Author's Note: Hey Everyone! Sorry that it took so long, it has been a very long weekend to say the least! Any doodles, I dont now, nor have I ever owned Twilight or its characters. However, Ana & Jade are mine all mine :D So due to popula demand, I have decided that their will be a lot more chapters that involve Jade Pov's if not full Jade chapters. I thought writing this story that it would mostly be about Ana and Jasper's relationship, but Jade has just evolved into such a great charcter and her relationship with Edward has just become too big for her to play a side role. So I guess now this is a Jasper/Edward/OC/OC kind of story. Anyways enough with the rambling from me, please sit back, relax, READ & REVIEW! Here is Chapter 24 of ICFY!!!!!!!!!!
P.S Once again, thank you all sooo very much for the wonderful reviews, seriously you all are sooo amazingly awesome you have no idea :D
Chapter 24: Don't Lie and Say That It's Okay
" Jade hold on, where are you going, will you just stop?" I yell after her, racing behind her as fast as I can. She stops abruptly and I run into her, grabbing onto her shoulder to stop myself from falling over. "What the hell was all of that about? What did you mean by he has heard your thoughts? Did you tell him you were in love with him while I was gone or something" She just stares at me, her big eyes gleaming with anger, but it's the pain I see in them that has my blood boiling.
" It's nothing just forget that I even said anything, okay? Just drop it," Jade says, her voice shaking as she turns away from me. I grab her arm turning her to look at me.
" Seriously Jade? How long have we known each other, and you are going to sit here and try telling me it was nothing, when you are shaking with anger, and even worse I can see your in pain," I say, grabbing her into a tight hug. Her body stiffens at first until finally she starts hugging me back. Then it happens. She starts crying, her body shaking with it. I pull her down to the ground with me, hugging her and rocking, letting her ride out the wave of emotion.
" He knows I am in love with him Ana, he knows, and he looked at me so coldly. Like I was nothing, like what we had was nothing," she says, the words tumbling out over the tears. I open my mouth to say something when I hear footsteps approaching. I look up to see Jasper and Edward looking at us. I can feel all of the angry words I can think of to say building inside of me, but I swallow them roughly.
" Is she okay?" Edward's voice rings out, and I can feel Jade begin shaking with fresh tears. I shake my head roughly, hoping he would get the point. Of course he didn't. Its so typical of him, he never takes a hint and just leaves you be. I have to at least give that much to Jasper, through all of the crap he put me through, he knew when to back off. Save for the flowers, balloons and teddy bear. I eye him precariously as he steps off of the porch and starts walking towards us. I can feel my muscles bunch as I prepare myself to launch at him if I have too. Or get the chance to in all honesty, because I feel like punching him in his face at this very moment. One thing about these Washington boys, never before them have I felt so inclined to stoop to physical violence before meeting them.
" Jade, please, come talk to me," Edward says as he kneels down so that he is right in front of us. 'If only I could shift this foot just the right way, I could so get him right where it will hurt the most,' I think to myself with a bit of dark amusement.
" Edward, don't you think that if she wanted to talk to you she would have stayed upstairs yelling at you?" I ask, tightening my arms around her instinctively. I hear Jade sniffle loudly against my shoulder before she pulls away to look at him. I watch them stare at each other, almost as if they are having a silent conversation, a thousand words passing between them in the silence. Edward reaches out his hand, pulling Jade to her feet.
" Jade, wait," I say struggling to circulate feeling through my sleeping legs. She looks solemnly over my shoulder, and looks at me.
" It's okay Ana," she says as she follows behind Edward. That is one of the million things that I have always admired about Jade. She never runs from her problems, she always faces them head on, even when she knows that in the end she will most likely end up with a broken heart.
" She'll be okay you know? Edward, he doesn't play around with emotions," Jasper's soft voice says from the porch. I turn to look at him, the soft light shining down on him, illuminating the paleness of his skin.
" That at least makes one of you," I say, walking past him into the house. As nice as the last week of forgetting the problem at hand has been, I know that there are still answers I am seeking. I still want to know why, if Jasper doesn't feel for me the way that I feel for him, he has been leading me on. Most of all, I want to know why I cant seem to fall out of love with him.
