couch and sighed. Well odds are she caught the last half of the conversation and was pissed that I agreed to go. Why would she be pissed about that? I can't let Mari bury her only daughter by herself.
But she's got Momma. Right, but like Mari said, I'm her son of sorts.
I leaned forward and slowly rubbed my hands together as my arms rested on my knees. "So… that was Maria's mom. Marharette…" I said cautiously.
"I know," she said in a short, clipped tone.
Well I wasn't expecting the harshness of her voice. I felt my eyebrow go up in question but I still couldn't look up at her. "Okay. Well Maria's dead."
"I heard that too," again her voice was curt.
I looked up at her finally. "The funeral is in a few days. I'm gonna go pay my respects to Mari, not Maria," I said hoping to emphasize the fact that this was for her mother not her.
"Mmhmm," she said in a disbelieving tone as she crossed her arms across her chest.
"I'm gonna wait until the morning to tell Jordy about this," I swallowed thickly as I thought of how Jordy might react to this, especially now that Carmen had filled me in on what I was doing wrong."I might need your help with that..."
"Oh now you want my help?"
What the fuck?
"Excuse me?"
"I tried to tell you that Jordy talking to that puñeta would fuck with her head, but you told me to butt out, that Jordy was your daughter." She growled at me.
Right because at the time, I didn't think completely erasing Maria from Jordy's life was a good idea. Excuse me for thinking that I was right. But to bring that up now of all times?!
"You really want to pull the 'I told you so' card on me right fucking now Alice?"
"Yeah I am," she shot back as she raised an eyebrow at me to try her.
I stood up growling slightly. Why now? Of all the times she could say 'I told you so' is she picking now?
"I get it Alice, I fucked up. I fucked up my kid worse than Maria fucking did. But Christ, I have to tell her that the woman that brought her into this world is fucking dead! And yes I want your help because she fucking listens to you!" I said as the anger was getting the better of me
"Fine, I'm not doing this for you though, or yourputa."
My whore? Since when did she think that?
I shook my head as my eyes narrowed. "You're unfucking believable Alice."
"I'm unbelievable?" I gave her a curt nod as her eyebrows jumped to her hair line. "Do fill me in on how I am so unbelievable."
"Calling her my whore? How the hell you jumped to that conclusion I'll never know," I spat at her just as Jackson started to fuss.
Father of the fucking year and guess who's not in the running.
Alice just rolled her eyes at me and shook her head. "Because she is Jasper," she said as she walked towards the den to check on Jax.
"Whatever Alice, I need some time to think." And yelling at my wife was not helping.
"Of course you do," I heard her say as she picked up Jackson. Her voice sounded as if it cracked slightly, but fuck it. I didn't care right now.
I went in the room, quickly pulling on my jeans and a T-shirt. I quit smoking almost five months ago when Jax was born; thinking I should be a better example for my son, but right fucking now all I wanted was a pack of camels and my best buddy Jack.
"I'm going for a drive," I said harshly as I passed the den for the front door. I could hear Alice mutter something very un-lady like as I slammed the door in my haste.
I opted to take the stairs down to the lobby, figuring the exercise would be a good way to get rid of some of the anger. I knew things were boiling under the surface. Alice and I were just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Granted I unwittingly added to the size of the shoe with the way I've been handling things with Jordy.
I honestly didn't think I was doing wrong by her. I thought I was doing something good by allowing Maria into Jordan's life. But once again I underestimated the intelligence of my daughter and Maria's evil ways.
Hell even now, with being dead, that bitch is still fucking with my life.
I entered the lobby and nodded in response to night security guys greeting as I pushed through the main doors, quickening my pace to my car.
Right now I really needed that drink. As messed up as it all sounds, I was angrier with Alice acting the way she did. Now strike that, I'm angry at both her and Maria; Alice for acting like she doesn't care how this is going to affect Jordy when she claims Jordy as hers and Maria for being a stupid fucking whore.
"Fuck!" I yelled into the parking lot as I dropped my keys. How is this at all fair? Just when it looks like things are going right for us everything comes crashing down. Maybe this is Karma's way of biting me in the ass for all the shit I've caused everyone.
I finally managed to get the damn key into the lock and I got into the car. I slammed the door and slammed my head into the head rest. Yes I was throwing a tantrum, but I didn't care. Anyone would if they were put in my situation. Being told all in the same day that you are failing as a parent; that your kid would be more torn up about your wife dying then you, and then having a torturous ex die when deep down you hoped she would wake up so she wouldn't miss out on her daughter's life, tends to make one a little strung out.
I opened my eyes to see the two seats staring back at me through the rearview mirror. Jordy's booster seat positioned right next to Jax's car seat base. I smiled slightly remembering the way Jordy falls asleep with her hand on the side of her brother's seat. Even in her sleep she protects him.
Out of instinct I looked to my right, where Alice would be sitting looking back at our kids and smiling.
Our kids.
Ours.
"Jesus I'm an idiot." I said into the emptiness of the car. Here I was contemplating leaving the one thing I needed more than life itself. I couldn't do that to my family. I couldn't be like my dad and Aunt Renee.
I rubbed my faced and groaned. At this point I'm damned if I do, damned if I don't. I have to go back Texas, if anything to watch them seal the coffin and forever bury the past with Maria.
Alice maybe pissed but I have to do it. I can't have her haunting us years later. I have to say goodbye to the woman I wanted her to be, but never could be, and goodbye to the woman she was.
Absent mindedly I played with my ring as I though over the past year. Holy shit our anniversary is coming up and here I sit in the car like a douche bag.
Deciding that it was probably better to be under the same roof with an angry Alice than sitting in the car alone, I headed back inside.
When I got home, I had half expected Alice to be waiting for me on the couch. But she wasn't.
You fucked up buddy, my conscious scolded me. Yeah I know I did.
As I was heading towards the bedroom I peaked in on Jordy who was still sleeping like a log, then made my way to the den to check Jax. My breath caught in my chest at the site of Alice curled up in the rocking recliner, while Jax curled up against her chest. Both of them were sleeping, so I quietly went in the room, taking Jax from his momma to lay him in the crib. Once I had him situated, I headed over to Alice.
I sat on the matching ottoman and watched her for a few moments. Alice was usually a quiet sleeper; she doesn't talk in her sleep like Bella or mumble like I supposedly do. But when she's stressed out she's a mixture of both. Sure, I've heard her sigh my name at night as she cuddles closer, but that's nothing new.
Her lips were moving, which told me she was talking in her dream, but based on the way her fists were clenched and the protective way she was curled up, I knew it wasn't pleasant whatever it was.
