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"What do you mean? How is it not a disease?" Arthur questioned, his English accent ringing in Luna's ears.

Sighing, Lunamaria sat, leaning on the couch, her back to Shinn's torso. "I should start by saying that when Shinn destroyed Orb's fleet he really couldn't help it. He's a Coordinator, but his SEED mode works a little differently than everyone else's."

This peaked the interest of Kira, Athrun, and Lacus. They each knew what it was like to enter SEED mode. They all knew what it was like to be a Coordinator, to be different. Kira thought that when he fought the Impulse that he seemed to be better than before. He must have been in SEED mode.

"Intense anger triggers it and all other emotions are cast aside when it happens. The only emotions he feels are hatred and rage. I think that he couldn't control it this time and his mind went berserk. I was lucky he stopped when I came. I could've just as easily been killed."

Luna cast her eyes downwards. When she threw herself in front of Shinn as his scythe was about to crash down, she didn't even think that Shinn could kill her, but she was naive to believe so. Shinn wasn't in his right mind. All he cared about was drenching the water in the blood of Orb soldiers. Realization didn't really strike her until later, but she was two seconds away from being killed by her friend. Her own friend. She knew he couldn't help it. It was frightening, though.

"Why is it like that?" Lacus asked, her voice laced with despair and disbelief. Lacus could never even imagine being that way when she entered SEED mode. The most she has ever experienced was that she was more serious. That's all. To believe that SEED mode could effect someone in that way.

Noticing Lacus' demeanor fall to one of distress, Kira quickly scurried over to his princess and encircled her body in his arms. Lacus sighed in contentment, but when she glanced over at the boy in front of her, her eyes glazed over in sadness.

"To answer that question, I have to explain a lot...." she paused, making sure that the people were prepared for her story. Seeing no objections, she started the story of the misfortuned boy.

"When Shinn's family was killed, instead of being taken away from the battlefield to safety, he was taken to a laboratory on the other side of Orb. Shinn was experimented on by two doctors. The experiments were to create the perfect soldier past the stages of SEED mode. The doctors took genes away from other soldiers and injected them into Shinn. As the experimenting went on, the doctors found that the genes weren't dominant unless stimulated. The genes were stimulated from a high frequency sound wave reacting with one of the chemicals in the brain that causes a person to shift into SEED mode. This reaction is extremely painful, especially if the subject tries to resist. The stimulation practically injects the genes with steroids so they can beat down Shinn's normal genes. Shinn resisted every time, and every time the doctors increased the frequency it proportionally increased the pain as well."

She noticed the looks of digust on some of the people present and stopped. She wasn't sure if they wanted her to continue. This was a lot to take in. No one could compare to what Shinn went through. Luna sometimes pretended that she understood. She wanted to feel like she could somehow help Shinn through this ordeal. His body is always in constant pain and she could never understand that. She could never understand that if she missed taking a vaccine that she could end up in a comatose state. If she couldn't grasp the entire situation, then how could she expect that this group of people could be able to?

"Is..." Cagalli whispered then cleared her throat. "Is that why Shinn blames my father?"

"Yes. Your father agreed to let the testing take place, but not the testing that was given to Shinn. I've tried to tell Shinn, but he's very close-minded about it. Your father thought that the two scientists were experimenting to make SEED mode...less aggresive, especially for the first time soldiers transition into it. The scientists lied and were experimenting for the perfect soldier instead, giving your father fake research when he came to check up on things."

"I-I can't believe that anyone could do that." Cagalli stated, collapsing into the chair behind her, and before Athrun even thought about what he was doing, he rushed over to the princess to make sure she was alright. They ended up staring at each other's eyes, remembering what they once had, but realizing what was happening, Athrun and Cagalli quickly tore their eyes away and gazed at opposite ends of the room.

"Do you want me to continue?" Luna asked, wary of the consequences of the story. She took in a deep breath when a few nods came in her direction.

"After years of trials, the doctors finally made Shinn into the perfect soldier. They created a remote to bring on the transformation from SEED mode to PINE mode (personality integrated neural emotions). Different numbers represent different frequency intensities. Shinn had gone to the last one. Once the doctors were forced to resort to their last dial I, being a secretary for the doctors and deciding that I needed to stay late to finish paperwork, heard Shinn's screams. I can never forget those screams. . ."

