I'll Be Seeing You

Rated: T

Title taken from "I'll Be Seeing You" by Billie Holiday

Chapter title taken from "Mood Indigo" by Duke Ellington (inspired by Ella Fitzgerald's version, though)

Disclaimer: I don't own Gossip Girl, etc. You know the drill

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The paramedics rush an unconscious Blair through the doors of St. Luke's hospital. Blood drenches her pale, thin body, nearly naked as her clothes were cut off in the ambulance so that the paramedics could locate serious wounds. Deep red liquid covers the gloved hands of the men pushing the stretcher and drips down to the sterile white floor of the emergency room in steady droplets. A St. Luke's doctor rushes to Blair's side. "Details, people!" he shouts at the paramedics.

"18-year-old female pedestrian hit by a car. She wasn't breathing upon ambulance arrival but we utilized CPR and intubated her and fortunately she came back to us. There's so much blood I don't know where one wound ends and another begins!' the paramedic explains hurriedly.

Blair is surrounded by darkness. She hears distant, muffled voices but cannot hear her own heart beating. Is it? She wonders. All of a sudden she sees a bright white light ahead of her, far away, but gleaming nonetheless. It looks inviting. The voices disappear and Blair is enveloped in pure silence. Bravely, she steps one bare foot in front of the other and makes her way towards the source of the safe, warm light.

A St. Luke's resident and several nurses surround the doctor and look at him expectantly for orders. "Bring her to O.R. 2! She needs surgery immediately!" the doctor barks . An inanimate Blair is wheeled off to the operating room, shut off from the world and everyone in it.

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"Something's wrong. I can feel it."

Chuck's stomach knots at Nate's words. If anything were to happen to Blair, he wouldn't know what he would do with himself. He wouldn't know how to live. Yes, their relationship is dysfunctional, and no, he doesn't know why he behaves the way he does toward her sometimes, but the point is, he needs the tiny brunette in his life somehow, even if she hates him. Chuck Bass is insecure; it's as simple as that. He doesn't feel he could make her happy even if they were together because he has done nothing but cause her heartache in the past. It would be too hard for him to not fuck up with Blair, because fucking things up is something he is particularly skilled in, whether it be messing up his own life, or messing up somebody else's (either accidentally or on purpose). She deserves better than me, Chuck thinks, It is better to let her be with someone who will keep her safe from me. Someone like Nate.

Chuck is about to speak to a scared-looking Nate when his cell phone rings. It's Lily, finally. Chuck prepares to bombard her with questions like it's the Inquisition, but she speaks immediately before he gets to open his mouth. "Charles, don't interrupt. You need to listen to me," Lily starts.

Chuck Bass is never one to take orders. "No!" he explodes. "Something is not right here Lily. Why the hell would Serena steal something she is bound to get from you anyways? Explain."

Lily sighs audibly into the phone. "That doesn't matter right now, Charles. I dropped the charges and am coming to pick up Serena as we speak. You are at the station, I hear. Stay. I'll be there soon. There's been an accident." She hangs up.

The same feeling washes over him as when Lily had called to tell him Bart had been in a car accident. It is a feeling of pure dread, wrapping around him so tightly he feels he cannot possibly breathe. He rests his elbows on his knees and drops his head to his hands, trying to get a hold of himself. "Chuck... what- what did she say?" Nate asks shakily, his voice low and nervous.

"There's been... an accident." Chuck replies darkly, emphasizing the last word. His eyebrows furrow together in erratic thought.

Nate's eyes widen in shock and Chuck's deepest fear is realized when the vibrations of both his and Nate's cell phones reveal a Gossip Girl post out of Chuck's worst nightmare.

Gossip Girl here: Seems our favorite Ice Queen is in the hospital after a crash. Get well soon B; the Upper East Side wouldn't be the same without you. And S getting booked by New York's finest? That's one for the books.

You Know You Love Me

"Blair." the pair says together.

Death, to Chuck, feels more welcome than ever at this moment.

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As always, thanks for reading and (hopefully) reviewing!

If you found this a little slow it's because it's a transition chapter. I needed a way for our boys to find out about the accident!

BrittyKay247: I hope I redeemed Chuck a little bit for you :)

LetMeIn1812: Glad you're still loving it! I'm on a writing roll right now with this story so there'll be more to love quite soon!

MrsChairNaley: This is shaping up to be a long fic so I'm glad you found you can get into it!

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Thanks to all other reviewers :) It means the world to me to know you like my writing!

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UP NEXT: Blair's fate is decided, and Chuck has a heart-to-heart with Serena.