Ok guys well guess what? In two chapters time...you're going to get a chapter from Carlisle's POV. And by chapter...this time I mean an entire chapter! Yepee! Lol...so now you have that to look forward to. ;)

Chapter 19

I didn't talk to Adam at all during class the next day, simply because I wanted to save all conversation for when we were at the restaurant later that afternoon. Adam seemed to catch onto this, because he didn't try to talk to me during the day.

I drove to the pizza place after class, and he was already there at his usual booth, waiting on me. Neither one of us talked to the other as we ordered our food and drink. It wasn't until both of us had sat and awkwardly starred at our cups of pop for about five minutes that Adam finally broke the silence.

"Brooke." He said with a sigh. "You have no idea how bad I feel about all this."

I just nodded, and let him talk.

"It's just that...gosh Brooke I like you a lot...and I really thought that you liked me too."

I just took a sip of my pop, listening to him.

"But now I guess it's obvious that's not the case."

"I guess so."

"Ugh...and what I said...about the entire cheating on your boyfriend thing...that was so stupid for me to say."

"Yes...that kinda was."

"You're more mad at me about that than you are about anything else huh?"

I nodded. "Yeah, pretty much."

"I'm sorry." He said. "I was being an idiot."

"Yeah." I agreed. "You were."

"Do you forgive me?" He asked, starring at me with those baby-blue eyes of his.

I sighed. "I guess I about have to don't I?"

He merely grinned in response. "So tell me more about this guy that you're with. What makes him so much better than me?"

I laughed. "Pretty much everything."

He snorted. "Ha. I've never met a girl that told me another guy was better than me."

"Well congratulations, you have." I said, shaking my head at his stupidness.

"What's his name?" He asked, watching me as I messed with my silverware.

"My boyfriend's?"

"No, that waiter over there." He said, pointing to one of the restaurant employees. "Yes your boyfriend's name stupid."

"If I recall, I think we agreed you were the stupid one here."

"That's beyond the point...what is your boyfriend's name?" He asked again.

"Dr. Cullen." I replied simply.

"Cullen, Cullen, Cullen...is that the last name of those Edward and Bella people you are staying with?"

I suddenly realized I just totally screwed up. "Yes it is."

"Is your boyfriend related to them somehow?"

I nodded. "Yes, yes he is."

"How?"

"He's um....their...father." I mumbled. "Well Edward's father...Bella's father-in-law."

"Father?" He asked, seeming quite taken aback. He starred ahead and I swore he stopped breathing. But it actually looked more like he was thinking about something, thinking about what he was going to ask next.

"Go ahead and ask me." I said, trying to snap him out of his trance. It worked, he blinked and turned his focus back to me.

"Ask you what?"

"I know you're going to ask me how old he is."

He shot me an embarrassed smile. "How did you know that?"

"You're not too incredibly hard to figure out Adam."

He sighed in defeat. "Fine...how old is this guy?"

I looked up at the ceiling for a minute to think. "He turned thirty-eight in January."

Adam spit pop all over the table...and me.

"Ok...I take it that came as quite a shock to you."

He coughed, as he used his napkin to wipe up his mess. "Yes...just a bit."

I sat and waited for him to recover while I wiped off my face.

"He's thirty-eight years old?"

"Yes he very much is."

"And you are going to turn twenty next week?"

"Yes, I am."

"So that makes him eighteen years older than you."

"Mhmmm."

"That's a little...wrong don't you think?"

Yes I did think it was a little odd. I was dating a man that could very well have been my father. However Dr. Cullen in no way looked to be 38, more like 23...or something around that. But I had sort of gotten over the age thing, and I had put it behind me. However, now siting here listening to Adam, it made my kind of re-realize the situation.

"Age is just a number." I said.

"Yes Brooke it is...but eighteen is a large number!"

"I take it you don't exactly approve of that...do you?"

"Ummm gee...what would make you think that?" He said, aggravated. "And this guy has kids?"

"Yes...five."

"Five freaking kids? He's a single father of five kids?"

"He's never been married before, he adopted all of them." I told him.

"How old are these kids?"

"They range in age from their early twenties to late teens."

"So his children are around the same age as you?"

"Yes...they are I guess."

"Ugh Brooke...that's kind of disgusting."

I didn't know what to say in response.

"So you are dating your boss...who's thirty-eight years old...who has five kids around your age?"

"Um...yeah that seems to sound about right."

He shoved his head into his hands. "Wow...just wow." He looked up at me, holding my gaze. "This guy has got to be some kind of angel if he can get you to date him after all of that crap."

"He pretty much is." I said.

"How?"

"He's got something about him that just makes him so incredibly appealing to others. It's like some sort of natural charm, or magical power, or something."

He raised an eyebrow at me. "Do you have any pictures of him with you?"

"Actually yes." I said, digging around in my purse to get my phone. I scrolled through the photos until I found the only picture I had of him in my phone. I didn't want to have a hundred pictures of him in my phone and have someone see them and start asking questions. The one picture I had of him was taken at work, and he was standing in the main lobby, smiling at me as I took the picture.

"Here." I said handing Adam the phone. "That's him."

He was silent as he studied the picture, then he handed the phone back to me.

"Well?" I asked. "What do you think?"

"Ok..maybe now I see why you like him. I just don't get how he's better than me."

I sighed. "He is Adam. Look you are a great guy, but you're just not the kind of guy for me."

"Yeah, apparently you search for future husbands that are old enough to be your father."

"Apparently." I said, becoming disgusted with him.

"Do you have any other pictures of him?" He asked.

