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--- chapter 5 ---

"Lenalee, wait! Don't run!" I went after her. I got impressed she could be this fast.
"Shut up! It's none of your business if I am sick or not... it's none of your business if I am alone or not, none of your business if I get breathless every night... it's none of your business if I am dying or not, Allen! Just leave me alone!"

'Dying or not?' that hurt in my ears. So it was true what I suspected. But it doesn't matter 'doesn't matter because you're wrong ... you are not alone' was what I wanted to tell her.

I was worried about her health, running like that couldn't make any good on her. And just as I was predicting, she fell on half way, feeling the weight of that race in her legs and lungs, and I was sure that jump had also affected her.
"Lenalee... I'm sorry"
"No... Go away!... I knew it… I knew I can't… trust anyone" she was sobbing.
"What are you talking about? Of course, you can trust me! I swear I'll never touch you again... I won't, believe me!" I said behind her as I catch up with her.
She took a deep breath, but always looking down. I got closer her and went down on my knees to face her.
"Can I really trust you, Allen?"
"Of course you can, Lenalee!"
"So... promise me that will never come back here to see me!"
"What?" for that one I did not expect. But I guess I should have. Instead of saying something to her, I was just staring at her face as if she had hypnotized me.

"Promise!" she insisted looking at my eyes this time. She seems angry, but her eyes were telling me she was sad, almost with pain in her heart. I wondered if it could have something to do about her disease. I was so confused that I couldn't think right.

"PROMISE ALLEN!" she shouted. This sentence made me tremble. That was the keyword to rouse me from her own spell. I felt a shiver coming through my back. I felt my heart shrink.

"Lenalee... are you sure that this is exactly what you want?" the words seemed to hurt my throat to each syllable coming out.
"HM" she nodded. She didn't even think about it. Her reply hurt, and I couldn't understand why.

'Since when did I become this dependent of her? I shouldn't even be here!'

"Okay..." moments ago she was so close to me and now she seemed so far away. Unreachable. It was also annoying. 'Why do I care so much?' "... Can I at least take you home?" I asked since I was aware of her condition, and no matter what happens, in my head, my intentions to help her won't change for some reason.

"No… I can go by myself" she said carefully standing up.
"At least let me get your clothes for you..."

She put some thought about it.
"…Okay" she agreed.

So I ran back to the peak on rush. When I arrived, I put my shirt and shoes that I had thrown out without notice while running after her. All that scene that happened before, came through my eyes again in a flashback. It all happened so fast. It seems so unreal. One moment everything was fitting perfectly. Life was beautiful and seemed simple and easy to take. And now everything was vanishing. Fading away. 'Why?'

I took her clothes and came back through the same way we used to get there.

When I returned to the house, after I knock, she opened the door to take back her things. She didn't even look at my eyes, and soon the door was closed again leaving me alone on the outside. To never see her again.
"I'm so sorry" I said tapping on the door hoping she can hear me ... and perhaps feel me. And feel how I felt.

The moon was shining high with the stars when I got home. I felt as if I was completely broke, in pieces. Desperately needing repairs. About to fall at any time. And not even "goodbye" we said.
Then I got scared with Lavi's presence coming out of my room.
"Yuu said you were going to see a woman... oh, you look terrible!" he said soon as he realized my mood. "... What happened?"

"Don't worry... this was the last time I saw her"
"Hm... then something did happened! Was she important?"
"I guess... I didn't notice until now, but I don't know why"
"And that is why you won't see her again?"
"I guess you could say that..." I answered his question as taking off my coat.

Lavi stared straight in my eye for a moment as if he was trying to read me.
"Ohh, poor Allen... don't worry, I'll make you feel better" Lavi got next to me and begin to massage my backs.
Truth be told, me and Lavi had a thing, from time to time. And I suspect that he also had this same thing with Kanda... but I never care enough to ask about it. So Lavi spend the night over with me, as he did many other times.

Three months have gone. My stupid and troubled life continued to flow as it used to. Probably as it should be. It was hard to get used to the idea that I'll never see her again, especially because I still could hear her sweet voice at night in my dreams. I definitely will never forget the sound of her laugh, either her beautiful gentle smiling face.

But life goes on as it is.

At the office, Kanda and I kept screwing around with our discussions, as we always do, as Lavi keeps his arbitrary position scolding us. But at the courts, we were kicking asses like we never did. On Fridays nights, when we got off work, the tree of us would go out to waste ourselves at some cheap bar and sleep over at one of us house's. Life definitely wasn't as beautiful as I have seen once in Dartford, but I can keep moving on like that. I was happy that at least I had friends who I could rely on.

Today was a sunny Thursday. Kanda and I were returning, dead tired, from an audience in the afternoon after solving another case before the jury. When we got off the car, in front of our office building, a tall guy with glasses and long purple hair, dressed all in white, came approaching me from behind taking me by surprise as I was closing the door's car.

"You're Allen, aren't you? You can only be! You're the only albino that I found across London with a star on the forehead!"
"Huh?" not that I like that description, but I really believe I'm unique!
"My name is Komui... I'm Lenalee's brother" so the strange man introduces himself extending his hand to greet me, without knowing that to hear her name has made my legs shake. It's been long since I haven't thought about that name on a day light.

I saw Kanda approaching suspicious.

"I would like to talk to you... as soon as possible" the man told me looking at Kanda.
"O... Ok...."

