38. I couldn't Bare to lose you

Emmett's POV

I hugged myself closer to Rosie as she kissed my forehead. I felt like I was 5 again.

We had drove home from the airport in silence. I wasn't awkward, it was just.. Unsure.

"Please.. Don't leave… Me!" I managed to croak out, as Rosie and I crashed onto the white couch. Fainting had made me feel tired, and groggy. Ugh..

"Shh.. Baby," She hushed. "I.. I.."

The rest of the family had decided to give us some privacy, which I was grateful for.

The 2 hours of knowing that I'd lost her forever, was hell. I couldn't bare being away from her any longer than I had.

She was still stuttering, trying to answer my last question.

She let out a loud sigh, and rested her head on my shoulder.

I had grown taller than her now. Not by much, but it was still something.

I wrapped my arm around her tenderly, and his time I kissed her forehead. It seemed like I was comforting her now.

"You weren't leave me.. Will you?" I whispered, into her hair. "I couldn't bare it.. I couldn't.." I mumbled. She pressed her fore finger to my lips, as to silence me.

"Shh.."

Still no promise whether she was staying. I sighed impatiently.

"Why, did you leave?" I murmured. "It wasn't very clear in your.. letter."

She sighed. "I didn't want to hurt you anymore."

I became slowly annoyed. Why would she think this?

"You weren't.. You never were..Why would you say that?" I said.

She looked at me. "Amy, and you.. After the mugging, you seemed so happy she was safe, and.. I know you still care for her. But.. I care for you too much to be stolen away by someone else. You mean way too much to me. I couldn't bare to see you.. Walk down the isle with another girl. That's why I had to get away. Before everything happened. What would you do, if you were in my position?"

I looked at her. She was troubled. But what would I do? Could I stand by, and for instance, watch Rosie marry.. Jasper?

Of course I couldn't.

"I would probably do the same. I couldn't bare to lose you either," I whispered. "So please. I can beg if you want me too. Please, please, stay."

"But you and Amy—"

"Amy means nothing to me anymore. Yes, maybe she did back then. But now.. Now.."

"What?"

"When I was running today, to stop you from leaving, she called me. She began whining about why we weren't there. She acted like.. All of a sudden everything was okay. And, it wasn't. I knew that, so I told her to get on a plane, and go back to Washington. And she listened. Actually, she hung up on me. I was rather offended," I let out a quiet laugh at the end. She giggled. "But, I wasn't the only one that was hurt by you leaving."

She looked down awkwardly. "I know."

"No, you don't. It was heart breaking. You don't know how much you mean to us all," I stopped, to examine her reaction. She seemed sad. "When I showed everybody the note, Esme.. She.. she.. ran to me, and began sobbing. And Alice.. She sobbed into Jasper. And Bella.. Oh Bella.. It was heart wrenching. Everyone was crying. For you."

She looked up at me, with a pained expression. "I'm.. Sorry.. I had no idea.."

"It's okay." I sighed. "As long as you stay, forever and ever.. Everything will work out. You'll see."

Her mouth tugged up at the corners. Her eyes glazed over, and she nuzzled into my shoulder. "I'll never be able to repay you for leaving so abruptly. It was very wrong. I realise that now."

"Thankyou," I whispered. "We belong together you know. For all eternity. Even when I am a Vampire."

Rosie stiffened in my grasp. Was it something I said?

"You okay?" I asked.

"Ugh.. Yeah.. Sure." She murmured. Now I know that whenever girls pause before saying they're okay, there'a definatley something wrong.

"No, there's something wrong," I murmured. "I can tell."

"Hmm.." She whispered. "It's just.. I don't want your soul to be damned."

"That's harsh. I'm sure it's not that terrible."

Her face hardened. "I guess you don't have to worry about to being able to have kids."

"You can't have children?"

"No."

I decided not to ask why. Awkward much..

"I didn't know you wanted any," I whispered.

"Well I do," She whispered back. "More than anything in the world."

A wash of guilt flew over me. I feel so guilty for wanting this fate, when she would've rather been in my position. Human, and female of course.

"I'm sorry Honey." I murmured, and smoothed out her hair. "I had no idea.."

"It's not your fault."
I sighed. "On a happier note.. I'm just happy you're staying. And we can be together, forever."

She smiled. "Yeah we can."

She reached up, and pressed her lips to mine. I'd missed this..

"Sorry!" I heard someone call from the stairs. It sounded like Esme. She must have come down the stairs at the wrong time..

I laughed at my Mother for all purposes.

I broke away sadly from Rose's lips, and looked around. "We don't have an audience right?"

"Who cares." Rosie laughed, and kissed me again.

Esme's POV

My little Emmett was growing up so fast..

Carlisle and I sat upstairs comfortably on our bed, in each other's embrace. We didn't want to interrupt Rosalie and Em's reunion.

Carlisle kissed my head tenderly, and sighed. "How do you think they're going down there?"

