AN: Guys I am super sorry for not updating! Schoolwork, extracurricular activities, my county fair, and a case of writer's block don't mix very well. Plus I have been on one heck of an emotional roller coaster here recently...but we're not gonna go into that..lol. Actually I am updating today because yesterday was kind of a stinky day for me, and I decided to relax myself through writing. That always seems to help me.

So I know the last chapter was a bit boring for you guys...but don't worry..this one is gonna be a lot more interesting.

Chapter 32

When I had remained in Alaska for a week longer than planned, I started to feel slightly guilty about what I had done. I had told Dr. Cullen that I merely wanted a week off of work, and he said that would be good for me. He told me to relax at home and hang out with my friends and family. Little did he know that I was already planning on catching the next flight to Alaska so I could hang out with my best friend...who also happens to be madly in love with me.

I didn't tell Dr. Cullen where I was going because I guess I thought he wouldn't let me go. I hadn't even called him once since I was here. And even though I figured he was smart enough to know where I was, I still thought he deserved to know.

Even though I was having fun hanging out with Adam, Lance, and Lacey...I was really starting to miss Dr. Cullen, and I think that made me realize that no matter who or what he was, I was always going to love him.

So I knew I had to call him, I knew I had to tell him that I wanted to come home, that I wanted to see him, and that I wanted to talk about this and work it all out.

I waited around in the morning for everyone in the house to leave. Lacey had plans with some friends, and Adam and Lance were going on a hike together. I told them I'd pass on that one because I was tired and I wanted to relax at home...which wasn't a lie. Adam seemed reluctant to leave me...but he eventually did.

Once everyone was out of the house, I went to the kitchen and poured myself a bowl of cereal. I sat at the table, starring out the window, trying to think of what I would say to Dr. Cullen on the phone. I wondered if he would be mad at me. If he was, then I guess he had enough reason to be. I left the state without warning and I was hanging out with a guy that would make out with me instantly if I told him to. Or didn't tell him to.

I washed the bowl and spoon and slowly made my way upstairs to my room. I ran one hand through my hair before I collapsed onto the bed. I picked up my cell phone off of the end table beside the bed, and I tried to think about where Dr. Cullen would be at right now. I looked over at the clock and noticed it was a little past ten in the morning. It would be a little past eleven in Washington. If he had to work normal shift today...he'd be at the hospital, and probably walking around somewhere. If he had to work night shift, then he was at home. If he wasn't working at all today...then who knew where he was.

I threw the phone down on the bed and got up to look at the weather in Washington on my laptop. I knew that if it was sunny outside, that Dr. Cullen's cell phone would be the best method of contact...since he goes "hiking" on sunny days with the kids. But when I looked at the weather, it said it was cloudy and rainy. Which of course for Forks, that is expected.

So now I was back to square one. I sat back on the bed and picked up my phone again. How was I supposed to know when he worked? That would make all the difference in finding out how to reach him. I really didn't want to call every phone possible and have to talk to someone else about it, such as one of the children. I wanted to talk directly with Dr. Cullen, and only Dr. Cullen.

I tried to think of how I could figure out where he was at. Then I remembered something. I practically jumped off of the bed and ran over to where my suitcases sat in the corner of the room near the windows. I dug through each one of them until I found my planner. I always wrote my shifts down months ahead of time. And since I was Dr. Cullen's personal assistant...I of course worked the same time he did.

I squealed in excitement as I ran back over to the bed and sat down. I flipped through the pages of the planner until I found that week's shifts. If I had been in Forks at that very moment...I would be in Forks hospital from nine in the morning until five in the afternoon.

I threw the planner half way across the room and I quickly dialed in his cell phone number, not even bothering to use speed dial. I bit my lip as the phone rang, suddenly becoming very nervous. It rang twice, three times, and then finally he answered.

"Hello Brooke." He said simply, and I almost fainted at the sound of his voice. I missed him so much, and I was ready to run to Forks if I had to.

"Hey." I said, kind of wondering how he was going to react to me.

I heard a noise in the background, which I assumed was the door closing, before he spoke again. "I've missed you very much my dear. Are you alright?"

