Disclaimer: Don't own Twilight, wish I did though, the sex scenes wouldn't have been cut out and they'd all be gay :D
Jake's POV
I like to think there comes a time in every man's life that he should give himself a nice kick in the ass. Well I deserved one right now that could rival a horse, and I'm not even technically a man! I'm still a damn teenager.
I am so fucking stupid.
I can't believe I attacked my pack brother.
Then again, he was a total prick, and no one, I mean no one, insults Seth with me around. Maybe I should go to anger management, but does it matter when really only one thing pisses me off?
Bah, waste of time.
Right now though, I was standing in front of the Clearwater's home, pacing back and forth in their lawn like an idiot, not wanting to go in, but wanting to at the same time.
I needed to make sure Seth didn't hate me.
I'd got us both in enough trouble. He didn't even do anything too! Damn that principal, Seth was only trying to help.
Either way, my boyfriend is on a two day suspension and I'm on the verge of expulsion. I guess previous marks against my permanent record doesn't help me here.
Oh and dad wants to murder me. I suppose phasing and running off when he told me I was grounded for like… ever, doesn't help much either.
I didn't care though, maybe dad will understand when I explain it all to him. Today wasn't the right time to tell him I've fallen in love with a boy. He'll understand, and if he doesn't then, well, that's his problem.
I shrugged the fight off as a werewolf thing, something about not being able to control myself, and he was just happy that I didn't phase. I think the grounding won't stay in effect for very long. He feels sorry for me anyway, I mean, being a damn werewolf is tough, and he knows that. Well he doesn't know it but he assumes it. He's damn right too.
But anyway, still, what the hell do I do? What if Seth doesn't even want to see me right now? What if he's so angry that he wants to break up?!
What if he's scared of me?…
I was planning on telling him that I'm a werewolf but maybe that should wait a little while now.
"Goddammit!" I half-scream in frustration, running my hands through my hair.
"Jacob… is that you out there?" I look up, startled, and see Sue Clearwater standing on the porch. She must have seen me through the window. "Come in sweetie, why don't you have a shirt on? Come here right now before you catch a cold."
Oh yeah, I forgot when I phased I only brought pants. Shit I'm lucky I even brought them.
"Jake, its freezing out here, what's wrong with you?" she asked, giving me a weird look as if I were insane.
I shrugged, thanking her for inviting me in, and telling her it 'wasn't that cold'. What a lame excuse.
"Well your father is on the phone, he called asking where you were, why did you run off Jake?" She questioned in her mother hen voice.
"I uhm, I needed to see Seth." I stated in a low tone, "Is he here?"
"Yes dear, he's in his room. I'll go tell your father you are alright." she informed me, "Oh and Jake…"
I began to walk towards Seth's room, thinking I had avoided the whole confrontation about the fight I'm sure she heard of and the awkwardness of this morning.
"Yes?" I ask, wincing as if she was about to strike me down.
"Leave the door open." She says simply and walks back into the kitchen to resume the phone call.
I chuckle and walk off in awe by how much she has changed since this morning. She must have taken some Midol or something, cause she was totally ragging earlier. Figured she'd hate me for getting Seth in trouble too, but she only smiled and acted like nothing has changed.
Wow, maybe things are looking up.
I hear Sue's loud voice through the thin walls, insisting that I stay for dinner to my dad who is probably yelling and saying I'm grounded and I need to come home.
"I'll drive him home personally after dinner." I here Sue say loudly but nicely, "Now… I need to talk to you about something." and her voice grows quieter. Wow, didn't know she could do that.
She was probably going to talk about me and Seth, but hell better her tell dad than me. Maybe she can make it sound better, she seemed okay with me just then anyway.
"Knock knock." I say, opening Seth's slightly ajar door more and peering in.
"Jake?" I hear a sleepy voice ask, and Seth rolls over in his bed and turns on his bedside lamp.
"Yea, its me." I say in a whisper, walking into the room, leaving the door halfway open.
"What are you doing here?" he asks and my heart falters. I knew he wouldn't want to see me.
"I can uh, I can leave if you want…" I stop in the middle of the room, and hang my head low. "I know you probably hate me now…" I confessed in a low tone.
"Jake, no, what?" he asks, and I can hear the confusion in his voice.
His bed creeks, and he rushes at me, throwing his arms around my body and hugging me close. "I could never hate you, why would you think that?"
It took me a second to recover. I was braced for the worst yet the worst didn't happen. I couldn't believe he was so accepting and so nice about all this. But did I really expect him to hate me? This is Seth after all, he loves me, and I love him, and he's the most wonderful person I've ever met.
I felt ashamed for even considering that he'd hate me.
"Jake, Jake baby…" he reaches up and cups my face in his hands, kissing me on the cheek.
Has he gotten taller? He used to have to stand up on his tip toes to reach my chin. Now he could kiss my cheek? What the hell, its only been a couple weeks. Talk about a growth spurt.
