Chapter 2
I was just staring at him, and he was looking at me like he was going to break everything around us. Christian was scaring me.
"I was.." I couldn't say it, I had to much alcohol in my blood, and I was terrified. "WHERE? TELL ME NOW ANASTACIA, OR I'LL LOSE IT" I don't know why, but I started crying.. he was so scary, I knew that he was worried, and jealous, and I knew he was 50 shades, but I just hoped that with me, somehow, he could be gentle.
"Oh, fuck Ana. Don't cry, I didn't mean to yell so much, but you just don't tell me anything!" he was still mad, but at least now I hasn't afraid that he was going to hit me or something. I've never seen him like that. "I'm sorry.. Christian" it was getting really hard to talk.
"HAVE YOU BEEN DRIKING?" Stupid question I thought, he already knew the answer to that. "It was just a few drinks" oh good, now I'm lying to him! "A few? How do you define a few Ana?" And he knew I was lying, damn.
"Maybe 4 or 5 vodkas" I honestly had no idea of how many drinks I had taken, but it was probably more than 4 vodkas. "Stop lying Anastasia. You can't even stand straight..FUCK ANA!" the next thing I remember I was throwing up all over the floor. He looked a little less angry.. I should tell him now, this is the moment.
"I was in a bar close to my apartment, and I was with… Ethan" I slipped and almost fell. And the anger was back.
"WHAT? DOING WHAT? Let me see if I'm getting this right. You left with Ethan to a bar when I told you to get back to Escala, you drank the whole bar, and then you came home. How did you came home really?" this was looking pretty bad.
"Ethan took me home." What was I supposed to say? I kissed him and he had to took me home 'cause I remembered that I love you? "At least the bastard did something logical. What else are you hiding from me?" He knew me so well.. "Nothing" I said. "Anastasia, WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO?" did he knew it already? No way, he couldn't.. but I just told him with my guilty face. "DID YOU SLEEP WITH HIM?" he was yelling even more than when I got home.
"No, how could you think that? Did you sleep with Leila? You left me to be with her!" now I was angry too!
"No Ana, what the hell. I just stayed with her because she was broke. I had to gave her a bath and I called Dr. Flynn." He said. He did what? He gave her a bath in my apartment?. "Why in the hell would you gave her a bath Christian?" I was normally not the jealous type, but I had to know everything now.
"It was nothing like that Ana, you're trying to run from the questions I'm making! What did you and Ethan do?"
"Nothing that you and Leila didn't" I answered. I was felling proud of myself for this answer. "What? Ana are you kidding me? I did nothing with Leila, but I don't think you have the same answer to me about you and Ethan."
I was feeling like crap right now. I really thought they were having sex.. When I saw them together, all I could think of was how much I was wrong for Christian, they belonged. Leila was the perfect submissive that I was never going to be.
"TELL ME NOW ANA, YOU'RE DRIVING ME INSANE!" he was going to leave me, I knew it. How stupid was i? How could I do that to him?. "YOU FUCKING SLEPT WITH HIM DIDIN'T YOU?" he kicked a chair and punched the balcony.
"I did not sleep with him, we just kissed, and it was nothing Christian. I was feeling like shit when you left me for Leila, I really thought you two were... " I stopped talking, but I needed to finish this. "You and Leila belong together, I'm nothing like her! I was never going to be enough for you." This time I was being honest.. I guess throwing up did a good thing for me. I looked at Christian and he was nodding his head like he was saying no. what was he thinking?
"You fucking kissed him. You did. How could you think that you were not good enough for me? You were everything I ever wanted, you changed me Ana, I don't need any of that stuff anymore. And you went and kissed another man? Like that was going to solve anything. I think you need to leave. Leave this apartment; I can't even look at you right right now. ! Sawyer is taking you out of here." I knew he has going to leave me, I just never thought that he would throw me out. I'm going to my apartment now? Where he was with her? That was making me feel disgusted.
"Miss Steele, where can I take you?" Sawyer was always so professional.. He noticed that I was not feeling well so he gave me some time to think. "Wait a minute please, I need to make a phone call" and It's going to be the last phone call I'm making from this phone.
"Hey, Ana! How are you? It's kinda late.. are you okay?" Jose was the only one I knew was going to take me without making any questions."
"Can I come over?" I asked. I knew that this was going to drive Christian insane, or maybe not. I has not going to my apartment, I would not bother Ethan again, and either way.. Christian left me already.
- Jose's Apartment -
"Thank you so much Jose" I could always count on José, he was such a good friend.. "Oh Ana, I'm always here for you" he was really sweet. Maybe Christian was right, maybe he did like me.. Maybe I could have been happy with José, but he was not Christian, and I was so in love with Christian.
"I just really need to sleep right now, I'm so tired" I couldn't feel my legs, or my heart. José told me that I could sleep in his bed, and that he would sleep on the couch.
- Fifty Shades of Jealousy -I was at José's apartment for almost 4 days now. Christian really didn't care, cause if he did, he would have sent Sawyer to check on me.. we were so over. And I was feeling like crap. I was working but sometimes I found myself just staring at nothing. I need to move on, but how? No one is ever going to be him.
My phone rings.
"Ana! How are you?" Mia? Why is Mia calling me? This was weird, we were friends of course but I'm sure everyone knows by now what I've done, she should hate me. "I miss you girl! Is there any chance that we can meet?" She wants us to meet? Why would she want that? Maybe she wants to tell me that I need to stay away from Christian, cause he is hurt, and that's my fault.
"Sure Sure, you can come by tomorrow for lunch?" I only had like 1 hour to lunch so maybe this was really the better time. "I was wondering if I could come over to your apartment, I really need to talk to you" WHAT? My apartment? Doesn't she know that I'm at Jose's? "Hm.. Mia, I'm staying at a friend's house" She already knows that, maybe she's testing my guilt. "Oh, are you? Crap.. so I can't come over, that would be weird right? Maybe we should talk on the phone then.. are you busy now?" what was so urgent that she needed to talk to me right a way? I was so curious that I stopped everything I was doing and said "I do, what's going on?".