An:I got loads of reviews for the last chapter! wicked...x) and well here you have the next chapter. And it pains me to say that the next one ( the one after this one that is) wont be up in a while. Since I'm going to be at our cabin all week...and we dont have access to the internet here. But my faithful laptop is coming with me...and I will be working on the story...I just wont be able to update. Not sure on when I'll be home yet...butI will...eventually...x)
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Chapter 32-The Order
Two days after graduation we all met up at Hogwarts again. It was time.
Dumbledore met us at his office and we were told to sit down.
"I have summoned you here today to tell you about a group called The Order of the Phoenix. It's an order that fights Voldemort." I looked at the others and everyone looked really interested. He told us everything about the order. He explained how serious the war was getting and how much power Voldemort had and was gaining. He explained the dangers and seriousness of joining the order. And of course that he wanted us to join, because they needed as many people as they could get Sirius and James immediately agreed but Dumbledore just chuckled at their enthusiasm and told us that he didn't want us to answer right away; he said we should think about it for a week and then meet up again. We all decided to go and eat lunch together and discuss it. We chose this small restaurant in a muggle part of London where we thought we wouldn't be listened in on.
"I'm joining" James said with determination shining in his eyes. We all knew why it was so important for him to join, the same reason Sirius agreed with him only seconds after that and for the same reason I stated;
"And so am I" I noticed a weird look in Sirius eyes that I couldn't place but it was gone so fast that I thought I had imagined it. Lily said;
"Me too" the others agreed on after one. Peter was the only one who hesitated a bit…and well Izzy didn't have anything to do with it so she didn't say anything. The girls and I decided to meet up again later to have a girl's night out.
We went home after that, Sirius and I that is; Reggie went to Izzy's place. When we got home Sirius got that weird look in his eyes again and I asked;
"Sirius…what's wrong?" putting my arms around him. He looked at me and sighed.
"Come on, you can tell me" I said giving him and encouraging smile.
"I…I don't want you to join the order Char" he said hesitantly. I immediately backed away from him.
"What?" I asked. I couldn't believe what I just heard.
"I don't want you to join"
"What do you mean you don't want me to join…why?" he reached for me but I backed away.
"I just don't want you to get hurt!" his voice was rising with his frustration and so was mine.
"I could get hurt anyways!"
"Yes, but the risk is much bigger if you join!" he was now pacing the room and waving his hands in the air.
"And if all of my friends and boyfriend joins then I will be in just as much danger. Because if the deatheaters ever find out about the order and who the members are, they will assume that I'm in it!" I rambled on and he stared at me.
"Sirius, I can't just sit by and watch! You of all people should know that!"
"I do know that baby but I just…I can't even stand the thought of anything happening to you! And being in the order doubles that possibility!" I huffed and glared at him.
"I know that. But the way the things are going everyone is in danger. And I will not sit by and watch my friends fight for me!"
"But…I understand that but…"
"But what, Sirius? You want to help your friends too right? You can get hurt too right? But you don't see me ordering you not to join!" I was fuming at that point.
"Of course I don't want to see my friends hurt. And I want to fight. But Char…I love my friends and I'd do anything for them but the one I love most in this world is you. And I…god!" he let out a strangled scream. I walked up to him and looked him strait in the eyes.
"Sirius. I am going to join. You can't order me not to" he stared at me and said;
"So is this how every decision is going to be? I voice my opinion and you're just going to do whatever you want anyways?" he asked me looking hurt. I could feel the tears stinging in my eyes at that comment.
"No, of course not. But you can't ask this of me Sirius…" we were staring at each other and hadn't even noticed the door opening. Suddenly someone cleared their throat and we looked at Reggie. I drew my hand through my hair and sighed and then said;
"I'm going to go over to Lily's…we were going to have a girls night out…and I just…I need to be away from you for a while, okay?" I said a tear rolling down my cheek, because I just didn't understand his problem.
"Char…" he pleaded but I just shook my head and said;
"I'll see you tomorrow" and with that I kissed his cheek lightly avoiding his eyes and apparated.
Sirius POV
I let out a frustrated scream and felt Reggie's eyes on me.
"What!?" I screamed glaring at him. He looked a bit shocked at my outburst but then narrowed his eyes and said;
"No need to snap at me. What did you do?" I sat down and mumbled something unbearable.
