My alarm went off way too soon. I sluggishly moved over to turn it off. Damn. I have to go to work. I quickly take a shower and get ready. The drive to work was long. I ended up getting stuck in morning traffic. Bumper to bumper. It's usually not like this but it's Friday so everyone is out and about. When I finally make it to work I spot Lissa.

"Hey." I say while walking up to her.

"Hey how was your night?" She asks.

"Terrible. Dimitri knows." I gave her a pointed look. "We had a fight and he left to stay at Ivan's." Lissa is my best friend and so I tell her everything. She knew about Adrian and she didn't approve but she didn't criticize me either.

"Wow.. I'm sorry. What are you going to do?" She asks.

"I want to try to work things out. I don't want to lose him." I start to tear up at the mere thought.

"Why don't you guys go away for a while. Take a vacation." Lissa suggests. It actually sounds like a pretty good idea. No stress. But then there is the problem of Dimitri actually wanting to work things out. He could still just leave me. Sensing my hesitation Lissa continued. "I know this log cabin out up in the mountains. I could set it up for you." When I still didn't say anything she added. "Just think about it." With that we went into the building to start the day. We promised to talk more about it later.

"Hello Rose." My first patient says while strolling into my office.

"Hello Robert. How are you doing?" I ask him. Robert is one of my many patients. He suffers from major depression and minor schizophrenia. He is also suffers from anxiety. He talks about the 'guardians' coming to take him away.

"Today is okay. I can still see them lurking though. They're trying to get me."

"Who are, Robert?" I ask. I already know but I always need to make sure my patients are clear in their explanations. So that nothing gets messed up.

"The Guardians!" He exclaims loudly.

"Who are the Guardians?" I ask. God. I wish this would just end.

"They think I'm crazy! They want to take me away. I can't let them. God Rose. Don't let them!" He cries. He brings his knees up to his chest and breathes fast and hard.

"Robert. Look at me! I need you to try to calm your breathing. Remember this is a safe place. Your safe circle. Nothing can touch you in here." I try to coax him into calming down. After a few minutes his breathing starts to become normal again.

"Okay. Okay. Okay I'm calm."

"Now, lets start over. Who are the Guardians Robert?" I ask. Robert gets a blank look on his face and looks at me like I'm the crazy one.

"What are Guardians?" He says. Dear lord. Back to the beginning. He is my hardest patient. He has a panic attack and then forgets everything. I look at the clock and see that we are nowhere near finished with our session. Ugh.

After hours and hours of work my day is finally finished. I wave to Mason as I walk out to my car.

"HEY!" I hear Lissa shout from behind me. I turn around to see her running towards me.

"What's up?" I ask.

"I wanted to catch you before you left. Do you wanna go out for drinks tomorrow night? Just me and you?"

"Yeah that sounds great. I'll swing by around 8 to pick you up?" I ask Lissa. She only shakes her head.

"Nope. No way. I'll come get you. Christian is going to drop us off." The glint in her eyes tell me that I'm in for a wild night. I need one after all of this drama. Granted it was my fault. It still sucked.

"Okay. I gotta go. Call me later alright?" She nods and I get into my car to drive home. I pull up to the house and see Dimitri's car in the drive way. I become extremely nervous. This is it.

I take a deep breath and open the front door to walk in. It's dark in the living room. I throw my keys in the dish and take off my jacket. I can hear footsteps upstairs. I slowly walk up the stairs. My fear is kicking in. I'm so scared of how this conversation is going to go. It's like stealing a cookie from the cookie jar and then walking up to your mother to confess. This situation was far worse than that though. I push the door open and see Dimitri packing up a bag. No. He really is leaving me.

"Hey." I say. He turns around and looks surprised that I'm home.

"You're home early."

"No I'm not." I point to the clock by our bed. He was going to just leave in the middle of the night? Wonderful. I then point to his packed bag. "What's up?"

"I'm going to stay over at Ivan's for a bit. I think it would be better if we had some time apart." He says with absolutely no emotions on his face. No. I can't let him leave.

"Please stay." I say in a low scared voice. Tears are threatening to fall.

"I think it would be better."

"Please just let me explain." He exhales loudly and sits on the bed. He gives me a pointed look. "I met Adrian at a bar. We talked and after a few minutes he told me that he could tell that I was unhappy with my marriage. He told me things that I was too afraid to even think. We kissed. It was brief but I felt awful afterwards. I felt so guilty. I ran out and went home. I cried all night that night. I tried to forget about it. Thinking that maybe if I forgot about it then it would be like it never happened. But I couldn't stop thinking about how the kiss made me feel. I felt wanted and desired. Something that I never get from you anymore."

"Rose I really don't want to hear this." He interrupts me.

"Please let me finish. So I went to see him again. Things escalated from there. First it was about just talking but then we started kissing. It was never more than that. I never slept with him In fact neither of our clothes ever came off. I don't know why I kept going back. I just wanted to feel wanted. We never touch each other anymore and it was driving me crazy. But it was only because I wasn't getting it from you. I'm not saying that that is an excuse. What I did was wrong. I talked to him last night and broke things off with him. I'll never see him again. Please just don't leave me." I'm crying by the end of my speech. Tears are pouring down my face and my body is racked with sobs.

Dimitri only stares at me. He has an emotionless look on his face. After a few minutes of studying me he exhales again and looks away. He stands up and goes to grab his bag but I throw my body at him. I run into him but barely nudge him. I wrap my arms around his waist and hold on tight. I rest my forehead on his chest and just cry.

He goes rigid. I don't think he expected me to do that. He shocks me by slowly wrapping his arm around my waist to hold me as tight as I'm holding him. He takes his other hand and runs it through my hair. His chin is resting on my head. "Please don't leave me." I cry. "I'll do anything to make this up to you. Just please stay."

"I don't know if i can forgive you for this." He says and my heart shatters. All of my hope goes right out the window. I feel so low. I lost him. Then four little words pick my heart back up. And I have all the hope in the world. "But I'll try, Roza."

I figured some of you would hunt me down and kill me if I made him leave her so I made him stay and try.

I don't know about this chapter. It seems really fast. Let me know what you think.