"Sounds like they're clearing things up. I'm very, very glad. We've been waiting for a long time now." I whispered.

"No, you don't. It was heart breaking. You don't know how much you mean to us all," I stopped, to examine her reaction. She seemed sad. "When I showed everybody the note, Esme.. She.. she.. ran to me, and began sobbing. And Alice.. She sobbed into Jasper. And Bella.. Oh Bella.. It was heart wrenching. Everyone was crying. For you." I Emmett murmur from downstairs. I laughed.

"That's embarrassing." I whispered.

"It's not at all. You were just upset." Carlisle soothed.

God I loved this man.

"Hmm.."

I leaned up to kiss him, and he responded just how I thought he would.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, and pulled away, all to soon. I could kiss him forever. "I better go get my book from downstairs. I'll be back soon."

I ran down the stairs, eager to get back upstairs. I froze when I saw Rose and Em, kissing on the lounge. "Sorry."

I sprinted back up the stairs, and heard Emmett laugh from down stairs. I laughed at myself.

"Where's your book?" Carlisle laughed.

"Ha, ha.." I laughed, and lay down next to him again.

Emmett's POV

"God I'm starving!" I whooped. My voice broke an octave. Stupid puberty.

"Little pubescent teenager." Jasper laughed.

"Shut up." I play punched his arm, as Carlisle made me dinner. Carlisle!

He insisted. Esme wanted too, but I thought I'd give him a chance.

"So Em.." Esme said, and wrapped her arm around my waist. She had to get on her toes to reach my shoulders, so my waist was a lot easier to get too. "You're turning 16 tomorrow. What are you going to do? Besides school of course."

"Mom.." I whined. "Don't make me go to school on my 16th birthday, please!"

"Sorry son," She laughed. "Keep dreaming."

I groaned. Carlisle put a plate of chips in front of me, and I thanked him. There was steam coming from the top, and my mouth immediately started watering. I hadn't eaten since I fainted.

"Careful, Em, they're hot." Carlisle murmured, and smiled.

I picked up a fry, and shoved it in my mouth. "CRAP! MY MOUTH!"

Rosie laughed, and put her hand on mine. "He said they were hot."

"Good point!" Alice chirped.

I opened my mouth, to let the hot air escape. I was probably flashing my half chewed up food to everyone, but, whatever. They didn't see to care.

"Ouch." I murmured, and chewed up my fry slowly.

I loved that we were all together. The whole family, gathered in the kitchen.

"I'm glad we're not one Cullen short." Edward said, and kissed Bella's hand.

"Me too." Bella said, and smiled at Rosie.

"Me three." Jasper said.

"Me four." Alice squealed, and began jumping excitedly up and down.

"What with you Alice?" I asked, and shoved another chip in my mouth. God these were good.

"I know what's happening for your birthday!"

Everyone gawked. It had been a mystery to everyone for a while now.

Alice whispered to Bella, who whispered to Carlisle and Esme. Esme whispered to Jaz, who whispered it to Rosie.

"That's cool!" I laughed. "Am I the only one who doesn't know?!"

"Yep," Jasper popped on the 'p'.

Rosie was grinning insanely from next to me. Maybe I could dazzle her like Edward does Bella..

"Hey Rosie.." I grinned. I looked straight into her eyes. "What's happening with my birthday.."

She let out a hysterical laugh. "Nice try Em."

I huffed. Fine.

"Hey Guys," I whispered. "I know this is kinda out of the blue but.. When will we get to go back to Forks?"

Everybody looked at each other.

"Well," Alice began. "When you and Rose.. Ugh.. You can probably guess. We're in Forks. So, next year maybe."

Everyone nodded.

"But then it has only been 3 years." Esme said. "That's not enough. We need approximately 25! Other wise, people will notice we haven't changed."

"True."

"Maybe, if you wanted to go back to Washington, we could just go to Rainier." Carlisle suggested. "I could work at the hospital there, you kids could go to Rainier High school.." Carlisle thought aloud. "That could work."

We all nodded. "Maybe, when I get my license, I could visit Forks!" I asked. "I could visit some of my old friends."

"Sure."

I smiled in delight. "Speaking of drivers license.."

"Be patient Em.." Esme said, and smiled at me. "Soon."

I sighed. "Okay.. Do I buy my car?"

"Like you have enough," Jasper laughed, and punched Em in the arm playfully. "You couldn't even afford Bella's old Chevy!"

"Hey!" Bella said. "My truck was a perfectly.. Descent car!"

"Su-re it was." Jasper said, and pulled out the word 'sure'.

"Emmett!" Alice burst out. "The Cullens must drive in style!"

"Don't worry Em," Carlisle said. "We'll buy you a car."

"Thanks so much." I said. Mom and Dad were so kind to do this for me.

"Maybe someone could teach me!" I looked around at them. "Eddie?!"

"Not this again!" Edward moaned. Everybody laughed.

I had totally forgot about my chips, and began eating them again. "Mmm.."