I leaned closer to see her cheeks were wet. I knew in my heart that I was the reason she was crying. I'm a complete tool to her but yet for some reason she still loves me. I sighed as I stood up, gently lifting her in my arms. She wrapped her arms around my neck, but still slept. Careful not to wake her I carried her to our room and laid her on the bed, covered her up and kissed her forehead.
"I'm sorry Ali but I have to do this," I whispered before kissing her lips gently. "I love you Alice."
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This couch is seriously uncomfortable, I thought as I threw my arm over my eyes trying to block out the sunlight that was creeping into the living room. I could hear Alice and Jordy talking in the kitchen, which meant it had to be about seven or eight in the morning.
"Mommy, why is daddy on the couch?" I couldn't hear Alice's answer but I was pretty sure she was honest with Jordy, as she always is, and told her I was in the dog house. I waited a few minutes, wondering if I should go join them or go hide. But the smell of coffee in the room made my decision for me.
I lifted my arm slightly to see Alice standing by my head with a cup of coffee. She looked like I felt, obviously she didn't sleep well either. I sat up and stretched before taking the mug from her.
"Thanks baby," I said softly as she gave me a small smile and went back into the kitchen. As soon as she was out of view Jordy came skipping through.
"Mornin' Daddy," she smiled at me with a wide and toothy grin. Wait a tick?
"You lost a tooth," I laughed as she nodded.
"Yep, momma says the tooth fairy will give me lots of money for it 'cause it's a front tooth." She smiled wide again trying to stick her tongue out through the gap.
I laughed. "Just remember to put your tooth in the box Auntie Bella gave you."
She nodded, "The fairy box, I know Daddy, momma already had me put it in there." She paused for a moment as she chewed on her upper lip. "Momma wants to know if you want an omelet or mixed eggs."
"Scrambled is fine." I answered her as she nodded and skipped back towards the kitchen but then she stopped and turn to face me.
"You need to stop being mean daddy. Momma didn't do anything bad, she's a good momma." She told me shaking her head at me before turning to go back to the kitchen.
I know, Jordan trust me I know, I thought as I stood up, groaning in protest as my back popped. Oh yeah, so gonna try and see if Ali wants new living room furniture.
I entered the breakfast area where Jordy was sitting at the counter and singing the 'Itsy Bitsy Spider' song to Jax as he sat in his high chair and smiled at her. Alice was stirring the eggs around the pan and would periodically look at the kids.
I put my cup on the counter and went to her. "I can make the eggs baby," I offered.
"It's okay, they're almost done," she said sadly shaking her head at me. I leaned against the counter so I could see her face. She looked at me briefly before looking back at the pan.
"I'm sorry Ali..."
She sighed, "For what Jazz?"
Let's see there's yelling at you for no reason, waking up the baby, storming out of here instead of talking to you, making you cry…
"For last night," yeah that sums it up.
She nodded slightly as she chewed on her lip. She was worried about something and most likely wasn't gonna say it with the kids right there. I stood and watched her work. A routine I knew we were both familiar with since we got Jordy but everyday it still seemed new. She scraped the little bit of cheesy eggs onto a plate, topped them with a heart drawn with ketchup and added two pieces of toast with a more than generous amount of strawberry preserves before finally adding the two small sausage patties.
Don't get me wrong, this isn't an every morning breakfast. We just try to keep a routine with things like the ketchup on the eggs and the amount of preserves on her toast.
Alice turned back to the pan and kept her eyes on it. "Did you want sausage too, Jazz?"
"No thank you."
"'Kay, can you give Jordy her plate please?" She asked handing it to me. I took it from her and placed it in front of Jordy who looked at Alice then scowled at me.
"Be nice Daddy," she whispered at me.
"I'm trying," I whispered back before going back to Alice. "Please believe me when I say I love you," I said softly once I was back besides her.
"I do Jasper," she whispered, looking at me for the first time since giving me my coffee. Her eyes were bright with unshed tears. Again, I made her fucking cry.
I kissed her forehead. "I really am sorry," I said softly.
"Ewww..." Jordy said nasally, causing me to look at her. She was pinching her nose with one hand while the other fanned air towards her brother. "Jax stinks!"
"I'll take care of it."
"Thanks," Alice said as she stepped away from me and made the other plates. I went and picked Jackson up to change him.
"Good lord Jackson what did you eat?" I joked.
"Milk!" Jordy sang happily from her spot.
Jax laughed as if to agree with his sister as I carried him back to the den to get him all cleaned up. When we came back Alice was leaning against the counter talking to Jordy while eating… an apple?
I raised my eyebrow at her and looked at Jax, then the apple. "Not very hungry baby?"
She wrinkled her nose some as she looked at the bite she just made in the apple. "The eggs taste funny to me. Jordy says they taste fine..." she shrugged.
Of course Jordy thinks their fine, there's ketchup on them, I thought as I put Jax back in his high chair. "Okay... funny how?"
"I dunno, just funny. They aren't expired or anything."
"Huh..." I shrugged, as far as I knew Alice loved eggs."Okay."
She pushed herself off the counter and started getting a bowl of food ready for Jax. Little man caught sight of the box of oatmeal and started squealing. "Um I made you a plate..." Alice said as she nodded her head in the direction of where I usually sat.
"Thanks baby," I said taking grabbing my coffee and sitting next to Jordy.
Alice gave me a tight lipped smile that faltered some before moving to feed Jax, "You're welcome."
After breakfast Jordan and I cleaned up the kitchen while Alice got Jackson dressed for the day. Currently she was drying the frying pan while I wiped off the stove.
"She still hurt daddy," Jordy finally said.
"Who does princess?"
I heard her scoff, seriously six going on sixteen this one. "Momma, you hurt her by fighting with her."
"Did she tell you this?" I asked her raising an eyebrow at her.
"No. But you hurt everyone anyway so why should it matter?"
I just stared at her not knowing what to say. I watched her as she placed the pan on the counter and tossed the towel next to it. She turned to face me, placing her hands on her hips as she glared at me. "If I lose mommy I will hate you forever." She spat at me before stomping out of the kitchen.
I could hear Alice asking Jordy what was wrong before the sound of her door slamming echoed through the condo.
Fucking perfect.
After Jordan's outburst I figured I needed reinforcements to tell her about Maria. Bella quickly agreed to come over where as Rose was a little more hesitant. After telling her that it had to do with Maria she agreed, then added that she was only doing it for Jordan not me.
Twenty minutes later, not only had Bella and Rose shown up, but Edward and Emmett where with them. Great, 'The more the merrier'… Not.
Ed and Emmett took Emma and Jax into the living room for some play time while the girls and I went in Jordy's room.
