I don't own these characters; Disney does. I do own Cali and Carina, though.
A/N: for those of you who don't know who Carina is, she appears in the prequel of this series, Something's Gotta Give.
13: History of Western Civilization 211 — How to Let Go of the Past for the Future's Sake
Kim watched her class as they went through some exercises. She could not help thinking about the Moms, and their push for grandchildren. She looked at her students and imagined one of them belonging to her and her wives. It was very easy to picture. A smile settled on her face before she even realized.
"Maybe they were onto something," Kim quietly considered.
She liked working with her students and her students liked her. She could patiently deal with a lot of things that only kindergarten teachers could relate to and she did not mind. At the end of the day, she silently admitted, she could see herself walking upstairs, hand in hand, with a little person of her very own. Well, of her, Bonnie, and Shego's very own. The thought made a warm feeling settle in her body and washed over her soul.
Of course, she did have to consider such a child would be subjected to a very strange family life. To have three mothers alone would be far from normal, but to also live somewhere with a cat that turned into a cat-girl might be too much. She doubted a child would be able to keep Cali a secret and might not be able to understand why people would be off-put by the fact that the child had three mothers. While it did not bother her, she imagined a small child having to deal with that in school might be too much.
"I think I need to talk with Shego and Bonnie about this eventually," Kim muttered before refocusing on her class.
-8-8-8-8-
Bonnie was supposed to be working, but found herself distracted by thoughts from her birthday party. She hated that she was thinking about Isabel's desire for grandchildren. She had never discussed it with her spouses, not even when it was just her and Kim, but she would like to have kids.
It was no secret that she had a horrible childhood. Her siblings had been cruel and hateful. Her father had been indifferent or mean. Her mother had tried to smother her with attention, but had ignored how her siblings had treated her. She had hated being home, hated being herself for so long, and had treated other people terribly because that was all she knew. She wanted a chance to do better. She was certain she could do that with Kim and Shego.
She thought it was funny that when Shego first came along, she figured she would have to leave that dream behind. She had doubts about Shego since the woman had been a villain and had tried to hurt Kim in the past. She thought there was no way that such a woman could be a good mother. And then she met Isabel; it was like seeing Shego twenty years in the future. Isabel was weird and her relationship with Shego was odd, but she definitely seemed to be a good mother.
She believed Shego would be like Isabel. If they had a boy, Shego would probably shine as a parent. If they had a daughter, there was a big chance that Shego would have the same relationship with their little girl as she had with her own mother. They would argue and fight, but Shego would love the little girl with all of her heart and do everything in her power to keep her safe and happy.
She wondered if their parenting styles would clash. She sometimes feared she would turn into one of her parents if she had a child. But, the fact that it scared the crap out of her let her know she would not become her parents. She would stop herself if she did and, if she did not, Kim would definitely bring her back from the brink of disaster. Good people who would stop her from doing anything terrible if she could not stop herself surrounded her.
"I wonder what type of child we would raise together," Bonnie wondered aloud. "Wait, would we be able to raise a child together? I mean, three parents might be too much. Two parents often argue or clash and kids sometimes turn them against each other or try to be sly with each parent. Can we do this with three people?"
She thought about people with parents and stepparents. If they viewed the stepparent as an additional parent, how did they deal with that? Some people had to make that work, right?
She shook that thought away. It did not matter about stepparents because this was not even about a stepparent. This was just about having three parents from the start. The three of them had managed a relationship that was better than most couples, so she liked to think that they would be able to raise at least one child without screwing it up. Besides, they would have help in their parents and she was certain all the brothers would do their parts as well.
"It should be fine. We'd have so much support. While I don't think we should consider it right now, I think I want us to consider it in the near future," Bonnie decided. She was not sure how she would bring that subject up to her spouses, but that thought took a backseat as her phone rang.
Her daydreams turned to nightmares as she learned a deal that she had worked out and was sure would be accepted had been scratched. A frown conquered her face as she read an email that she had to sit down for a new deal because suddenly her terms were "unacceptable and bordering on immoral." She had to refrain from cursing the bastard out for saying such a thing, but she was not a big enough fish to do that. Instead, she pulled up the case on her Kimmunicator and got to work. The day got even worse when her boss entered her office.
