Chapter 11

Bella's POV

I had woken up again in Edward's bed, however the space beside me was empty and i felt it was cold. Edward had to settle some rules today over his kingdom, the constant rows over who gets how much land, which place gets the most food. it was a horrible place to be if you were a child.

I still remember having to hear the screams of the children i worked with at that place where Thresaw used me as a personal entertainment, i wonder if the children were still there? fully grown and making them work even harder as the hot sun angled in their direction. i clenched my fists thinking of how horrible it would be to have to do that still, i didn't know if i would have been able to live through out another round of pain. i felt i still had nothing on and i was still lying on my stomach which i found odd because i always slept on my side or back. the throbbing pain in my back had gone, not completely mind, but it was much better than the other night. i sat up not feeling the pains in my back and looked around to see if Edward had lay me any clothes so i could put them on when i woke, he hadn't. i guess if he had that would have caused suspicion and it kind of made me glad he didn't have any women's clothing in here.

i wrapped the white sheets around my thin body and walked over to the balcony i walked over to the corner making sure that nobody saw me. i looked down at the passing people in the mile away distant. i looked up at the great statue of a god and began to let my mind wonder. how much i loved and cared for Edward, how much i was worrying i was going soft and i wouldn't be able to fight my battles anymore as good as i use to, what would happen if i got killed? what would Edward do? he had told me he loved me but how exactly strong was that love he held for me? but who was i to judge that? i knew one thing for now, me and Edward are completely devoted to each other and nothing could change that. and tonight we had agreed tonight would be when we have consummated our love for each other, shutting the world out of our lives and focusing on each other, feeling and exploring each one of our bodies. i had a sneaky suspicion Edward liked it when i clawed his back for some reason i didn't know.

i wonder how my father was doing to his new life, what would he be doing now? i heard the door close which rushed me out of my thoughts and bring me back down to the present situation, i heard the shifting of the thin fabric of Edward's see through orange curtains.

"Bella?"

i breathed out a sigh of relief knowing it was Edward's voice i walked back into the room and realized i had chills down my arm, he heard the patter of my footsteps and smiled with relief when he saw me, his eyes sparkling as his smile reached his eyes.

"I was worried you had gone somewhere"

i shook my head at his silliness

"Where would i go Edward, i just woke up then and needed some air"

he sighed and walked up to me, cradling me in his arms as he brought me close, his arms circling around my waist and breathing in my scent in my hair.

"I wish we could go out together, i wish we didn't have to hide like this" he murmured, and as much as i would like to agree with him that would be a very bad idea not only for us but for everyone outside, thinking their emperor has grown to love a slave of Rome it would give his enemies a opportunity to hurt him the most by killing the one he loved the most. i couldn't believe how silly and stupid i was before to question Edward's love for me, he was risking everything he had created by just speaking to me and he had decided to take and love me above everyone else, every other girl who would so gladly take my place, someone with royal blood and would be worthy next to Edward.

"What are you thinking about" he whispered in my hair i furrowed my eyebrows wondering how he could do that, know i was thinking of something which was bothering me "Your eyebrows were pulled together"

i rolled my eyes and pulled back to look at him, one hand coming to rest in the middle of his back while the other came to play with the back of his hair "How could you tell my eyebrows were furrowed together if you couldn't see my face"

he shrugged "I just have a feeling when you thinking about something which is playing on your mind, tell me, is it about tonight?"

Ah tonight, tonight was the night where i would give Edward my virginity, and another annoying question popped in my mind, how many women had Edward been with? i would much rather ask him that in a way then ask him if he's making the right decision with me

"i was actually wondering how many women have shared your bed"

he smiled, almost apologetically "None, I'm not the usual Emperor who is to just throw himself at the first woman who is at his sight, my mother and father brought me up to be respectable but to be firm with a woman, if she doesn't take a hint like Tanya, i must remain calm and never raise a hand"

i nodded and then shook my head "I can't believe you've never been with anyone though"

again he shrugged if it was like a normal thing a god like him not being with anyone, he brushed my hair to the side so his head could lean down and connect his soft lips to my shoulder, making my eyes close and enjoy the sensation of being this close to him.