I was so stupid to think he could ever be mad at me. Here I was thinking I was going to get yelled at for running away to Alaska for two weeks, and he wanted to know if I was alright. I realized that this whole situation was so messed up, and it really needed to be fixed.

"Yes I'm fine." I replied, feeling very, very guilty.

"That's good then...I was very worried about you."

I sighed. "I'm um...sort of, kind of in Alaska right now."

He actually laughed a bit...which surprised me. "Sort of, kind of? So what...are you laying on the Alaskan border or something?"

I couldn't help but laugh a bit myself. "No, I'm sort of, kind of with Adam."

"I sort of, kind of knew that." He said. And even though I could tell he was slightly hurt, I could also tell by the sound of his voice that if I was standing there with him...he'd be smiling.

"You did?" I asked, feeling really bad for what I had done. "I mean I know you're smart and all...but I didn't know if you could figure it out."

He laughed again. "Brooke I know you well enough to know that's exactly where you were going."

I didn't say anything.

"And besides, Edward and Alice told me."

"Edward and Alice?" I asked, surprised. "I never told them where I was going."

"You didn't need to."

"Say what?" I asked, very confused at that moment.

His musical laughter rang on the other line again. "Didn't I tell you about their special powers?"

"Special powers?" I asked. "So what now...you guys are vampires with super powers?"

"I can conclude I didn't tell you about that then."

"I really didn't give you the chance to. I sort of, kind of yelled at you a lot."

"Sort of, kind of?" He said.

"Ok...I did yell at you a lot."

He laughed. "Yes...yes you certainly did. You went a little insane on me that day Brooke."

"Hey in my defense...I had a good reason to. You told me you were a freaking vampire!" I said, and although I was talking loud, I wasn't angry with him. In fact..I was laughing some myself.

"Yes and I certainly could tell that came as quite a shock to you."

"No duh."

"You have been hanging out with Lacey a bit too much there my love."

"Why do you say that?"

"Well just a second ago you threw the word freaking into a sentence, and now you are saying phrases like "No duh."

I laughed. "It sounds so funny to here you say that."

"Yes, I thought it sounded funny myself."

"It did, I wish I could have recorded that."

"Ok, beside the point." He said, trying to turn the conversation around to its previous direction. "I really didn't tell you about Edward, Alice, Bella, and Jasper's special abilities?"

"Jasper and Bella are superhero vampires too?"

"Superhero vampires...no. Vampires with special abilities...yes."

"If you haven't figured it out yet, no you did not tell me about their superpowers."

"Special abilities."

"Whatever, same basic difference." I said.

"Brooke my love?"

"Yeah?"

"You just made no sense whatsoever."

"Now you know how I feel when I am around you." I replied.

He laughed. "Yes, I guess I do."

"Mr. Walking Dictionary."

"Give me just a small ounce of credit. I come from a completely different time period, and country than you. My way of talking is going to be complicated and odd to you."

"That's something I didn't already know." I said sarcastically.

"I'm loving your sarcasm."

"Thank you."

"So I never told you about them?" He asked again.

"Um, I think we established this already."

"Yes, we did, but I'm surprised I forgot to mention them."

I sighed and looked out the window. "Well you can talk to me about it when I get home."

"When are you coming home?" He asked.

I turned my gaze away from the window. "The next time I can find a flight to Seattle."

"There's one leaving today at four o'clock your time."

"May I ask how you know that?"

"I've been keeping track of the flights from Alaska into Seattle to know when you might be coming back."

Now I felt really bad. He had been waiting to see if I would return. Every time a flight from Alaska came in and I wasn't on that plane, he probably felt so hurt, so betrayed.

"I am so incredibly sorry." I said.

"Why are you sorry?"

"Because I left the state without even telling you, I was gone from work longer than I said I would be, and then to boot I'm hanging out with a guy that is ready to date me the second I'm single."

He laughed slightly. "Yes, that is true."

"And I want to let you know that we didn't do anything. I didn't come up here to kiss all over Adam."

"I know that Brooke. You don't have to tell me that."

"Yes I feel like I do."

"Brooke I know that you are better than that." He said.