I shook my head. "No I don't."

He looked at me in a confused manner. "Why not?"

"Because I don't want people to see that I have a bunch of pictures of him in my phone and have them think things."

"Have them think things....what do you mean?"

I sighed. I figured I might as well tell him now. He was my best friend, and besides...he was going to have to know sooner or later.

"Adam...I think the reason I didn't tell you about my boyfriend is because I am not used to telling people that I have one."

If he looked confused before, he really did now.

"We kind of hide our relationship from the general public. There are very few select people that know about us."

"Hide your relationship? Why do you have to do that?"

"Well...you see..." I sighed, wondering if I should tell him this. "Ok listen...promise me you won't flip out on me and get all aggravated and stuff."

He looked even more confused. "Ok...I promise."

I bit my lip and tried not to look directly at him. "You see....even though he's dating me....well at the time he asked me out...he was also seeing...someone else." I waited for a response from him, but there was none.

"Her name is Viviene. She's always gone on trips and she uses his money to buy her all sorts of expensive things. She doesn't care about him or his family at all. He told me he wants to break up with her because he doesn't care about her anymore...but she won't let him. She's threatened him and she's just been very difficult to deal with. Him and I hide our relationship, because to the best of everyone's knowledge...he's happily dating Viviene."

He starred straight at me, in a trance-like state again.

"And that's it." I said, letting him know I had finished.

And then he exploded.

"Brooke! Gosh how freaking stupid are you?"

"What do you mean?" I asked, surprised at his random outburst.

"You are dating some guy who is twice as old of you, who is dating another woman?"

"Yes."

"And when he asked you out, you just willingly decided to date him....knowing that he was already seeing someone else and everything?"

"Yes."

"Brooke! Gosh Brooke! Can't you see this guy is more than likely lying through his freaking teeth!" People at the tables around us tried not to stare in our direction as he yelled.

"What do you mean?" I asked, becoming angry with him.

"This guy tells you his girlfriend's terrible to him...and he tells you she makes him unhappy...when he really probably just wants two girlfriends! I mean the guy is pretty decent looking, and he probably knows it too! He's just taking complete and total advantage of you!"

I didn't speak, I just listened to Adam rant.

"I mean how do you know that Viviene woman isn't there with him in his house right at this very minute! You're not there! And you're not with him twenty-four seven! What if he wants you both! He's just going to end up hurting you in the end!"

I was having difficultly breathing. Sure, it wasn't like I hadn't thought about this before. It defiantly was a risk dating someone I knew was already with someone else. Adam was right, I didn't know for sure that everything Dr. Cullen said was true, and that he very well could just be taking advantage of me. But it was harder and more difficult to actually hear, and in truth it made sense. I just didn't want it too.

"And you know what I'm saying is true...because of that look on your face!"

I still could not respond.

"Gosh...you're such a hypocrite."

"Hypocrite? How am I a hypocrite?"

"Because I asked you to cheat on your boyfriend with me, and you flip out and get all ticked off at me....but no...you'll willingly assist your boyfriend in cheating on his other girlfriend."

Now I was the angry one. "Adam! Look...I've given him the benefit of the doubt! Sure our relationship is one-hundred and ten percent wrong....but I'm going to trust what he says is true. And you wanna know why? Because that's what you're supposed to do in a relationship! You're supposed to trust them! Yes, you're right...I willingly entered my relationship with him knowing that he was with someone else! And I also entered this relationship knowing it could totally blow up in my face...but for him...that's a risk I'm willing to take!"

I picked up my purse and my jacket, and slid out of the booth. "If you would excuse me...I'm going to leave now. Give me a call when you decide to stop being such a jerk and start being my best friend!" I stormed out of the pizza place and to my car, with tears rolling down my face.

I was so mad at Adam, and I seriously considered never talking to him again. But I soon realized I wasn't necessarily mad at Adam...nor was I mad at all. I was more so upset...and that was because I knew the hurtful things Adam said had a pretty high chance of actually being true.

I tried not to think about it too much as I walked into the house and headed straight to my room without bothering to tell Bella or Edward anything that happened. I collapsed onto my bed after throwing my purse on the floor. As I laid there, I starred at the ceiling and tried to relax...but I couldn't. I felt one single tear fall down my cheek, and I sighed.

Yes, my entire relationship with Dr. Cullen was beyond wrong. He was so much older than me, he was my boss, he had kids, and he was seeing someone else. All of that added up to equal something people would generally frown upon in a relationship. What I was risking by allowing myself to get so attached to him was stupid. There was indeed a very large chance that he could be using me. He could possibly like both me and Viviene. Maybe everything he had told me about her was a lie. I had just fallen for his charm and now I couldn't get back out.

However, like I had told Adam in the restaurant...I was still going to give him the benefit of the doubt. I had met Viviene myself, and she certainly seemed to be the way he described her to be. I was with Dr. Cullen most of the time, and when I wasn't....I was almost certain Viviene was in a foreign country at the time. Adam was right on the fact that I didn't know if she was with him right now while I was here in Alaska...but like I told him...I had to trust Dr. Cullen. I couldn't go through our entire relationship being jealous and not trusting him. And when I had agreed to give my heart to him...I had known the risks.

It was just hard to think about. It wasn't like I hadn't thought about the "what ifs" before, but it still upset me. I couldn't even begin to believe that he would ever be like that.

I sighed and closed my eyes, trying to just let my mind clear...and push all of my worries away for a while. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't stop thinking about it. I probably laid there for hours, before I finally drifted off into sleep.

And for the first time in a while, my dream came back that night.

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~Hazl~