"Hello, Bonnie, I have a new case I want to give you. I tried to give that moron Robert a chance and I have seriously never seen someone mess up so much so quickly," Charlie Darrow sighed, shaking his head. He placed a thick folder onto her desk.
Her eyes almost fell out of her head when she saw the size of the case. "What happened?"
"You name it, it happened. As you know, Robert got his place here through pure nepotism. The same people that hate having you here welcomed him. I figure this would be a good way for you to show them what I finally see," he explained.
Bonnie nodded. "It would be nice for everyone to stop looking at me as if I don't deserve to be here." She would like to make some friends at work. It had been a couple of years and her coworkers continued to act like she was wearing a scarlet letter.
"Well, if you fix this mess, I'm sure things will change."
Bonnie hoped so, but she was also aware that Darrow just conned her. He had done that a few times, but it worked because it helped her prove herself, at least to him. She could only wonder what she would have to do to prove herself to the other partners. Those were the same people that were happy to give Robert a job, no matter how many times he messed up because he happened to be the nephew of a named partner. She wondered what Robert would have to do to earn his scarlet letter because being incompetent did not seem to stop people from acting like he was the greatest thing since sliced bread.
Charlie Darrow exited the office and Bonnie scanned through the case. Each page made the frown on her face deepen. She was convinced that Robert was a moron and she had possibly bitten off more than she could chew considering she had tons of work to do without adding more. But, it was too late to back out now.
"Might as well get to work," she sighed. There would be no more daydreaming… except maybe thoughts of strangling Robert.
-8-8-8-8-
Bonnie practically dragged herself in the apartment after a grueling day at the office. She had actually left early, tired of the cases, of people in and out of her office, of the endless push and pull that seemed to get nowhere. She just wanted to take a long, hot bath and pass out on the couch. Hopefully, one of her wives would be kind enough to cook.
When she fell onto the sofa, Cali trotted out of nowhere. She reached down, petting the feline's head. Cali purred, but gave her a quizzical look; well, as quizzical as a cat could.
"What, my being here early cut into your kitty party?" Bonnie joked.
Cali marched off, leaving Bonnie to wonder what she was up to. The cat returned with her favorite toy, a stuffed bunny that rattled. Standing on her hind legs, she put the toy in Bonnie's arms. Bonnie giggled at Cali's generosity and scratched her ear.
"Thanks, Cali, but I'm afraid it'll take more than your favorite toy to make me feel better," Bonnie sighed.
Cali tilted her head, obviously puzzled by that. She ran off again, leaving Bonnie with the chewed up toy. After a few minutes, she assumed that Cali had gone about her business because the cat did not return. Then she heard the door open and Kim entered the living room.
"Baby?" the redhead said with a slightly puzzled expression.
"Kimmie." Bonnie put her hands out for her lover. Kim wasted no time falling into her arms and she curled into Kim's solid form.
"Baby, what are you doing home?" Kim asked in a gentle tone.
"What are you doing here?" Bonnie countered, not ready to talk about her problems.
"I was cleaning up my class when Cali came down and got me. Now, what's wrong?"
The attorney sighed and just snuggled into Kim more. Kim did not press anymore, just rubbing Bonnie's back. They did not move as they heard the door open and were not surprised that Shego joined them on the couch. Cali jumped up on the back of the sofa.
"Okay, what's going on here that the fat cat had to come and get me?" Shego inquired, getting in on the snuggle fest.
"Work sucks," Bonnie mumbled, hiding her face in Kim's collarbones.
"Not for me," Shego remarked, earning a pinch from Kim. "Ow!"
"Be good," Kim reprimanded Shego before turning her attention to Bonnie. "Baby, what happened at work?"
The lawyer sighed. "They gave me this case that one of the partners' nephew had already had and had basically fucked up beyond any and all recognition. I'm cleaning it up little by little and still being treated like a redheaded stepchild, no offense baby, while that clown wasn't even reprimanded for the shit he did. How is that fair? I mean, really, how the hell is that fair?"
"Doesn't sound fair at all, to me," Kim said, stroking Bonnie's hair.
"Who's treating you like that?" Shego inquired.