I didn't respond. Even though I hadn't done anything with Adam...well at least at my own will...I still felt bad.

"If you had to cheat on me with somebody I know you'd go to someone better than Adam." He said.

I couldn't believe he just said that, but I laughed hysterically for probably five straight minutes.

"Speaking of cheating...where's Viviene at these days?" I asked.

He laughed. "Oh her? She's in "Sweden" right now..but knowing her she could be anywhere."

"Well how long is she staying in "Sweden"?" I asked.

"She said two months."

"Wow, let's hope she's telling the truth."

"Yes...let's."

"I miss you so much. I'm getting on that plane this afternoon." I said.

I could detect the excitement in his voice. "I'll be looking forward to it."

"Hey, could you pick me up at the airport? I didn't leave my car up there, I just took a taxi."

"Certainly. You can come to my house tonight too if you'd like"

I laughed. "I think you would like me to do that wouldn't you?"

"Well yes. I mean you and I have a lot to talk about."

"I think you'd just like me to come to your house so I don't get attacked by hungry vampires."

"Haha, that's sort of ironic...isn't it?"

"What is ironic?" I asked.

"That I want you to come to my house so you won't be attacked by vampires...when my house is full of vampires."

"Ah, but you see you are good vampires who only feed on animals and have super powers."

"Special abilities."

I laughed. "Fine, special abilities."

He laughed as well. "But I do think we should talk about everything that's happened recently."

I groaned. "Ugh can't we just make out on the desk in your office instead."

"Alright, I now know you've been hanging out with Adam too much as well."

"How can you tell?" I asked.

"Because like him, you only seem to have one thing on your mind."

I laughed hysterically for five minutes once again. I don't know why I found it funny when Dr. Cullen, my boyfriend, insulted Adam, my best friend....but it was hysterical! Especially since Dr. Cullen doesn't seem like a person who has a mind full of insults.

After I finished laughing, and I was absolutely positive Dr. Cullen thought I was a nutcase, I managed to speak. "No, it's just that I've missed you a lot, and when I get back...talking is not gonna be the first thing on my list to do with you."

"But making out with me is?"

"Why not?"

He laughed. "I don't know."

"Ok...I might say hi to you first."

"Oh wow, I get a hello before you try to seduce me. That's so much better."

I started giggling like a little girl, and I had no idea why. "I'm coming home today..I've officially made up my mind."

He laughed at me. "Alright, I'll pick you up at the airport, I'll be waiting for you outside the gate."

"And I will come to your house tonight so that way I am protected, and we can talk." I said, trying to fake sounding mad.

"Maybe if you are good and you cooperate...I might even let you make out with me."

"Score!" I shouted, feeling like such a moron. I had been around Adam too much.

"Ok, I'm just going to ignore that comment." He said, with an edge of laughter to his voice.

I was giggling again. I was starting to wonder if my cereal had been spiked with something. "Alright, I guess I'll see you later."

"I guess you will." He replied.

"I love you." I said, without giggling...thank goodness.

"I love you too Brooke. With all my heart."And with that we ended our conversation.

I felt tears sting at my eyes. I was considering the option of running to Forks again.

When Adam came home and I told him I was leaving to return to Seattle, he wasn't very happy. Ok..wasn't very happy is an understatement. He was really ticked off, and he walked around the house shouting random profanities for at least two hours. When Lacey came home she joined him, but just so she had an excuse to curse. She really had no idea why Adam was angry...she just wanted to shout curse words at the top of her lungs too. Which wasn't any different than normal.

When Lacey did find out why Adam was swearing like crazy, she decided that her and Lance wouldn't go with me to the airport, just to make things easier I guess. They both hugged me goodbye and told me that I should visit them in California sometime that fall. I promised that if I got the chance I would.

Adam took me to the airport, and we didn't talk at all on the car ride there. It was a very awkward sort of situation. Especially since Adam is always talking. I didn't necessarily think he was mad at me...rather he was upset I was leaving. However I knew it was going to be easier to say goodbye to him this time than it had been the first.

We pulled into the parking lot, and sat in silence for a moment, before he decided to break it.

