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Ch. 30: Telling Brooke the Truth

James sighed unhappily as he lay naked on Kendall's bed, tangled in the sheets, with Kendall snoring lightly at his side.

Kendall had definitely made sure James didn't get any regrets or second thoughts about going back to Sean and as soon as they'd gotten to the house had attacked James' mouth and led him up to his room where he'd let James fuck him for a good couple of hours.

However, James couldn't help but feel empty when he compared this raw, almost meaningless fucking to the special night which had been their first time. He was scared of Kendall's growing coldness and didn't know what to do to stop that from happening.

He knew he'd messed up big time, cheating on Kendall when the blonde, in reality, had given everything up for James. He should've known that Kendall loved him, even when said blonde couldn't admit it out loud, he still had quit his dreams of playing hockey professionally for James' dream, he'd still stuck up for James in every situation, and had even agreed to date him despite his many insecurities regarding his masculinity. James felt like a complete idiot for not realizing it before.

He just hoped they could still fix this and work on getting closer than they'd been even before all this mess had happened.

James was brought out of his thoughts when he felt Kendall stir next to him.

His arms came out to instantly to encircle the blonde's waist, drawing him closer to him.

Kendall smiled, still half asleep and cuddled closer to James' chest.

James began to run his fingers through Kendall's hair, caressing his blonde locks and his face.

Kendall's eyes fluttered open. He yawned.

"Good morning sunshine," James said gently, showering Kendall with kisses, making the blonde squirm a little because he was somewhat ticklish.

"Morning James," Kendall said, beginning to stretch out, wincing in the process.

"Still sore baby?" James asked him worriedly.

"I-yeah, a little…" Kendall admitted "But it's nothing you need to worry about James, nothing I can't handle."

"Kendall," James said, his tone getting serious "We need to talk…"

"Now James?" Kendall asked him evasively for he didn't like James' tone "We just woke up…"

"Yeah, but if we're ever going to fix things we need to start at some point," James said softly.

"I thought we'd started last night…" Kendall said, turning away from James so he wouldn't have to face his boyfriend.

"Sex isn't the same as making things up Kendall," James said "Sex is just that…Sex."

Kendall scoffed.

"Yeah, I can believe that sex isn't really that big of a deal in your book James, how often did you fuck me and Sean on the same day?"

"Fine. Want to start out that way, let's start out that way." James said, rather hurt by Kendall's comment "I'd rather you were angry at me than not talking to me at all…"

Kendall said nothing and pretended not to hear what the brunette was saying.

"As for your comment," James continued, tears in his eyes "I'm going to be honest from now on with you Kendall. Many times. Technically speaking, I never fucked YOU on the same day I fucked Sean but yeah, whatever, if what you mean is how many times I slept with both you guys on the same day, it was many times okay? And I'm not proud of it, and I wish it'd never happened-"

"That's a lie," Kendall said softly "You still held feelings for Sean, James or you would've never agreed to do what you guys were doing. You were actually deliberating on moving in with him…you were actually deliberating on whether or not to leave me…"

"But I wouldn't have been able to do it, Kendall, I love you," James said, furious tears now running down his cheeks.

"Yeah, well I guess we'll never know that, will we?" Kendall said coldly "It's a good thing we never had to test how much you loved me…I might've been disappointed then,"

"Kendall…" James was at loss for words, and feeling more miserable than ever as he saw the blonde slip away from him even more.

Kendall however heard the hurt in James' voice and instantly regretted his words.

"James," he said slowly, turning to face his boyfriend "I'm sorry, I didn't mean-"

"Yes you did," James said, tears streaming down his face "You meant every single word you said and that's good you know? That I know what you're really thinking, what you're really feeling. I deserve it. I'm a bastard Kendall, for doing what I did to you and I know it,"

"No, James, you aren't-" Kendall began but James didn't let him finish.

"No, I am Kendall. You don't have to defend my actions when, evidently they hurt you so much. What's more, this isn't going to work Kendall. You can't trust me, and how can I blame you for that after what I've done? I've been a whore and a cheater and I don't deserve to have someone as nice as you give me all their love. We can't be together anymore, Kendall, I won't do that to you, it isn't fair."

"James stop saying stupidities," Kendall said sternly, his heart thumping fast, and not wanting to hear that James wanted to end things with him. Knowing he wouldn't bear it if James and he broke up right now, even if he did feel a bit betrayed by the brunette at this point.

"No Kendall, I get it," James said furiously "I'm pretty; I have an amazing body which I can understand you crave for. It's okay. I'm willing to have a friends-with-benefits relationship with you. I'm not worthy enough to be called your boyfriend. But I'm worthy enough to be called your slut…"

"STOP IT!" Kendall yelled, agitated "Stop it James, right now, okay things aren't that great for us now, I get it, but that's still no excuse for you to beat yourself up this way. You ARE NOT going to be my-my slut James, that's madness. Jamie, you mean so much to me; think I'd ever degrade you to such-such low standards? Now Sean might've actually thought that was a good idea but not me. You're my boyfriend James, got it? I love you….I just need my space in order to fully and completely forgive you okay? But stop saying or thinking stupidities Jamie…you're much too good for all that…so much better…"

James let himself be hugged by Kendall and inhaled his boyfriend's scent, which drove him wild with longing, even now.