"It doesn't matter. Charlie told me that I'd be able to get respect by taking this case, but as usual, he's really the only person acknowledging my effort. It's frustrating."
"So… why don't you just tell them that?" Shego proposed with a slightly furrowed brow.
"What? Love, these guys are my bosses," Bonnie pointed out.
"So what? You wouldn't let any other person treat you like shit, so they shouldn't get a pass because they're your bosses. You should do what you usually would do in that situation. Even if they fire you, so the hell what? Start your own small practice. You're good enough to pull that shit off. You don't need their shit," Shego said.
"I actually agree with all of that," Kim stated, sounding a bit shocked that she did.
Bonnie looked at both of her wives and was speechless. It all made sense. She did not have to stay there. While she did not have to work, she did enjoy working, but she did not have to work there. She could do exactly like Shego said.
"I can't believe I never thought of that. I don't have to deal with this shit!" Bonnie proclaimed, earning lighthearted chuckles from her spouses.
"No, you don't," Shego agreed.
"I don't think it occurred to you because you're used to being the main bread winner out of us and you seem to think you have to work all the time," Kim pointed out.
"I know, but I like working, but it's like Shego said. I don't have to work there. I don't have to feel this way. I don't have to put up with this crap and I'm going to tell them just that tomorrow," Bonnie stated.
"Okay, so the crisis is over?" Shego inquired.
Bonnie smiled. "Yes, thank both of you," she said, holding Kim tightly. She did not want to let the hero go just yet. Cali made a noise, reminding them that she was there. Bonnie reached up and scratched her ear. "Thank you, too, you're such a good cat." Cali purred, sounding proud.
"Since the crisis is over and we're all here, how about we watch a movie?" Shego suggested.
"Sounds like a good idea. You two can pick while I go take a quick shower," Kim said.
"Actually, I'll join you. Duchess, you coming or you'll pick the movie?" Shego asked.
"I took a bath already. I'll find a movie for us," Bonnie replied.
"You sure? I planned on doing some really dirty things to you and Kimmie," Shego said with a lusty grin.
"You can do them to Kim now and do them to me tonight. Actually, baby, you can tell me if it's worth the hype," Bonnie remarked and Kim laughed.
"What? Of course it's worth the hype!" Shego declared before dragging Kim toward the bathroom.
Bonnie laughed as they vanished into the bedroom. She picked a movie and then pampered Cali a bit because she felt like the cat deserved it. Once her wives returned, they called out for pizza and just lounged for the night. Crisis averted and the legal rottweiler had her bite back.
-8-8-8-8-
Shego and her class were having a pretty normal day when the ninjas came out of nowhere. Yori's class invaded, warring with Shego's crew. Amongst the group, Shego noticed Ron's sister, Hana. She did not know that Hana had joined Yori's class. Not that it mattered since Shego was sure that her class was going to win the battle, even though none of their melees really ever had a clear winner.
By the time class was over and it was time for lunch, most of the students had cleared out. There had been no actual winner again, but everyone had a good workout. Hana was laid out on the mat, smiling and trying to catch her breath. Yori stared at the child. Shego noted the love and pride in Yori's dark eyes. She imagined that was how Yori would look at her own child, if she decided to have any.
"What made you attack?" Shego asked cleaning up a little. It would not do to have her afternoon students arrive to chaotic class.
Yori shrugged. "We have not done that in so long that I had students who had never been a part of one. Not to mention, Hana wanted to see one after hearing so much about them."
"Is she in your class now?"
"Yes," Hana chimed in with a laugh. "I wanna be able to do that more often."
Yori chuckled. "Well, I guess she is in my class now." Her eyes shined, as if that was exactly what she was hoping for.
"I'm sure you're looking forward to teaching her," Shego commented.
"I enjoy spending time with her. As does her big brother, who is waiting for us to have lunch. Hana, please, go grab your things," Yori requested. The girl nodded, picked herself up, and trotted off.
"You wanted her to join your class, huh?" Shego inquired.
"I have been trying for a while, but her parents never agreed until recently for some reason. It is always a struggle with them when I want to do something with her. They do not mind her spending time with me, but they definitely mind if I try to start showing her things, especially anything they consider Japanese," Yori explained. "Whatever that means."
