I can't find a reason to let go. Even though you found a new love,and she's what your dreams are made of.
.X.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.X.
The nights are the worst. Falling asleep in your husbands arms is something you get use to. I feel like I'm being swallowed by a black hole laying in this bed alone. I've been use to the sleepless nights. Staring out of the window is what fills my nights lately. I can't help but think maybe he will come back to me. Maybe he will leave her. She can't replace the ten years we have behind eachother. She can't replace all of our memories. They have only been together for 3 months. My throat got dry and my eyes watered at the thought of them together in bed right now. Holding eachother. Kissing. Being together. I sobbed into my pillow and gripped at the sheets. I thought everything was going to be fine from now on. I thought this was finally our time. I guess I will never get my happy ending.
.x.x.x.x.x 3 months later .x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x
"You have to get back out there Rachel. You can't keep hiding away in your house." Santana basically yelled at me.
"I lost my husband Santana! H-he left me for another women." I said feeling the tears prickle in my eyes.
"No" she snapped pointed her finger at me. "You are done wasting your tears on Finn Hudson."
I looked up at her and thought about her words. This must have been the millionth time I've cried over him. I love him with all my heart but I can't keep punishing myself for Finn leaving. I stood up and wiped my eyes. Santana looked taken by surprise by me getting up. I took and deep breath and said the one sentence that could possibly change my life. "I'm ready to move on."