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Chapter Thirteen

Sydney Sage

Broken

Rose left me after a while and let me get ready. I took a quick shower, brushed my teeth, dried my hair and slipped on some khakis and a long sleeved white turtle neck that'll keep me warm with my snow jacket. I stare at my reflection in the tall mirror that hangs from room's door and fall onto the bed.

Yesterday night seems like a blur, almost like a dream. How could I have let him touch me like that? How did I let him hold me like that and kiss me? And why in the world did I enjoy it? I had told him that day in his apartment that it was over, that there can never be an us. A Moroi, and not just any Moroi, but a royal Moroi and an Alchemist can never be. What if someone saw us back in the café? What if someone had told Stanton or my father? They can be here any minute, all armed and ready to take me away because I'm falling in love with Adrian. My heart stops as I take in what's happening. I'm falling in love with Adrian.

A loud knock interrupts my thoughts. "Sage, you ok in there? It's been like an hour and all the foods being wiped out. I saved you some food though just in case Rose decides to swallow the kitchen whole by the time we get back."

My eyes fill up with tears as I lean against the wooden door that's separating me and Adrian. I have to do this, I tell myself. I have to. It's for his good, and it's for my good. We can never be. They'll find me. I take a deep breath and I open the door. There standing in the cold winter breeze is Adrian with a huge smile on his face. He never smiles this big. I can't do this.

I push past him and make my way towards the Queen's large cabin hoping that Adrian will ignore me. Maybe he'll see that I don't want to talk. Maybe his phone will ring and he'll go away but of course none of that happens. Adrian runs over to me and grabs me by my hand. His hand, large and warm, easily swallows mine and his long, artist fingers rub knee weakening circles into my palm. I pull my hand back and wrap my arms around myself as I try to walk around him.

"Just go Adrian, please," I whisper as I swallow back the tears in my eyes.

He reaches out for my hand and changes his mind halfway and grabs me by arm instead. He slowly turns me around and I bite the inside of my lip to keep myself from crying like I had yesterday night.

"Sydney, what's wrong?" he whispers. "It's alright sweetheart, you can tell me anything."

"Please go," I try again. "Please, I'm begging you Adrian."

"No," he tells me. "Not unless you tell me what's wrong Sydney. Please sweetheart, I'll make everything ok again alright? Just tell me what's on your mind."

"Yesterday night," I manage to croak out. "Yesterday night was wrong."

His grip on my arm loosens and he takes a step back as if I just punched him in the gut.

"That shouldn't have happened ok, and you know that, you shouldn't have touched me like that!"

"Sydney, you were so scared, I was just trying to help," he whispers. "Please Sydney, I'm sorry ok, just don't… "

"Don't what?" I ask him.

"Don't leave me again," he whispers and this time, it's him who's looking down at the ground.

My heart stops beating and my hands start to shake as I blink back my tears. "We're not right Adrian, I told you that before."

"You felt it to, you wanted me Sydney and you know that," he says as his eyes snap back at me. His eyes aren't full of that pain and loss that had been there the first day I told him this. This time, there's rage and pure hot anger.

"I felt nothing," I lie.

"How can you lie to yourself Sydney?"

"I'm not lying to myself," I say, raising my voice a little. "Try and understand that. Just because you love me doesn't mean I have to love you back. There was nothing ever between us! And if you can't understand that, if you're so immature to not see the truth between all of this, then you're blind Adrian! Open your eyes for once!"

Adrian looks back at me with a pale face. His long arms hang loose by his side and I can see through his eyes that I just went somewhere where I shouldn't have gone. I can see through that pained look on his face that he might never ever forgive me.

"Hey, is everything alright back here?" Rose says peeking out the cabin door.

"Yeah," Adrian says gruffly. "Why wouldn't it be?"

And with that he walks away from the cabin and heads off down the hill to the large main cabin that held the café, arcade, and bar. I watch him leave and silently and walk into the cabin. I take a deep breath and quickly wipe away my tears that I have been holding back since Adrian showed up. Rose locks the door slowly and turns around to face me.

"Are you ok?" she whispers. "You look like you got run over by a bull dozer."

"Yeah, I'm fine."

"Well come on in then, there's still some food left, Adrian left a plate for you somewhere and the coffee he got you is still hot."

"He got me coffee?" I whisper.

"Yeah," she says as she leads me through the crowded kitchen and into the small, empty living room. There on the shiny, wooden table is a plate full of fruit all laid out like a smiley face and a small stack of pancakes. Next to the plate is a huge cup of coffee in a Styrofoam labeled SAGE'S COFFEE in his spirally, yet neat handwriting. I take a sip of the coffee and feel a fresh batch of tears fill my eyes. He got everything right. "Are you really going to eat all that fruit?"

I nod and force a smile. "Yeah why? You want some?"

"God no, I was just asking," she says laughing. "Do you want to join us? Eddie's here, I think Mia's with Jill back at Jill's cabin."

"I'll um eat here, my head's kind of hurting."

"Oh ok," she says and squeezes my shoulder. "If you need anything, we'll be a room away."

I nod and watch her leave. I walk over to the couch with my plate of food and coffee and sit down. I set the coffee aside and pull the plate of food onto my lap. I lean back into the pillows and look into the smiley face Adrian had made for me. I take an apple of the plate and try to chew on the nice soft, fluffy and juicy slice when the tears start to race down my cheeks. I'm not loud like yesterday; these sobs are quiet and silent and twice as painful.

Suddenly my phone starts to buzz loudly in my khakis. I dry my tears and quickly blow my nose with a tissue before pushing my old, nineties flip phone out of my pants. I flip it open and press the cell to my ear.

"Sydney Sage speaking," I say.

"Ah, Miss Sage," a man says. "What a convenience. I was afraid that Princess Dragomir would pick up again."

I stop breathing. How does he know Jill? "Who are you?"

"My, my, don't go so edgy darling."

"Answer my question now," I say.

He chuckles. "My name is Marcus Finch Miss Sage and I've heard that you've been looking for me. I thought I'd help you out and arrange a little meeting, just the two of us."

It's Marcus. How did he get my number? "I'm not at home,"

"Oh I know Miss Sage; you're in Spokane, the very same city I have been residing in for the past few years. What a coincidence huh? Anyway, what do you think about dinner darling?"

Review! And look who decided to pop up in the story! The much awaited Marcus Finch. Did I do his tone right? I'm trying!