Jade's POV
Sitting in the cold air I should be shivering as I stare at Edward, but the anger and pain courses through me as hot as fire, shielding my body from the night air. I don't know how much time has passed, all I know is that if Edward doesn't start talking soon I am walking away. I will walk back to Seattle for all I care.
" That wouldn't be a smart idea," Edward's velvety voice rings through the air, his breath puffing out in a white cloud.
" Stop reading my mind," I hiss out, crossing my arms tightly across my chest. I glare at him, waiting to see what he has to say for himself.
" Listen, I know that there are no words that can make what I said to you excusable. All I can say is that I am sorry. It's just what Bella said, it just pissed me off so much, and it drug up all of these old feelings that I thought were long gone," he says, his words rushing into each other as he nervously shoves his hands into his pockets.
" Answer just one question Edward," I say, my voice shaking. " Do you still love her?" I wait for his answer. I can almost count the breath's he takes. I can feel my heart sinking, as the knowledge takes me over. ' Just like Jasper, he's just like Jasper,' the voice in my head screams at me.
" No, yes, no, I don't know Jade," he finally says spinning away with me frustration in his voice. I watch him as he paces and I can feel my heart breaking slowly, falling away. " It's just what she said on the phone, it has me all mixed up."
" What did she say?" I ask, rubbing my hands together, hoping that some warmth will reach my finger tips.
" She said she is pregnant, seven months pregnant to be exact," he shudders out. " We were together only one time, in our whole relationship, and it was exactly a month before she broke up with me and left." With that single confession everything I thought, or hoped could be fell away.
" Do you believe her?" I ask, my heart pounding so loudly I can hear it beating in my ears. He looks up at me, and I feel hurt for him. He looks tired as he looks at me, running a shaky hand through his hair.
" Yes," he says, grimacing like the word he said tastes as bad as it is for me to hear.
" What are you going to do?" I ask, steeling myself against the new wave of rage.
" What has to be done," he says, walking slowly towards me to sit next to me. I look at him, where he sits.
" Edward, do you love her?" I ask again, willing him to say no. Just say no.
" I don't know. All that I know is that she is carrying my child and I have to do right by that child," he says, his eyes lock on mine. I close my eyes on a heavy sigh. His warm hand reaches through the darkness touching my face softly. " But it doesn't stop me from being in love with you Jade." I stop breathing as I launch myself to my feet walking away from him. I gasp for air, trying to un-hear his words.
" You cant say something like that to me," I say, turning my burning eyes towards him. " You cant in one breath tell me that you don't know if you love her and you have to do right by your child, and turn around and tell me that you are in love with me. That isn't fair Edward and you know it." he walks towards me grabbing me in a tight hug, and I struggle against him, trying to pull away from the embrace.
" You had to know. I couldn't let you walk away tonight thinking that what I said upstairs had any truth to it. From the first night that we were together, and well before that, I have been in love with you. I only wish that I would have told you before this moment," he whispers into my hair. I tighten my body against him, and wait for him to release me. He runs his hand through my hair, brushing a dark lock from my face, and bends down to brush his warm lips against my forehead. I watch as he walks over the grass and disappears around the side of the house. My shaky legs finally give out as I fall weightlessly to the ground curling into myself. 'I love you Edward, don't go, I love you,' I think to myself over and over again in the darkness.
Ana's POV
The ride home from Forks was quiet. What was supposed to be a laid back, easy going trip to visit our friends' family, instead turned into a weird, moralistic episode of Jerry Springer. Jade laid out everything for me, her voice sounding distant and disconnected. I lay in our room still trying to wrap my head around the fact that Edward's ex-girlfriend was pregnant. I have my doubts. As any sane person would. Who hides a pregnancy for so long, without a whisper of it to the soon-to-be father. I sit up looking around and see that Jade's bed is empty. It's been that way for the last two days. She has been rising early spending all free time she has before and after classes in the lab, avoiding any and all possibility of running into Edward. Have to give it to the girl, when she wants to avoid someone, she gives it a one hundred and ten percent effort. I walk down stairs in search of a quick bite to eat before getting ready for my first class. I stop at the door as I see Jasper sitting at the table, reading a book. I haven't really talked to him since the night in Forks, and though a part of me feels guilty for what I said, another part of me isn't. It really is tiring to always feel like I am torn in two. Fighting the internal war of right and wrong. I walk to the fridge pulling it open trying to discreetly get what I want and get the hell out before Jasper even notices I am there.
