tell me what's the use

Character: Kay Hamilton

Summary: Because in all honesty, she does not know.

"Go back inside."

She turns her head and smirks faintly. "I cannot remember the day you became the boss of me, Nessa," she replies and pats the space next to her. "Plus, dad will throw a fit at me for smoking inside."

"I thought you stopped," her older and wiser sister says softly.

"I did and I will stop again," the red-haired woman replies as she stares at the stars above them. "This is the last one I still got – I bought three packs at the start of the war and I didn't buy any new ones. With this cigarette, Ishbal will be finally over for me."

They are sisters, twins even, and they know each other better than anyone else knows them. They have faced so many difficult decisions and sometimes, space has had appeared between them but they have always felt connected.

"You will smoke again," the blonde says, holding out a hand with a new lighter. "Just, don't smoke when Lynn's around and away from the kids."

"You have changed."

"You were gone for years. I had to change, had to become independent from you, Kay. We do it all, simply everything if we have to, don't we? Always together, fearless sisters of strength and power," she says. "I needed some thing of my own, things that belong to me – only to me."

"Like the shiny ring on your finger?"

"For example, yes."

"Soldier?"

"You know me too well, Kay."

"You are one of us and all of us married soldiers or are at least involved with one of them."

"True," the blonde smiles as she leans against her sister. "We missed you when you were gone."

"I wasn't gone, I didn't leave you behind," Kay says as she smiles at the garden around them. "It is nice to see some real green for a change."

"Dad won't make you leave. It's your home."

"At the moment, I don't need all of this," Kay replies as she pats her sister's shoulder. "I missed the days when we just sat here and watched the stars."

"Who said that they are over?"

They turn around just to see their sisters. Lynn is carrying the same patched-up blanket they have used to so many years while Serena carries the chocolate bars.

"We will just lay there and forget about all that trouble," Lynn says and her voice allows no objections.

And so they lay in the grass and stare at the stars above them and for a moment, Kay truly manages to forget about the pain and the suffering she has been through. In those precious minutes that fade into hours, she does not care about anything but the moment. She does not wonder how her future will be or what will happen next because she finally stops to wonder about a deeper meaning in anything.

Her inability to accept what she cannot change has been her greatest weakness for so long and now, she simply stops to ask so many questions because there is not always a reason and she has to stop asking questions when she knows that there is no use.

And yet, she will never stop to wonder about the use of a war like the one she has just returned from.