Author : So, i know this is a really short one and i'm sorry, i'll make it up to you.

Chapter 5

"Dr. Flynn thank you so much for being here" Christian shacked his hand. His hands, I can't even look at them, they bring me memories of amazing things.

"It's my pleasure" Dr. Flynn seemed calm, if only he knew what was coming. "So, I know all about your situation, and I think we need to try something, maybe it could work" he knew all about our situation? What? Like me kissing another man? Christian fucking Elena? We both sited on two chairs, one in front of the other. "Ana, do you want to start?. No! I don't wanna start this.

"Fine." I' m not calm at all, but i know that he doesn't deserve my concerns anymore, this is just ridiculous. Christian is not talking, and he looks insecure, this is not the Christian that I know.

"Ok, so let's begin. Ana, I'm aware that you kissed another man while you were still dating him" oh fuck, he really knew the situation. Ok, let's do this.

"I did." I told him. What was supposed to say? He knew it all already, and so did Christian.

"Ok. Christian, how do you feel about that? Fuck, this is such a hard question; I don't think I wanna hear the answer to that.

"I hate it. How can u trust her? I did nothing wrong and she kisses another guy! Why? You know how jealous I am Ana; I can't stand another man near you, and imagining you fucking this guy... Gosh" He did nothing wrong? He's joking right? Fucking Ethan? He still thinks that we've slept together? I'm going to enjoy this; he needs to learn a lesson.

"You did nothing wrong? Fuck you Christian; you fucked another woman in my apartment! I told you I was sorry already, but you threw me out! You didn't event let me explain. And you know what? I'm glad that I slept with him. Now I know what kind of man you are, when there's trouble, you make me leave." That was brutal, but he needed that, he can't keep blaming me for everything!

"FUCK, you really slept with him didn't you? How could you Ana? I'M GOING TO KILL THAT BASTARD!"

He stands up and starts rubbing his hands through his hair. If he believes that I slept with another man, he doesn't know me at all. He didn't felt half the things I did when we were together.

"I did! And I freaking enjoyed it!" I didn't know that I was such a good liar, but he's being an ass with me and I need to make him feel like I am feeling right now.

"Hey, I think you both need to calm down, and start this over." Flynn was right, this was not getting us anywhere.

Christian nods and puts his hands on his knees. "Christian, do you have any question to ask Ana?" oh god, this is not looking pretty.

"Was he better than me? You know, in bed?" what kind of question is this? Is this that important to him? I need to keep this charade for now.

"Yes, he was great" I felt Christian falling apart right there; I could see in his eyes that this was all that he could take. He kept repeating the word "no no no"

"Ok Ana, it's your turn" I can ask him anything? Where should I begin?

"How long have you been with Elena?" He looked at me shocked like I was being stupid.

"Shit Ana, I'm not with Elena at all! I already answered that! I have nothing with her."

"You're lying! She told me everything!" I was almost crying, but I could. I can't show him that this hurts me.

"She spoke to you? Why? When? That woman is making this harder!" oh, I recognize those words, and what's the problem with her talking to me? At least she tells me the truth.

"She sent me an email, telling me how happy you two where, and that you pretty much enjoy her a lot in the bedroom" Christian stands up and grabs my arms. This was serious.

"Ana you have to believe me, I'm not sleeping with her, there's nothing between us, you're all I want, I'm so sorry that I kicked you out but you slept with another man, it fucking hurts me so much. Why? Why did you?"

"i felt like I wasn't enough to you, so at least I am enough to him, at least I seemed enough"

I'm proud of me; I was never this strong before.

"And if he is better than me... Then why are you here? SHOULDN'T YOU BE FUCKING HIM ALL DAY LONG? He was yelling again, and almost crying. I need to end this.

"I'm sorry I think that this session is over, I need to speak to Christian alone"

Dr. Flynn looked at me surprised. But I think that he understood that this was a private conversation from now on.

"Ok Ana, I think you're right, I'm going. Please keep calm when you're talking to each other."