Chapter 4: Is This Jealousy

Rated: M

Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts!

Sora POV

Riku hasn't been answering his phone for days going on a month and I'm starting to worry about him. He shows up to class, but when I try to talk to him afterwards, he disappears. Now he has completely disappeared and hasn't shown up at all. To tell you the truth, I really don't know where he lives. This is so strange! I wish I knew more about him then there wouldn't be so many problems. Sighing I tossed my phone on the bed and laid beside it. Riku where are you? I closed my eyes and tried to sleep my troubles away, but then my phone began vibrating and I answered it quickly. I didn't know what to say at first and I didn't want to sound too excited.

"H-Hello?"

"Sora! I haven't talk to you for a while! Where have you been?" Wow I've been so wrapped up in Riku that I forgot about Tidus. I feel like such a jerk.

"Tidus I'm so sorry! I'll make it up to you tomorrow!" Now to pick the time and the place so I can take my mind off of all of this.

"So we can hang out tomorrow? Cool! Can Kairi come along?"

"Kairi will always be with us!" I laughed.

"Let's meet at the ice cream shop at 12PM." Damn it Tidus, I wanted to pick the time, but it was going to be the same thing he said anyway. I shrugged even though he couldn't see it.

"Twelve o'clock it is and you better not be late since I'm treating."

"I won't, Sora!"

"Promise?"

"Promise." We laughed it off once more and then we both hung up after we finished talking. Tidus always made me laugh, but he gets me in trouble sometimes. But because of him, I was able to meet Riku…

"What am I thinking?!" I messed up my hair and slammed back down on the bed. I can't keep thinking about him everyday. I don't know why my mind focuses on Riku more than anything. All of a sudden my mind flashes back to everything we've done together. I don't want to admit it. I can't bring myself to admit that…..I like him. It feels more than that, but I don't know if I can prove that right now.

Next Day

"Alright it's twelve o'clock and Tidus is no where in sight." I put my hand over my eyes and expect that knucklehead to pop out somewhere.

"Maybe he's stuck doing something again." Kairi said drinking her milkshake.

"Yea 'stuck' doing something." I took a long slurp from my drink that made Kairi giggle.

"SORA, I MADE IT!" Tidus freaking snuck up on me and made me waste my drink on my clothes.

"Damn it Tidus!" I grabbed all the napkins I could find to wipe this mess and it wasn't enough!

"Dude I could get you some more—"

"No it's okay I got it." I walked around the corner of the ice cream shop and asked for more napkins. The female that worked in the shop shared a laugh with me and my condition. The shop was a decent place. Everyone was nice and the service was great. What's even better was the scenery. It was so beautiful, well for mostly couples, but I thought it was nice. I wish I was one of those couples. Being happy with someone sounds like the best thing in the world.

On my way back my body stopped moving upon what I just saw walk by. Was that Riku…..with Joshua? I clutched the napkin tightly in my hand and pressed my back against the wall. I never felt so furious in my life. I wanted to go on a rampage. Why was he with him out of all people! And to see why he hasn't been answering his damn phone. Maybe hitting Riku with a textbook had really made him lose his mind. My chest was just burning with rage. I just turned away and took a deep breath. It's okay Sora, this means nothing to you. Riku and I are just friends. But why the hell do I feel like this?! I covered my face on the wall and rested my head on my arms. This was the worse feeling ever. Shutting my eyes I felt a tear go down my face. Why am I crying? As ridiculous as this was, I couldn't really understand what was going on.

"Hey Sora are you alright— Sora are you crying? Look man it's just a shirt and I've seen you wear it like six times."

"Tidus I swear you are not helping the situation!" I can't believe he actually thought I was crying over a damn shirt. W-what was I crying over again? Was I crying over Riku? What is wrong with me?

"So, about my treat..."

"TIDUS!" I hit him upside the head with a stack of napkins. He kept laughing hysterically when Kairi walked up to me a placed a tissue on my nose.

"Blow into the tissue for me, Sora." I mumbled under my breath and blew into the tissue. I'm glad I had friends that cared for me. Without them I would be so lost right now.

"What were you crying about anyway?" Kairi asked.

"I seriously don't remember…" I scratched my head and lied. I don't want them to know what is going on with me.

