Title: Forever

Disclaimer: I don't own anything except the crazy plots. Not even the songs.

Pairing: Kuroro and Kurapika.

Warning: Harsh language and adult themes.

Rating: Varies (T or M)

A/N: Hi guys. This is a collection of KuroxKura songfics. Once you read this, you'll be absolutely, completely certain that I am batshit insane!

CHAPTER THREE

MY LAST BREATH

Author's senseless rant: This chapter is a companion to my multi-chapter fic, My Soul To Find. Do you recall the 1st chapter, the super sad one. Well, this is a songfic of the same, only I'm not rewriting the conversation. This chapter will focus on Kurapika's dying thoughts and will give you an inkling on how he died. Regardless to say, this is a biiiiit angsty. Oh, and the song belongs to Evanescence. It fits the scene, don't you think? This also happens to be my favorite chapter of all time.

We'd been at this for a while now. Neither wanted to do this, neither wanted to hurt the other. Yet, here they were, half-heartedly trying to kill the person they loved. Fate truly was cruel to me.

It's entirely my fault, though. Kuroro was, well, I think he was starting to believe that I'd given up on revenge once and for all. And I did, kind of. This wasn't revenge; this was just a way to free myself of my misery, my dilemma. It was not as if I could actually kill him. I'd rather tear out my own heart first. That was, in a way, what I was doing right now.

The lethal dance was coming to an end. I saw my opportunity. Kuroro drove his poison-laced Benz knife towards me, as if to stab me, but I knew better. I could see it in his eyes that he wasn't going to truly hurt me. He couldn't either. Maybe, he'd nick my arm and incapacitate me, but that was it. He probably thought he could talk some sense into me later. But that was not what I wanted.

Dissolving my chains, I threw myself forward and onto the incoming knife, impaling myself on the razor-sharp blade. My knees gave out as the pain and the burning sensation of the poison spreading sped through my chest. I heard Kuroro's strangled gasp and I was suddenly in his arms, looking up at his horror struck face.

Hold on to me, love

You know I can't stay long

All I wanted to say was I love you

And I'm not afraid

I looked into those, soulful, black orbs, knowing full well that this was the last time I'd see them. I reached up with a bloodied hand and lightly touched his face. Beautiful. And agonized. I felt sad that I'd be leaving him behind. He'd be so lonely, and so sad. Maybe that was my version of revenge? No, I don't think so.

"I'm so…sorry, Kuroro." I choked out, blood filling my mouth.

Can you hear me

Can you feel me in your arms

Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet ruptured light

It ends here, tonight

It took all my willpower to converse with him. That was all I could do for him now. A parting gift.

I truly was sorry that I had to leave him behind. That I had to leave my friends behind. Images flashed in my mind. Gon, Killua, Leorio, Senritsu, Bashou...even some unlikely ones like Shalnark, Franklin, Shizuku; the Spiders I liked best. Then came his face. Pale skin, night-lit eyes and raven hair. Kuroro.

I knew that this was selfish of me. I knew that I was running away. But I could no longer handle being bound by a powerful oath that would not, could not fulfill. This was the only choice I had. At least I could die by Kuroro's hands. It was somehow fitting, after all we'd been through. It wasn't his fault, though. It was all on me. And my eyes were safe. It was an okay-death, for suicide, that is.

Closing your eyes to disappear

You pray your dreams will leave you here

And yet, a part of me wanted to stay. To forget my blood drenched oath and enjoy life. Of course, it was impossible now. But a future with him...it would have been nice.

But still you wake and know the truth

No one's there

This was it. The true end of the Kuruta clan. My entire body was burning now, but I paid the pain no heed. My attention was on the man who held me. He was weeping. I wanted to tell him to stop, but my lips wouldn't move. Against my wishes, my hand fell away from his face and my mind shied away from the agony and desperation I saw in his eyes.

Say goodnight, don't be afraid

Calling me, calling me as you fade to black

My vision...it was blurring, fading. I looked into those obsidian eyes as my life bled out of me. Maybe, we'd meet again in another life. Fate wasn't too cruel, was it?

"Goodbye." Isaid asI lost my vision. 'I'll see you again, Kuroro, someday' I thought asthe darkness claimed me.

I'd like to thank boomer4ever, Kirayuki and sayurijaina0839 for your support. I'm warning you though, the next few chapters will be a bit tragic. :-(