Title: Forever
Disclaimer: I don't own anything except the crazy plots. Not even the songs.
Pairing: Kuroro and Kurapika.
Warning: Harsh language and adult themes.
Rating: Varies (T or M)
A/N: Hi guys. This is a collection of KuroxKura songfics. One-shots. Once you read this, you'll be absolutely, completely certain that I am batshit insane!
CHAPTER TWO
TRYIN' NOT TO LOVE YOU
You call to me and I fall at your feet
How could anyone ask for more
And our time apart, like knives in my heart
How could anyone ask for more
Kuroro tilted his head and gazed at the dull red sky. The sun was setting. It was a sight that he once enjoyed, but now sunsets brought a painful memory along with them. A memory of their separation. The Kuruta had shed a few tears that he'd tried to hide from Kuroro. Kuroro himself was marveling at the strange sensations of his chest aching and his throat burning. How could emotional pain manifest in such physical ways?
Tryin not to love you only goes so far
Tryin not to need you is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for
Why was he torturing himself like this? He was never much of a masochist. What were his demented thoughts when he told Kurapika that they should go their separate ways? What was he thinking? Oh right, he was 'thinking' that the only person he loved was better off away from him. Never mind that the Kurutan boy was with Kuroro in the first place because of his own manipulations. His actions didn't make sense, even to himself!
But he did try to stay away from him. He constantly fought down the desire to seek out information about his Kuruta. It was a battle he lost. That was why he was lying down on the grass, in a field from which he could easily and clearly see Kurapika's new, isolated house. He had yet to see the blond, though. And why was he afraid (Kuroro Lucifer-afraid!) to approach the building? Afraid of rejection? Or afraid of acceptance? He didn't know.
This kind of pain, only time takes away
That's why it's harder to let you go
And nothing I can do without thinking of you
That's why it's harder to let you go
Kurapika let out a long sigh. What was wrong with him? He was supposed to hate the Spider-head...so then, why did the enigmatic man's absence make his heart ache so much? His mind pictured the anguished expression on Kuroro's face as they bid goodbye. He could still remember his own tears and the agony he'd suffered.
Tryin not to love you only goes so far
Tryin not to need you is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for
He strolled out into the field with the images of a certain, raven-haired man filling his mind. Those abysmal, dark eyes, those rare smiles, those lips... So when he saw a familiar black figure stretched out on the floor, he thought that he was hallucinating. Ah, he'd finally lost his goddamn mind!
But any doubts regarding his sanity fled when the person clad in black jumped up, nen flaring. The feel of the eerily familiar nen and the look of utter shock on Kuroro's face was all the confirmation he needed. He'd come for him after all! His morbid thoughts from earlier all but vanished as he slowly approached the older man. He stopped when he was in front of him.
"Took you long enough." He muttered, staring into Kuroro's night-lit eyes.
"Far too long." He whispered in return and Kurapika found himself in a tight embrace with the man who'd somehow stolen his heart. The Spider and The Butterfly. It was a strange world.
So I sit here divided, just talking to myself
Was it something that I did
Was there somebody else
When a voice from behind me
That was fighting back tears
Sat right down beside me, and
Whispered right in my ear
Tonight I'm dyin to tell you
That tryin not to love you, only went so far
Tryin not to need you was tearing me apart
'Cause tryin not to love you
Only makes me love you more
Only makes me love you more
Author's senseless rant: Ah, another product of my insanity. I like this better than the first. Watch out for the next one, it's a tiny little companion to my fic, My soul to Find. It's my favorite one so far. I'll post it soon. Have some tissues ready, though! Song belongs to Nickelback.