I was scared shitless to tell her this but I knew I had too. I stood in the middle of the room looking at the four girls. Alice had Jordy on her lap sitting between Bella and Rose. Alice was whispering to Jordy making her laugh, while Bella looked confused and Rose glared.
Yeah, not intimidating at all.
Well now or never. I cleared my throat some getting their attention.
I pulled out the chair Jordy had at her desk and sat in front of her. She quirked her eyebrow up and tilted her head slightly, looking more like Alice then I'd ever seen. I took her hand in mine before talking.
"Jordan, there's something I need to tell you about your momma," I started. She yanked her hand back and glared at me.
Fucking hell Maria's back. I thought as I looked back at my daughter. Alice whispered something to her again making Jordan relax some.
"Princess, I don't know how to say this and I'm sorry, but you can't see your momma anymore."
She quickly looked at Alice. "Are you leaving?"
"No honey not me," she said. Alice gave me an apologetic look before saying, "The Wicked Witch."
Rose snorted then apologized while Bella bit back her laughter. Yeah sure lets all make fun of the dead chick, really classy ladies. I couldn't help but roll my eyes at them.
"Oh, well I don't care. I hope she dies." Jordy said looking back at me.
Well…
"Actually princess, that's something I need to talk to you about. Nana Mari called this morning." I watched as Jordan's eyes widened. "Baby girl your momma died last night." That's right, do it like a band-aid…
Jordan tilted her head slightly and narrowed her eyes as she seemed to think about something. I snuck a glance at the other girls, Rose didn't seem surprised whfere as Bella had her hand over her mouth. Jordy slipped out of Alice's lap and came over to me. She held my face in her hands and looked at me.
"Why are you sad?" she asked.
Because Maria caused us nothing but pain, I thought.
"It's called grieving princess, you get sad when someone dies," I tried to explain.
She shook her head at me then gave me a determined look. "Is there gonna be a parade for her?"
A parade? I looked up to see Alice mouth 'funeral' at me. Oh right the procession.
I nodded, "Yes baby girl."
"Are you going?" Jordan asked. I glanced back up at Alice who had her head on Rose's shoulder as she hugged her and Bella rubbed her back.
I looked back at my daughter. "Yes, I still have to get my flight and stuff ready but yes. I leave for the funeral soon."
Jordan sighed, looking behind her before looking back at me. "Are you gonna make me go?"
"No."
"I want to go."
"Jordan I don't think that's a good idea…" I started to protest but saw her purse her lips. I thought back to what Carmen said about me making decisions that affected her without talking or considering how she felt. I sighed, "Let me talk with mommy about it first okay?" She nodded letting go of me as she walked back to the girls.
"Jordy?" She turned to look at me. "Why do you want to go?" I was curious.
"I want to make sure she's really not gonna hurt me or mommy anymore." She said before going back to Alice.
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I really didn't know if Jordan's reaction to her mom's death was a good one or not. Hell she seemed okay as she played with her uncles and the babies but who am I to know if my own kid is okay.
I tried to talk to Alice several times, each time getting tossed out of my own room by either Bella or Rose. As much as I love those girls I was ready to kick them out. I needed to talk to my wife and they were preventing it.
Alice finally came out and I could tell she had been crying. She handed me some money and explained that she had ordered Chinese for everyone and would like me to pick it up. I agreed and decided to take Jax with me so Alice could spend time with her friends since they seemed to make her feel somewhat better then I was doing.
Rather than carrying the car seat into the restaurant, I took Jax out of it and carried him. There were plenty of woman commenting on how cute he was. Of course he seemed like quite the flirt, with his dimples showing as his pacifier hid his smiles from them. Taking Jackson with me was a good idea 'cause he kept me from going insane, especially on the ride home when he sang along to Johnny Cash, well babbled I guess.
When I pulled up I saw Ed standing outside. I thought maybe he was waiting for me but figured he was just getting some air.
He came out to the car and grabbed the bags of food for me.
"Thanks," I said as I got Jax's car seat out.
"No problem," he gave me a tight smile similar to the ones his sister was giving me.
"So, uh, did Alice tell you what's going on?" I asked as I locked the car up.
He shook his head. "No, Bella said there's something that you two need to talk about. " He shrugged before looking up at me. "Sorry about Maria man."
I shook my head, "No don't be. It was her lifestyle; that sh- stuff happens. I'm just disappointed."
Ed nodded as we waited for the elevator but I saw the confusion on his face. "Disappointed because?" he finally said as we stepped in.
I sighed as I set the car seat down. "Well, a part of me wanted her to get better. Like the trial and me moving on with Ali would be her wakeup call, showing her that she wasn't just destroying her life; but Jordan's as well ya know?" He nodded. "And because she's… she's Maria, that never happened and now the only memories Jordan's gonna have of her is this monster that hurt her." I shook my head. "I don't think that's very fair to Jordy."
He nodded. "Why did you let her talk to Jordan again?"
I felt my eyebrows jump at him. He knew more than he was letting on. He gave me a crooked smile. "Jordan talks to me too you know."
I nodded. "I figured it was easier to let her talk to Jordan then to have her trying to come find her," I shrugged.
"But you told Jordan she had to talk to her." He raised an eyebrow at me.
I sighed, "Yeah, I just thought it was what she'd want. I mean, I just suddenly take her out of her home, away from what she knows. It made sense at the time. I guess I let my past take over the present."
"How so?" he asked.
I looked over at him, "Bella."
He looked at me for a minute then the meaning dawned on him. "Renee," he said knowingly.
I nodded. Of the parents that up and left, Renee at least tried to contact Bella when we were kids, but Charlie, thinking it was better for Bella, refused to let Renee speak to her. Shortly after Charlie's funeral, Renee was able to contact Bella and even though Renee is not a part of Bella's life, she still wonders what would have happened if Charlie didn't keep Renee away. I didn't want that for Jordan. But instead I made shit worse.
Once we were in the condo, Ed took the food to Alice in the kitchen while I got Jax ready for dinner. Jordy being the over protective mother hen of a sister, saw that I took him out without a hat on and gave me a lecture on how he needs a hat in August to protect his head from the sun. I glared slightly at my sister as she giggled into her husband's chest. The things that woman is teaching Jordy…
After dinner and a movie the family went home. Bella had explained to me before the movie that they were asked by Jordy to stay. I didn't mind them there honestly; I just had a lot of shit to take care of.
After bath time and story reading Jordan and Jackson were finally sound asleep and I was tired as hell. I was changing into some lounge pants as Alice came out of the bathroom and made her way to the bed.
"While I was talking to the girls I got you and Jordy a flight to Texas. Bella got you guys a rental and Rose called Momma. She expects you two late tomorrow night," Alice informed me as she looked down at the comforter on her lap.
