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I know its about time I updated this story. It's just I didn't know what to do with it really and I have been super busy with applying for uni and going off to Egypt. But now I am back and ready to right. Please enjoy and review!
Picking up the Ashes- Chapter 19
It had been approximately seven weeks since the break up; seven very long and painful weeks as Grissom was concerned.
At the very beginning her had corned her in every possible place in lab and outside; trying to get reason with Sara. Just trying to get her to talk to him. But each time she refused him. Saying that it was over. That they were over. That there was nothing that could be done. It seemed like each confrontation ended with Sara fleeing from the room either in utter rage or tears.
However as week went on, Grissom had stopped trying; knowing that nothing would change. It was over. He had to move on. But how could he possible more on from a woman he had been pinning for, every since he met her years ago. How could he just close that door to his heart? He would always love Sara. Nothing could change that now.
Sara and Grissom avoided each other at all costs now. Grissom made sure not to assign himself to a case with Sara. It would just be too hard being forced to work together like that.
Grissom glanced at the clock once again; it was twenty after midnight. He had been sitting at his desk now for four hours; doing paper work. Ecklie had been on his case the last few days about finishing the stack of papers on his desk.
Grissom, who could not sleep anymore or stay in his townhouse, had come in on his day off to work on it. His townhouse that he had once shared with Sara seemed to be empty and dark. The once cheerful yellow of the walls, seemed rusted and depressing to him now. Everywhere he turned, he was reminded of his life with Sara. She had taken her stuff weeks ago but Sara's presence seemed to still float on the walls. She had been the one to redecorate the place after she moved in. Adding her own touches here and there. The townhouse just seemed lonely and cold with out her there. Grissom rarely slept or lived there anymore. He spent most of his time at the lab, working.
When Sara had moved out, she had taken Hank with her. This made the townhouse even more of a place he avoided. It was filled too much with memories that pained Grissom's heart.
Grissom leaned back in his desk chair and stretched. His body ached from sitting for so long at his desk. He needed a break he decided as he glanced over at the clock once again and back down at the papers in front of him. His blue eyes were dry and red from squinting at the small text of the papers.
With this, Grissom rose to his feet and left the office. He walked down the empty hallway towards the break room to retrieve some food.
Grissom was surprised to see that he was not the only working on their day off, as he noticed that there was someone else in the break room, poring over old case files it seemed.
"Hi there," greeted Grissom as he stepped into the room.
Catherine looked up from the file she was reading and smiled at Grissom, "Hey, what's up? Isn't this your day off?"
"Well…yeah but I …I…Ecklie…paper work," rambled on Grissom. He didn't want to confuse that he couldn't sleep or stand to be alone in his townhouse.
Catherine nodded her head. Grissom didn't need to explain himself to her, she knew and understood everything.
"Have a seat," offered Catherine, gesturing to the seat in front of her.
"No, it's okay," replied Grissom shaking his head. "I only came in here to warm up some food, then it back to work. I still have a lot of paper work to go through before Ecklie gets in. I promised him I would have it done by then."
Sara walked into her kitchen and poured herself a cup of coffee. It was the middle of the night and she couldn't sleep. This was no surprised to her. Sleep was always something that came rarely to her, especially over the last couple of weeks. She was not use to sleeping alone in bed. She missed having a warm body beside her. Even with Hank there, the nights were lonely.
She knew she didn't want to admit, not to Warrick, not to Catherine, not to herself but she did miss Grissom. Every fiber in her beings missed the way his lips felt against her own. How he would stare at her, his beautiful blue eyes piercing into her. How he could always tell how she was feeling. How he would comfort her after one of her nightmares. How he would hold her against his chest, until she fell asleep after making passionate love to one another.
She missed everything about him.
But she knew that she couldn't be with him. Even if he was the love of her life. She still had a hatred for him buried within her. She was still mad that he would confess to everyone the love that they had for each. She was still mad at him for staying quiet.
She had hoped that after she had walked out of her life, he would have been torn and would do anything to get her back. That Grissom would stand up and confuse his love for her in front of everyone in the lab. But sadly that had not happened. Sure Grissom had confessed his love to her privately, begging for her to take him back. But that was not what Sara wanted. She wanted public displays of affection and love. She already knew that Grissom loved her. But she wanted more then that. She wanted their relationship to be taken to the next level; something that should had been really done months ago, in her opinion.
As Sara sipped her coffee and moved towards the window, staring out into the Las Vegas landscape, she wondered where Grissom was.
A pain erupted in her heart as her mind drifted to Grissom. Tears following to down her cheeks. She couldn't believe what had happened to them that they had drifted so far apart from each other.
Catherine knocked on Grissom's office door and stepped into the room.
"Almost done?" she asked making her way towards the desk. Grissom looked up from and sighed at Catherine, giving her a tired smile, "Almost."
"Well you better hurry, I think Ecklie just got in," she replied pointing out towards the hallway, where Ecklie's voice could be heard. He had just arrived and was talking to the receptionist, asking her if some package arrived for him.
Grissom just shrugged at his friend and took off his glasses, rubbing his temples. It had been a long night. He didn't really care if Ecklie got mad at him. He didn't care about anything really anymore.
Catherine noticing her friend's tired mood, sat down in one of the chairs that faced his desk and began to talk.
"You know she not happy, right?"
Grissom raised his eyebrows at this and looked over Catherine.
"She is miserable with out you Grissom. She is sad all the time now. She barely eats or sleeps. She really does miss you!"
Knowing where Catherine was going with this, he held out a hand to stop her. "Catherine, I have told you since before, Sara and I, are not getting back together. She doesn't want too. I have tired!"
Catherine rolled her eyes at this, "Sure you have tried but not hard enough. Cornering her in a room and telling her how much you are sorry and love her, is not trying. Gil you need to really show her. You have to express you love to the world, stand on top of the lab, shouting "I LOVE SARA SIDLE!" That is what she wants. She knows how much you love her and mean to her. But she needs more. Tell Ecklie, that is what she wants. She doesn't want to live a lie," cried Catherine. Why was it so hard for him to see that? That Sara wanted him to tell! That was all. That Sara felt like Grissom didn't fully love her enough to be open with people and say that they were dating. Hell half of the lab already knew about the two of them, so what difference if a few other people knew. It's not like it was a big secrete.
"What am I suppose to do?" he asked Catherine quietly. "I have tired. I don't know how to express my love openly for Sara. She knows this…..What should I do?"
"Just make an effort. I know you have but a bigger one," replied Catherine. For a second she looked down at her lap thinking of ideas that Grissom could do, then it hit her like a stone in the face. "You should propose!" cried clapping her hands. "Yes you should propose!"
Grissom began to shake his head sadly at this, "I don't know Cath…"
"Oh come off of it Gil! You love Sara and want to spend the rest of your life with her, right? Then what's so wrong with proposing. I know you and Sara are not on good terms with each other at the moment but that is not the point. Sara still loves you. You proposing would be the something she had been waiting for. The true sign that you loved her."
Was Catherine really right? If he did propose to Sara, would she say yes? Would she really come back into his life again? Grissom had thought about marrying Sara for a long time now, ever since the fire. He had wanted to. But he didn't want to scare her away or even himself. It had been too early but now, it that what it would take then he would. He would do anything to win her back.
Catherine flashed her pearly white teeth as Grissom, she was so happy! Grissom was going to propose!
Hope you liked it! The next chapter will probably be the last chapter as well, I think. Not sure yet! But anyways thanks for reading and please review!