" Good morning," Jasper says, and I groan inwardly. No such luck today, apparently.
" Morning," I say back pulling out a carton of yogurt.
" Haven't really seen Jade around much," he says, putting his book down, signaling to me that he was in the mood for a long, drawn out conversation. I pull a spoon from the drawer and slide it shut carefully.
" Can you blame her?" I ask, slipping myself onto the counter eating my yogurt slowly.
" Not really," he says, a small smile flirting with his lips. " I never thought, out of all of us that Edward would be the one."
" The one to what?" I ask curiously eyeing him over my yogurt.
" To get someone pregnant. Personally, and as much as I love my sister and Em, I always thought they would be first, they go at it like teenage jack rabbits," he says jokingly and I catch myself wrapped up in the humor.
" Well, at least as far as all of us know they have been smart about it," I say, setting my breakfast aside to look at him. An awkward silence falls between us and I am just about to slide off of the counter and make a fast exit when Jasper gets up and walks to me.
" Ana, listen. Something that you said this weekend, well, you were right," he says, leaning against the counter staring at me.
" I was right about what exactly?" I ask, nervously playing with the lid to the yogurt.
" About all of it. You have been right all along. I do know how you feel, and I have been using it to my advantage," he says, his face growing red with his confession. I just nod my head, knowing now that all along I was right about him. " But your wrong, when you think that I don't feel something for you. It's just that, its complicated to say the least." I stare at him, his hair still messy from sleep.
" I'm pretty sure its not as complicated as you think," I say, swinging my legs back and forth.
" Well, if you would just give me the chance to, " he starts, his voice cut off by the sound of the door bell ringing. 'Shit,' I think to myself. I roll my eyes as I hop off the counter.
" Don't go anywhere, I want you to finish that thought," I say walking to the front door. I pull open the front door, and see nothing but the back of someone's head. Brown hair falls luxuriously down their back and it blows easily from their shoulder as the faceless person turn to look at me. Recognition comes first as I realize that I am staring at the very pretty, very pregnant Bella.
" Bella?" Jasper questioning tone calls from behind me, and a smile forms on her face. She places one hand on her expanded waist and the other protectively over her stomach.
" Hey Jasper, is Edward here?" she asks, her light airy voice breezes out.
" Oh uhm yeah, why don't you come in. Sit down, relax," he says, walking out of the room. I step aside letting her in.
" Are you Jade," she asks, as she sits down eyeing me wearily.
" No, I'm Ana. Jade's my best friend," I say, my words coming out harsher than I intend for them too. " Damn it, I'm sorry. I don't mean to go into bitch mode, its just," I start saying and she laughs shaking her head.
" Listen, its okay. I understand," she says, wincing slightly as she moves in her chair.
" Are you okay?" I ask, panic rushing through me. 'Oh God, please, do not let this girl go into labor, not here, and definitely not when I am around, please, please, please,' I pray silently.
" Oh yeah, she just likes to move around a lot that's all," she says, rubbing her hand over her stomach nonchalantly.
" Bella," Edwards voice rings through the room, and I turn my head to see an astonished look on his face.
" Hi," she says, smiling, pulling herself up with help from the arm of the chair. I get up to leave the room and give them privacy when the front door slams open and shut.
" Can you believe it? The stupid lab is shut today, don't they know I am trying to avoi-" Jade's says, her voice trailing off as she turns and see's not only me, Edward, and Jasper, standing staring at her, but Bella too.
" You have got to be kidding me," she says, looking at everyone. I shoot my eyes towards Jasper, praying that somehow he will point me in the direction of a safe way out, because all hell is about to break loose.