"They probably think her learning anything from the Japanese culture might alienate her from their family and they don't want to lose their daughter. I guess you'll just have to have your own kids to teach them Japanese culture."
Yori laughed a bit. "I suppose so, but I do not know much about Japanese culture really. I was practically raised at Yamanouchi."
"Then that's what you teach Hana and you teach your kid when you have one."
"Is that what you would do?" Yori asked because she knew that Shego technically had no real national culture to draw from.
"What, if I had kids?"
"Yes, is that what you would do if you had children?"
Shego tried not to think about it. "I've never really considered having kids."
"No? Your mother seems to push the idea pretty hard. I would have thought that you would have you considered it just because of that."
The former villain bobbed her head from side to side. "She only recently started pushing for grandchildren. Growing up, she kinda just let us do our own thing while teaching us kung fu. She never really pushed us to do anything beyond that. Relationships were not really important."
"Do you think that you will be a good mother if you do become one?"
Shego shrugged. "I never thought about it." But, she would now be left to think about it because Hana returned. She and Yori bid Shego farewell to go have lunch with Ron. She decided to go get Kim, so they could have lunch with Bonnie.
Kim was still in her class, cleaning her classroom. It always took Kim longer to clean, which led Shego to believe that little kids were messy. She was not sure if she would want to clean up after a kid, after anybody really. But, then again, she was all too aware that kids could be trained to clean after themselves. She and her brothers had always known not to leave their things lying around the house. They were expected to store their things in their rooms; some had better organizational skills than others, but they all knew that their stuff belonged in their rooms.
"Hey, love, you all right?" Kim called, snapping Shego out of her thoughts.
"Yeah, just thinking."
"About what?"
"Kids. Yori had Hana with her downstairs and we got to talking about kids for second."
Kim nodded. "Do you want kids, Shego?"
A pale hand ran through dark locks. "I don't know. I never really thought about it. What about you?"
"I hadn't really thought about it either. I do think we'd make good mothers. I think maybe…" Kim did not sound totally sure of things, but it seemed like she had thought on it more than she let on.
"Maybe you want a kid?" Shego guessed.
"Maybe, but having three moms could be weird. I don't want us to… I'm not even sure."
Shego smiled. "Oh, Kimmie, it's cute that you're worried about a kid that doesn't exist and how her peers would treat her. First off, if we had a kid, considering who we are, we'd raise her to not take shit from anyone. Second, we'd raise a kid to be proud of us, so dumb shit like that wouldn't hurt her feelings. Third, we all grew up in weird families and turned out fine. Sure, it took some of us longer than others to get there, but we're all relatively fine."
Kim nodded. "Sounds like you'd like a daughter."
Shego shrugged. "Despite all that, I really haven't thought about it."
"Maybe we should."
Shego was not sure what to say to that, so she did not say anything. She took by the hand and led her downstairs. They had a lunch to get to with their wife.
-8-8-8-8-
Shego was distracted. Bonnie wondered what was wrong, but Kim would not tell her and Shego was too off in her own world to figure that Bonnie was talking to her. Bonnie decided to just talk to Kim until Shego checked back in.
"So, I told the partners off today and then told off almost all of my coworkers," Bonnie announced with a proud grin.
"Are we still employed?" Kim asked with a smile of her own.
Bonnie chuckled. "Unbelievably, but yes we do. Best of all, they all hated me already, so it's not like things could get worse for me at work. I think they respect me a lot more now. Before the day was over, a few people came to my office to say what a good job I was doing. I guess, being a bitch is the only way to get stuff done there."
Kim smiled. "You know how to do that, so you should be fine."
A lighthearted laugh escaped Bonnie and she lightly slapped at Kim's shoulder. "That's not nice."
"Are we at the abuse Kimmie portion of lunch?" Shego chimed in with a smile of her own.
"No, Kimmie's just being a smart-ass," Bonnie replied.
The redhead smirked. "I can't help it that I'm smart. But, to make it up to you, how about I take you both out for dinner? We can celebrate things getting better for you at work."
"Wait, things got better for you at work?" Shego inquired.
"Yes. I guess I'll have to repeat the story for you now that you're paying attention again. Why are you so distracted?" Bonnie countered.