So I turned myself to face that girly haired man and said: "It's ok, I'll go talk to him... I'll be right back"
"What ever!" Kanda just nodded, and went inside the building.
"How about we take a walk as we talk… ahn, mister Komui..." I suggested as he only agreed with his head.

So we started walking randomly through streets.

To every step I took I was more uncomfortable. 'Did he found out?' I thought he was here to beat me for kissing Lenalee, or something, even though it was a while ago.
"Did Lenalee talked about me?" I decided to ask once and release me from my agony.
"Yes, she told me that you help her with some corrupt, dirty, stupid, disgusting, obscene, incomprehensible, insensitive, outrageous, stinky, nasty, filthy..."

"Ahhh yes! I see, I see, I remember that! hahahah" I had to interrupt the man, since he seemed to never end putting adjectives, even though I wasn't sure of what he was talking about. Then I asked myself if she had spoke about me before or after the promise she made me do.
"Anyway… I suppose you already know about my baby sister's disease, Allen"
"Yes…"

"Well... generally I don't like the people getting near my sweet, innocent, loving, caring, intelligent, cute and beautiful baby sister!" 'what a freak!' and he gave me an obvious death glare over those glasses of his "... but this is a special case... as she is getting increasingly weakened, I'm worried about her... and I believe that the time she spent with you, meant more than she expected to..." I was attentive to every word he was saying now, because it just seemed to make no sense. "... she was always talking happily and I could tell she was smiling when we talked over the phone... But when you stopped visiting her, I couldn't sense her smile at all anymore"

'You are wrong! She stopped smiling because her hatred for me is still there' I was pretty sure about it.
"… so I moved to her house to take care of her until she gets better. But now that she has been having high fever with great frequency, and sometimes she shouts your name at night... I decided to look for you"

"Huh?" 'I knew it! She must hate me so much that now she is having nightmares with me'

Thinking like that was kind of painful. I really didn't wanted to cause her trouble, and now she is getting worse because of me. I felt like crap.

"AHM... Komui, I'm really sorry about her condition… I really do, but I believe you understand that all wrong..."

I must have said something else without realizing it, because suddenly this man with stupid looks seemed bigger than he should. He used all his strength and anger, and pushed me against a tree that was near by where we were. And holding my shirt's collar, he almost suffocates me.
"You are the one who misunderstood everything here mister! Lenalee since she heard about her disease has isolated herself from the world, including me, because she was afraid she would make anyone suffer with her. So she is suffering alone. And if she sent you away, it's because she knew it was too dangerous to have a stranger visiting her... probably because you became more than just strangers to each other, understand now?"

"What? What are you talking about?" 'did I hear right?'

He just sighed and released me.

"Look...she has gotten worse, and at night she screams your name... she wants to see you" he said looking dead serious at me.

That made me think. He made it seems as she was about to leave soon and wanted to see me for the last time. I swallowed my saliva. I was afraid to ask something and listen to what I didn't want to hear.

"Listen... I don't know what do you really think of my sister... but if you really are the Allen she described to me months ago... I believe I can count on you... so do this... think about it. And only go visit her if you are absolutely sure that you can and want to stay with her... otherwise, don't even bother to go there just to mock her... if you dare it, I swear I'll kill you!"

I saw him turning his back, leaving me with that thought in mind. As a lawyer, I could get him arrested for that threat. By that evil glow I saw on his eye, I knew he really meant it.

'But we were talking about Lenalee'

So I'll just pretend didn't hear that.

I stay there for a while, standing there under that huge tree as the wind messed my hair. I tried to remember everything that Komui said. It was so fast and thrilling that I couldn't digest it all... I believed I had missed some parts.

I returned to the office.
Kanda and Lavi were talking the same nonsense as always.
"And...? What does he want? "Lavi asked soon as he saw me. I assumed that Bakanda already opened his little mouth, making me think it was getting bigger every day. I sighed.
"Nothing... we have work to do" I didn't wanted to talk about it now. I had a head ache. I could barely think to myself about what happened. There's no way I could explain it to someone else.

I sat on my desk and stick my face on the papers.

At the end of the day, I went straight home. This time Lavi was the one to give me a ride. As my apartment was not far away, we haven't had much time to talk. Actually we didn't even exchanged a word.

I went straight to the shower to wash all that accumulated stress of the day. And then I jumped to my bed.
'Why am I hesitating? What am I afraid of?' In other times, in my usual unthinkable self, I would have gone there already to be with her, but there's this strange sensation making me uncomfortable.

'Why should I care?'
I think I was more tired then I realized, because soon I fell asleep. But my night wasn't the best. I dreamed about Lenalee all alone in that house with no one around to help her.

She was there laying on her bed in that dark room; her temperature should be very high, her face was drenched in sweat and tears. She was pale as a paper sheet. Desperately contorting herself trying to get as much air as her fragile lungs would allow her to. She had her eyes wide open in pain. To each second passing by, her air became scarcer and more cumbersome to breathe. She tries to get up, but she hasn't any strength to support herself, and so she falls out of the bed. She hurts her arms, legs and head. Suddenly her room was painted in a red scarlet tone. And soon there was no sign of life in that body. As I wasn't allowed do anything to help. I was tied up outside her room, just watching her silent agony.

I woke up screaming from that nightmare, with my forehead soaking wet in sweat. But I understood what was I afraid of. I looked at my watch. It was marking 05:45 AM.

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