"I'm flooing the other guys" he said and did just that. I took a bottle of Firewhiskey and was about to drain it when someone ripped it from my hands. Prongs and Moony was standing in front of me. And Prongs was the one that took the bottle. He looked at me grinning and said;
"Heey pads…Reggie called us and said that you and Char had a fight…what's up?"
"Yes Padfoot what did you do?" Moony said giving me a questioning look. I groaned and decided that should just tell them.
"I told her that I didn't want her to join the order and then that led to an argument." they stared at me and Moony said;
"What? Why did you do that?"
"Because it's true. I don't want her to join" prongs sighed and said;
"I told Lily that I wasn't too happy about her joining either…but I wasn't going to stop her. And Padfoot, you and I both know that you can't stop Char from joining"
"I know that! I just…I just don't want her to get hurt"
"She's in as much danger anyways…whether she joins or not. And she will join" Moony said smiling slightly.
"I know and I don't really want to make her not join. I just voiced my opinion…in a…insensitive way. I was an ass…" they started chuckling at me and I couldn't hold it in any longer either. Now I just had to apologise to Char and make her understand why I reacted like I did.
"I can't wait until to morrow…let's go guys" and with that the three of them followed me to the Evans house.
"Why hello boys…what can I do for you? Looking for the girls no doubt?" Mrs Evans said when she greeted us at the door.
"Yes that's exactly why we're here Mrs Evans" prongs said smiling charmingly. She smiled back at him and said;
"Well they're not here…they went out to a club. But I can give you the address…you'll find them there" she went inside and then gave us a note with the address on it. We all apparated to an alley near the club and magically changed our outfit so that they would look more suiting. We grinned at each other and then went inside the club. Prongs spotted Lily immediately and directly made a beeline for her. I got separated from the other guys when I was looking around for Char. And when I saw her…I couldn't believe my eyes and I thought that I could actually feel my eyes turning green.
Chars POV
When I reached Lily's house I was crying. I just couldn't understand why Sirius was freaking out. Or well I sort of understood but he didn't have to make such a big deal out of it. I composed myself before I knocked and then I was met by the squealing and screaming voices of my friends. I let out a giggle and let them drag me in. but as predicted Lily almost immediately noticed that something was off. She asked me what was wrong and the girls made me sit and tell them everything.
"He honestly told you that he didn't want you to join? What an ass" Jas said snorting.
"Jas, you're not making her feel better" Izzy, who also had been invited, said. I smiled thanks.
"But he was rather cute about it wasn't he? He can't stand the thought of you getting hurt! He really loves you" Amelia said sighing and smiling.
"I guess"
"But he still shouldn't have practically trying to forbid her to join!" Jas said. Lily had been awfully quiet but now she spoke up.
"It was rather stupid of him. But he's just afraid and concerned like the rest of us. James talked to me about it too…he said that he wasn't that happy about me joining…but he wasn't going to stop me. And from what you just told us, he didn't specifically tell you that he was forbidding you to join. He just isn't that keen to the idea…because he loves you." Aah Lily, how I love her.
"You…are so right. But I don't think I'll see him until tomorrow" I said smiling slightly.
"Yeah…let him sweat" Jas said and we all started laughing.
"Lets go out!" Alice said suddenly and we all agreed and changed our outfits acting like the girls we are. We apparated to a club that Izzy knew about and then walked inside.
"This place is great" Alice said when we looked around, we all nodded in agreement and Jas dragged Lily, Amelia and Alice out on the dance floor. Izzy and I decided to have a drink at the bar.
"So how's things with Reggie?" I asked when we were sitting at the bar. I grinned when she blushed and said;
"Fine…we've been thinking about moving in together" I "awed" and she blushed even more.
"I mean he loves living with you and Sirius…but he figured that the two of you would like to be alone and not have him around all the time…and well he want to move in with me so…" she continued rambling and I chuckled at her nervousness. And told her that I understood what she was talking about. And then she giggled but got this serious expression in her eyes.
"So…how are things with you and Sirius? I mean besides this thing that's going on now…" I smiled at her concern and said;
"Fine. We're just disagreeing on something for a change" then this sort of cute guy came up to us and ordered a drink. He turned towards us and then said;
"Oh…those shoes are really nice" pointing at the heels I had borrowed from Lily. Smiled a bit confused and said;
"Thanks" he grinned at me and then asked if he could sit down. I looked at Izzy and neither of us saw anything wrong with it so we smiled and said that he could. He introduced himself as Damien and then we started talking and he suddenly said;
"Well personally I'm here because I had a fight with my boyfriend. The little wanker wouldn't let me borrow his shirt. What about you two, are you single or..?" I started giggling as did Izzy and I finally understood why he was so interested in my shoes.
