Hey guys, I'm truly sorry this chappie took so long. I was writing this one-shot (which took forever) and getting back into the school schedule wasn't a piece of cake either. So I hurried and tried to write this chappie when I finally had the time, so there won't be any dialouge thingys this time because I'm trying to hurry. Without further ado, here's the new chappie. ENJOY!!

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Living With a Rapist

Back and Forth; Backwards Mind

Kagome held her left arm as she looked back at Inu-Yasha get out the car. She was standing at Kouga's front door, too nervous to even knock. She turned her head back to the door and looked over every corner as if inspecting it. Inu-Yasha made his way up the two stairs to Kouga's door and wrapped his arm around her waist, giving her a calming kiss on the cheek. "Go ahead Kagome." She looked at him, still very nervous, and sighed. She didn't want to face Kouga with Inu-Yasha by her side. She didn't want to deal with the awkward encounter of getting her things as he looked on in disbelief. She also just didn't want to leave Kouga. Kagome still wanted to be with Kouga, but with history on their side, she felt more comfortable near Inu-Yasha despite multiple rapes.

She huffed again and knocked a few times. The door opened quickly to a relieved Kouga. He immediately wrapped his arms around Kagome and sighed. "God Kagome, what took you so long?"

"I...I have to get my things."

He stood back, hands still at her waist, and gave her a question mark expression. "Get your things? For what?"

Kagome's eyes darted to Inu-Yasha and back to Kouga. She didn't want to speak. She could see his heart falling into his stomach. "Please Kouga, just let me get them so I can go," she said weakly. Kouga let her go and she walked into the house and up the stairs. Kouga leaned on the doorway and looked at Inu-Yasha, studying him.

"Hey."

"Hey, so your Kouga." Kouga simply nodded. "Nice to finally meet you."

"Uh huh. Why is she here?" Kouga didn't believe that Kagome decided to get her things on her own. He felt as though Inu-Yasha had put her up to it. His amber eyes seemed not to be trusted.

"You heard her. She's here to get her things."

"Did she come up with that idea?"

"Of course."

"Mmmm. You can come into the living room if you want," Kouga said as he walked into the house and went upstairs to check on Kagome. He stood in the doorway and looked at her stuff her huge yellow bag. She tucked some hair behind her ear, sniffed, and continued packing. Kouga sighed. He just didn't understand why Kagome would go back to him. Why would she do that after what he did to her? What happened at that house? Did he threaten her. Did he play the I'm so in love with you bit? What did he do?! Kouga walked over to Kagome and turned her around. He seen small tears trickle down her face. His thumb brushed the salty tears away. "Kagome, why are you leaving me?"

She started to cry some more after that.

"Do you still love him?"

More salty tears fell and wiped them away. "Yes Kouga, I'm sorry."

"Why are you going back to him Kagome? After all he's done?"

"He's different now."

"Different?"

"Yes, he's changed. He's his old self now." With that said, she turned her body around to finish packing. Kouga sighed a heavy sigh and sat down on the bed. He looked up at Kagome who was sniffling as she tossed in her clothes. Kouga placed his hand on Kagome's and looked into her watery eyes.

"You don't have to go if you don't want to," Kouga said in the most calming voice. Kagome shook her head and sniffed.

"Don't do this to me Kouga." Her hand left Kouga's warm strong hand and continued to pack. Kouga sighed another sigh. He didn't know what to do. What could he do? He didn't want her to leave. He just didn't trust that sinister deceiving look in Inu-Yasha's eyes. But then, Kouga didn't want to hold her back against her will despite knowing what was best for her. She was an adult. And an adult can make the right decisions...sometimes.

Kagome was done packing and threw her over-sized yellow bag on her back. She walked over to the door and stopped. She looked back at Kouga, who was staring at her with concerned eyes. "Come here," he said. Kagome dropped her bag and sat on Kouga's lap. Her legs immediately wrapped around his waist and her arms flinging themselves over his broad shoulders. Kouga ran his fingers through her hair, letting the strands fall elegantly. As he was playing in her hair, he closed his eyes and placed a soft kiss on her lips. Kagome cringed slightly. His lips left hers as he sighed. "Kagome, please don't leave me...expecially not for him. Don't leave." His eyes seemed to be on the brink of tears. He didn't want to lose her. He didn't want her to be hurt again. He felt too much for her to let her go so easily.