Shego glanced at Kim and then shook her head. The lawyer frowned; her wives were hiding something from her. She considered it might not be anything. It could be a surprise, but it did not feel that way. There was something going on between the two martial artists. Bonnie sighed and decided to just put her thoughts out there.
"I don't like it that you're hiding something from me," Bonnie said in a low, sorrowful voice.
Shego actually pouted. "Duchess, it's nothing bad. I just have something on my mind that I was discussing with Kimmie earlier. I just need to straighten it out in my head."
"Maybe if you tell me, I could help," Bonnie offered.
Shego nodded. "As soon as I straighten it out. Maybe at dinner tonight as we bankrupt poor Princess." She winked at Kim.
Olive eyes rolled. While they had joint accounts for most of their funds, they had agreed to each maintain one separate account for when they wanted to treat each other. Of course, Kim had the least amount in her account, even though she did her best to keep money in there. Most of the money she made with her classes she just put right back into the school or treated her students to things. She had even gone back to freelance photography, continuing to take gorgeous pictures while on her missions and sell the prints, but Bonnie was a lawyer and Shego was a trust fund baby. She could not compete with those things.
"Don't worry, baby, I'll take it easy on you," Bonnie teased and Kim smiled.
-8-8-8-8-
The trio had dressed for a night out and Cali followed them around the apartment. It was clear from the big eyes that cat gave them that she wanted to go with them. Kim, who was ready first as always, caressed Cali's head.
"Sorry, Cali, you can't come. I'll bring you back a nice salmon steak, though, okay?" Kim offered, but the feline still purred in disappointment. Kim smiled and gave her another pat to the head.
"Stop babying her," Shego ordered as she stepped out of the back dressed in black with emeralds around her neck.
"She needs attention just like any of us do. Besides, she expected us to be here with her tonight. Now, she'll be lonely," Kim argued.
"Oh, please, as soon as we leave she's going to go out hunting," Shego pointed out. Cali actually nodded, confirming that to be true.
Kim chuckled. "I'll still bring you some food. Be good while we're gone and protect the place."
Cali nodded and, once Bonnie was ready to go, the trio left. Bonnie drove to the restaurant. They were actually a little early and had to wait at the bar. Bonnie went to the bathroom, wanting to check her makeup. Kim decided to surprise Bonnie with a glass of her favorite wine. While she was ordering, Shego scanned the area and saw a blond woman watching Kim at the end of the bar.
Shego glared at the woman, who did not seem to notice. Shego mentally conceded it was probably hard for the blond to notice the glower with her eyes glued to Kim's ass. Bonnie returned and smiled at Kim when she handed her the wine glass. They were seated shortly after that. By that time, the blond that had been clocking Kimmie was gone. Shego did not let it go, but did not share the information with her wives.
"Kim, baby, how did you find this place?" Bonnie asked curiously as they were seated. It was a brilliant looking place, which was actually well outside of Kim's usual price range. She could see why Kim had told them to dress as nicely as possible.
Kim grinned. "I helped out the owner."
Shego laughed. "Of course."
"Hey, you guys have your form of wealth and I have mine. I can still show you a good time without thousands of dollars in my possession." Kim smiled proudly.
Shego and Bonnie chuckled. A waiter came to take their orders. With that out of the way, they turned their attention back to each other. Bonnie was next to Kim and Shego was across from them. She reached over the table to touch both of them. They all knew had she been sitting next to one of them, her hands would have been on other, more inappropriate places.
"So, are you ready to share what's bothering you?" Bonnie asked Shego while running her fingers up and down Shego's forearm.
Shego gave a jokingly demure smile. As she opened her mouth, something caught her attention. She noticed the blond woman from the bar was sitting not too far from them, facing their table. The blond was with someone, but all Shego could see was the back of the person's head, much like the blond could see the back of Kim's head. That seemed to be enough for her, though, because she was still staring.
"Shego?" Kim said.
"Huh?" Shego shook her head to clear her mind.
"You okay? Actually, hold on." The hero stood and walked off.
"You know she's going to get you one of those stupid fruity drinks with an umbrella that you pretend to hate," Bonnie reported with a smile.
