Laura

Normally, before I do this, I would take the reviewers opinions and feelings into consideration, but I'm leaving that good side of me at home today because there is only one thing I really want to say to you.

FUCK YOU!!

How dare you come all at it with the 'I've been there! You don't know!" crap, because you say that you've suffered and survived? Well, let me shed some light on a little shed of information for you hun, SO HAVE I!!

Before you become all high and mighty with your accusations of ignorance, you might want to look into something first. Do you really think that I would attempt to write a story like this if I hadn't experienced it?! Do really think I'm that foolish?! Obviously, you do, or else you would have thought about what you were going to say rather than spouting off all sorts of rubbish without knowing what the hell you're talking about.

Did you ever think that I might be writing from my own personal experince here? Of course not, because from what I can see, the emotions and opinions of no one else swam through your mind as you were writing your hateful reviews.

I know that not everyone with this illness dies. I'm living proof of that. I wrote in the death at the end, because there is in fact a ten per cent mortality rate attached to the illness. As a final message to my readers I wanted to show that this illness is very real, that it can and does kill.

You're right. Readers and reviewers can break or build a writer, and I am so thankful that there are so many people trying to build me up, because it makes those few that are trying to break me down even less significant. I thank them all because all of their wonderful comments washes away the hurtful and spiteful reviews that you have left. After reading so many kind and understanding reviews, the hurt that I felt after reading yours disappeared, when I realised that the opinion of someone willing to write something like that doesn't matter compared to the opinions of those who enjoy what I write.

Its words like yours and people like you that broke me down in the first place, and its people like the kind reviewers I have on here that helped to build me back up. There is only one person in my life who knows the full extent of what I've been through and I am so grateful to him every day. I don't know where I'd be without him - and yes, Dennis, I'm talking about you - but I can tell you that this story wouldn't have been finished. That's for sure.

I'm not expecting anyone to 'suck up to me' as you so eloquently put it. I've never asked for anything like that. Yes, I ask for people to give me their opinions - and when I say that I don't mean nasty words that can affect someone more than you know - but that is all. I would never ask for anyone to 'suck up to me'. That is not what I write for. I wrote this story to try and get a message across: that this is an illness and it is very real. A message that most of my readers - with the exception of an ignorant few - managed to find.

You say that you are not fifteen. Well, then, why are you acting like a child? Leaving a review like yours is neither adult nor conducive to the idea that you are in fact an adult. Might I suggest a little more eloquency in your reviews in future. It might prove your age. (And yes, I'm being patronising, you going to try to shoot me down for that too?)

I never said that HEA's were 'tripe'. I enjoy a good HEA as much as the next reader, but it would not have fit in with this story. Just because you want a story to have an HEA doesn't mean it'll have one. It would have completely screwed with the rest of the story to have an HEA at the end. If I had, Edward might have survived, but as you claim to know, he would have struggled every day, a black cloud hanging over him threatening to pour and pull him back into that world again. I know, because I live with that same black cloud hanging over my head every single day.

My advice is, in future, before you start spouting off the whole 'You don't know what you're talking about! You have no idea!' rubbish, update your knowledge bank about the person you wish to accuse of ignorance. It might come back to bite you in the arse.

If you do wish to reply, then maybe you should look past your own judgements and clear you mind before accusing someone of ignorance.

You have no right to accuse me of ignorance because I know. I know all too well what it's like. I know what it's like not to eat for four days, trying desperately to ignore that ever present ache in your stomach, and when you do eat, it's not nearly enough to sustain you, but you feel as though it is too much and do whatever it takes to rid yourself of it. I know what it is like to pass out each time you stand up, to have your hair start to fall out, to lose all of your friends because you can't seem to trust them, or at least trust yourseld around them. I know what it is like so don't you dare play that card with me!

I am not a child. I do not need to have someone tell me what I do and do not know. I know far more than others of my age do. Make of this message what you will but if you have anything to say, don't do it in my reviews. I don't need someone who thinks the way your reviews show that you do commenting on my work.

If I were to be calling people suffering from this 'frail fodder' then I would be insulting myself. You are ridiculous in your assumptions, because if you'd really read it, you would know that that is not the case anywhere in my stories.

You don't like them? The solution is simple. Don't read them!

That's all I have to say for now, because if I don't stop typing soon, I'm going to break the keys to my laptop, you've pissed me off that much. And it takes a lot to get under my skin.

twiXlite

I'm sorry if this offended anyone. It was only meant to address the one who left the hurtful review. Anyone else feeling offended then I'm sorry.