Lunamaria stopped, finding it hard to relive that memory. She remembered running down the hall and opening up the lab to find a boy, the same age as her, 16, lying on the floor, curled up in pain, writhing around, screaming his lungs out. The doctors stood over him with a remote and one smirked at the boy's pain. She was disgusted at the sight and jumped towards the doctors, snatching the remote away. She can never erase the sight of Shinn as he struggled to get up, facing the doctor. He ground his teeth together, groaning as he got up. What surprised her at the time was his eyes. He was in SEED mode and his eyes were filled with agony, rage, hatred, pain. His eyes momentarily softened when he realized that Lunamaria was helping him get up, but were immediately intensified when he cast his gaze towards the doctors.

She took a few moments to calm herself. She needed to continue on, whether it hurt to relive these memories or not. She continued on, "I took the remote away from the doctor when I found them in the lab and turned it off. Shinn's screaming stopped, but he was still in SEED mode, so, let's just say he was...angry. Following the insticts of the killer that were brought to the surface, Shinn timed the self-destruct mechanism to allow us to escape, leaving the doctors behind, but not before making sure they couldn't follow us. He has a beastly right hook, if you get what I mean.

"I took Shinn home with me so he could rest up. Meyrin had left for military school, so it was just me and my father, Todoka. A month went by and everything was fine, but then Shinn fell ill. It's the same as what's happening now, but much worse. We took him from doctor to doctor, but no one knew what was wrong. On the brink of losing hope, we met a scientist who was familiar with the PINE mode project. She deduced that Shinn's genes and the perfect soldier genes were fighting for dominance. She created a vaccine which would sedate the perfect soldier genes. Her theory was that after Shinn's greatest shock, the frequency was so intense that the genes took on a permanent injection of the 'steroids'. It's gradual but because of the huge frequency which was just too much to handle, the genes take any frequency that human ear picks up on and it causes the reaction with the chemical. The doctor also stated that for the genes to complete the reaction it would take up to five months for the frequencies to all add up. Her vaccines stop the reaction and also deflates the genes back to only recessive ones. Shinn takes half of the vaccine each episode. There is only a need for more if there are high frequencies around or the illness is brought on again. Shinn actually has to take half of the vial every week ever since we came to the Minerva. It has to do with all the machinery, but now something must have a very high frequency for him to wipe out our entire stock."

"So, that's why you freaked out when Shinn ran out." Captain Gladys spoke up, understanding the situation a lot more. She couldn't believe that Shinn had gone through that much. It must be unbearable for him, but how could she have not known? The doctors that take each soldier through a mental and physical examination should've noticed something. Why did they not?

Talia was about to ask Lunamaria for the answer to her question, but feeling the sorrow and sympothy in the air, she decided not to. It was too much for everyone. She would ask later. She probably didn't need anymore to ponder over, as well. Her head was full of these PINE mode technicalities.

"Why did he join the military? His body is in pain, so why?" Athrun asked

"Those two years that he was with the scientists, they pound it into his head that all he could do was fight. Shinn believes them--still to this day. He even told me that all he was good at was fighting. Also, the genes for the perfect soldier might be recessive, but they still show. His urge to fight was really...big. He was so desperate one time that he set up an entire shooting range with laser tag stuff. It took up our entire house."

For the first time during the explaination, Lunamaria finally smiled, reminiscing about his laser tag obsticle course.

During the whole story, Meyrin only looked on with disbelief, a feeling of hurt rising in her heart. She missed this. Her family didn't. They didn't tell her. Did they think that they couldn't tell her for fear she'd freak out? Or she'd tell? She needed to talk to her family.

Meyrin then glanced at Athrun and her heart sported another crack. He still cares for the princess, not her. Everyone saw how he rushed to her side without even thinking, and then that look between them. It was a look that she could never have with him. It was a look reserved for just the two of them. It seemed that everyone had someone. The pilot of the Freedom had the Lacus Clyne. Her own sister had someone. She looked down at the pilot lying unconscious, noticing that he moved slightly. Her eyes widened and she leaned forward, making sure that her eyes weren't playing tricks on her. Another movement.

"Hey! Everyone!" she yelled, pointing down to Shinn. "I think he's waking up!"

All eyes focused on the boy and noticed also that movements were coming from the pilot. A groan escaped his throat and his eyes fluttered open revealing groggy eyes. When his eyes came into focus, he saw a crowd around him and fear crossed his over his scarlet orbs. The only thought that ran through his mind was:

Did they know?

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