17. Feelings, Renesmee and Jake

Rosalie's POV

I looked over at little sleeping Emmett (Actually, he wasn't so little anymore) as he leant on Carlisle's shoulder adorably. My little angel.

I let out a sigh, which alerted Esme and Alice. What was wrong with them? They seemed so nervous, all the time.

Bella was with Edward, sitting on his lap, while Jasper. sat reading his magazine.

We had been in the air for around 2 hours, and still had 7 to go. Ugh.

I sat filing my nails. I crossed one leg over the other.

Ireland is 8 hours ahead of Washington, so when we get there it'll be around 5 in the morning. ( A/N: True facts there people. I did the Math. Proud of me? lol.)

"Excuse me Madam." the brunette flight attendant said to me. "Would you like any tea, coffee?"

"No thankyou." I said, smiling politely to her.

She walked to the person in front of me, and asked the same question.

"Rose. . ." Esme murmured. "Do you mind if I ask you something?"

I was confused. Alice and Bella leaned in, and joined the conversation.

"How are your feelings, ugh, toward's Emmett right now?" Bella asked, and I looked at her, confused.

"Huh?" I asked. "W-what do you m-mean?"

"Your feelings Rose." Alice said.

"Hmm. . .I love him very much." I murmured.

They all nodded.

"Edward told us you were thinking about Em's looks. When he's older I mean." Alice pressed.

"What?" I asked. I put down my nail file, and stared at her. "What the hell are you guys talking about?"

"Nothing. Don't worry about it." Esme said. I noticed Esme mouthing something to Alice. I pretended to file my nails.

She mouthed something like: Its time, or she's ready.

"Esme." I grunted in frustration. "Please just tell me what's going on. Is it really that bad that you can't tell me?"

"No, no Honey! We will tell you. Its not bad at all. Just be patient soon."

She didn't seem to notice the annoyance and frustration in my voice.

I huffed, and shoved some ear phones in my ears. The song thinking of you started playing:

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one

I still got the seed

You said move on

Where do I go

I guess second best

Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes—

I yanked out the earphones, and chucked onto the floor.

The song described me too well. Especially the beginning. No, it described us too well. ( A/N: Seriously guys, the song describes Rosalie so so well)

I pressed my head onto the back seat, and closed my eyes.

God I wished I could sleep.

" Are you ok honey?" Esme whispered into my ear.

"Yes. Just ridiculously frustrated." I murmured.

Esme laughed. "I'll leave you too it. Let me know if you want to talk ok?"

I nodded.

What if this secret, that everyone was hiding, meant, that oneday, Em and I would be split up? Never too see each other again? Could I handle that? I already knew that answer, and I always had.

Even after I'd known him for only a couple of days, I couldn't bear to let him go. And as our relationship got more intense, I had trouble staying away from him at all.

Even when he had his little outburst (Which I understood perfectly) when he said he may not be able to forgive me– I nearly started hyperventilating at that memory—made me break down. Even if he didn't ever talk to me again, I would crumble.

Maybe I could avoid hurting him. Maybe if I did what Edward did with Bella, if I convinced him I didn't love him—I cringed—He wouldn't need to suffer. But I knew secretly, I didn't have the strength to do that at all.

I pulled my legs up onto the seat. I knew I was going to have one of my little breakdowns, which seemed weekly now. But this time, the whole plane was going to have to witness it.

I felt someone tenderly rubbing my left shoulder. I expected Esme, but opened my eyes to see Edward.

Obviously he'd heard everything I'd thought. I sighed.

"Don't do what I did." he whispered. "It was the worst mistake of my life."

He grimaced. I looked down at the ugly blue pattern on the floor.

"Don't make my mistakes. You can't leave him. Just like Bella, he would crumble too. You wouldn't be the only person hurting. Don't do this to him." he murmured.

Wow. Edward can be incredibly insightful.

"Where am I going to go?" I whispered.

"You'll make the right decision, I know you will."

He stood up, and hugged me, before leaving for his seat.

I sighed. That gave me a lot to think about.

I pushed my head into the back of the seat, and closed my eyes again.

