Chapter 5

-"Who has the closest relationship with Ludwig here?" Roderich asks when they stand outside Ludwig's home.

-"That must be me" Kiku says, "We're friends I guess"

-"But let me go, I'm the expert in love" Francis says with a slow voice, "come on"

-"No, it must be someone he knows and can say what he thinks to" Arthur says and Roderich nods.

After some classic fighting between Arthur and Francis about the subject they decided Kiku would go. Everyone went to their places in the window while they waited for Ludwig to open the door.

-"Ludwig it's me Kiku" Kiku shouts through the door after a while with no answer he shouts, "I'll go in"

Everyone watched chocked how Kiku unlocked the complicated lock with a bunch of weird tools and stepped inside.

-"I'm coming in!" Kiku shouts again and closes the door.

The house was empty and perfectly clean all the way through. Kiku's steps echoed and it gave the house the feeling of being abandoned. The only thing that could be heard where Ludwig's three dogs when they run to meet Kiku. In the beginning his dogs refused to see Kiku as a friend but luckily enough Kiku actually succeeded in befriending them. He greeted the dogs who then ran away to do whatever they did before. Kiku continued to walk to Ludwig's "office" where he found him before the meeting.

As fast as he entered the room he could smell beer but it looked completely normal. Kiku has already been there so he knew what he would find when he came around the desk. Ludwig himself sat exactly as he did before with the phone on his knees and beer around him. His hair which always is slicked back is in a mess and hangs in his eyes. And the eyes look tired as he hasn't slept for ages.

-"Do you really feel that good?" Kiku asks carefully.

-"Of course I do! I'm just fine" he says and looks at Kiku with his bright blue eyes, "how did you come in here?"

-"You have a very simple lock" Kiku says fast but then continues, "You don't look very good and if you were you would have notice me"

Ludwig had nothing to answer to that and went silent. Kiku didn't know what to say so he said the only thing that came up.

-"I've talked to Feliciano" Kiku suddenly says and himself was surprised that he said that. But Ludwig's reaction was shocking. He was staring at Kiku and when he understood what he meant he flew up and grabbed Kiku's shoulders. With desperate eyes he started to stutter. Kiku couldn't understand anything of what he said but then Ludwig took a deep breath and controlled himself. He let go of him and turned around.

-"What did he say?" he finally asked and he's voice shivered.

-"It's a bit hard for me to say that but…" Kiku was unsure if he could tell Ludwig right away he doesn't know at all what to do right now so he just changed the subject, "What do you think about Feliciano?"

-"What's with that question all of a sudden?" Ludwig says but doesn't turn around and continues in a angry voice, "I… I don't really know… I've been so worried that I would never meet him again… never see his bright smile and feel his happy energy… what's wrong with me?"

Ludwig falls down on his knees and he who always keeps his head high and back straight, started to shiver. Suddenly the door opened with a bang and Francis came in and walked straight up to Ludwig. In a loud voice he started to yell at him.

-"What is wrong with you? Suddenly you, who are one of the men who know how to train, treat your enemies and take everything seriously, almost too serious, sits here and shivers like a leaf. Why are you so unsure, is there something out of what you've experienced? Something you haven't felt before?" Francis yells.

-"What are you doing here?" Ludwig shouts and stands up. His eyes were watery and full of feelings.

-"Freaking saving you!" Francis yells back, "You're a freaking idiot!"

-"Leave my house immediately!" Ludwig screams in rage and points at the door.

In the loud voice and that Francis saw what Ludwig felt, Francis calmed down and looked at Ludwig with sad eyes.

-"I hate you and you hate me but this actually affects me and the others so let us help you" Francis says calmly, turns around and walks away.

-"I don't need any help at all, you leave too Kiku, I want to be alone" Ludwig says in a weak voice.

Kiku who's very polite doesn't say anything and leaves but in the doorway he stops, turns around and says.

-"It does affect us"