"So you're okay with Jordan going?" I chewed on my upper lip as she turned to glare at me slightly.
"No, but she wants to go. I'm not going to force her to stay," she sighed. "Just promise me you won't force her to go to the viewing or see her mother's body."
"I learned my lesson Ali."
She scoffed a little and shook her head. "Just be safe and pay attention to Jordy. She loves you Jazz, you've just hurt her with your actions."
"What about you?" I asked.
"I'll be fine with Jackson. Bella and Rose are a phone call away," she said softly as she turned her light off and lay down. "Jordan's bag is packed and in the foyer closet, next to yours. I didn't know if you wanted your suit or not so that's in the garment bag in there as well."
"Thank you Alice."
She nodded slightly and looked at me. "You need to sleep Jazz. You've got a long day ahead of you."
She wasn't kidding about having a long day. I neglected to ask her what time the flight was and judging from lack of sleep we both got; our fight was long from over. At seven the alarm went off and the day began.
Alice had made sure Jordan was completely ready by the time I got out of the shower. After dressing and joining them in the kitchen, Alice handed me pop tarts and my coffee. Jordy giggled and said that's what I get for sleeping in.
"Jasper you need to get going if you're gonna make your flight," Alice said after cleaning off Jax's high chair. I nodded and rinsed out my coffee mug before taking Alice in my arms. I felt her stiffen some but she relaxed and hugged me back.
"We'll be back before you know it," I promised her.
She and Jackson walked us down to the car where she gave Jordy a tight hug and peppered kisses on her face.
"I love you Jordan," she told her as Jordy giggled.
Jordan hugged her tighter. "I love you too Momma," she said before moving to kiss her little brother, and then she got in the car.
"Seat belt Jordan," I told her before she closed the door. I could see her roll her eyes at me but she did as she was told. "Be good for your Momma little man. You're the man of the house until I get back." I told Jax before giving him a kiss. He of course smacked me in the head with his toy and laughed.
I looked at my wife and smiled sadly. I didn't like leaving her knowing that there was something wrong between us. "I love you Alice," I said as I took her hand.
"I love you too Jazz," she said before standing on her toes to give me a kiss.
I wrapped my arm around her waist. "When I get back we're gonna celebrate our Anniversary," I smiled at her. "Does that sound good to you Mrs. Whitlock?" She smiled slightly and nodded before pulling herself away.
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When we got to the ranch it was just past midnight. I carefully carried Jordy into the house, noticing the way the living room was rearranged but decided to wait before saying anything to Momma about it. I put Jordy in her bed and silently thanked Alice for dressing her in sweat pants instead of jeans. When I came back down the stairs Momma had our bags inside already.
"I thought you were sleeping," I said as I went to hug her.
"Nah, I knew my babies were comin' home so I stayed up. I only wish Alice and Jackson could have come too."
I shook my head. "They'll come back next time. I promise."
She just looked at me and sighed. "Well even if Alice didn't want to go to the funeral-"
"Momma, don't please. Just drop it." I cut her off. She pursued her lips and nodded. "So you had a meeting today?"
She nodded, "Yeah, Mari stepped down as historian for the sisters." She turned to look at me. "Thank you for bringing Jordy. Mari wanted to see her one last time."
"Excuse me?"
"Mari's going back to Mexico after the services. Maria and Jordy were the only ones keeping her in Texas. Now that Maria's gone," she shrugged. "She doesn't want to impose on you or Alice."
I shook my head. "Jordy's her granddaughter, we'd still let her visit. Besides she'd see Jordy when she comes out to visit you."
Momma nodded, "I tried to talk to her Jazzy. She just wants to be away from it all. Maria, even though that was her flesh and blood, disgraced her. Go to bed Jazz. You have to see what Jordy wants to do because the viewing is tomorrow." She gave a kiss on the cheek. "And call that woman of yours; I'm sure she's worried if ya'll made it here or not."
I nodded. "Night Momma."
When I called Alice she didn't pick up her phone. I left a message telling her that we made it okay, that Jordy was sleeping and the plan was to talk with her about the viewing tomorrow. After telling Alice that I loved her and that I missed her I ended the call before I said something stupid.
The next morning, I woke up to Momma and Jordy talking. I hung back and listened figuring this was the only way to know how Jordy really felt.
"I don't know why daddy so sad about it."
"Because he loved your momma at one point Jordan Marie. I was the same way when papa Thomas died."
"But she can't hurt us anymore," Jordan whined. "And daddy's making it worse! He's making Alice sad and I don't like it."
"Jordan, I know you don't understand, but your momma and your daddy, they had a past together, one that created you. Don't you give me that look Jordan Marie. I will smack that attitude right off your face young lady." I heard Momma warn her but I knew she'd wouldn't.
"Sorry Nana."
"What happened between your momma and your daddy was not right, I'll give you that. But like I said, the past is affecting his future. And you're little attitude ain't helpin' him any."
"He started it."
I did? I wondered as I sat on the couch to hear them better.
"How so?" I heard Momma ask my question for me.
"Before I started talkin' to her, he'd get angry and take it out on me. He was always mad at me, but was fine with Jax. It's not fair! I didn't do anything! Alice never takes stuff out on me when her and daddy are fightin', but not daddy. And then he made me talk to her Nana. I hate her!" I could hear the tears in my daughter's voice. "It's not fair that daddy loves Jax and not me. If she never would have had me he'd be happier now."
I put my head in my hands. Jesus this was worse than I thought.
"Jordan, your daddy loves you, don't you ever doubt that. He spent five years kickin' his own butt tryin' to get to you. Alice helped him see that he could do it. Don't ever wish you weren't born, you hear me. I know you're jealous over his feelings for Jackson but that don't mean he loves you any less then he did the day you were born. You're his princess, Jackson is his prince. You gotta give your daddy some credit Jordan. Before Alice he went from not knowing if you were okay, to being able to have you with him. That's a big adjustment on both of you. You ain't used to livin' with him and he ain't used to being a daddy."
Jordan said something that I couldn't hear but judging from Momma's reaction it wasn't pretty.
"Jordan Marie, you will not use that language you hear me. I'll make you pick a switch if I hear that out of your mouth again." She scolded harshly that made me flinch. "Every time you act out like that, you look like a mini version of your momma. I suggest you stop acting like a spoiled brat."
"Yes ma'am."
"Jasper Thomas you get your hide in this kitchen right now!" I heard Momma holler at me.
Busted, I thought as I stood up to join them. I entered the kitchen where Jordy was sitting on the counter and Momma had her arms folded over her chest, glaring at me.
"I'm assumin' you heard our conversation?"
"Yes ma'am," I nodded.