"I love you Kendall," he said, letting a couple more tears fault.

"And I love you James," Kendall said looking straight into his hazel orbs, wiping his tears away and placing a kiss on the tip of James' nose.

"I know something I can do to start making things up for you," James said suddenly, sitting up, though he seemed very nervous about it.

"What's that James?" Kendall said, also sitting up, hissing a bit at the pain the movement caused in his lower regions.

"We can start out by telling the truth to others-about us…" James said.

"You want to go public?" Kendall asked incredulously "James! I don't even know if I'm ready for that yet, besides, what's Gustavo going to say? And Griffin? This could tear the band apart…"

"Relax Kendall," James said "I didn't mean it that way- I meant- my mom…"

"Oh!" Kendall said, realizing what James had meant, then he added "Are you sure James? This could be bad for you, you know? Your mom's not very accepting and she might not want you to return to L.A with us…"

"She can't tear the band apart now," James said "I won't let her; it's my life, to live it with whomever I please…"

"Oh well," Kendall said "If you're so sure then, fine, let's tell her the truth. I'll be with you the whole time James, so don't worry…I should've been the one with you in the first place…"

"You should've been Kendall, and I'm sorry for that," James said honestly, looking terribly guilty.

"It's no use wondering about the past now James, now let's go…" Kendall said, getting up and gathering his clothes for the day, James doing the same.

James checked his watch.

"Remember Gustavo wants us in our last meeting at 2:30 so, we need to make sure we don't forget…" he said.

"Right," Kendall said "Do you want to have breakfast here or should we eat something on the way or at your mom's?"

"It's probably best if we eat breakfast AFTER we tell her," James said, his insides tightening into a nervous knot.

"Agreed then," Kendall said nodding "It's 9:00 o'clock, think she's still in the house? It's Monday after all…"

"She's still there, Mondays she goes to work until 11:30 'cause she has to organize paperwork or some weird thing like that…" James said.

"Alright then," Kendall said, finishing the final touches to his hair "I'm ready when you are…"

"Just let me grab our jackets and comb my hair and we'll be on our way," James said.

Kendall nodded.

"I'll go let mom know where we'll be," he said, faintly hearing the okay James gave him from the bathroom.

15 minutes later…

James and Kendall sighed, both nervous and James knocked before they both entered the Diamond's home.

"James! Honey!" Brooke exclaimed when she saw her son enter from the living room, where she was sitting at the table, surrounded by papers.

"Hey mom," James greeted his mom weakly.

"Morning Mrs. Diamond," Kendall said politely.

"Hello Kendall, dear," Brooke Diamond said "So, I didn't expect to see you until tonight James, what's up? Feeling sick? No doubt that rascal of a dog infected you with some sort of illness!" she said, jumping to conclusions.

"Mom!" James protested "Sean DID NOT give me any diseases, gross, no! I'm always careful!"

"Well then, what is it?" Brooke said, calming down from her rage.

James bit his lip nervously. Kendall squeezed his shoulder comfortingly before James began.

"Mom," he said "Remember when-when Sean and I came out to you?"

"Yes," Brooke said "It was the most horrible day in my life James, I will never forget that day you became a- a freak…"

"I'm not a freak!" James exclaimed hurt but then forced himself to continue "Anyways, that day…I was lying to you mom,"

"You're not gay?" Brooke Diamond said, her eyes lighting up "Oh I knew it! Thank Heavens! I knew you couldn't be!"

"Mom!" James exclaimed "Don't say things like that! They hurt me! I am gay alright? I like guys and there's nothing you can do about that…"

Brooke Diamond glared at her son before returning to her paperwork, avoiding his gaze at all.

"Well then, James, if you insist on those-those abnormalities then what could you possibly want with me? What did you lie to me about then?"

"I-I am gay," James said and Brooke waved him off with her hand.

"I think I got the message, anything else?" she asked curtly.

"But…Sean isn't my boyfriend mom, he never was," James said "He was just- someone I was messing around with…I-I hid from you who my real boyfriend was…"

Brooke looked up from her papers once again.

"If that Dekker boy isn't your boyfriend then who is?" she asked sharply "Who's responsible for corrupting your little mind?"

"Nobody corrupted my mind mom-!" James began saying furiously but Kendall interrupted him.

"I am," he said calmly.

Brooke's expression went from angry to shocked to positively murderous.

"You!" she screeched, pointing an accusatory finger at him.

"Mom don't-" James said but Brooke cut across him.

"You shut up James," she snarled, then looked at Kendall "I knew the three of you were bad for my son," she said "Now look at what you've done. You've transferred all these absurdities and-and irregularities to him. Well, I can fix that. I should've never allowed my son to be away from me in the first place but I can change that. He isn't going back with you guys to California do you hear? And you're not welcomed inside this house anymore-got it? Get away from him! You'll never see him again!"