"Do you want me to come in there with you?" He asked.

I thought about it for a minute, then shook my head no. "I think I'll be ok."

"You sure?" He asked.

"Yeah...I'm sure." I replied, allowing myself to look over at him. He was starring straight ahead, trying not to make eye contact.

"Adam, I'm really sorry." I said.

"You don't have to apologize to me."

"I feel like I do."

"But you don't"

"I still feel like I do."

"Brooke!" He yelled, which kind of scared me. I think he could tell that, because he softened his voice. "Brooke, gosh Brooke, how many freaking times have I told you that none of this is your fault?"

"A lot." I said simply.

"Yeah..a lot." He said, running his hands slowly through his hair. "It is not, and never will be your fault that I am such a freaking moron, that can't realize you're perfectly content with someone else."

"It is my fault that I led you on to begin with though." I said.

He laughed a bit. "Well, maybe that is your fault."

I laughed too.

"Brooke...I'm just gonna have to suck it up and be a man. I'm gonna have to get over you. I'm just finding that very hard to do...you understand?"

"Completely." I said.

He laughed a little again. "It really didn't help matters much that you came up here to be with me because you had boyfriend troubles."

I suddenly realized that my visit here didn't only hurt Dr. Cullen...but it hurt Adam too. He probably thought since I was having problems with my boyfriend, and I came up here to be with him, that I was possibly going to break up with Dr. Cullen and date him instead. Which was never my intention.

"Oh Adam...I'm really sorry about that." I said. "I guess I didn't even think about that."

He sighed. "It's alright."

"No Adam it's not alright." I said, leaning over closer to him. "I keep toying with your emotions, and that is not fair to you at all."

"Yeah, and your kind of toying with them right now." He said, pointing towards me.

"Huh?" I asked, slightly confused. Then I looked down and noticed that the top I was wearing was a lot more low-cut than I thought.

"You freaking pervert." I said jokingly, as I pulled up my top. "I'm trying to have a serious conversation with you and you are checking out my chest."

"What do you expect?" He said, offering me his gorgeous smile.

I did have some feelings for Adam...I would admit that any day. He was beyond gorgeous, he was incredibly funny, a blast to hang out with, and he was such a romantic. A very sexually craved, perverted romantic, but a romantic regardless. If things between Dr. Cullen and I were to for some reason not work out, Adam would be my second pick.

But I was not in love with Adam, and I was pretty certain I never would be. Right now I was merely his friend, and I wanted to help him in any way I could so that way he could be happy and stop worrying about me.

"I guess your right." I said. "I should have known."

"Yeah, you should have."

I laughed and pulled my top back up again just for safe measure.

"You um..better get inside so you don't miss your plane." He said.

I nodded. "Ok."

We both got out of Adam's car, and he helped me get my suitcases out of the trunk. He set them down on the ground beside us, before closing the trunk up.

We were quiet for a moment, when a couple at a car beside us caught our attention. The two of them were telling each other goodbye, and they hugged one another, and kissed each other passionately before the girl walked into the airport.

I didn't even have to look at Adam to know what he was thinking....but I felt really guilty for not thinking about the same thing. Seeing the couple only made me think of Dr. Cullen, and how excited I was to see him.

"Sorry." I said looking over at Adam, who was leaning against the car.

He laughed. "Thanks...but you don't need to apologize."

I starred at him for a minute, feeling so torn about this whole situation.

He sighed. "Are you um...gonna be able to handle these by yourself?" He asked, pointing to my suitcases.

"Oh yeah." I said, looking at them. "I'll be fine."

"You really should get going." He said, looking down at the ground.

"Yeah I guess I should." I said. He didn't respond, so I walked over to him and wrapped my arms tightly around him, hugging him close.

Adam wrapped his arms tightly around me too, and hugged me tight as he softly ran one hand through my hair. I rested my head on his chest, and I felt him rest his head on top of mine.

We probably stood there forever, just hugging, not saying anything. I was very surprised I hadn't even started crying yet.

Finally when I figured we had been there long enough, I spoke.

"Adam, I really should be going."