"Then you need to fix your family Jasper Thomas. I will be damned if I let Maria hurt either of you," she gave each of us a pointed look, "from the grave."
"Yes ma'am."
"Jordan knows what to expect from the viewing this evening. I explained it to her over breakfast. I was asked to make sure you listen to your daughter. So talk and listen Jasper. Really listen to what she is telling you. I know you are better than how you've been actin'. You may have his name and be his son but you are not him. Charlie and I raised you to be a better man than this." She hissed at me. I looked over to see Jordy giving us a confused look.
"Who Nana?" She asked.
"His father," Momma said while pointedly glaring at me.
I sighed and moved to stand next to Jordy. "I don't love Jackson more baby girl." I said softly. She turned to look at me as fresh tears filled her eyes. "It's like Nana said, you're my princess. I couldn't love anyone more then I love you."
"Even momma?"
"Nope, I love you more than Alice."
"Even her?" she asked looking down.
I sighed. "Jordan look at me." She turned her head to look up at me again. "I loved Maria for one reason only; because she gave me you. As much pain as she brought into my life, I wouldn't change it because I'm glad you're a result of it."
"Then why are you so mean to me?"
"I'm gonna be honest with you okay?"
She nodded, "Please."
"When you get angry at me, or cop an attitude you look so much like her that honestly, I forget that I'm talking to my baby girl. I'm a bad person for treating you like that and you have no idea how sorry I am for it." I wiped the tears of her face with my thumb. "I love you Jordan. You are always a part of my heart, along with Alice and Jackson. Don't ever think I love you less than them 'cause it just ain't possible."
She nodded and chewed her cheek some as she thought about something, then smiled at me. "What if you have another baby and it's a girl, would she be your princess too?"
I smiled some and nodded. "But you'd be the first princess so you can show her the ropes."
Jordy smiled wider. "I want a sister now."
Whoa.
"Uh, we'll have to talk to momma about that first."
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When we got to the viewing, I recognized a few people and sat by Mari. Jordan clung to me as several of Maria's friends came to give their condolences. I asked her several times if she wanted to leave and she said no.
Looking at Mari now that we were here, she actually looked younger then I remembered, like a weight had been lifted off her shoulders. That was until it came time to speak about Maria.
"Will you say something?" She asked softly from besides me.
My jaw tightened as Jordy hugged my neck harder. "I can't Mari, I can't disrespect the dead." I said through clenched teeth.
She merely nodded and moved to talk Marcus. I wanted to scoff every time someone spoke of how she was a loving mother and person. Even Jordy snorted at the loving mother comments. I just kissed her forehead to hide my smile at her reaction.
One thing I did appreciate was Marcus' honesty about Maria. While he didn't flat out call the other's liars or trash talk her. He didn't paint a rainbow about her. When he said that she was now at peace for what she had done his eyes locked onto mine.
"And with her peace, I pray it brings the ones in her lives the peace they deserve as well." He said as his closing line, looking directly at me and Jordy. I gave him a slight nod in thanks.
Momma, Jordy and I went to Mari's for dinner. It was quiet but it seemed to help both Jordy and Mari. Again I made sure it was what Jordy wanted and she told me yes. When Jordy started getting sleepy and asking for Alice, I announced it was time to go back to the house.
I tried to call Alice again and got the voice mail. Momma gave it a shot, calling on the house phone and promptly gave the phone to Jordy who took it in her room.
"She'sf mad at me Momma," I told her sadly.
"She thinks she's lost you Jasper. I would too if I heard you say you were sorry Maria was dead. Good night baby boy." She said closing the bedroom door behind her.
The next morning was the burial. Jordy wanted me to hold her again, getting me out of being a pallbearer. As the priest said his prayer and the dirt was placed Jordy started shaking.
"Baby what's wrong?" I asked quietly, stepping away from the crowd.
She tightened her grip on my neck and buried her face in my neck. I could feel warm tears against my skin.
"Jordan sweetie, talk to me."
"I'm sorry daddy, I didn't mean it. Please don't die."
I hugged her tighter. "I know baby… I'm not going anywhere." I said trying to calm her down.
After the service I was making sure everything was packed. We had a flight out the next evening that would get us home early the following morning and as much as I loved being back in Texas, I just wanted to get home to my wife and son.
"Anxious?" I heard Momma ask from the door way. I stopped pacing to look up at her. The amusement in her eyes told me she knew something.
"Yeah, I'm a little upset that I'm getting back the day after our anniversary but," I shrugged. "Alice got the flight for us."
"Speaking of my daughter, has she been acting different? I don't know like… eating apples?" She said with a raised eyebrow.
"Momma she always ate apples. It was the apple pies that made it obvious that she was pregnant."
Momma laughed, "True. Have you had unprotected sex with her?"
I rolled my eyes. "Momma! She's my wife, I'm not going into this with you," I said shaking my head at her as I grabbed my toiletry bag from the bathroom.
"Well, surely the doctor told ya'll that you need to use a condom the first six months after the go ahead. Cause Alice is gonna be a fertile Myrtle for that time…"
Wait, why is she having this conversation?
"The eggs taste funny…" I could hear Alice saying again.
"The eggs," I dropped the bag in my hands and looked at Momma. "What do you know?"
She smirked at me. "That you have exactly," she looked at her watch, 'three hours and twenty minutes to catch the red eye back to Seattle so you can spend your anniversary with your pregnant wife."
Pregnant?
Again?
Oh shit!
"Jordan!" I said slapping my palm to my forehead.
Momma laughed, "She's gonna stay here a few weeks and I'll fly back with her. I have yet to see my grandson after all."
I picked up my bag and threw it in my luggage before running to Momma and hugging her tight. "I love you Momma." I said giving her a big kiss on the cheek. She laughed and smacked my arm.
"Go say goodbye to Jordy and call me when you land." She said before leaving the room.
As soon at the Jet hit the tarmac at SeaTac I was ready to jump out and get the hell back home. I sent a text to Momma and Bella letting them both know I landed, and thanking them again for not only getting me the hell out of Texas as soon as possible, but for making it a direct flight.
Two things I learned about driving home on the streets of Seattle at four in the morning; A- no traffic, B- Nowhere to stop and get Alice's favorite Blue Roses. Damn it all to hell.
When I got to the condo I could hear the TV on softly in the living room, which meant Alice was either awake or had fallen asleep watching it. I slipped out of my boots and left them by the door with my luggage and made my way to her.
She was curled up under a blanket, hugging her knees to her as her head rested on them. As the light from the TV flickered across her face could see her eyes were swollen from crying. I glanced at the TV to see she was watching The Notebook. I almost laughed at the irony.