"Really, Sora…" Kairi said shaking her head.

"W-What? Tidus distracted me and made me mad!" I explained chasing after Kairi who decided to walk away. I don't know what Riku is up to, but I really shouldn't get involved. I don't know why it has to affect me this way. I mean crying, really?

"Sora I'm starving what are you doing?!" Tidus ran up to me and began complaining.

"Letting you starve for ruining my shirt."

"No fair!" I gave him a noogie and made him groan in agony. I'm not going to let him starve, though he did talk bad about my favorite shirt he ruined. Ugh, how in the world am I going to get this stain out? Then I felt something rest on my shoulder. Wait…Kairi and Tidus were already walking up ahead. I jumped and twisted what ever it was on my shoulder and heard a yelp.

"Ouch, Sora you got a good grip. Can you let go now?" Neku? What was he doing here?

"What do you want?" I asked.

"No need to get feisty, I came here to claim what's mine." He got closer, but I stopped him before he got too close for comfort.

"I'm not interested in you for the last time." I bluntly put it and tried to walk away but I was stopped.

"Who said it was you I wanted to claim? Don't you want Riku back?" I turned to him. Do I want Riku back? Of course I want him back! What the hell was I saying? I sound like heartbroken ex. But it's how I felt and I never knew this could be so troublesome.

"Ah so you're realizing that you like him—"

"I don't!"

"You do, you're just in denial." I looked to the ground and thought to myself. He was right. I just can't admit that I like him.

"But what does this have to do with you claiming what you want?"

"Joshua is mine." I looked at the serious expression on his face.

"But yesterday, Riku didn't want anything to do with him and Joshua was the one who kept calling until he showed up." Neku stopped me from finishing before he turned and looked away.

"It's my fault it turned out this way."

"You're fault? But I still don't understand how Riku came into the equation."

"Why don't you ask him yourself, when you see him that is." I'm going to see Riku?

"Now?"

"Close to now." Why so soon? I just caught him with Joshua, cried about, and now he wants me to confront him. My day has officially been ruined from where I see it.

"How long will this take?" I asked.

"I don't know, depends on when we catch up with them" Neku replied shoving his hands in his pockets.

"Hey Sora are you coming—"

"Sorry Tidus I'll catch up with you guys later!" I forked over my money to Tidus and walked off with Neku. I don't know why I'm doing this but I want to smack myself for it.

"That means you owe me another treat!"

"Oh, whatever!" I waved him off and he laughed running off with Kairi to who knows where.

"Alright Neku, where the hell are we going?"

"To your boyfriend's house." Neku said making me scream at the top of my lungs.

"He's not my boyfriend!"

"You're in denial again." I just wanted to punch this man in his jaw. Stay calm Sora, you don't want to bludgeon another person.

"But why his house out of all places?" I asked.

"That's where Joshua is going to follow him..." After that he kept quiet for a long time. This must have hurt him more than ever.

Riku POV

"Are you going to keep following me?" Joshua was annoying me and there was no way to get away from him. I'm too busy to deal with all this bull shit.

"As many times I'm going to tell you, I want you. You were the only one that comforted me when Neku left." He paused and sighed to myself. I can recall of that night like it was yesterday. It was the biggest mistake I've made.

Flashback

I was sitting in a bar with a couple of friends. The music was soothing and lights were dim. I was a little drunk, but thanks to my mature looks and fake ID, I was having a good time. There weren't that many people tonight so I didn't have to kick anyone's ass that got out of line. All of a sudden my eyes met with this one person sitting alone. We stared at each other for what felt like a minute and broke our gaze. My friends caught on to this and urged me to talk to him. I really didn't know what to do, but being a confident ass I decided to talk to him.

And that's were my mistake took off.

"You look like you're having a ball over there." He chuckled to himself.

"Oh you think so? Maybe you should come join us." I laughed.

"I think I'd rather be alone tonight. I have a lot on my mind." The blonde twirled his drink.

"Mind telling me what's going on? There must be something wrong for someone as beautiful as you to be all by themselves at this time of night." He gave me this shocked expression before giving me a smile. I took his hand and kissed it before speaking.

"My name is Riku. And you are…"

"Joshua, though I'm quite flattered you're going through all of this just to get to know me."

