One short chapter again but it'll be longer later I think xD

Chapter 8

The plane goes smoothly in the air on their way to Russia. Everyone is asleep, leaning at each other or the windows. Ludwig is the only one awake of his friends. Now when everything was so quiet he started to think about his feelings. What had made this serious man so… unsure? First he denied that he ever really cared about Feliciano. Ludwig shakes his head and smiles ironic to himself. What am I thinking really? Am I denying that I really care about Feli? I'm so stupid… How could I ever deny…He sighs and looks out on the night sky. The meetings was always held exactly 18.00 with all the groups. They had no reason for starting those group meetings but it just happened. When all the group was in the meeting they would talk about special activities with all the groups or just talk about random things. Suddenly he started to quietly cry, shaking of all the feelings he had inside him, worries, love, sadness, anger. What if he's dead because of me, because I just couldn't tell, couldn't understand myself the feelings I have for him! I won't be able to live… A life without the happy voice or the lovely smile of Feliciano Vargas isn't a life. If I find him dead or don't find him at all, I'll go away from the group somehow so they won't find me and… I will die. I can't live on without him. With those thoughts in his head he slowly fell asleep with wet cheeks. He still shivered when he thought that when he landed in Russia he would call his brother, just if what won't happen happens.

-"Wonder why Ludwig is weirdly calling his brother" Francis asked Kiku when they stood waiting for Ludwig to finish his call.

-"I wonder" Kiku replied. But he knew in his mind why… It was obvious on his behavior.

-"Bruder!" Ludwig said to his brother when he answered the phone.

-"West? Why are you calling from this strange number?" his brother asks him.

-"I'm in Russia!"

-"WHAT? What are you doing there?" his brother asks him chocked.

-"I'm just here with meine Freunde, you know, fun!" he says to his brother and tries to sound as normal as always.

-"You? Fun?" his brother says and laughs, "that was about time! Some of my awesome genes are finally showed in you!"

-"What do you mean?" Ludwig says suddenly a bit unsure.

-"Always serious, always studying" his brother says and continues, "the only time I've actually seen you happy was when I came on visit that time and that Italian boy was cooking pasta for us! You looked really happy and you actually laughed when he had forgotten where he put the milch. He looked so confused! You're really boring, not at all like me!"

His brother laughed in the phone but Ludwig was himself near the edge of breaking. That was actually one of the best memories Ludwig ever had and if he would be honest with himself it was the best day ever. He shivered as he controlled himself to not to cry.

-"Yeah I remember" Ludwig says and tries to keep his voice steady so he wouldn't worry his brother, "you know I need to go now just wanted to call and say… yeah bruder, I love you"

-"Well that was also random but who doesn't love me?!" his brother says and then continues happy, "you have some good friends over there at that Hetalia school it seems like. Ich liebe dich auch bruder, bye"

-"Bye"

Ludwig put the phone back at its place and walked to his friends. How much he tried to hide his feelings they all could clearly tell that he was terrified, not for his sake, for Feliciano.

Without any more words they headed to the plane and soon they were flying again but this time closer to saving Ludwig's one and only love. And everyone regretted all the thoughts of Ludwig ever being a cold hearted person who doesn't care about Feliciano.