Look who it is talking though, I grew a foot a night it seemed.
"Look at me, look at me Jake." he tells me, and I find myself not having to bend down as much when I locked eyes with those innocent milk chocolate orbs. "I could never, and will never hate you."
He tells me with such sincerity and love that I find myself ready to cry.
"Seth…" I reach up and place my hands over his, bringing them down from my face, and holding his hands in between us. "Thank you." I say, and the tears begin to fall.
I hardly ever cry. Not since mom died, I had thought I'd cried all my tears for her. But Seth, he brings about a new type of crying for me. It tends to come when I'm most happy, when I'm around him, that's when I feel like bursting with joy, and the waterworks begin.
"Baby… come here." He leads me to the bed, and we both sit down. He leans against the wall his bed rests against and he pulls me into him. I rest my head on his chest and he wraps his arms around me, humming and kissing the top of my hair as I silently cry.
"I thought for sure you'd hate me, after today. I thought maybe you'd even be afraid of me…" I admit, and wipe my eyes, my tears already receding.
"Babe, I told you, I could never hate you or be afraid of you. Plus you wouldn't harm a fly."
I turn back and look at him in awe. "Did you not see me beat the shit out of Quil?!"
"Yea, well, er…" He bit his lip, "Quil's not a fly." He chuckled and I couldn't help but laugh also.
That was so like Seth, making me laugh when I didn't think I could.
"You're crazy." I laugh, rubbing his arms around me.
"Crazy for you." He kisses the top of my head. "You shouldn't have done that to Quil though…"
"I know, and if you are mad that I lost control and that I got you in tr--" he silenced me with a kiss, and pulled back, looking at me with a smile on his face.
"I appreciated it though…" He said quietly. "I didn't want to come out because of people like him, but with you, it's easy to…well… to be out."
"Really?" I asked, nuzzling my nose into his neck.
"Yea, but, in the future, don't try to murder someone." He chuckled again, and I loved to hear him laugh. "Your big enough that just a threat will work." He smiled, rubbing my biceps and smiling slyly.
"You like those?" I ask with the same mischievous smirk. I flex for him and he gasps.
"Oh so strong," he turns to look at me, and our smiles inch closer into a light, slow kiss.
"Jake, why is it that your not wearing a shirt anyway?" He asks, and I forgot I wasn't even wearing one. Dammit, what do I say?
"And your so warm, yet its so cold in here, and outside."
Damn his observations. Well it doesn't take a genius to notice all this stuff though.
"I'm always warm…. High body temp?" Well that was the truth, just couldn't say how high.
"I just hope your not sick again." he says, running his hands over my chest.
"I'm fine, don't worry babe." I assure him, and go in for another kiss.
The next moment we heard a shattering sound in the kitchen, and Sue Clearwater scream. Me and Seth looked at each other in worry for a moment before clambering off the bed in a hurry. We met Leah stumbling out of her own room as we entered the hall to the kitchen.
Sue was standing by the sink, apparently she was washing some dishes and dropped a few plates.
"Mom, what's wrong?" Leah asked in a hoarse voice.
"…."
She turned around with the phone in her hand, staring at us with shocked, teary eyes.
"Mom… you okay?" Seth asked, and he stepped forward a little, avoiding the broken glass.
"I just got a call… you…your father's been in an accident."
She was on the verge of tears, looking completely lost.
"What?!? Is he okay… is dad okay?" Leah asked in panic.
Sue dropped to the floor then and brought her hands to her face and began to weep uncontrollably.
Seth and Leah rushed to her side while I stood at the kitchen door, not knowing what to do exactly.
"He's…he's…" Sue tried but broke out in loud sobs once more, not being able to finish.
My heart broke then, knowing that Harry had died. I wanted to hold Seth, console him like he did me when my mother died. But now wasn't the time…
To Be Continued……….
A/N: lol I didn't know how to end this chapter exactly. I planned to have more but I've been in a bad mood here lately and haven't had the will to write, so I decided to post this quickly. I hope you guys enjoyed, please review and let me know what you think. Next chapter should have the Cullens, they were going to be in this chapter but since I cut it short they were omitted. I still have to think up where I want this to go, like I said I lost my plot outline and forgot wtf is going on haha so alas here I am winging it. I'll try to do better. Thanks :D
Oh and to address an anonymous review. I know that Jake's friends are rather OOC but it can't be helped, I forgot a lot about their true character created by Stephanie so I just made it up how I wanted them to act. So if it seems unlikely how they act, then there's your reason. Also, I know that it probably didn't look like a car accident with Harry drained of blood, but then again in New Moon did it really look like a animal attack if the victims were drained of blood? Regardless, that's how I planned it out to happen, and I didn't want it to be too obvious leaving Harry deserted in his car, dead, with bight marks on his neck. *rolls eyes*
Anyway, had to clear that up :D thanks for reading guys, LY =D
-DaringReality