Kagome sniffed and placed her head on his shoulder, her breathe sweeping across his neck. She held the back of his head tight and moved her body a little closer to his. "Please Kouga...don't do this to me..."

He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her close. "What I'm doing right now is nothing compared to what he's done and what he's planning to do." Kagone's body stiffened. She hadn't even thought of the fact that Inu-Yasha could be planning to do something worst. She was so wrapped up in the now, she couldn't even think about the future.

"Kagome?! Come on, you can't be late for work," Inu-Yasha screamed from downstairs.

Kagome quickly got off Kouga's lap and grabbed her bag. "I'll call you Kouga," she dropped her head, "...I have to go." She slowly shuffled down the stairs and soon the door was slammed shut. Kouga sat on his bed, defeated and hurt. She left him. She left him to go to the guy she just left. It was confusing. It was weird. It was backwards. Kouga simply didn't understand. He got up from his bed and leaned his upper body on the white window sill, looking out the window. He seen Kagome toss the bag in the back seat as they got in front. In no time, they were gone. Kouga sighed and dropped his head. He was disappointed in himself. He felt like a failure. If anything were to happen to Kagome...anything...I wouldn't know what to do with myself.

He walked away from the window and sat on the bed in the middle of the room. He looked at the clock sitting on his dresser. It was 5:27. He hadn't eaten since earlier that morning. He crept his way down the glossy wooden stairs and into the kitchen. He walked towards the mahogany cabinets and opened them slowly. Inside was the usual ramen, tuna, pasta, and some ingredients for spaghetti. He sighed. Even though his stomach growled, he didn't want to eat. His stomach rumbled, sucking in his stomach as it lerched, and groaned. He decided to eat something, just so he wouldn't have to hear the depressing sound of his stomach. He was already in his own ball of self-loathing at the point. The dark brunette took out a can of tuna from the back of the cabinet and placed it on the counter. Kouga looked through the multiple drawers filled with silverware until he got the can opener. He cranked the handle of the can opener and soon his meal was opened. He drained the tuna, put a sprinkle of salt and pepper on it, got a fork, and started eating.

Kouga ate slower than usual. He even walked slower than usual. He felt as though he wasn't even capable of moving faster than his usual fast-paced steps. Kagome was gone...gone. And who knew when Kagome was going to come back and if she did, would she be more broken than before?

He shook his head and sighed, placing the can of tuna on the coffee table. "I need some air." He glided his way towards the door and opened it, revealing his ex Ayame, her hand slightly raised as if about to knock on the door. He groaned, she was someone whom he had been trying to avoid for so long.

Inu-Yasha's House

Kagome tossed her bag on the bed and sat down next to Inu-Yasha. She snuggled in his arms and inhaled, enjoying his sweet scent. Inu-Yasha rubbed her head and looked into Inu-Yasha's eyes. Her eyes were calm and peaceful, thus making him calm and peaceful. "Why did you leave me Kagome," he asked with the most sorrow he could muster. Kagome blinked a few times, trying to regain her suddenly lost focus. She gulped.

"I don't want to talk about it." She grabbed his red t-shirt and buried her face in it. She didn't want to go back to those dark morbid days. She wanted to stay in the present and forget it all happened. But Inu-Yasha wouldn't let her. He lifted her face by placing his index finger under her chin and looked into her eyes again.

"Why did you leave me?"

Her head fell. She couldn't look at him. This new Inu-Yasha couldn't have possibly been the same Inu-Yasha that raped her. He just couldn't...but why? There was enough proof to know he was up to some ill deed. But Kagome's eyes were clouded with false hope and memories past. So she looked back into his eyes, a smile plastered on her face and replied, "I don't know. But I love you Inu-Yasha."

Inu-Yasha simply grinned, trying his hardest to hide his joy of having Kagome back in his clutches. He kissed her forehead and turned over, his back now on the bed. "So when will you be going to work, love?"

Kagome sat up and looked at the clock. 5:42. "I guess right now. It doesn't close till around 11:00 so I'll get some kind of work done."

"Good."

