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Chapter 13
Hello dears! No, you are not going crazy this is just a little filler looking in Layla's head on how she is feeling after Daryl has left her. In addition, you all know she is going a little crazy :') so please enjoy this little incite into the mind of Layla...
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I didn't know what to feel, my body was numb and I couldn't move my body. I knew I was crying, I could feel the wetness falling down my cheeks and my body was shaking. No one had even noticed they were talking about the four new people that had arrived. Yes, I had seen them and they couldn't have come at a better time, the governor would come for us and he would hit us hard. Now that he was gone, we were weak just like i'd heard Beth say earlier. I was weak too, weak, my life was falling apart without him here. Look at me I can't even say his name because it hurts so much.
I know I'm going crazy just like my dad, but can you blame us? We have both lost people that we love. Dad forever, me until god knows when. Oh, how I wish my mama were here she would know what to do, but she wasn't here anymore, I would never see her again. Okay, now the ache in my chest is worse, this zombie apocalypse is really screwing with my head. I feel bitter towards Merle since he has taken him away from me, the need to kill him was now more prominent than ever. A hundred walkers I really didn't care as long as it brought Daryl back to me could bite into Merle. Now I've said his name the tears have started again. Just my luck!
The only time I had felt something while being back at the prison, was when Judith had wrapped her tiny little hands around my fingers. Oh she is so beautiful, looks just like my mama, so I guess that means she looks just like me too. I know mama would be so proud of me right now, screaming at Andrea, Chris and that guard guy for not letting me protect what's mine. Just like, she tried to do so many times. Unfortunately for her that hadn't worked since she left one of her children behind at the farm. Not realising she would never see me again. Oh great my nose is running now. Screw not having any tissue i'll just use the back of my hand. Unladylike and disgusting I know. Damn! I'd left Chris in Woodbury, shit! He'll be fine Layla, he'll be fine. He's strong and smart. He will be completely fine. Reassuring myself helped a little.
I missed the farm. I had my whole family and I had Daryl there. I know I should have been angry at him and lost my temper with him when he told me he was leaving with that scum he calls his brother. ''You aren't coming, you are going to go back to that prison and look after Carl and little ass kicker, you hear me?''. His words echoed through my head as if he had just spoken them. I knew I should have snapped at him and told him to go fuck himself but I just couldn't I still can't be angry at him, I know if he walked through the prison door right now, I would jump on him and take him into the nearest cell and have my way with him. I had missed him THAT much and now I'm back to missing him again. Screw you Merle!
We were meant to fight this zombie apocalypse out together and when it was safe enough to finally build up a real community, we would grow old together. Maybe have even got married. Had children. Watch them grow and start families of their own. Yes, even Layla Grimes can think about that kind of stuff. But none of that mattered, the vision was becoming more and more faded now. I know he's my soul mate, I knew that from the moment we first kissed back at the quarry oh his kiss. The way we had kissed when we were waiting to go into the governors creepy zombie pit, had set sparks flowing through my veins. I would have had him right there if it wasn't for the governors lap dog's interrupting us. Oh Layla Marie Grimes, get your head out of the gutter! Stop thinking about having sex with him, you are meant to be angry with him! Even scolding myself wasn't working. Who was I kidding I'd bang Daryl at any chance I got.
However, I know the anger will hit me soon and Daryl will be the last person I want too see. If he ever comes back that is. Oh lying on his bed wasn't making the pain any better, but his scent soothed me and made me feel at home and knowing that he lay on this mattress and slept, calmed my thoughts. Knowing he was sleeping alone and not with anyone else. Yes, I'm talking about Carol! Yes, I may have hugged her upon my return but she looked like she needed it. I still hate the bitch with a passion. I swear to god if she touched Daryl even looked at him in a flirtatious way whilst I was gone, that empty grave of hers will have a body in it. I know what you're thinking, I should respect the woman who was my mother's best friend. Well tough luck! She's useless. Sure, she's great with Judith but that's all she has going for her. We are in a zombie apocalypse love! It doesn't hurt to help contribute to killing those fuckers occasionally! Alright my rants over.
Okay, now I'm a little angry but still not at Daryl. Damn it! The numbness is still with me, but cuddling my chest to my knees is making me feel a little more now. But that's making me feel worse since all I'm feeling is neglect, heartache and rejection. Among other negative feelings. Did he leave because I did something? Or was it simply because daddy wouldn't let Merle into the group. Yes, it must have been because of that, I had heard Glenn repeat to Hershel. ''No him, No me.'' They had been Daryl's words. I mean I knew he loved Merle but not enough for him to leave his family behind. Leave me behind. Okay the tears are coming down harder and I can hear myself whining. So much for being a strong woman. Lying down may make me feel better, oh yes it does I can smell the scent of his beautiful thick brown hair in his pillow. Okay, that's it I'm not leaving this bed until the numbness decides to disappear.
Hehe! I hope you liked this little fun filler (: Little character development for the lovely Layla! I hope you liked it! See ya'll Monday for a chapter on the walking dead episode ''Home'' :D. Love you so much, love from, Vmk-xx.
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