I slowly walked over to the couch and sat down next to her. She didn't move or acknowledge my presence.
"Happy Anniversary Ali."
She jumped a little at the sound of my voice. I didn't think I was gonna scare her. "Uh hey," she said sounding slightly disoriented.
"Sorry," I apologized for frightening her.
She smiled a little. "It's okay."
"I missed you..."
"I missed you too." She said softly still staring at the screen.
"Jordy's gonna be home in a few weeks. She's gonna spend some time with Momma," I informed her before chewing on my lip.
"Was she okay with that?"
I nodded and realized she wasn't looking at me. "Yeah, she told me to stop being mean to you."
She hugged her legs tighter. "She's a sweetie."
"Ali, I'm sorry. I know I've been a dick and the last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt you."
She finally turned her head to look at me, resting her cheek on her knees. "I don't know what you really want from me anymore Jazz," she said softly.
"How do you mean?" I asked, confusion coloring my tone.
"At least when she was alive I could compete..." she sighed and shook her head, "Never-mind."
"Compete? Alice you had nothing to compete against, you still don't."
"You still love her Jazz," she said as she looked away. I could hear her voice cracking as she talked. "And I don't want to be second best... I thought maybe after Jax, maybe it'd be different but you're still on hung up on her."
"What? Why do you think that?"
"Because, you always let her influence your decisions on things, you're always so angry at her, and then... what you said on the phone just confirmed it and Jasper, I can't compete with a ghost."
Oh fuck all the signs were there. The way she looked at me when I got off the phone. The way she acted the next morning, like she didn't believe me. The apologetic look when she told Jordan we were talking about Maria. Momma's words before she went to bed. It all made sense now. She and Jordy both thought I loved her more.
I have to fix this.
"Jesus, no Ali, it's not like that." I said a bit frantically. "I'm sorry she's dead 'cause now the only memory Jordy is gonna have of her is the monster she was. A part of me hoped that she would move on and grow up, try to be better for Jordy," I shook my head, "that's all. If I didn't have to get Jordy out of there today I would have danced on her grave Alice." I confessed. "I don't want her. I want you. I want us. I want what you and I have and what we've built. I love you Alice, only you."
Please believe me, I begged with my eyes. She hid her face with her arms as she started crying. I reached over, pulling her to me, relieved that she didn't pull away.
"Oh Ali, please don't cry baby."
I felt her grab my shirt as she buried her face into my chest. "I'm pregnant Jazz."
I laughed a little, then wanted to smack myself for the worst timing ever. "So I hear," I told her. I could hear the happiness in my voice and again felt like a dick for bad timing.
"I don't even know what to tell people...only momma knows."
"That your husband is a horny little bastard who forgot the condom?" I offered while shrugging. It was true, I was fucking horny that night and well, damn have you seen my wife?
She chuckled a little and hiccupped. "Yeah, I think they'll figure that out."
I kissed the top of her head and held her closer to me. This was the most I've held her in over three days. Too damn long.
"I'm sorry I let her poison our family."
I felt her wrap her arms around me as she pulled herself closer. "She's dead now, so hopefully she can just..." she trailed off.
"Rot in hell?" I offered.
Alice laughed and smacked my chest playfully. "That's so mean," she tried to sound like she was being serious but her laugh wasn't helping her.
'Cause she agrees with me.
"Oh by the way Jordan wants a sister," I told her raising an eyebrow. Now that I think about it, Jordy has impeccable timing when requesting a sibling. Freaky future telling shit, if you ask me.
"Ah... I'll see what we can come up with."
"And we talked out some things." I told her with a little shrug. "Hopefully things will start getting better between her and me."
"I hope so too baby."
I rubbed Alice's back as we sat there with the glow of the TV lighting the room. "Can you believe we made it a year? Momma was sure you would've killed me by now." I teased then snorted a laugh after I thought it through. I'm surprised she hadn't with the way I'd been acting.
She rubbed her face into my chest as she brought her leg into my lap, clearly getting comfortable. "Yeah well, I dunno what I would do then because I can't sleep without you."
That makes two of us.
I laughed a little as I placed one foot on the coffee table and slouched down on the couch. Alice's head was now on my shoulder, one arm curled under her as the other one was tossed up over my right shoulder. "Yes, well it's good to know I'm good for something." I teased as I rested my head onto the back of the couch.
"Did you have trouble sleeping too?"
"Yeah, it's not same without you in my arms." I've been spoiled having her in my arms, her cold feet trying to find a comfortable spot around my legs, the smell of her hair, the sound of her breathing and hums as she falls asleep. Best security blanket ever.
"Jax missed you too... he let me know it every few hours."
"I'm sorry baby. I promise I ain't going anywhere anymore," I promised kissing her forehead. "Oh before I forget, Bella agreed to take Jax later tonight, so you and I can have a child free anniversary."
She snuggled closer, now practically in my lap. "That sounds nice."
I hummed contentedly. "Yes, but you know what sounds better right now?" She moved her head to look at me, her eyes heavy with sleep as she hummed in response. "You and I cuddled in our big comfy bed right about now."
"I dunno if I can walk Jazz," she said wiggling some. "I am so comfy."
I reached for the remote that was on the arm of the couch and clicking the TV off before positioning her so I could easily pick her up."That's what I'm here for remember?" I teased as I stood up and started to carry her to the room.
"I love you Jazz," she mumbled before she fell asleep in my arms.
"I love you too Alice."
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I was awoken by feather light touches along my chest. I raised an eyebrow and smirked in Alice's direction.
"What are you doin' darlin'?" I drawled out.
"Touching you," she said with what sounded like a smirk.
I opened one eye and my suspicions were confirmed. Alice was in fact smirking at me. "You know what that does to me Ali..." I warned her.
She moved to straddle my waist and began kissing up my chest. "What does it do to you?" she asked with an innocent smile, before returning to her kisses.
I moaned a little at her touch. "Alice..." I tried to warn her that she was walking a fine line. She responded by nipping at my chest.
Alright if that's how she wants it, I though before rolling us so she was under me as I kissed at her exposed collarbone.
When did she get naked? Fuck who cares.
I felt her push my boxers down as I bit at the top of her tit, not hard, just enough to make her feel it.
"Cheater!" Alice squealed as she grabbed my hair pulled me towards her.
"Mmm... baby you know I like it rough," I teased before sucking her bottom lip into my mouth. She moaned a little and rolled her hips to meet mine.
Can I just say I love make-up sex? Cause I do.
I broke from her mouth trailing kisses to her ear. "I want you so bad Ali," I whispered to her. I felt her hand take my shaft guiding it to where she wanted me.