Kagome placed a soft kiss on Inu-Yasha's lips and got off the bed to get ready. She slipped off her top to replace it with a white button-down. She took off her jeans and searched for the restaurant's signature black skirt. She found it near the window on the floor. Kagome picked it up and slid it on. She sat back on the bed and reached for her black flats when Inu-Yasha intervened. "No, don't wear those. Wear the sexy black ones."

"But what if it's busy?"

"Then just pack the other pair in a bag or something."

"That's too much to be carrying to work Yasha. I don't feel like it."

"Well just wear the other shoes and if your feet start hurting, walk barefeet." Kagome swiftly turned her head to Inu-Yasha who was smirking happily.

"Okay Master Inu-Yasha," she said with a smile, "I'll wear the others." She tossed her flats into the corner and got the black pumps from under the bed. She stood up, straightening her black knee length pencil skirt. She dug through her bag and grabbed her black tie, tied it every so neatly, and posed. "So do you like?"

Inu-Yasha licked his lips, drinking in her perfect form. "Delicious," he said as he tried to control his lower parts. Kagome blushed and grabbed her phone and wallet.

"See ya Yasha."

"Bye."

Kagome walked out from the bedroom and went downstairs. She grabbed her keys off the glass coffee table and within a few minutes, she was out the door and in her car applying small touches of mascara and lip gloss to her naturally pretty face. She put all her cosmetics away, started the car up, and was on her way.

It was around 6:18 when Kagome stepped through the glass doors with the restaurant's logo, a coffee cup with steam above it resting on a small dish and a plate a food beside it, underneath it read Cafe Mocha with the times they were opened and so on. Kagome sighed with joy when she stepped into her work place. She hadn't been there since the tragic incident and this place represented such peace and tranquility despite the black and white clad waiters and waitresses scrurrying back and forth from the tables and the kitchen. She smiled warmly, a smile she used to have with Inu-Yasha and a smile she always had with Kouga. She walked towards the counter where Sango stood and leaned on it. "Haven't seen me in a while huh?"

Sango shrieked with excitement and hugged her friend tightly. People nearby looked at them, wondering what the noise was, and went back to their previous tasks. Sango finally let Kagome go, her smile bright, and held Kagome's hands. "I was starting to miss you so much Kagome. And it was getting to Onigumo too. I'm so glad you're back." Kagome giggled. Before she could even reply to Sango, Sango began to speak again. "I gotta let Onigumo know you're here." She lead Kagome to the back room where Onigumo was usually in if he wasn't waltzing around the restaurant asking customers how they were and was everything ok.

When they entered, he was sitting in a brown leather couch, legs crossed, sipping on a coke and rum and mindlessly flipping through a magazine. He didn't notice them when they stepped through the door, but when the door closed shut, his head jolted up. His eyes met with chocolate drops and he almost dropped his styrofoam cup as he got up to hug her. "It's about time you came back, I was about to fire you," he said with a slur and a smile on his face.

Kagome shook it off and smiled. "I'm glad to be back Onigumo, seriously. You don't know how much I missed both of you guys."

"So what could possibly take you away from us," he asked unknowingly dipping deep into a subject matter Kagome didn't want any part of. Her smile disappeared and her eyes seemed to become vacant. Flashbacks came back in rapid speed. It stopped at the first night...the first rape. The memory began to rip at her brain, tearing a permanent mark into her mind. She suddenly remembered the true reason she left Inu-Yasha; to leave the horror house she once called home and to go into a happy place, Kouga's place. Her body shook and shivered and her knees became weak. She was going to fall, but Onigumo was holding her up. "Kagome!!"

She snapped out of her daze and looked at him with her mouth slightly opened. "Huh?"

"Never mind that question. If that happens with me just asking the question, I'm terrified of what might happen when you answer. You feel like working?"

"That's why I'm here. I'm dressed and ready to go."

Onigumo smiled. "Good. You know where everything is, so get to it." He smacked her butt, coaxing a laugh from the coworkers. Kagome and Sango walked out the back room and back to the front where Sango's counter was. Kagome got her clip-on name tag from it and clipped it on. She sighed a breathy sigh.

"It's been a while since I put this little thing on."

"I know. Well, no time for chit chat, time to get working."