"Yeah, of course." He said, and I could see the hurt in his eyes. He wasn't the happy Adam that had been starring at my cleavage a few minutes ago.

I looked up at him and starred into his bright blue eyes. Any other girl would instantly start kissing him at that moment. Even I would...if I was single. But when I starred into his baby blue eyes, I only saw topaz ones starring back at me. That is what I wanted, and that is where I belonged, and I think both Adam and I knew that.

He kissed me softly on the top of my forehead. "Goodbye Brooke...I'll miss you."

"I'll miss you too Adam." I said, the tears now falling softly down my cheeks. "Goodbye."

He leaned over and kissed my cheek, before loosening his grip. "Be careful alright? And call me as soon as you land so I know you are ok."

"I promise." I said, still wrapping my arms tightly around him.

"And come see us in California when we go back in the fall. You'll love it there. And then you'll get to see me in action on my home turf."

I laughed through my tears. "I already told Lacey I'd try to come down there to see you guys."

"Well Lacey's a butt face, come down there to see me." He said, with a smile...a bit of the Adam I knew shinning through.

"I will." I said.

"And do not tell Lacey I called her that, or she will beat me up."

I laughed. "Ok, I won't."

He smiled, but it quickly faded again. "Goodbye Brooke." He repeated.

"Goodbye Adam." I said, turning my head away from him for a moment so I could rest it against his chest again. He hugged me close once more.

"I love you." He said shakily, and I felt my heart break at the sound of his words. I so desperately wanted to make him happy and give him what he wanted...but I couldn't.

"Adam." I said, feeling more tears roll down my cheeks now. I heard him sigh. "You're making me feel really bad now."

"Sorry." He said. "But it's the truth."

I sighed too. "I know it is." I looked up at him again. "Adam I do love you, I always will love you, just not exactly in the way you want me to love you."

He nodded. "I know that."

"I'm so sorry for doing this to you."

"Hey you couldn't control it. I couldn't even control it. You can't control who you fall in love with...it just happens."

I thought about Dr. Cullen, and how I had tried so hard to keep myself from falling in love with him at first, and how it didn't work. "You are so right on that one."

He smiled softly. "Get going, don't mess with me anymore. You have a plane to catch and a boyfriend that will be really ticked at me if I keep you here."

I laughed a little as I released myself from his embrace. "Goodbye Adam, and thank you so much for everything."

"Not a problem...goodbye Brooke." He said, watching me as I picked up my suitcases.

I turned to walk away, but I only made it about five steps before I turned around again. Adam was still leaning against the back of the car.

"Hey Adam." I said, trying to get his attention.

"Yeah?" He called.

"Get going...don't mess with me anymore." I said, repeating the words he had said seconds ago.

He turned around to look at me better, resting one arm on the back of the car. "You're kidding me right?"

"No Adam, I'm not." I said. "You can't wait for me your whole life when the girl who may be for you is right in front of your eyes."

"Yeah...she is." He said, motioning towards me.

I groaned in fake disgust. "Lacey's right...you are an idiot."

"True, so true." He said with a grin.

"I'm serious." I said, trying to make him listen to me. "I don't want you to hurt anymore. Forget about me."

"I don't think I'll ever be able to do that, but I guess I'll try." He said, walking around to the driver's side door.

"Ugh...you are so unbelievable!" I said, fake angry at him, I turned around and stormed away toward the airport.

I could hear him laughing, and I turned around to see that he was standing on the side of the car so that way you could see him over the top of it.

I laughed and rolled my eyes. "Goodbye McRomeo!" I said, indicating he could leave now.

"Goodbye my Juliet!" He called back, with a stupid grin on his face.

I shook my head in disgust, and he laughed.

"That should be your Mc name." He said. "McJuliet."

"Yeah my boyfriend is gonna be so happy with me if you and I have matching Mc names!"

"Too late...that's your Mc name."

"Ok then." I said, laughing at him. "Get outta here!"

"Will do." He said, getting into his car and quickly driving out of his parking spot. He drove right past me with the window rolled down, and he blew me a kiss goodbye.

I laughed at him and blew a kiss back, just to satisfy him, and I heard him shouting "Score!" as he drove away.

