Author's Note: Hello all of my fellow fanfic fanatics!! I sadly, still do not own Twilight or its characters! However I am the proud owner of Ana and Jade and they are pretty spiffy :D So as promised this is the first of possibly three installments of all Jade Chapters!!! I hope that you all enjoy it. I am tackling the task of showing Jade's more emotional side so bare with me if at first it isnt that great! I love you guys for the AMAZING reviews and tell you with all of my heart that you guys are what is keeping me inspired to breathing new life into this story! With all that mushy stuff said, sit back relax, READ, REVIEW, AND ENJOY Chapter 18!!!!!!!
Chapter 18: So This Is What It Is To Be Alone
Jade's POV
I can see the flashing of lights behind my eyelids and I groan as I roll over and right onto the floor.
" Damn it," I say throwing my arm over my eyes and I hear snickering. I open my eyes and stare into the smiling face of Emmett. " What are you doing?"
" Oh nothing, just taking sickly adorable and vomit inducing pictures of you and Edward cuddled on the couch," he says waving a digital camera in front of my face. I glare at him angrily and make a reach for the camera. He pulls it just out of my reach laughing at me.
" Nope I don't think so Jade, these are going to be awesome on my myspace page," he says a teasing tone in his voice.
" You wouldn't dare," I say looking at him threateningly.
" Oh but I would, but who knows maybe I can be bought of, for a price," he says looking at me seriously.
" Name it," I say through clenched teeth. I don't care what the price is, I don't want pictures of me anywhere. Ana has a hard enough time getting me to take pictures and she is my best friend.
" I want the rest of your mint chocolate chip ice cream," he says, looking at me innocently. Come on now that's just hitting below the belt. I seriously consider it. 'Hmm, pictures on myspace, or losing my ice cream?' I think to myself, what the hell I can always buy more ice cream.
" Fine, eat the damn ice cream, but first you have to swear to me that you wont post those pictures, or else I will tell Rosalie that I saw you walking out of the student clinic carrying a prescription for herpes cream," I say and I smile smugly to myself. His smile falters slightly and I high five myself invisibly.
" Fair enough," he says looking through the pictures he had just taken. I look around and realize that other than Edward still sleeping on the couch , Emmett and I are the only ones in the room.
" Where is everyone?" I ask, sitting up stretching.
" I don't know, Rose and I left to get something to eat and when we came back everyone but you two seemed to have disappeared," he says shrugging his shoulders. I get to my feet throwing a blanket nonchalantly over Edward's sleeping form.
" Maybe Ana is upstairs," I say more to myself than to Emmett as I walk towards the stairs. I walk lazily to our room contemplating the fact that, sleeping, wrapped warmly in Edward's arms, is the best sleep I have gotten in a long time. I open the door to my room and look around.
" Ana," I call out wondering half-heartedly if she is in the closet. A piece of folded paper on my pillow catches my attention. I pick it up and recognize Ana's neat, girly handwriting. I open the paper half smiling. I think the last time Ana left me a note was when we were in high school. Immediately my happy thoughts of ridiculous randomness that usually awaits in a note from my best friend falls away from me. 'I don't know how long I will be gone, or if I will come back at all,' echoes in my head. It's almost as if I can hear her voice sadly repeating this one line over and over again. What the hell happened? I think to myself. I clutch the note in my hand as I race downstairs.
" Edward," I say loudly causing him to jump awake.
" What?" he asks rubbing his face sleepily. I thrust the note into his hands and I watch him read it as I wrap my arms tightly around me, steeling myself against my emotions.
" What the hell happened? How long was I asleep, a year?" he asks, looking just as bewildered as I felt. I just shrug my shoulders trying to think over the possibilities as I take the note back from him. The last time I saw Ana she and Jasper were making out. Jasper, you idiot, Jasper,' my head screams at me.
" I am about to find out what the hell happened," I say storming back up the stairs before Edward or Emmett could catch up to me. I pound loudly on Jasper's door. It opens revealing an exhausted and upset looking Jasper.
" What the hell did you do?" I ask pushing him back a full step.
" What are you talking about?" he asks, and I can tell by the light in his eyes that he knows exactly what I am talking about.
" You know what I am talking about," I throw at him accusingly as I thrust the note against his chest. He catches it before it floats to the floor and he reads over the note, his eyes scanning the paper. His hand begins shaking as he finishes reading and he looks at me his eyes gleaming with guilt. We stood in a tense silence for a minute before he starts talking, he sits on his bed laying his head in his hands.
" She over heard a discussion that Alice and I were having. I said some things I didn't mean I was just so angry," he says his voice thick with emotions.
" What kind of things did you say?" I ask my voice shaking with the tears that I refuse to left fall.
" Things like I am only having fun with Ana, that it isn't anything serious, and that it isn't my fault if Ana is stupid enough to be in love with me," he says running his hands through his hair. I react instinctively slapping him so hard that his head snaps back. I didn't even notice that Emmett, Edward, and Rosalie were watching from the hallway until Rosalie grabs my hand as I lift it for a second time ready to strike him again.
" Jade, don't. He isn't worth it," she says, her eyes shining brightly as she looks at me. I can feel my body shaking as Edward pulls me to his side into the hallway. Emmett and Rosalie close Jasper's door and voices murmur through the door. Edward pulls me into my room and shuts the door behind us. I stand in the middle of my room and realize that the emptiness that I feel now is only going to get worse as long as my best friend is missing in action. Edward wraps his arms tightly around me hugging me against his body. I start shaking and I know what is coming. I know I am going to cry and I know that it isn't going to be pretty. I never cry, I taught myself at a young age that tears equaled weakness. I shake his hug off and step away from him.
" Jade," he says, his voice filled with undeniable concern. I shake my head slowly .
" I just want to be alone," I say, my voice sounds hollow as I say the words. He sighs heavily before I hear him opening and closing the door. I walk to Ana's bed, picking up her pillow and I press my face into it. It still smells like her perfume and that sends me over the edge as I let go of my control and sob uncontrollably into her pillow. My whole body shakes with the sobs and it isn't until this moment that I realize that I am completely and undeniably alone.