Just when I thought we would ffuck like bunnies, Jackson started crying. I dropped my forehead to her shoulder and groaned and she fucking giggled at me. I rolled over and watched her grab her night shirt.
"Later?" I asked.
"Definitely," she called out over her shoulder as she headed out to check on our son.
I so need a cold shower.
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Alice and I spent the day with Jax in between calls from families and friends wishing us a happy anniversary and various deliverers of flowers. I was happy when Momma and Jordan called. Jordan sounded happy to be back in Texas and excited as always to be going for a ride on Twilight.
At around five in the evening Alice started getting Jackson's things ready to take to Ed and Bella's while I called up Sue's. I thought it would be fun for us to spend our anniversary there and pretend we didn't have responsibilities just for one night. Alice just laughed and said I was using it as an excuse to have kinky sex.
When I called Sue's to let them know we were coming out but didn't want a big deal made, Jake gave me shit saying that as the proud son-in-law of the bar, he has every right to brag that he helped Eclipse get their start. I told him if he does, I'd tell Leah that he still pictures Bella naked.
That shut him up.
I also asked him to make sure that even though I order a certain drink for Alice not to let her drink it. He laughed when I told him what drink.
"Man, she didn't like it last time, why would you try again?"
"Nostalgia Jake," I said.
"Nostalgia? So what, you're gonna spill your whiskey and coke on her again? Shit you want Nostalgia? You should have brought her back for her twenty second birthday." He teased.
"Oh yes cause nothing says 'Happy Birthday, I love you' more than taking your pregnant wife to a bar." I stopped laughing when I realized that I was in fact about to do that.
"Yeah, but for you two, said bar has history." Jake retorted. "Anyway, I'll let the guys know you're coming. I'll make sure Mrs. Whitlock doesn't drink the vodka," he snorted. "Or the whiskey and tequila for that matter. Do you want me to have Leah line you guys up?"
"No, just a dark corner would be nice."
"You got it. Oh, and tell Em he owes me some over time. See you later bloodsucker."
"Later mongrel," I said before hanging up.
At seven, I helped Alice out to the car. She had opted to take Jax over to her brother's and get ready there. She gave me a lingering and teasing kiss before getting in her car.
"So you remember who your wife is." She smirked at my dumbfounded expression.
Like I could forget.
At eight I got in the shower and started getting ready for the evening. I hadn't even noticed that Alice had set out an outfit for me before she left until I walked out of the bathroom. There, lying on the bed was a pair of dark wash jeans, my 'Green Apple Reborn' shirt, my black and grey striped short sleeved button down and my grey and black fedora.
I snorted when I saw that she even went as far as picking my boxers for me. But it wasn't the clothes that caught my attention, it was the black box placed on top of it.
When did Alice have time to go shopping?
I slipped my boxers on and sat on the bed next to the clothes. I picked the box up and inspected it. It was bigger than the box that I have to give to her later, and it was leather rather than velvet.
Just as I decided to open it my cell went off with a new text message.
Did you open it? –A
I laughed, and texted her back telling her no. Again as I got ready to open it the phone went off again.
Open it silly! –A
I put the phone down and opened it to see a very cool looking watch staring back at me. Its band was more like a black leather wrist cuff with another thin band of leather over it that held the watch face on it.
In side with the watch was a small folded piece of paper. I pulled it out and opened it to see Alice's neat hand writing staring back at me.
"So you never lose track of time. Very rock star no? I love you!"
Yes, very rock star indeed.
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This place had definitely changed over the past year. It was only nine at it was almost packed. Probably didn't hurt that people were trying to get their big break here, now that they know one half of Eclipse started off on that very stage.
Or it could be the fact that Sue was a proud mom and has a shrine to us in here. Eh, either way it was weird to see this many people here.
Jake had done as I requested, had a back booth opened and waiting for when I got there. It was in a far corner and in the shadows so we didn't have to worry too much about crazed fans. He even went as far as getting Paul, Embry and Quil to work extra security.
Must be nice to be the Alpha.
Leah had just announced the next performer as the birthday girl today. I turned to look at the scared girl as she stood behind the mike and looked at the screen.
Yeah that was another difference with this place, they did karaoke now too.
I heard the familiar cords of the No Doubt song and nearly choked on my drink. Of course my brilliant wife chose now to enter the bar.
I swear every male head in the house turned to look at her as she glided over to the bar. I watched as Jake jumped over the bar and hugged her tight, spinning her around as she laughed happily. When he set her back down, he hopped back over the bar and started making her drink.
Alice was breathtaking in her form fitting dress that looked as if it belonged to Aphrodite herself. The black toga style dress was offset by the bright pink heels and clutch she had. Leave it to my Ali to bring a little flair while making it sexy as fuck.
Jake had pushed a drink in front of her and said something causing her to shake her head and look back at me. I smirked even though I knew she couldn't see me this far into the darkness. She laughed as she looked back at Jake, taking the second drink that he offered her.
She started moving towards me, a few men stopping to talk to her. It was interesting to see her interacting with the males that wanted her attention. She would smile at them and subtly flash her wedding ring at them with a brush of her hair or even offering her hand in greeting.
Yep, she's married and she's mine, I thought smugly.
I took a drink of my cola as she made her way to the table.
"All alone handsome?" She asked.
"Just waiting for Mrs. Right," I drawled.
She smirked at me. "And she hasn't shown yet?"
"Never said that," I moved over in the booth to give her some room to sit.
She slid into it with ease and looked up at me through her lashes, "Mind if I keep you company?"
"Of course, I've always got time for a beautiful woman."
She pursed her lips for a moment. "Ladies man?"
"One woman man ma'am," I winked at her making her giggle a bit.
"And who is this lucky woman you speak of?" She asked leaning closer.
I licked my bottom lip as my eyes wandered along her form. Damn my wife's a MILF.
"Well she's the mother of my children, my best friend and the best lover ever."
"Well I bet you're a stud yourself there cowboy."
I nodded and tipped my hat some. "So I hear." She smiled at me and shook her head. I was about to ask her something but was cut off by a very familiar melody.
"Oh shit, we're a karaoke band now?" I snorted as the next person on stage was giving her hand at singing Spin.
Alice laughed, "That's when you know we've made it big Jazz."
I laughed with her. "What in the world are you drinking?" I asked her looking at the pink concoction in her drink.
"Aww, you're not gonna play anymore?" she teased.
I shook my head and kissed her. "No hearing that song ruined it."
"I don't know... she's not doing so bad." She shrugged.
"You sing it better."
"You're biased. And seriously baby, The Peter Vankmen? I wouldn't drink that in the past why would I now?" She asked quirking an eyebrow at me.
I shrugged. "I thought it'd be funny."
"Wasn't funny the first time," she tried to sound serious but I could see the smile playing at her lips.
