Chapter 4: A Real Nightmare
Dreams in Italics:
"Do you really think that I need you Tai?"
"You are nothing but a useless piece of shit"
"You don't deserve to be living anymore."
"Maybe I should have just let you kill yourself that day in the bathroom"
"NO, you don't really mean that" Tai cried
"Of course I do. Would I ever lie to you?"
Tai looked down knowing it was the truth Matt would never lie to him
"I knew that you would see that what I was saying was the truth, you stupid freaking fag"
"Would it make you happy if I just killed myself then you would e without the burden of me and Kari could have a decent life" Tai said sobbing.
At this Tai was violently shook by some force "Who is it now? Come to kick me while I am down? Everyone would be better off without my burden."
"Tai, please come back to me, I can't do anything without you, please Tai I need you." Matt was sobbing after hearing what Tai was saying in his sleep
Tai slowly started to open his eyes and was greeted with the sight of a crying Matt
"Tai!, you're awake, I was so scared that I was going to lose you, and what was all of this talk about you being a burden to everyone."
"What? Well it is true; I have never done anything worthwhile with my life."
"Tai that is not true and you know it"
"Do you want to talk about what happened in the dream Tai?"
"No Matt, not yet anyway how about in the morning"
"Okay Tai, but please don't do anything that you are going to regret in the meantime"
"I promise Matt"
With their conversation being finished both Matt and Tai went back to sleep, Tai safely nestled in Matt's arms
The Next Morning
Matt got up early to make breakfast for his Tai
'God now I am thinking of Tai as mine, I don't know what I will do if anything happens to him'
"Good morning son"
Matt jumped and replied "Good morning dad"
"Alright son then let's just cut straight to the chase"
"What do you mean dad?"
"I want to know why Tai was saying what he was saying in his sleep last night"
Matt sighed "What did you hear him say dad?"
"Everything I was just about to go to bed when he started crying out"
"Truth be told dad, I actually don't know what he was dreaming about"
"But Matt, you must have some idea, don't you?"
"I do have an idea, but I want to talk to Tai first before I/we tell anyone else anything first, surely you can understand that dad."
"He really means the world to you doesn't he Matt?"
"Yeah, I don't know what I would do without him, anyhow I am gonna make him some breakfast, maybe I can get him to talk faster."
Half an hour later
Matt had just finished making Tai some breakfast, and he was heading back towards the room that Tai was in but as Matt opened the door he was greeted by a sight that absolutely horrified him
The sight caused Matt to drop everything that he was holding, which in turn caused everyone in the house to see Tai crawled up in the foetal position with the blood pouring out of his arms
"TAI" All of the occupants of the house screamed at once
Then Kari fainted
"Kari!" TK yelled
"She is going to be fine Takeru, she just fainted" TK's dad sighed
"Let me deal with him dad, I know just how to get through to him" Matt said
"OK Matt, come on TK let's take Kari out on the couch"
'OK Matt think what will help you to wake Tai up, I think that it would be best to start by treating the wounds on his arms'
When Matt returned Tai was still out cold but Matt quickly and efficiently cleaned Tai's cuts
'Well there is nothing else I can do until Tai wakes up' Matt sighed
Matt leaned back against the door, feeling broken openly sobbing and he eventually fell asleep
Matt woke up about an hour later, and even before his eyes were open he felt like someone was watching him, Matt opened his eyes and was greeted by the chocolate brown eyes of Tai, full of sorrow, despair, fear and worry.
"Tai?" Matt questioned
Tai just started crying and repeating the same phrase over and over again. "I don't deserve Matt's pity. I don't deserve to live. I failed at killing myself I am a failure. I'm so sorry Matt."
All of these words that were being spoken just cut Matt right to the core
"Tai, you don't really mean any of that do you?" Matt asked sounding like he was extremely close to breaking
"Matt, you don't understand how I feel."
"Then help me to Tai, this had something to do with that dream didn't it?"
"Yes" Tai replied quietly
"Tai talk to me man; I can't help you if I don't know what is bothering you?"
"Matt, you don't need any of my problems on top of your own that you have to deal with"
"Tai you are not leaving this room until you talk to me, and if you even think about trying to kill yourself again I don't know if I will be strong enough to resist the urge to kill myself, I can't live without you." At the end of the sentence Matt couldn't keep his tears bottled up anymore and just completely broke down
After about half an hour both Matt and Tai's tears had stopped
"Matt, you're right you need to know"
"Tai thanks you need to let me know"
"It started out with you saying that you would never need me in your life" Matt gasped
"Tai? You didn't really believe that did you?"