I just lay there, drowning in confusion. . .and sorrow.

I lay onto my cheek, and opened my eyes. The first thing I saw was Emmett's sleeping form.

Carlisle was looking down at him, his mouth twitching up at the corners.

I couldn't do this to my family. I couldn't leave him, and hurt them.

I faced my back to them, and faced Esme, in my crumpled form. My legs pulled up, my hands balled into fists, covering my face.

I felt the armrest get pushed up, and I got pulled, and was leaning into somebody's side, my face pressed into their caramel colored hair.

Esme. My Mother.

This felt like Déjà vu. I felt like when Carlisle had found me, and my only friend was Esme. When she hugged me close, I was in my happy place.

"M-mom, what d-do I do?" I whispered.

"Shhh. . .Honey." she murmured. "Love him, nurture him. Its all you have to do to make him happy."

She pressed my ruined blonde hair against my face.

"Its d-doesn't seem l-like enough." I murmured.

"But it will be." She whispered.

"But h-how can you b-be so sure?" I stuttered.

"I have 6 children." she laughed. I laughed too. "Trust me Sweetie."

I nodded. She was right.

"I will. Love and nurture." I said.

"Will be arriving in Ireland in 4 hours. Will be arriving in Ireland in 4 hours." the pilot said, over the loud speaker.

I sat up. "Thankyou Esme."

"How about some on board shopping to lighten the mood!" Alice chirped. Ha. I didn't even know there was such thing.

"Okay." I said.

I looked at Alice's screen. I noticed she had been watching Titanic. I love that movie!

She changed it quickly, and now was looking at the bright red 'Shoppers guide' screen.

"What should we do first? Dresses and jewelry? Or accessories and shoes?" Alice asked.

"Hmm. . .Tough choice. . .Accessories and shoes?" I said.

"Okay."

She used her remote to click on that section.

I stretched in my 1st class seat.

"Look at that gorgeous handbag!" Alice chirped. "Only $200US! Bargain!"

"That is very nice." I said, nodding. "You going to buy it?"

She looked at me with a What-do-you-think smile.

I laughed at her, as SOLD lighted up the screen.

"Not too much Alice." Esme said. "It never very good quality. Just buy things in Ireland." she whispered, behind her hand.

We all laughed.

"THEY ARE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SHOES I'VE EVER SEEN." Alice said, cutting off her own laugh, and staring wide eyed at a pair of black flats on the screen.

They were beautiful.

"They are a must have." I said.

Alice clapped her hands in delight, as SOLD came up on the screen again.

Esme shook her head at us, and grinned at Carlisle, who rolled his eyes at his 2 shopping-crazed daughters.

I giggled.

I heard Em grumble from across the aisle. "Rosie, don't leave me. . . I love you too much." he mumbled sleepily. He was obviously sleep talking again.

Rosie don't leave me.

I was brought back to earth.

Carlisle looked worriedly at me.

I rubbed my forehead, and sighed.

Even he was thinking about that.

I thought about what Esme said. Love him, nurture him.

That's what I'll do.

I heard Emmett awoke with a start, gasping, and looked straight over too me, to make sure I was still here I guess.

I blew a kiss at him. He giggled.

I motioned for him to come too me, and he didn't object.

I saw Esme smile at me, and I smiled back.

"I'm going to go see Carlisle." she murmured. Alice continued her shopping to right.

I let Esme through, and Emmett was climbing over Carlisle.

"Hey Baby." I said, as Emmett ran to me, and into my arms. "How are you enjoying the flight?"

"Hi Rosie. Its been fun. I've been asleep for most of it, so. . ."

I laughed at him.

"What have you been doing Rosie?" he asked. I remembered my breakdown, and thought I shouldn't mention that. "Shopping, filing my nails."

"Shopping on a plane?" he asked.

"Alice." we both said, and laughed.

"Oh my god Em I bought you the cutest t-shirt you have ever seen, It says: 'I'm awesome get used to it'!" Alice squealed.

"Thanks." Em said. "I am pretty awesome. Who is it? Abercrombie and Fitch?"

"How'd you guess?" Alice laughed.