"Hey, I don't like the fact that you're alone. Did you come here with someone?" I asked, but his expression changed. He looked away and closed his eyes. I shouldn't have asked that if he was going to do this.

"I-I'm sorry I didn't mean to ask that." I apologized hoping he wouldn't be upset.

"No it's alright. It's not you. It's just….my boyfriend hasn't been himself lately." Joshua said without turning to me.

"We barely talk even though we live with each other, and he leaves late at night. I rarely see him at home now. He's always on the go and never has time for me anymore. I feel so….lonely." The blonde stopped twirling his drink and began circling the rim of the glass. What kind of boyfriend would give up someone this special? I would love to put my foot p this guy's ass.

"I'm sorry, I wish there was someone out here for you. I'm sure there is." If so I wish I could be there for him. So I thought.

"You really think so?" He looked as if there was still hope for him out there. His smile appeared and that made me feel much better.

"Yeah, I'm sure." I rested my hand on his lap without realizing, making him jump.

"I'm so sorry! It's those damn drinks I had. I bet it is!" Joshua laughed out loud and made me join in with him.

"You apologize so much. You're sweet, but it's alright. Besides, your hands are warm." He took both my hands and placed them up to his face. In the meantime, our conversation continued as we shared a couple of laughs. My friends already left and we were still talking.

"It's getting late, will you be able to get home in your condition?" I asked since he's been drinking like a fish. His so called 'boyfriend' had a huge affect on him.

"I-I'm sure…" He tried to stand and ended up falling back into his seat followed by a laugh.

"If it's alright with you, I could take you to my place. I promise I won't do anything funny." I didn't intend on doing anything, but I did have enough rooms for a guest to stay over.

"I'm going to have to trust you on your word." I helped him stand up and we headed out the door. Luckily I didn't live too far so we could just walk to my place. I lived in a pretty roomy condo on the top floor so no one had access except for me. I opened my door and turned on the lights. His face lit up to how nice it was.

"This place is bigger and better than mines!"

"I would love to give you a tour, but you're in no condition to even move." I said pulling off my jacket.

"I actually can, just watch—" I don't understand why he even tried, but I caught him before he hit the floor. I fell back on the couch with him and he landed on top. We held that same gaze we had earlier and didn't break away. Before I knew it, he moved closer and placed his lips on mines.

"W-Wait, what are you doing? I didn't expect you to do anything funny." I pushed him back. He was stunned by his own reactions and became upset.

"Sorry, I just haven't felt this happy in a while. I'll just leave."

"I'm not letting you walk out this late. It's too dangerous." He tried to snatch his arm away, but I pulled him close.

"I don't want to trouble you." I sighed and sat him down on the couch with me.

"Look, it's alright." I said and he looked as if he were about to break down, but he refused to look at me. I grabbed his chin and turned his face towards me. His lips felt so good against mines, I couldn't help but return the previous action he did. Joshua gave me a puzzled looked and I brushed the hair away from his porcelain face.

"I'll make you forget everything about your boyfriend." I pushed him back on the couch and leaned over him.

He clung on to me as we laid in a sweaty mess. He could barely control himself as his voice echoed off my walls. I just continued to thrust into him and make him forget his sorrows. From the looks of it, it sure was working. He was out of breath and so was I. How long have we been at this? I wasn't quite sure, but maybe the drinks I had are making me do this. Who knows, but it felt good anyway. But to think that doing this would lead up to my troubles today.

The next morning came so quickly that it literally hit me with its blinding lights. I tried to move, but something was holding me in place. At first I was going to fight what ever it was on me, but I turned out to be the person I had a one night stand with. Oh shit. What the hell have I done? I knew I shouldn't have gone out that night. The blonde shifted and his eyes flickered open. He sat up and yawned, rubbing the crust from his eyes. I was still frightened by what I did last night. I'm so fucking stupid!

"Riku? Are you alright?" Great and he remembers my name.

"I don't know, you tell me." I tried to get out of my bed…wait my bed? When did I take this to my own bed? That's going on my 'things to wash' list.

"We have to keep this a secret between us…"

"There is no us. What happened last night was just a one time thing. I wouldn't dwell on it if I were you—"

"Unless you want me to give you away…" He looked up at me and smirked.

"What the hell did you just say?"

