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Chapter 8: Talk

'This is it. Everything is over. I ruined everything. Light surely hates me now. There's no way he couldn't. He hates me...' L thought to himself, curled up in a chair at the end of his room.

It hurt. Everything he felt hurt. When he ran from Light he felt like he made the biggest mistake of his life and it hurt him more than it ever could. Why is it that Light made him feel that way? How did Light get him to got outside and talk more? What magical power was it that Light possessed?

The door opened, and L was about to yell for whoever it was to go away, before he saw that it was Matt.

"Hey." Matt closed the door and walked to the bed to lay down on it. "I saw what happened."

"I figured you did if you came in here to talk." L stated, lowering his head onto his knees.

"So, what are you going to do?" Matt asked.

"What am I going to do? There's nothing to do." L explained, not looking at Matt. "Light was one of my best friends because he understood me and had an intellect at the same degree as mine. He didn't hate me and he saved me and... And now I ruined it all. I could have..."

"Said no?" Matt asked when L had no more words. L shook his head, wild locks moving as he did.

"No. I... I don't think I would say no..." L trailed off, more to himself than anyone else.

"L. I'm right here. Explain to me everything." Matt ordered, sitting up on the bed.

"You wouldn't understand. It would only burden you and you have your duties here at Wammy's that you must see to. I-"

"L, stop. You have to talk about it. You have to let it all out. It helps you more than you would ever think possible. Just explain." Matt instructed, moving towards L but stopped when L's head shot up, anger evident in his eyes.

"Explain? Your telling me to explain? You want to know what my reasonings are so bad? What about you, Matt? Why don't you explain yourself with Mello? What about that?!" L asked.

"That's different. Mello's in a mental institution for Impulse Control Disorder. So, not only does that mean that I could get fired if they found out that we are in a relation of any sorts but even if I decided to go with Mello then he might have just wanted to kiss me and not have any actual feelings for me. His actions could have just been set on impulse." Matt explained.

L's eyes widened and he lowered his head again. Matt truly was doing a smart thing, this L knew, he was just taking his frustration out on Matt.

"I know. Our situations are completely different but... I'm afraid, Matt." L stated, grabbing his ankles tightly.

"Afraid of what?" Matt asked.

"Of Light loving me..." L confessed, turning his head to the wall. "I'm scared because Beyond... Beyond said the same thing to me... And look at what he did."

"You think Light is going to be like Beyond?" Matt asked L who didn't move. Matt went in front of him and grabbed him by the shoulders. "Light isn't like that, L. Did Beyond ever hold your hand? Did Beyond ever give you a soft but loving kiss? Did Beyond ever protect you from a danger so strong it hand you almost in someone else's lap to try and get away?"

"I was in his lap?" L asked.

"That's not the point!" Matt almost yelled, but then calmed himself down. "Answer the questions."

"..." L looked Matt in the eye, black orbs looking with understanding. "No."

"Then don't you understand? You don't have to hide, he will protect you." Matt explained, letting go of L's shoulders.

"But... Also... Didn't it say that Light is... Promiscuous?" L asked, blushing.

"It also said that he was Manic Depressive and not just yesterday did it say that he was suicidal." Matt answered with a smirk. L brought a finger to his lips.

"Watari is losing his touch." L stated.

"See?! Even you agree that he's wrong. So go find Light, find your happiness." Matt ordered, pulling L off the chair.

"How do you know, Matt? How are you so sure about this?" L asked.

"Because your in love, L. I saw it as soon as you two met. You had different effects on the other and it was painfully obvious that it was love." Matt explained.

L blushed as he was pushed to the door.

"Thank you, Matt, but if you don't mind me saying that Light-kun and I are not the only ones in such an obvious relationship. Please, try to talk to Mello. It could help." L stated as he walked out the door to find Light. He had to make things different. He had to make things right.

--

Light lay on his bed, hands behind his head, looking at the ceiling. The painfully white ceiling.

[Damn, why does everything have to be such a painful white color?]

Why does that matter to you? You should be up and running to find L. It was obvious that you hurt him.

[So? Why do you care?]

Because I love him.

"What...?" Light whispered aloud.

[You love him? You don't love anyone. You just want to use people so you can get your share and fuck whoever you want.]

No! I... I really do love him. More than anything actually.

[No. Not true. You have no proof.]

Proof? You want proof to my- no- our feelings. When we kissed him our stomache grew hot. When we held his hand we felt happy. When Beyond harassed him we felt protective. When he ran we got upset.

[I'm not upset.]

Do you hear yourself? Your trying to distract yourself from our feelings. We don't even have these contradicting thoughts around him. All we are is... Happy.

[There were times when we had these thoughts around him...]

Yeah? Name one.