"We will now begin our descent into Dublin. Strap your seat belts passengers." the pilot said into the overhead.

"Better go and get your seatbelt on Em." I said.

"'k." he said, and ran to his seat.

I strapped my seat belt across my stomach, just as Esme returned to her seat. "I'm proud of you."

"Thankyou." I smiled at her.

Bella returned to her seat, and I waved at her.

"Where have you been this whole trip?" I asked sarcastically.

She grinned at me. "We've had fun." She said, looking back at Edward.

"EEK!" Alice squealed. "OH NO!"

"What's wrong Al!?" I said. I became worried and looked at Em. "What's happening?"

"MY TV! ITS GONE! NO MORE SHOPPING!" She squealed. "WHAT THE HELL?!"

I rolled my eyes at her. "We're descending Al. Geez. Calm."

She lay back in her seat, and clicked her seat belt. "I was in the middle of a buy." she said sighed sadly.

"Let it go Alice." I laughed. "I'm sure you can buy the same thing in Ireland for way less than now."

"Mmm I guess so." she murmured.

I felt the sharp jolt of the plane landing, and saw Emmett pointing out the window in excitement with Carlisle.

I tried to peer out, but only saw the fog and trees.

I lay back in my chair, as the plane came to a fast stop. "We have arrived in Ireland its currently 15 degrees Celsius (A/N: 59 degrees farenheight), and cloudy. Its 5:03 in the morning. Thankyou for flying with American Airlines. We hope to see you again soon."

I stood up to get my handbag from the overhead department, as did everyone else.

Emmett's POV

Georgia barked loudly as the plane came to a stop.

"Look Em." Carlisle said, pointing to the window.

I looked out, and gazed at the nice scenery. Trees, and light fog hang in the air.

"Whoa!"

Dad laughed at me.

I saw Rosie stand up, and get some bags from the overhead department.

Carlisle began to stand, and smiled at Esme, before getting his bags.

I stood up and stretched, and Georgia Rose jumped onto my seat. "C'mon George. Its time to go."

Dad lifted down her cage, and I carefully placed her in it.

I looked over at Rosie, who smiled sweetly at me. Ugh. Warm feeling again.

I followed Dad down the aisle of the plane, with Rosie behind me, putting her hands on my shoulders.

"Thankyou." the male, blonde, flight attendent smiled as walked past him.

We forwarded out to the front of the plane, where the icy air hit me hard.

I shivered, and started o walk down the shoot toward's Dublin airport.

I held Rosie's and Bella's hands. They were both smiling like Tom cats. And I wasn't sure why.

This shoot was smaller than the last, so we made it through fast.

We entered the small airport, and I spotted a tall girl with long, reddish-brownish hair, and pale skin, just like Bells'. She was standing next to a russet skinned boy, who was HUGE. He had long black hair, and had his arm around the other one.

"Renesmee! Jacob!" Bella shrieked.

"Renesmee!" Rosie screamed excitedly. Who were these people?

Bella and Rosie hugged them both, then looked down at me.

"So this is Little Emmett." the girl said.

" We've heard a lot about you." the tall boy said.

"Em, this is my daughter Renesmee, and her boyfriend Jacob."

Rosie leant down to my level and whispered, so I could hardly hear: "Renesmee is half Vampire, and Jacob is a Werewolf."

I shrieked at the words 'Werewolf.' the last time I heard about Werewolves, they were yelling at our house when I was 5.

The rest of the family hugged them both, the Cullens shrivelling up their noses. Hmm. . .

"Have you heard from Siobhan, Liam, or Maggie?" Carlisle asked them both.

"Yes. We visited them yesterday. They were very excited you guys were comin'." Jacob said.

"You can just call me Nessie if you like Em. Or call Jacob Jake." 'Nessie' said. I nodded.

"Shall we head home?" Esme asked, wrapping her arm around Nessie.

Everyone nodded, and I heard Edward murmur a 'I love you' to Renesmee.

What did u think? Sorry for another breakdown, but. . .well. . . .I'm the best at anger/hurt ;). Plz plz review. Ive featured a sneak peak of the Cullens place in Ireland.

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