All characters belong to Stephanie Meyer. I don't own anything but the plot in this.

Chapter five

EPOV

She had actually said yes to me! I was so sure my heart was beating, so much warmth and joy was coming from it that I was positive it was coming back to life. I continued to watch Bella sleep from the rocking chair in the corner. She would have to wake up in about four hours or so to get to school on time. I thought maybe it would be a good idea to take her to school myself, after all we'd agreed we wanted to get to know each other better. Then again maybe it was best to keep things slow for now, maybe it would be best not to let it seem as though I was crowding her. I sighed in defeat, but I knew this was the best way to take things.

I couldn't wait to see her tomorrow at school. Maybe I couldn't drive her to school but I could sit with her at lunch, I'm sure we could find an empty table in the cafeteria. Then of course I'd be able to walk with her to biology and be able to talk to her in class too. Then perhaps at the end of the day I'd ask her on a "date" or something. As much as it pained me to not just hold her in my arms now I knew I had to take things slow, and I would do it for her. I would be patient and eventually I would call her mine. But god dammit I want her now! The darker side of me roared. Right now I, and my erection, couldn't agree more. But I had to do this. It will pay of in the long run I told myself.

Those few hours left in Bella's room just weren't enough for me, I could stay here forever and watch her sleep. I knew I had to leave now before she caught me again. I opened her window and put one foot out before one last look at my sleeping angel, then I left.

In some ways it was a relief to have Bella know the truth about us, and more importantly the truth about how I felt about her. As far as I could tell she was fine with what we were and about the imprinting. I would still try and act as human as possible around her though, fearing that if she saw us for what we really were she would run away screaming. This also I would have to take slowly with her.

I arrived back at the house to find my siblings outside the house waiting for me.

About time too!- Rosalie

Enjoy yourself, Eddie?- Emmett

We better get you school before you smash something- Jasper, sensing the natural pain I felt from being away from Bella.

I can't wait to give Bella a makeover!- Alice

Rosalie's thoughts I ignored as usual, Emmett's thoughts I growled at because of his assumption behind the question(though I would have wished it to be that way myself), Jasper's thoughts I agreed with, and Alice's thoughts I just shook my head at. Bella was already more than beautiful as she was, she didn't need make-up or pretty dresses.

We got into the car, and I zoomed at full speed to school, going faster than I usually did. I was already desperate to see Bella again though I'd only just come from her house. Once again I was grateful for Jasper's calming waves.

When we arrived at school Bella wasn't there yet, but I could here and also feel her presence creeping closer and closer to where I wanted her to be so I could just look upon her face. Her truck's thunderous noise was just around the corner now and I stared over at the parking lot's entrance in anticipation of her arrival. As always it was a relief to see her face, the feeling never got old. I watched her all the way until she reached her class. On her way she helped a freshman pick up his things. I smiled at how selfless and considerate she was.

I continued to watch her through the mind's of other people who just happened to be passing or were still curious about her, those thoughts were more convenient since they lingered on her longer. I was just watching Bella happily, when I actually listened to the thoughts of who was watching her.

It was Mike Newton, a boy Bella had apparently met gym yesterday. How had I missed that? God, she is hot! I've never seen a sexier chick in my life!

I couldn't hold back the growl that escaped my lips, but quickly covered it with a cough. My fury was still burning under my skin. His thoughts only became worse though, and worse still when he started imagining him and Bella kissing. I gripped the table to stop me running over there now and ripping his head off. I couldn't stand listening anymore, surely there had to be someone else's thoughts I could still see Bella through.

I quickly scanned the minds of people in the class to see if anyone was looking at her. Yes! There was another curious person watching Bella. My relief didn't last long when once again I heard just what was going one in their thoughts. It was the same boy who had thought of Bella yesterday, Erik Yorkie.

Maybe I'll ask her to the dance after school or something... What! Don't tell me Newton's interested in her too! He's already got every girl after him, isn't that enough?!

The last part of his thoughts I agreed with. Then I recalled something Eric had "said" about the school dance. Maybe I could ask her to the dance. I'd consider it, perhaps ask Alice about Bella's reaction if I did first.

