I stayed in my bed for awhile, thinking about the past week. School went by fast which surprised me but I was glad. I had most of my classes with Keila which was also a bonus. I turned to my side and looked ay my alarm clock. The bright red number told me that it was 5:30 in the morning. Why am I up so early? I asked my self but to be honest I already knew the answer. I had been having nightmares about my moms death and the fire. I was to afraid to fall asleep in fear of those dreams. I let out a slow breathe and got out of bed. I looked at the corner where I had a small pile of boxes that I had been saving to unpack for the right time. I slowly walked to the first box labeled Books. I lifted up the folded box top and pulled out the first book and smiled. It was my favorite book of all time, The Perks of Being a Wallflower. The rest of the books were Harry Potter, Twilight, A Certain Slant of Light, Thirteen Reasons Why, The Grimm Brothers Fairy Tales, Jane Eyre, and Wuthering Heights. I grabbed all my books and placed them on the book shelf above my bed. The next box was labeled Movies/CDs. I lifted up the folded box top and pulled out my DVD player and set it aside and grabbed a stack of movies, and put them on my DVD player. Then I gabbed my small stack of CDs. I looked at then and moved on and went to my TV and hooked up my DVD player and set the movies next to it. Then I put my CDs next to my stereo that was next to my desk. I was down to my last box that was labeled Photos. It was a small box big enough to easily lift and set on your lap, but I couldn't find myself able enough to open the box and look inside. There were to many happy memories of my mom, Cassie, me, family, and old friends. I just don't think I could handle it all alone. So I decided to put the box under my bed. I looked outside my window to see the sun rising. I heard a buzzing sound go off on my desk where I left my cell phone to charge over night. I got off my bed and looked at who it could be. The caller ID said KiKi. Keila? Why is she texting me? I wondered to myself.

KiKi :Are you awake yet?

Me:Yeah…Why?

KiKi:Because I want to hangout. Meet me at the beach.

Me:Ummm ok. Why so early it's 7:30?

KiKi:I was awake and I want to have a Keila and Willa day.

Me:Ok when do you want to meet?

KiKi:Now.

Me:Ok I'll be there soon.

KiKi:Oh and Willa NO BOYS! Just me and you.

Me:Ummm ok KiKi.

KiKi:Don't call me that!

I let out a little chuckle and put my phone down and went over to my closet. I put on my black Ramones sweater, pulled my dark blue shorts on, and I slipped on my choral grey Minnetonka moccasins. I walked over to my bathroom brushed my teeth. I really didn't bother with my hair or my makeup. I grabbed my phone and put it in my pocket then I grabbed my iPod. I quietly walked down to the kitchen a wrote my grandma a little note telling her where I was. I put my head phone in my ears and played Intro by The xx, and put it on repeat. When I got to the beach I saw that Keila was already there. I took my head phone out of my ears and wrapped the cord around my iPod and stuck it in my other pocket. I walked up to her and sat down.

" Hey." I said.

"Finally you're here." she said while she gave my a side hug. I just nodded my head. We sat in silence for a few more minute. Keila was the who broke it and asked

"How are you Willa?"

"I'm fine." I said with a shrug. She turned and looked at me and I continued to look forward. Watching the tides come in and out.

"Willa are you really though?"

"Yeah. Why are you asking me?"

"Because you have been acting weird."

"I'm just being myself Keila. I just going through something right now."

"Just tell me."

"Why? Why do you want to hear my problems?" I said as I looked at her.

"Because I'm your best friend Willa. I'm here to help you out when you are down." I took a deep breathe and said

" I'm fine Keila." She let out a sigh of announce and looked away from me. I couldn't tell her what I'm going through. I couldn't tell her that I feel for guilty for not being able to save my mom. How I got out safely and she didn't. How I lived and she died. I couldn't tell her that.