"You see Riku, I already knew you from the start. You and my boyfriend are somewhat associates."

"Associates?" He chuckled and wrapped his arms around my neck.

"You and Neku are part of the organization are you not?" Neku? I shoved him off of me and stood far away from the bed. So this whole time he was with Neku? And he had the nerve to laugh at this.

"Get your shit, and get the fuck out of my house."

"Why soon? We were just getting acquainted with each other." He pushed me too far, so I slapped him as hard as I could and grabbed him by his arm. I dragged him to the elevator and tossed his belongings at him.

"You're just going to let me go just like this?" He was still holding his glowing red cheek after hitting him. I didn't give a damn how he left, as long as he got the hell away from me before I hurt him even more. I slammed my fist on the elevator button door and sent it back to the bottom floor. Thank goodness I only have access to this floor. Once the doors closed I wiped my face with my hands. I really was in some deep shit now. I slept with my rival's lover. Fucking fantastic.

End of Flashback

Joshua would not stop following me. It had to be a day when I'm trying to have time for myself. I hope Sora isn't mad at me for this. I haven't been in contact with Sora for almost over a month. I would be mad too if I were him.

"Are you listening to me?" Joshua took me out of my thoughts and back into reality.

"I try not to."

"Riku you can't keep ignoring me like this. What we did helped me realize what I wanted." He backed me into a corner and pressed himself against me. He rested his head on my chest and held on to my jacket tightly. Sighing to my self I pushed him off and crossed my arms.

"You really think I want to get involved with your shit? Are you serious?" His actions were uncalled for when I felt his hands wrap around my throat. Why did I leave my guard down around him? He appears to be weak but right now his grip was strong as hell.

"This is your fault! If I hadn't been with you, Neku wouldn't have left me for good."

"My fault? You tricked me into sleeping with you!"

"You took me home with you!"

"You were in no condition to go home by yourself that late. I was trying to help you!" His grip got tighter around my neck as I tried to pry him off. He sucked his teeth, but then he smirked in my face and leaned closer.

"Neku will get you back for what you've done." I'm officially convinced this bitch is crazy. I doubt that punk could lay a finger on me. Joshua began laughing to himself, but I was confused when I saw him get snatched away and slammed onto the wall.

Sora POV

I haven't felt so good in my life and it took so long to find them. Too long at that but on the other hand I haven't been so angry in my life, not counting the textbook incident. But I didn't know who to be mad at, Joshua or Riku? Hell I didn't care as long as I blew off some damn steam and got to the bottom of this. I held Joshua against the wall by his head as he continued to struggle.

"Get off of me you bastard!" As he wished, I grabbed his arm and pulled me towards me, landing a hard fist in his face as he fell to the ground. Next on my list was Riku.

I walked over and stood in front of him. He could only stare with wide eyes looking at both me and Joshua.

"And people said I was dangerous…" Riku said.

"What the hell has been going on with you? You haven't returned my calls and avoided me for almost a fucking month you ass! I was worried about you and then I see you with Joshua. I-I was so mad I didn't know what to do…" I felt tears fall down my face again and looked away.

"Are you…..jealous?"

"No the hell I'm not! Why would I be jealous over someone like you?"

"You're in denial." Neku stepped out.

"Fuck you!" I wiped my tears away. This was so embarrassing.

"Sora, why the hell are you with Neku? I told you to stay away from him."

"And why do you care? Are you jealous?" I yelled back. Don't change the damn subject just because Neku is here.

"Sora…" Riku tried to reach out to me, but I slapped his hand away and scratched him on his cheek. There was a huge pause when he lowered his head and felt the cheek I scratched. My face was still holding an angry gaze at him. I was too pissed to care about anything.

One swift movement and I ended up trapped on the wall. Riku's gaze was so brutal. Worse than the time we met. His hand was placed on my neck in a firm grip when he leaned in and kissed me roughly. I tried to push him off of me, but I never felt this kind of force from him before. He moved back and saw my face. Shit, I was scared of what he was going to do next, but I wasn't angry anymore I know that much. Truthfully, I missed this forceful side of him. It felt so good in a strange way, but now wasn't the time to think on it. I had to get away. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me away from the wall and into the building around the corner. I tried to pull myself out of his grip by pulling him, but he yanked me back easily. He pressed the elevator button making the doors open. He didn't hesitate to just toss me up against the wall in the elevator car. He had this special card that he tapped in the elevator and once the doors closed I was stuck with him. Damn it how the hell was I supposed to get away from him in an elevator?