"Mom!" James exclaimed "You can't say things like that, I won't do it. I told you before and I'm repeating it now. I've put up with your crap for years mom and now it's high time you begin to put up with mine. I'll be a part of Big Time Rush and I will be Kendall's boyfriend, whether you like it or not."

To emphasize his point he took Kendall's hand and held it firmly.

"I won't have a gay son," Brooke Diamond declared angrily.

"Well then mom, you won't have a son," James said sadly.

"Well then so be it." Brooke said indifferently "You're on your own now James, and good riddance. And don't think for a second you can run to daddy for any help. Your father may be an asshole, a sore loser and a crappy ex-husband but he's with me on this. We don't have fags in our home. You've got yourself your own daddy right there,"

And she pointed rudely at Kendall before returning to her work.

"Pick all your stuff up and take it," she said coldly "Whatever you don't take with you I'll have it burned, good bye James,"

James stared disbelievingly at his mom, hot, angry tears cascading down his cheeks and without another word he stomped upstairs to pick his stuff up, leaving Kendall alone with Brooke.

"What you're doing is wrong," Kendall said to her "Your son is the most amazing young man a woman could brag to have for a son. He's kind, he's caring and one of these days you'll regret you couldn't see how fantastic he was before it was too late…"

"You ruined him!" Brooke cried, letting her own angry tears fall now "He was okay while he was here, with me and now look at what he's become because of all of you!"

"What he's become?" Kendall asked with a jeer "What he's become is an amazing singer, a pop star who radiates fun and energy and overall happiness to everyone around him. A kind person, a caring person and, might I add, a better student than he ever was when he was here. He's become a loyal friend, an amazing dancer, well-mannered, and above all brave. Brave because he's finally learned to stand up to you. Because what you won't ever realize is that the only one who kept James back and didn't allow him to pursue his own dreams and happiness was you!"

"I will not listen to this!" Brooke thundered, standing up.

"Because you know it's true and don't want to admit it!" Kendall fired back at her, his tone softened "He hasn't become gay this year he's been in L.A with us Brooke. He was always different. It's just you were too comfortable to bother noticing, like he's told you before. But he's still got amazing friends and, whatever else, he's got me. I won't ever let him down, and I'll always be there to protect him and care for him and encourage him on. It's too bad you'll miss out on the great person he's going to be some day…"

Kendall finished ranting and then everything was silent for a minute before Brooke broke the silence.

"You really do love him don't you?" she asked quietly.

"Yes," Kendall said uncertainly.

Brooke sighed.

"Out of all people it had to happen to me," Kendall heard her mutter before, shockingly, she got up and hugged him.

"Huh?" Now Kendall was seriously confused.

"Kendall I'm done we can leave now-" James stopped mid-sentence when he saw his mother hugging his boyfriend.

"Mom?" he asked hesitantly "What's going on?"

Brooke Diamond took a deep breath before saying slowly:

"I think James…that I overreacted a while ago. Scratch that, I've overreacted from the very start when you first came out to me. I don't like the fact that you like other guys, but that still doesn't and shouldn't change the fact that you're my son and that I want what's best for you. Kendall…you've always been a good boy. You were right, I did notice, many times before, that my son tended to act differently. You've always been his admiration and had I been a better mother I would've realized that was more than a simple friendship you two had. It worked out too perfectly for it to be just a friendship. You're hot-headed and adventurous; you love taking risks and are incredibly stubborn. James is milder, but he's determined, and both of you are incredibly talented, both talking about the singing and hockey as well as other things. It was bound to happen. I'm sorry James, will you forgive me?"

"Mom!" James exclaimed, his frown breaking into a deep smile and the two Diamonds hugged one another.

"Well… let me look at you," Brooke said, breaking away from James and grabbing Kendall "Yes, you're very handsome…don't worry Kendall, I-I'll need some time to get used to all this but…for what it's worth, welcome to the family!" and she embraced him as well, Kendall hugging her back awkwardly.

"Mom, we're not getting married!" James said "Yet" he added in an undertone.

"Oh, I know but with you two's personalities, you'll be married in no time," Brooke said.

"We're seventeen, it's illegal," Kendall said making all of them laugh.

"James dear, you have to put your stuff back up," Brooke joked lightly.

James groaned good-naturedly before hugging both his boyfriend and mother and headed upstairs again to unpack…

A/N: There. Done. Granted its short and a little too overdramatic but...hey! It's an update at least! Lol. Promise next week's will definitely be better.

So, there's more major drama to come for the boys, I warned you I wasn't completely letting go of the whole Sean-thing and I meant it. You'll see what I mean next chapter, I'm not giving anything away.

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PS. Next chapter will include a closing dialogue with the guys. Promise. I was just too lazy to write one in this chapter.

KENDALL: Lately, she's too lazy to do MANY things.

ME: Kendall shut up!

JAMES: At least my mom knows...

LOGAN: I'm scared of the drama she says is coming up...

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ME: Nevermind. The guys had to butt in, anyways review guys! 8-10 are my happy numbers!