Unfortunately Eric's thoughts also started having fantasies about Bella which was too much for me, so I switched again. Angela was thinking about Bella. That was good, Angela was nice and even better not a boy so she wouldn't be thinking that way about Bella.

Bella seems nice. She's shy like me too I think.

This was a mind I could watch Bella and not be worried about what I'd hear. In the meantime I started thinking about the dilemma of Mike Newton. The thing that worried me was that Bella had already met him so there was no way I could stop another meeting from taking place as he was in a lot of her classes. I envied him for being able to be in so many of Bella's classes while I was only in one of them. Another thing that had me worried was the fact that he planned to talk to her after class finished. I couldn't allow that. But it couldn't be helped, Bella's class ended before mine did so Newton would have his chance to talk with her before I could get there.

As soon as class ended Newton rushed to Bella's side. I internally growled in frustration. The ticking seconds on the clock seemed to mock me as I waited impatiently for the class to end. My anger was growing and rising over. I was hostile by the time the bell rang. It was so hard to keep at human pace. Newton was flirting wildly with Bella. I didn't know if Bella liked it or not as I was too blinded by my anger, but the thought that she may be enjoying his attentions made me all the more livid. All I saw was red.

I rounded the corner where Bella's locker was. I saw Bella taking her books out of her locker with Newton leaning against the other lockers next to her. I didn't think, I went over to them, my eyes only focused on Newton. There was really no exscuse for the way I acted.

BPOV

"So, we could go to my place and do homework.." Mike said in a voice he thought was alluring when I just thought it was weird. But I looked past him and saw Edward coming towards us. He looked furious. He wasn't looking at me, he was looking at the boy next to me.

Edward grabbed Mike from the back by his shirt and pushed him against the lockers.

"What the fuck?!" Mike yelled

Edward grabbed him by the throat. I was worried he was choking him. I hoped he remembered his strength and didn't take it too far.

"NOW LISTEN, NEWTON!!!" Edward roared. He was really scaring me. I shrunk back against the lockers.

"YOU WILL NOT TOUCH, LOOK, OR EVEN GO WITHIN TWO MILES OF WHERE BELLA IS STANDING FROM NOW ON!!!"

Mike looked just as terrified as I was.

"DO YOU UNDERSTAND, NEWTON"

Mike couldn't speak due to the fact that Edward still had his hand locked around his throat.

"I SAID DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!?!"

"Yes" Mike just managed to choke out.

Edward released his hold and Mike shot off gripping his throat. I stared at him shocked. Tears spilled over my eyes. If I had been terrified the other night when they told me were vampires, it was nothing to the fear I felt now. I'd seen him now for the monster he was.

Edward slowly turned to face me. I knew that all he would be able to see in my eyes now was fear and more watery tears that threatened to spill like the others. Edward's face went from livid to pained in a second when he saw me. He looked as though he would cry knowing that it was his fault for my fear. He reached out a hand to cup my face. I backed away from him.

"Bella, love, please?" he begged.

I shook my head wordlessly. Right now, everything that had passed between us before didn't matter, I couldn't think of anything else apart from the scene I had just witnessed and the fear that gripped me. He took a step towards me but I stepped back several paces. He still held his hand in front of him, as if he was reaching out for me.

"Bella, please let me explain?" he begged again.

I shook my head again and finally found my voice "Don't.. just don't" I whispered as I backed further away from him.

He took one more step towards me and then I ran. I just wanted to get away from him. I was still so scared. I ran out the school and to my truck. I put the locks down and I cried hysterically. Edward's hostile face as he attacked Mike kept flashing in my mind. I then realised that I was shaking all over. Then I heard a tap on my window. I saw Emmett with a pleading look on his face. I was scared of him too now, he was a vampire, he was no differant than Edward. I put the keys in the ignition.

"Bella, please let Edward explain?!. He's a mess! Please, Bella?!" he said, but I didn't listen to him. I drove away.

All I wanted was to go to my room. To feel safe again in the confines of my home. I didn't think of anything else. I ran out my truck and quickly unlocked the door. I didn't stop as I made my way to my room. I slammed the door behind me and sat on my bed.