I knew he wasn't going to give up on me anytime soon.

When I arrived in Seattle and I saw Dr. Cullen standing there at the gate waiting for me, I basically flew into his arms. Thank goodness he is a strong vampire, because he caught me. I don't know how many times I kissed him before he encouraged me to go out to the car and start breathing. Maybe it was something around five hundred...five thousand...something like that.

We didn't bring up the topic of vampires at all on the car ride to his house. Instead we talked about what the past few weeks without one another had been like. His two weeks had been fairly uneventful, and he didn't have much to say, but I had so many stories about the trouble Lance, Lacey, and Adam got into that it filled up the conversation space.

It was dark outside, and a full out thunderstorm was getting ready to start. I was so glad that I was staying at the Cullen's that night, because with my fear of storms and my creepy dreams...I wanted to feel as safe as I could.

The rain started pouring about half way through our trip, and I couldn't see anything around us, it was that bad. The thunder shook the car, and the lightening was flashing almost continuously.

I was beyond frightened at that point in time, and Dr. Cullen could tell I was, so he tried to keep me distracted by telling me a story about Gertrude. It wasn't working too well though, because I was becoming really scared.

I also had no idea how Dr. Cullen could even see the road to be able to drive, but when I recalled he was a vampire and he probably knew what he was doing, I felt better. Even if he was driving at least eighty miles an hour.

The rain still hadn't let up as we entered the driveway leading to the Cullen house..in fact it had probably gotten worse. The drive up the long, winding driveway seemed to take fifty times longer than usual. Every time the thunder roared, I'd scream...and Dr. Cullen would always look at me to make sure I was ok. I felt so stupid acting this way after seeing him for the first time in so long, but I couldn't help myself.

As we were a little less than halfway finished with our trip up the Cullen driveway, I noticed Dr. Cullen's facial expression had changed. He looked confused, and maybe slightly worried. Maybe he was trying to think of ways to help me through this storm tonight.

I returned my attention to the front window, but it didn't do any good since I could barely see anything through the rain. As I was starring straight ahead however, I felt myself shiver...which I found odd because I wasn't cold at all. Dr. Cullen noticed, but he didn't say anything, he was still too busy concentrating on something.

I looked straight ahead again and suddenly found this extremely unusual feeling of worry. Maybe the effects of the storm were really starting to get to me.

"No!" Dr. Cullen suddenly yelled incredibly loud, bringing the Mercedes to a quick halt in the middle of the driveway. His outburst had scared me even more, and I quickly turned my attention to him.

"What?" I asked, searching his face for clues. His head was buried in his hands, and he kept muttering something.

"What!" I asked again, louder this time.

"No, no, no, no!" He chanted again, finally looking up at me. The look in his eyes instantly told me what was wrong.

My hands flew to my mouth and tears stung at my eyes. "No...it can't be..she's not."

"Yes." He whispered. "She's here."

"She's supposed to be in Sweden!" I said.

"Yes well Brooke if you've learned anything in the amount of time you've been with me it's that Viviene is a liar."

Hearing her name caused me to shiver again, and I realized that when I had done that earlier, that was my way of letting me know that Viviene was around.

"Does she know I'm here?" I whispered softly.

He sighed, and took a very long time to respond. "Yes, and I don't think we are going to be able to talk her out of this one."

My heart was beating at a very rapid pace, and I shook my head in disbelief. "This can't be happening."

"It is." He said, looking up through the windshield. "And it's happening right now."

I looked up and at first saw nothing, but a few seconds later a huge bolt of lightening flashed across the sky, giving me just enough time to see Viviene standing in front of the Mercedes with an evil grin spreading across her face.

Well? Haha...again a cliff hanger. I am incredibly sorry for that, but it makes it more dramatic. Just wait until the next chapter...talk about your drama. I'm really excited for it, because the next chapter has been planned and re-wrote in my head so many times that I am in love with it, and I don't even have it written down! I will try to come on again sometime soon and update so that way you guys can know what happens next. I hope this chapter was much more exciting for you!

Thanks for reading...please shoot me a review with what you think so far!

~Hazl~