Light yelled in annoyance, covering his face with a pillow. Those thoughts were going to drive him insane! Wait... Apparently he already was, but that didn't help him anymore. He was arguing with himself if he was in love or not, but it was so obvious he was. He did not make random friends like that, nor did he protect them, or kiss them so easily. L, though, was different. Everything he did with L was easy. It was true. He loved L, but he was so shocked he couldn't accept it completely.

What does it matter arguing anyway? We knew L was raped and we just went ahead and kissed him. He probably hates us now.

[Yeah... We really screwed up, didn't we?]

"My Kami! Can either of you ever just shut up?!" Light yelled through the pillow, making him feel like an idiot. He just yelled at himself, for talking to himself.

A knock at the door saved his little bit of sanity he kept saved.

"Come in!" Light pulled the pillow off his head, sitting up and sounding much too eager. Much to his surprise it was L who walked in with his face pink. "Hey..."

"Light-kun..." L trailed off, looking to the ground.

"I'm sorry!" Light blurted out, and L looked up at him. "I'm sorry for just kissing you, I... I heard about what Beyond did to you and it wasn't right of me to just kiss you like I did after that happened. So, I'm sorry."

"N-No. I'm sorry that I ran away. It wasn't the right action to take especially when..." L's face grew a shade darker as he put his head down. "Especially when I liked it..."

Light's eyes widened as he smiled. He walked over to L and hugged him, L immediately hugged back, burying his face in Light's shoulder.

"You have nothing to be sorry about. You did nothing wrong." Light explained, pulling L into a kiss. The kiss being different from their first, this one more passionate and hungry. Light grabbed L's wild locks, pulling him closer as L hugged him. Light's tongue licked at L's lips and L granted entry, their tongue's immediately exploring each other's mouths. L moaned into the kiss as Light's tongue worked expertly around his mouth. Light lavished in the moan and L's taste, all of it feeding him in ways that were too much for him to handle. L tasted like strawberries, which shouldn't have been as big a shock as it was when L just ate strawberry ice cream, but still Light loved it. Light tasted great to L, for someone who held no longing for sugary things Light held a small sweet taste that L was attacking with all his might. Soon Light found his pants becoming uncomfortably tight, so he broke the kiss.

L looked beautiful. His eyes glazed over and his cheeks red while panting for much needed air.

"It seems we can't go any further L. Your more of a turn on then I ever thought possible." Light stated, smirking. L then understood what Light's problem was.

"So you really are promiscuous." L stated as Light started for the door.

"Yeah, but don't worry. I'll take care of it." Light answered.

"Y-Your not going to ask me to help?" L asked.

"Never. That would be rude and I know you wouldn't be so easy as to do that right after we just started dating." Light explained, opening the door.

"Thank you, Light."

"There's no need to thank me. I love you." Light stated and then left, leaving L in his room.

--

"Guess what Near." Mello ordered walking over.

"They found a way to prove that we really are not truly blood related?" Near asked, fiddling with his sleeve.

"As great as that would be, no. I totally just saw L and Light kissing outside." Mello stated with a giant smirk. Near didn't even look at him.

"I highly doubt that, Mello. L doesn't grow relationships like that ever since the Beyond incident." Near retaliated.

"Incident?! He was fucking raped! That's not an incident. That's a freaking crime that the asshole should go to prison for!" Mello yelled, lucky for him though nobody was around, as per usual.

"You just proved my point as to why L would not perform these actions with anyone. Especially Light." Near explained.

"And what's wrong with Light?!" Mello asked, biting into a chocolate bar he had hidden in his pants.

"He's a liar, manipulator, promiscuous pretty boy with anger issues." Near stated.

"Your just jealous because you wanted to be better than L and L having a boyfriend is not something you can beat him at." Mello stated, rolling his eyes at Near. "But your going to have to deal with that Near. There are just some things you can't be number one at."

"I believe you showed proof of that when you burnt down our house. I sure could not have been more psychotic than you at that point." Near retaliated and was punched in the face by Mello.

"Fuck you, Near! Why do you care?! You hated our home! You hated our parents! I just did the dirty work for you so don't speak so little of me you albino freak!" Mello yelled, taking Matt's stolen lighter out of his pocket and showing it to Near's face. "Or do you want to end up like them?"

"Mello, if you really want to burn me then go ahead and do it." Near ordered, not moving as Mello took him by his shirt's collar. "I'm sure Matt would definitely want to date you after he hears you killed me."

Mello growled and threw Near to the ground so his head hit with a crack. Then Mello started backing away, all the while looking at Near.

"Fuck you, Near! Fuck you! You always have to be the best at everything! Even with fucking emotions! So just fuck off and leave us all alone! Fuck you!" Mello yelled and ran off.