He pulled me close with his arm wrapped around my waist and began kissing down my neck. I used both my hands to push him, but he wouldn't budge. Coming back to my face, his lips met mines and he squeezed my side, making me yelp which allowed his tongue to access into my mouth. The elevator door opened and he threw me out roughly. I landed on the floor and began backing away. He just simply walked over to me and held me in place while he opened his door. My mind didn't know what to do. I couldn't fight him off and I sure as hell wasn't going to make him angrier than what he was now. Crying wasn't going to save me now. I'm officially screwed.

"Riku stop I'm sorry!" I tried to get him to let me go, but he threw me over his shoulder and continued walking. Attempting to resist was unnecessary and he proved his point with that. I was thrown back on a bed and I watched him throw his jacket on the side and climb over me. I looked away from his gaze and shut my eyes. I felt his tongue climb up from my neck to the side of my face. His hands roamed my body until he reached my pants and that's when I began to struggle.

"Riku no stop please!" He didn't listen and pushed me back down. Feeling his hands slip into my pants I jolt to the sudden feeling of pleasure as he squeezed and rubbed against the fabric of my underwear. It felt weird so I grabbed his forearm and tried to remove it to no avail. I felt so ashamed to have moaned to his touch. He continued this motion in my pants when I sat up slowly.

"Riku…" I said and began stroking his forearm instead of fighting. I gave in. He smirked when I leaned down to his arm and began nipping at it. His motion sped up after I dragged my tongue up and down his arm to signal him for more. Hate to say this, but I was enjoying this. Was it scary? Yes. Did I care at the moment? Hell no. It was until later when I realized I was stripped of my clothes. No wonder why it was so chilly in here. How come he was still partially dressed when I laid here in the nude? I felt my face burn as I saw Riku just ogling my body. My legs were grabbed and spread apart widely when he pulled me closer to his hips. I'm surprised at how long he's kept quiet. The only thing that was heard was my moans and that was embarrassing enough. Pain was the first thing I felt shoot through me as I grasped the bed sheets tightly and gritted my teeth. He wasn't holding back at all! I didn't want to look, but it felt like I was going to split in two. I screamed when I felt him force himself all the way in. I covered my mouth and tears fell down both sides of my face as I laid there. Shaken by this, I closed my eyes. I didn't want to see his face. I couldn't bear to look. I was too scared to even say anything. He began moving all and I bit my tongue to hold back anymore of my screams. The pain was so unbearable. It pulsed throughout my body and I released my tongue from my teeth's clasp after tasting a small amount of blood.

"You are the only one I want, not Joshua. He means nothing to me." He said as he continued to thrust into me slowly. Finally he broke the silence.

"You are mines and mines only. Got that?" With that, the pain began to mix with the pleasure I was feeling when he thrust against a spot I never knew I had before.

"R-Riku…" These feelings, his words, it all felt surreal to me, but it was really happening. I didn't hold back and began moved with him. I never felt this before. I wanted more. The world didn't exist to me at this very moment. Hell, nothing did except for Riku. Amazing how everything led up to this. I don't know where my mind was. I couldn't even think of anything yet I was somehow forming these thoughts as Riku switched positions and pounding into me. Now I was on all fours begging for him to speed up. Though I can say this, he was such a brute in bed. It drives me wild when he acts like this even though it is frightening. I felt Riku collapse on me and we breathed heavily while tangled in the sheets. He kissed my shoulder and chuckled.

"You're lucky…I'm tired. You beast…" He rolled off of me and laid under the covers, throwing some over me. He kissed me on the lips and I moved close to return it. Our pecks evolved into a make out session as we just laid there wrapped in the sheets. He moved down to my shoulder, kissing and sucking that one spot that started to become tender while moving his hands around my body. Now I can restate what I said earlier. I haven't felt so good in my life. But will it last? I felt his arm wrap around me and pulled me closer.

"I love you." I heard him whisper to me and I replied, kissing him on his chest where my head rested. Now I was his possession and no one else's to claim.