"What? I hate those things," the former villain lied.
Bonnie continued to smile and shook her head while Shego watched the blond woman get up, possibly going to the bar to chat Kim up. She was about to get up to interrupt the encounter, but then the person sitting with the blond turned around. Shego almost swallowed her tongue when she saw who was sitting little more than twenty feet from her.
"Carina," Shego whispered with wide eyes. "Oh, my god, Carina." She was standing before she realized.
"Shego?" Bonnie called as the pale woman walked off. She did not receive an answer. "Shego?" She stood, watching Shego go to a nearby table. She wondered what was going on, if she should confront Shego or leave her be. Looking around, she spotted Kim at the bar. The redhead seemed to be busy trying to fend off a persistent blond. "Well, at least this decision is easy."
Bonnie marched over to the bar, her hips swaying, and sexual heat radiating from her. She practically melded her body to Kim's side. Kim relaxed against her as she glared at the blond for a very brief moment. She then smiled at Kim.
"Baby, you've been taking so long," Bonnie forced out a pout.
"Sorry, love. I was held up a bit," Kim replied with a smile before leaning over to kiss away Bonnie's moue.
"Well, we should get back to our table," Bonnie said, pulling her wife away. Kim did not object, nor did she bid the blond farewell. In fact, Kim did not even look back. "Something's up with Shego."
"Yeah, all day, which is why I got this." Kim held up her bounty, a fruity concoction with multiple umbrellas.
"She muttered a woman's name and then walked away from the table," Bonnie explained. Kim arched an eyebrow in confusion, but Bonnie had no more to offer.
-8-8-8-8-
"Carina?" Shego said in disbelief as she stood in front of the woman that she had not seen in over twenty years.
The woman looked up and it certainly was Carina, but not the girl that she knew. Carina was a woman with the same soulful brown eyes that seemed to call to Shego while looking into the depths of her very being. Eyes that once made her heart race, but now made her feel like ashes ran through her veins.
"Little artist?" Carina said, blinking in shock.
Shego frowned. "You don't get to call me that anymore. What the hell are you doing in my neck of the woods?"
Carina had the nerve to roll her eyes. "Oh, I'm sorry, do you own the whole western hemisphere? North America? Or is it just the United States?"
The frown was now a deep, cutting scowl accompanied by a loathing glare. "I thought you never wanted to come to the U.S. But, I guess that was just another lie you told me."
"Sheshona, it was twenty years ago. You can't let it go?"
"Oh, no, I have. Believe me, I have, but seeing you here pisses me off because it reminds me about what a fucking liar you are. You know how I am, after all."
Carina sighed as if she was the one who was hurt. "Sheshona, what do you want from me?"
"An admission of wrongdoing would be a great start. You always pretend I'm the crazy one or that I made it all up in my head. You haven't taken responsibility for anything and you've always tried to just blow me off, like it was nothing."
"I was a child."
"And now you're an adult. You got something to say?" Shego demanded and Carina sat there quietly, as expected. "Still a coward," Shego practically spat.
"Carina, who is this?" the blond asked. Carina opened her mouth, but nothing came out.
"Don't worry about me. Still a lesbian magnet, huh, Carina? What boyfriend are you trying to make jealous with her?" Shego inquired.
"Hey, leave Carina alone," the blond ordered.
"No problem, as long as Carina finds her way out of my country ASAP. But, Carina, like I said, I am over it. We were kids, but I had hope you'd be able to admit you did something wrong. You were my best friend long before you were my first love and I thought our friendship would at least mean something to you. But, you know what? It doesn't even matter. You don't matter," Shego declared and she moved to leave.
"Little artist, wait!" Carina cried, grabbing the ex-thief by the hand. "Once upon a time you would not have been so harsh to me."
"Like you said, it was twenty years ago. My heart has mended. I just had hope. Hope you'd finally become a bigger person. Instead, you're the same person you've always been and I don't have to deal with that shit. Now, let me go or I'll yank my hand away and probably hurt you."
"You can't talk to her like that while I'm around," the blond stated and reached out to grab Shego. Shego surprised her by grabbing her first.
"This isn't any of your business, but since you seem intent on getting involved, let me tell you this — stop looking at my wife. She's not interested in you. She's got more than enough at home."