"No we're both taken" I said smiling.
"Oooh…do tell. I bet they're really handsome" Izzy and I started laughing and Izzy said;
"Well…yeah…they're actually brothers…" and I smirked and said;
"Of course they're handsome…or else we wouldn't be with them, would we?" I winked and they both burst out laughing. I couldn't believe that Izzy and I were sitting here talking to this total stranger about…well our relationships. But Damien was just like one of the girls and we just couldn't help it…we were laughing about something when someone cleared their throat behind us and I turned around and looked into the eyes of Sirius. And he looked…well he had a weird look on his face. I smiled at him slightly and said;
"Sirius…what are you doing here?" I nodded at Reggie who was standing beside him.
"I came to see you…" he mumbled sending Damien glares that I bet he thought were subtle. They were as obvious as Dumbledore's beard. I finally understood his weird facial expression, he was jealous. And I couldn't help but smile.
"So this is the famous Sirius you've been telling me about…Char you didn't say he was this gorgeous! Your description was not even close to the real thing…if you don't want him…I'll take him!" Damien said before I could even introduce him. And the look on Sirius face was priceless. Then Damien complimented Regulus as well.
"They do look alike…two for one, eh?" he said winking. The boys were looking mighty uncomfortable at this point. And Izzy and I couldn't help but giggle. When Sirius had finally gotten over the fact that a guy was calling him handsome he cleared his throat and locked eyes with me.
"Char…could we talk in private?" of course I knew what he wanted to talk about. I knew it was coming…but I had hoped that I wouldn't have to deal with it until tomorrow. I nodded and went outside with him.
Sirius POV
When I saw that guy with Char and Izzy I could feel the jealousy bubbling inside of me. And when I saw them laughing at something he said it got worse.
"Please tell me you don't see what I see" I said to Reggie who was standing next to me.
"I can see what you see…but it's probably nothing" he said trying to calm me down. It didn't work. I started walking towards them and cleared my throat. Char looked at me and the guy said something about me being handsome. Okay…what the? Char and Izzy giggled at Reggie's and mine discomfort. Then I asked Char to come out with me, she agreed. When we stepped outside it was kind of chilly and Char who was wearing just a top to her jeans started shivering.
"Here" I said and gave her my coat.
"Thanks" she said smiling. Then she looked down and I was thinking about what I should say to her.
"So…what are you doing here? Well I know why you're here…but how did you find us?" she said looking up at me through her bangs. I smiled at her and said;
"We went to the Evans' house. And Mrs Evans gave us the address" she smiled and said;
"So you're playing spies now, eh?" I laughed and scratched my head.
"Sort of…but um that guy in there…when I saw him I thought…I…" I didn't even know what to say to that.
"You were jealous." She said matter-of-factly smirking at me.
"I was yes…" I said hesitantly and I could feel my blush rising on my neck. She giggled.
"But I had no reason to be did I…because…Damien was it? He's…eer…" she was looking amused and said;
"Gay, yes. You don't have a problem with that do you?"
"No I don't…I just…I was surprised…" she smiled again and I grinned but then I remembered why I was here in the first place.
"Char…about earlier. I'm…I'm sorry. But I'm just so worried…and well; I'm not forbidding you to join. I'm just not that happy about that and I just hope that you understand that and why." I rambled on and she was smiling sadly at me.
"Sirius I do understand…but I just hope that you understand on why I want to join" I nodded and then I held my arms out and she stepped into them. I hugged her and she hugged me back. Then we heard applauds. We both turned and saw all our friends there. We laughed and then went inside hand in hand.
Chars POV
A week later we met up with Dumbledore and we all signed the paper that said that we were pledging ourselves to the order. I stayed back and asked Dumbledore a question that had been on my mind a really long time.
"Professor…should I tell them about Peter?" Dumbledore looked at me sadly and said;
"No"
"Can you tell me why?"
"Not yet I'm afraid…" damn you Dumbledore…
An: Hope you guys liked it! and well...i realized that ive gotten over 200 reviews! DAMN. that alot...so thank you everyone who has reviewed and read this story so far. you guys make my day. Ta!
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