I calmed down after a while, so that I could figure out some things and what I was going to do now. There was one certain thing in my mind, I couldn't give Edward a chance now. Instead of the swooning whenever I now thought of him, I could only think of the fear I'd felt. I could never face him again, because if I ever did I would only be able to think back to what had passed today. I would avoid him at all costs now. Only when we would have to sit next to each other in biology would I ever be close to him, and even then I would act like he didn't exist.

I gasped when I heard the window open and saw Edward standing in my room just as he had last night.

EPOV

The image of Bella's terrified eyes wouldn't leave my mind. It tortured me to know that I was the cause of the fear. It was like how I reacted yesterday in the car. I was a wreck. All I'd ever wanted to do was make her feel safe and protected but I'd only done the opposite.

How could I have reacted that way in front of her? My jealousy had overpowered me so greatly that I just couldn't control it.

Alice and Jasper sat next to me on the floor as they comforted me like they had done yesterday. Jasper constantly tried sending me calm waves but also like yesterday they did little help. I remembered my face in Newton's mind as I'd attacked him. I really had looked like a monster. That was something I'd never wanted Bella to see me as.

I had to at least try and explain myself to her. I tried to stop the sobs from shaking my chest so that I would be in a suitable state to see Bella in, but I knew I would break down again as I begged her to understand me.

I ran to her house, I knew she was here by now since I could see her red truck. I didn't take a moment hesitating when I went up to her window.

She gasped when she saw me, and immediately I saw that same fear as before enter her eyes. I felt my heart break at the sight. She got up from her bed and went to the other side of room against the wall.

Look at her. She's terrified of you.

"What are you doing here?!" she meant to sound angry but her voice was too shaky.

"I need to explain, Bella, please let me?" I begged. I was already close to dry sobbing in my desperation for her to hear me out.

"How can you possibly make it right, Edward?"

She had a point there, but I couldn't give up.

"Please, Bella" I whispered.

"No"

I couldn't help it. I fell on my knees, dry sobbing. I could feel it coming. She was going to force me to stop talking to her, and I knew even if the pain would kill me, I would agree to her demands.

I had to try one more time, pointlessly hoping she would even consider forgiving me.

"Please, please, Bella, please" I sobbed "Please! I just got so jealous I didn't know how to control myself. I'm sorry! I love you, Bella, I love you! Please forgive me, please"

I looked up at her pleading her with my eyes. But her eyes were hard, with still a hint of the fear I'd seen before. I knew then that no matter what I'd say or do now she would not be able to forgive me. There was no remorse in her eyes, no pity. She knew how dangerous I was now, and nothing could stifle that fear now.

"I'm sorry, Edward" she said in a hard voice which made me flinch "I can't forget what I saw today. I'm terrified of you! How could I possibly ever love you now, Edward?"

Those words pierced my dead heart with sadness. I detected no lies in what she just said, she truly meant it. She could never love me, never want me.

I looked down at the floor. "Is this what you want?" I asked

"Yes" I closed my eyes shut.

This was it.

"Then we won't bother you anymore" my voice sounded like I was being strangled "I won't talk to you without your permission or unless its important, we will only be close to each other when in biology, but apart from that you won't see me"

"Good"

I slowly stood up from my position on the floor and without a glance in her direction, knowing that would be all it would take to make me trap her in my arms and run away with her, I went out her window and away from my love.

Sadness. Nothing but never ending sadness filled my thoughts now. I was dry sobbing so loudly as I made my way to the meadow. This place which I had wanted to share with Bella. My pain made me unable to continue on foot so I crawled, still sobbing the whole time as I made me way to the center. I sat on my knees. Unable to hold it back anymore, I let out a loud roar of pain up at the sky. My roar echoed through out the woods.

I continued to sob, now curled up in a ball. All my dreams and hopes which had involved Bella... all gone. All gone. I thought back to the images I had hoped to one day soon call my reality. They all disappeared one by one. Me and Bella holding hands at the movies like a couple. Gone. Me holding Bella in my arms at the meadow. Gone. Me holding Bella while she slept in her bed. Gone. Me and Bella with my family gathered around us laughing and joking. Gone. Bella on her father's arm walking down the isle smiling at me with nothing but love and joy in her eyes. Gone.

They would never happen now.

Poor Edward. Don't be angry at me for making Edward suffer! Don't worry, it will all work out a few chapters later!

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