"I see your still not wearing anything" i could feel the smirk on my skin and i mentally rolled my eyes, i pressed myself closer to him both of my hands coming to rest on his back to draw him closer also. my eyes still closed

"You didn't leave me anything and just for your information 1) i am very glad you have not a single female item in your room" he chuckled and kissed my shoulder and made his way up to my neck making it a little difficult for me to form another sentence "and 2) i have a very sneaky suspicion you did it deliberately so you could come back and greet a poor woman who is indeed in need of some clothes to wear and find her still and flustered form on your bed naked" he again chuckled, not once denying anything i had pointed out.

"Can you blame me?" his breath tickled against my skin as he spoke causing shivers to abrupt through my entire body "would you be so horrified to find me waiting anxiously for you to return naked?" he nipped my skin causing me to bite down on my lip to prevent any noise from coming out

"Your twisting the question Edward and turning it on me, that's hardly fare" i reached my hands up and made them rest on his shoulder, his hands which were still holding my waist moved their way up to my bare back causing me to kiss his neck.

"You being like this so close to be isn't fare" he commented

"All of which points to you, being your fault" i felt myself being lifted bridal style and carried us back to Edward's bed

"I don't think i can wait till tonight" he kissed my eager lips and trailed his hands down my body

"But we must, and you still have business to settle if i remember you telling me right"

he sighed and climbed off me and the bed he hooded lustful eyes looked upon my figure and gulped "Please be in here when i come back, i shall be back when sunset has arrived"

"I'll wait here for you, i promise"

he nodded and walked out, after hearing the door shut, i smiled and leaned back onto the bed.

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Edward had returned, as promise, when sunset had arrived. he began to take his clothes off as he drew back the curtains so he could enter. his robe was first to go leaving him now wearing nothing, i bit my lip and become him towards me with my finger. he smiled i could faintly see through the darkness. the bed shifted and i felt a pair of arms circle me close to him and his lips kissing my chest and then my breast, taking one nipple into his mouth, i moaned and held onto his hair. The pleasure of him doing this to me was unbelievably pleasant. I had heard the stories of young women giving their most precious virginities away to the man they were about to share the rest of their life with, and yet i felt nothing but pure joy, love, excitement, desire and anticipation

Edward moved his kisses and reached my lips, he gently pushed us back into the bed. I parted my legs so he could mold himself between them

"Are you sure you want me to take your virginity?" he questioned against my lips before returning to kissing them

"Are you sure you want to give me yours?" i asked around his lips, he smiled and we both knew the answer to that question. i held onto his back bringing my hands to his lower back and panted in the darkness as i felt his hands come to part my legs even further apart as my legs lay on the bed. he moved one finger up until he came to meet my very sensitive part of me

"So wet" i heard him moan

"Please Edward, i need you inside me"

he put both of his hands either side of my head and made sure non of his weight was on me entirely, not just yet i felt him prodding at my entrance and i gasped

"It's going to hurt" he warned i nodded my head in understanding, knowing he knew it was alright. he gently started to enter me i sucked in as much breath as i could as my lower region adapt to the new sensation which was adjusting to his size. i bit my lip and i felt Edward at my barrier. he looked down and i could see he was looking in my eyes as if to say silently "Are you still sure?" i smiled and stroked his face, he kissed the inside of my palm. i leaned up and kissed him to tell him it was ok. with one thrust he broke my barrier causing me to stifle a scream as the pain shook through me, i thought the whips were torturously painful but this was worse. i knew it would get better, but at the moment, no pain i had ever encountered felt like this.

Edward kissed my, unknowing, tears away. his breath was panting and he stilled his movements, the pain was still there but it was dulling i moved my hips forward and Edward pulled back out to thrust back into me. i gasped and moaned. my eyes coming to roll in the back of my head. i heard the grunting of Edward as he moved inside me.

"Edward faster please, harder" i begged, the pain was gone and was replaced by the word which would describe heaven, perfect.

the bed bounced as our movements hardened and moved faster, the room only echoed our moans and pants. i clawed Edward's back and he actually growled which made me even more aroused than i already was. i felt Edward was close, i however came first as Edward bit my neck knowing he would leave a mark. i screamed in the inside of his neck not wanting to let the guards hear my scream. i felt the sweat on Edward's back and with one more thrust Edward orgasm shook through him. He dropped his full weight on me and i loved how close he was.

we panted not being able to have any strength to do anything else. Edward whispered into my neck

"I love you my soul"

i almost cried at his words i hugged him close and dropped my legs but tangled them with his to silently tell him he wasn't moving

"I love you my heart" i replied, moving his head up, Edward kissed me before we went to sleep.

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