"Wife?" both women gasped.
"Yes, I'm married. And, I just remembered how awesome that is. So, I'm done with this bullshit. Bye," Shego stated, tearing away from Carina.
She almost pulled the brunette Italian out of her chair, but did not care. People around them gasped, probably expecting Carina to stumble. She marched back to her table without looking back.
"Duchess, can I sit here?" Shego requested, so that her back would be to Carina and her friend.
"Of course, love, anything you need," Bonnie answered, taking Shego's old seat. "Are you all right, love? That looked intense." She reached over to take Shego's hand.
Kim caressed Shego's bare arm. "Do you want to leave?"
"No. I want to enjoy the night with my wives, as planned. I let her run and ruin enough of my life. Fuck her," Shego declared before sipping the drink Kim had gotten her to help her talk.
"Who is that?" Kim asked.
"My first friend and first love. Also, my first heartbreak," the older woman answered.
"She broke up with you?" Bonnie guessed.
"No, we were never together like that. We were the best of friends when I lived in Italy. She was my first friend on my own. Before that, I hung out with Hadrian's friends, which used to piss him off. It was around that time he was getting unbearable, too. She was great…" Shego shook her head.
"Did you confess your love for her and she didn't take it well?" Kim asked.
"No, nothing like that. I never told her I was in love with her. But, we were really young. I knew I loved her, but not romantically."
"So, what happened?" Kim inquired and Bonnie nodded.
Shego suggested. "I moved back to the States. We kept in touch for a few years." She paused in her explanation for a second as Carina walked over. She did not bother looking at her. "I'm busy."
"I know. Sheshona, I just need you to listen. I was wrong for using you. I was also wrong for telling you about all of those dates. I wanted you to understand I was not that way and I went about it the wrong way. I am sorry," Carina said.
"Why the sudden change of heart?" Shego asked.
"My friend, Abrianna, wanted to know what that was all about. I've never told anyone about what happened between us and I just poured it out to her, hoping she'd validate my stance on the issues. You can guess how that went. She… opened my eyes. So, I'm sorry for it all, including for downplaying your emotions, now and then."
Shego nodded. "That's all I wanted. Now, you can go. I'm having an evening out with my family." She dismissed Carina with a wave of her hand. This woman was no longer important and did not deserve any more of her attention.
Carina nodded and did not ask any questions. She disappeared into the background. Shego seemed much happier with that.
"You still want to talk about it?" Bonnie asked, squeezing Shego's hand.
"Not much to talk about now. All I ever wanted was for her to admit that she was wrong. She…" Shego almost swallowed the words, but consciously decided against it. Her wives had seen her through a lot and she had done the same with them. She needed to say this and they needed to hear it. "She hurt me. I've always had trouble making friends and she was my first one, only to treat me like shit after I had to move again."
"What did she do?" Bonnie inquired.
"She used to call me and tell me about her dates, even when I told her I didn't want to know. One time when I went to see her, she clung to me when she wanted a boy to get jealous. She practically shoved me to the ground as soon as he was gone. She knew I was gay before I knew and she just messed with my head," Shego explained.
"Damn," Bonnie and Kim said.
"But, it's all right. I'm over it. I made a better friend in Jennifer and she always there for me, even if I didn't want her to be. I have you two and our family. That's fair for me," Shego replied with a smile.
"Oh, wow, how sweet," Kim said with a smile of her own.
Shego laughed. "It shouldn't be a surprise I love you both. I did marry you and all."
"That you did," Bonnie smiled.
"That being said, I was thinking of us extending our family. Me and Kim talked about briefly and that's what's been on my mind for the day. I'm not too sure if I want that or not, but I was thinking about it. What do you think, Duchess?" Shego asked.
"Honestly?" Bonnie inquired.
"Yeah, be honest. That's how we work. That's the great thing about us," Shego answered and Kim nodded.
"I think… I think I'd like to have kids one day," Bonnie admitted. "But, I want to enjoy a few more nights like this first. Well, without the drama."
Shego and Kim agreed. They supposed they would revisit the topic of children at a later date. For now, they would be content as the family they were.
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Next time: the family grows.