"Yes at the time I did."
For the next 30 minutes Tai recounted his nightmare to Matt both of them in tears by the end of it both broken and holding each other
"Hey Matt?"
"Yeah Tai"
"Don't you think that it is about time that we go and tell everyone else what happened"
"You're right Tai"
Meanwhile out in the lounge room
"TK, I thought that Tai was passed all of this" Kari wept into TK's shirt
"Ssh Kari, everything will be okay." TK whispered into her ear
At that moment Matt and Tai emerged from their bedroom, both with tear stained faces
"Tai" Kari yelled and ran up to him and gave him a hug
"Matt can I have a word with you?"
"Sure dad."
They both knew what Matt's dad wanted to talk about
"Matt I want to know what happened to make Tai act like that?"
"He had a nightmare, and in his nightmare I told him that I didn't need him, and he was useless and pathetic and a burden to everyone else." Matt told his father
"Matt, what could have made him think that anyway?"
"All of the tension with his ex parents, and that he got both Kari and TK kicked out of their houses, he feels that it is his entire fault"
"Matt, is there anything that any of us can do to help Tai?"
"Could you, Kari and TK go out for the day tomorrow, I think that I know a way to show him that he is loved, if he is ready that is."
"I really didn't need to know that Matt."
"Well you asked dad, and it is the ultimate show of love between two people."
"Okay Matt I see you're reasoning, just promise me that you will not force him into anything that he doesn't want."
"Of course dad, after everything he went through I couldn't do it."
"Good Matt, now let's go back into the others"
The Next Day
Kari, TK and Matt's dad were gone early that day, leaving Tai and himself alone all day
Tai woke up to the smell of Matt's wonderful cooking 'God Matt is going to all of this trouble for me, he really does love me' Tai thought
Tai wandered out into the kitchen to see Matt clad in just his boxers
"Hey Tai" Matt said seductively
"Hi Matt" Tai's voice sounded worried
Matt's happy face instantly turned into one of sorrow
"Here you go Tai I thought you might like some breakfast"
"Thanks Matt"
"Anyway Tai I am just going into have a shower if you need anything just yell out."
"Okay thanks Matt"
Tai's mind then went to picture Matt naked in the shower wet
'God I am a pervert' Tai thought
"Screw it" Tai said and he went to join Matt in the shower
"Tai" Matt yelped in surprise when he walked backwards in the shower and something hard was against his arse
"Matt I feel like I am ready, ready for you to make me yours"
"Are you sure Tai?"
"Yes Matt I need it more than you can imagine"
"Ok then let's move this to the bedroom"
Matt's bedroom
"Tai lay on your back on my bed"
"Ok Maaaaatt" Tai moaned out when Matt's warm mouth enveloped Tai's length
Matt started to deep throat Tai, and Tai just kept on moaning out Matt's name
That went on for another ten minutes until
"Matt I am going to come" Tai moaned out in ecstasy Matt greedily took all of Tai's seed into his mouth and down his throat
"Tai are you ready for round 2"
Tai debated for a couple of seconds then answered "Yes Matt"
"Tai this may hurt in the beginning but it will get better I promise you that"
"It's okay Matt I trust you."
Matt grabbed the tube of lube and coated his cock and had it positioned at Tai's entrance
Matt slowly pushed his cock into Tai's entrance
Tai screamed out in pain when Matt first penetrated his hole, at this Matt stopped "Tai? Are you ok?" Matt asked worried that he had hurt him
"So big Matt"
"Do you want me to stop Tai?"
"No Matt just give me a couple of minutes"
It took all of Matt's self control not to just slam his hips into Tai, that was until Tai suddenly pushed back and sheathed Matt's entire length in his arse
Matt moaned in ecstasy, while Tai screamed in pain
"Tai, why the fuck did you do something so stupid like that?"
"Matt, as much as it hurts I just need you to keep on going I know that you are going to make it better"
"Tai if you are sure"
"Matt believe me I am"
Matt slowly thrust in and out of Tai's hole and he hit Tai's prostate
"God Matt again hit that again."
Matt complied hitting that spot with dead on accuracy with each thrust
"Matt, harder, faster fuck me Matt" Tai yelled in ecstasy
After another ten minutes
"MATT I'm Coming"
"Scream my name and squeeze my cock in your tight arse"
"TAI"
With each screaming the other's name they both came
"Matt I love you"
"I love you too Tai"
Matt pulled up the covers on his bed and they both went to sleep content in each other's arms