Kagome smiled as she got a notepad and a pen and spotted a table with a couple sitting and browsing through the menu. She hesitated for a minute, the hair on the male looked so familiar and so did the deep red hair of the female. She shrugged it off. Maybe it's a usual couple here. Kagome walked to the table, a smile on her face. "Hi my name's Kagome and I'll be your waitress for the day. Would you guys like start with appetizers and some drinks?"

"Kagome?"

Kagome looked up from her notepad and turned to the voice. Her smile slowly fell as she seen Kouga's face. It wasn't just seeing Kouga's face that made her smile fall, it was the fact that there was another woman there with him. "K-Kouga?" Their eyes glued to each others for what seemed like forever. The notepad and pen were slowly slipping out of her hands as kept her gaze on the beautiful cobalt eyes staring back at her. She gulped and gained consciousness of her body. She placed the notepad and pen on the table and held her head. "I'm sorry. I'll be back in a few to take your orders." She walked away from the table and out the door. She leaned on the brick wall and looked up at the sky, trying to hold back every tear that were trying to escape her eyes.

The doors swung open and out came Kouga. He walked over to her, but Kagome started walking away. "You won't get far with those shoes on Kagome." Kagome groaned, now angry at Inu-Yasha's idea, and stopped walking. She leaned back on the wall and held her face.

"Just go back in there with her."

"I don't want to."

"You did this on purpose..."

"Did what on purpose," he asked with a question mark look on his face.

"You brought her here so that I could get jealous and come back...well I hope you know it worked."

Kouga grinned slightly ans shook his head as he stood in front of her. "I didn't do that at Kagome."

"Then what are you stalking me for?"

"Stalking? I'm not stalking you. She told me she wanted to come here so we could talk about getting back together-"

Kagome quickly lifted her head up from her hands. "You're getting back with her?!"

"No, now let me finish. She wanted me to come here with her so we could talk about getting back together. I told her no a thousand times, but she wouldn't leave my house so I just gave in. It kind of makes me think..." he grabbed both of Kagome's hands and put them on his chest, "the one I wanted to leave didn't leave and the one I didn't want to leave, left. That's odd huh?"

"Kouga..."

She was cut off with a chaste kiss. Her lips responded immediately by kissing him back. Kouga's grip on her hands became tighter as he stepped a little closer to Kagome, now almost no space between them. Kouga left her lips, but only to place them back on the sweet rosy lips he loved to kiss. Kagome kissed him back again, her tears evaporating away and her eyes fluttering with ecstacy. She was back in her happy place. She didn't want to escape anymore. She pressed her lips on his a little harder and his tongue slipped in a bit. He darted the wet organ out into her mouth, but slipped it back into his mouth, not wanting to destroy such a perfect thing.

They parted and looked at each other. "Kouga...I'm sorry for putting you through all of this drama with Inu-Yasha and all."

One of his hands left hers to sweep a silky strand of jet black hair behind her ear, placing a kiss on her forehead. "It's okay. I mean, what can I expect? I know you love him and you have some feelings for him even after what he done." He chuckled and shook his head. "I just know you had me acting like a little girl today. I wouldn't stop checking my phone every five minutes." Kagome smiled wide, her squinting eyes sparkilng bright from the now setting sun.

Their bliss was broken when the glass doors were forced open and slammed shut. "Kouga?! What are you doing?"

He rolled his cerulean orbs and huffed. He was seriously getting tired of Ayame. "Minding my business."

"Your business is with me and trying to get this relationship back on track."

Kouga released Kagome's hands, turned to Ayame, and rubbed his temples. "Ayame, there is no relationship. There was one, but you destroyed it. So please leave me and my life alone. I been moved on, she's proof," he said referring to Kagome, "now can you move on. It seems as though you moved on when we we're in that so called relationship."

Ayame stood there flabergasted. She had a pout on her face, her eyebrows furrowed, and her eyes fixed on Kouga. "Well...how am I supposed to get back home? You drove me here."

"Catch a cab," Kouga replied now completely through with the red head. He turned back around to Kagome, who was smiling a small smile. He kissed her softly.

"Wow Kouga, never seen that side of you."

"And I hope you never do again."

"Well, I'm going back to work. I'll call you when I get off." Kouga smiled a smile as warm as melted honey. He couldn't resist kissing her again before getting into his car and driving off. Kagome watched the silver car drive away until she could see it nomore and walked back into the restaurant with butterflies in her stomach.

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