I leaned closer to her, pushing her hair off her shoulder. "You loved it." I whispered before kissing the soft skin just below her ear.
She hummed in response and moved her head to face me. "No, I love you, even if you are a spaz."
I shrugged. "Spaz, Jazz, they rhyme." She snorted and shook her head at me. "Let's blow this joint."
"Anxious?"
I nodded. "Yes, I want to fuck my wife until the sun comes up." I told her plainly as I waggled my eyebrows at her.
"Who says I want to fuck?" She challenged.
"Trust me. I know you well my love." She just rolled her eyes and set her drink on the table. That reminded me. "What is this?" I asked as I picked the drink up.
"A Shirley Temple," she giggled as she stood up.
"Ain't it supposed to have cherries in it?"
She laughed as shook her head. "It did."
"Who took your cherry?"
She shook her head and took my hand leading me out of the bar. "If you're that upset over a cherry, there's some at home. I make those for Jordan all the time."
Yeah, I liked the possibilities of the cherries at home. Fun things to do…
"Shit, how'd you get here?" I asked realizing that we'd probably have to take separate cars.
"Bella dropped me off. When we get Jax tomorrow I can pick up the car."
When we got to the car and I pushed her up against it causing her to squeak. "I want a real kiss," I told her. She smiled and took my fedora off.
"Come and get it cowboy," she smirked. I leaned closer, brushing my lips to hers. She wrapped her arms around my shoulder and nipped at my mouth. I chuckled against her lips before moving my kisses down her jaw to her neck.
Alice tensed up and felt her hand grab my arm. "Jasper," she whispered.
I looked up at her. "Huh?"
"Papz," she whispered.
Fuck forgot about them. I pushed away from her, giving her a sheepish grin. "Sorry, I kinda forgot about them." I explained as I held her door open for her.
She slid in to her seat and I started to my side.
"Hey Jasper what's the occasion buddy?" I heard one of the vultures ask. Normally I ignored them but I felt like playing.
"Check your older issues. I'll give you a hint, one year ago today in Vegas." I told them as I got in.
Alice raised an eyebrow at me. "What? I asked. She just shook her head as a small smile played at her lips.
I think they either got my hint or they just didn't care because before I knew it, it was just me and Alice on the road. I reached over and placed my hand on her thigh as she hummed along to the song. I started massaging it, smiling inwardly when she moaned softly.
"Alice, pull your dress up to your hips." It wasn't a frequest and judging by her giggle, she knew I wasn't asking. She lifted her hips to pull the dress out for under then lifting it to her hips. I moved my hand up higher and smirked when she scooted down some, before she turned a little and spread her legs wider.
I bit my lip as I slipped my hand fdown the front her panties and smirked. She was wet.
"Someone's excited," I said, my voice noticeably huskier. I teased her entrance with my middle finger as she made mewling sounds. "Do you want me to fuck you Alice?" I asked as I slowly started to thrust my finger into her. She rocked her hips into my hand, moaning softly.
"You're such a bad girl Ali," I told her as pressed the heel of my hand against her, rocking it to stimulate her clit, "letting me finger you like this while I drive." I could see her bite on her lip as I started to pump a little faster.
"More," she moaned out slightly, my dick straining against my jeans. I slid another finger into her.
"You want it harder baby, like I do with my cock?" I look over at her to see her nodding as she bit her lip again. I had to force myself to look back at the road 'cause the sight of her breasts heaving with her breaths was driving me crazy. "I can't hear you Ali," I warned removing my fingers.
She whined at the loss. "Yes," she breathed then moaned as I pumped into her harder and faster. I could hear her breathing come in pants, but that wasn't good enough. She was holding back.
"I want to hear you come undone at my touch Ali," I demanded as my thumb teased her clit. She finally moaned out louder. I felt her hand on mine as she pushed my hand harder into her. "Fuck," I muttered pulling off onto a dirt road and put the car in park.
After setting the emergency brake, I quickly undid my safety belt and crawled over the center counsel to her. I captured her lips with mine as I twisted my finger and fucked her faster. She moaned into my kiss, her hand making quick work of my jeans, as she took my cock in her hand, stroking me just as fast as I was pumping into her.
She bit into my lip as I curled my finger up towards her navel, hitting her sweet spot. It was my turn to moan. She knew I liked biting.
I felt her let go of me and push me back into my seat. I gave her a confused look. "I wanna fuck." She said plainly and I removed my hand from her panties. She pulled them off and I tugged my jeans down slightly to make her more comfortable for the ride.
She crawled onto my lap, straddling me as she got my dick into position. With agonizing slowness, she slid down my shaft, sheathing me inside of her. I moaned and let my head fall back against the head rest smiling at her slightly as she began to roll her hips into mine.
"You are so fucking hot," I said before she shut me up with a kiss. She fisted her hands into my hair tugging it which each roll of her hips. I squeezed and kneaded her ass, holding her down as I pounded into her. We didn't care that we were fucking in the car, it was just us giving into what we craved. Each other.
"Talk to me Jazz," she panted as her muscles got tighter around my cock.
"I am gonna fuck you so good when we get home Ali."
She moaned as I thrust harder into her. "Yeah," she panted.
"I'm gonna make you scream," I told her nipping at her collarbone. "I'm gonna make you cum, and when you think I'm done I'm gonna make you cum again."
She moaned again moving even faster as I reached between us, taking her clit and pinching it slightly.
She cursed loudly and slumped against me as her orgasm hit her hard, mine following right behind her. We stayed like for a few moments, her hands gripping my hair tightly and I'm sure my hand left imprints on her ass from how tight I was holding it.
When our breathing returned to normal, she gave me a kiss and I felt her lips curve into a smile.
"What?" I asked.
"If that's what I get for anniversaries, I can't wait to see how you celebrate our tenth."
I cupped her face in my hand and smiled at her. "We'll just have to wait and see Mrs. Whitlock," I whispered before giving her one of our sweetest kisses ever shared, while secretly plotting how to top this next year.
Alice: Robs went for a drink
Jay: Yeah I think K is trying to kill herself with Marlboros and and whiskey
Alice: But they have us why are they depressed?
Jay: They're hormonal?
Alice: Not everything can be blamed on PMS Jay
Jay: *scoffs* Or headaches Alice
Alice: *rolls eyes* Alright readers, K and Robs might be gone but you know what to do
Jay: Suck my cock
*Sounds of K cracking up in the background*
Alice: Hit the review button... You're dumb Jay.
Jay: Yeah but you love me Mar *cheeky grin*
Alice: *pats his arm* Keep telling yourself that. *gets up and leaves*
Jay: *eyebrow and follow*
