Surviving Seventeen
The sequel to Sweet Sixteen. Please read that first otherwise you will be confused. I was surprised by the reviews I got for Sweet Sixteen so I just had to carry on with it XD
All characters are not created by me but the amazing Stephenie Meyer. I only made the story line :)
Chapter Twenty-Five – Cold Feet
Renesmee's POV
I kept my head on the pillow staring out of the window. Today was supposed to be the happiest day of my life but I felt sick.
Sick to the bottom of my stomach.
I was annoyed at myself. Why did I feel like this? Jake was everything I wanted, and we were officially going to be together for eternity.
"Shut up Nessie." I hissed to myself. "It's just cold feet."
"Anyone has cold feet compared to Jake." I heard a voice say. I rolled over in bed to see Alice smiling by the door. I gave her a small smile then buried my head into the pillow.
"What's wrong Ness?" Alice soothed stroking my hair. I swallowed.
"I feel sick." I whispered and Alice giggled.
"Nerves?" She asked and I gave a feeble nod. At least I hope it's nerves I thought.
"Everyone gets like that. Even Rose does?" Alice soothed again and I sat up in bed. Alice gasped.
"What?" I asked horror struck and Alice shook her head.
"You never took your make-up off!" She scolded and I shrugged. Last night we had to go and bail Jake out of jail and have an argument with my so called best human friend. I made a face as I thought about Chris.
"Honey, you don't look that bad." Alice laughed obviously taking my expression as a result of her comment. I pulled back the duvet and stretched.
"I was thinking about Chris and Jake actually." I said and Alice smiled. She opened the curtains on the smaller windows and then perched on my bed.
"Don't get worked up about it." She soothed, there was a knock at the door.
"Good morning to the blushing bride." Rosalie, Esme and Mom chirped as the door opened. Rosalie's face fell as she took in my expression. I sighed.
"Nessie, to be honest that Chris guy would be crazy not to like you. Jake loves you that's why he reacted that way." Rosalie said and Alice nodded. I swung my feet out of bed and stumbled towards the bathroom.
"Take a shower and meet in Alice's room." Mom called as the door closed. I whispered back a small yes.
The sick feeling was still stirring in the pit of my stomach. I stared at myself in the large mirror, I didn't look different except for the dreadful panda eyes and I wasn't smiling.
I don't know how long I spent in the shower, all I know is that I got out when a rather angry pixie was threatening to knock down my bathroom door. I dried slowly as I tried to decipher my mood.
I love Jake, and we were going to be together forever.
What the hell wasn't I excited?
I trudged from my bathroom with soaking wet hair to Alice's room. I could hear the sewing machine going downstairs and the chatter and laughter from Alice's room.
"Here's the bride." Claire sang as I walked into the room. Her smile slipped and her glass went down as she ran over to me.
"Nessie, what's up?" she asked and I shrugged.
"To be honest. I have a sick feeling in my stomach and I should be happy." I said frustrated. Mom laughed.
"You get that from me! I didn't want to marry your father." She joked. The others laughed while I glared.
"Well I want to marry Jake!" I hissed and Mom held her hands out.
"It's alright, just nerves. You be fine after eating. Pancakes?" she asked and I shook my head.
"I can't eat." I said rubbing my stomach, the thought of food made me want to hurl.
"Could it be...you know." Claire said pointing to my stomach. There was a smash as the tray Mom was carrying smashed all over the floor.
My eyes widened.
"Are you?" Mom said running over to me, she put her hands on my stomach which I quickly batted away.
"No, I'm frozen now remember! Geez!" I screeched. Mom still didn't look convinced.
"Maybe we should get Carlisle..."she started.
"No way in hell is Grandad looking at me!" I yelled and Alice giggled. I was horrified at the thought.
"Bella, she can't get pregnant. Don't you think I would see her giving birth. Sure I see times when she could get pregnant if she was human but...." Alice said. I shoved my hand over her mouth.
"SHUT IT ALICE!" I warned and she shrugged under my hand.
"What I do?" she choked out from under my hand. Luckily, Esme called from downstairs.
"Alice, it's nearly twelve you need to get Renesmee ready. The dresses are done."
"Where's Kate?" I asked realising I was one bridesmaid down. I started to panic.
"She's meeting Garrett and the others. The other vampires are arriving soon." Alice said. I smiled at the thought of seeing all our old friends.
I was half way through having my hair and make-up done when the door burst open.
"Renesmee, you excited?" Kate beamed sitting next to me. I pulled the dressing gown around me tighter as I noticed Garrett sat beside her.
"How are you Renesmee? Excited?" he asked, there was a sparkle in his eyes and I noticed something else shined. My eyes roamed down to her left hand.
"I forgot you guys weren't married!" I said pulling on Kate's hand. She laughed as I studied the rock.
"It's not bigger than mine." I laughed and then Alice tugged on my hair. "OUCH!"
"Stop bragging." She warned and I pulled a face. Garret laughed and pulled Kate closer.
"At least my partner doesn't smell like a dog." He teased and threw the hairbrush in my hand at him. He caught it half a centimetre away from his face.
"Take that back." I warned and Alice pulled my hair back again.
"She's got a temper hasn't she." I heard a voice call from the door, it hinted of a lost Russian accent and I clucked my teeth.
Tanya.
"Good morning Tanya, but this is for wedding party only and you're not a bridesmaid so you need to leave." I said in a polite voice. Kate scratched her nose and Garrett cleared his throat.
"I was just coming to see the bride." She said in her nasty nasal voice. Alice kicked my heel.
"Thank-you Tanya. I didn't get much sleep last night." I lied feebly adding a fake yawn. I heard the blonde flounce out of the room.
The tension soon lifted.
"Hate to break it to you but you have to leave Uncle G." I laughed and Garrett smiled.
"Why?"
"Because I am about to get dressed." I laughed and he sighed. He kissed Kate and followed Tanya out of the door. I could hear Esme talking to the strawberry blonde downstairs.
I wish I didn't need to invite her.
"Spill." Kate ordered as soon as the door was closed, her jaw was set.
"Nothing." I said defensively, Kate leaned further towards me.
"Tell me Renesmee, what is going on." She dragged out each word, her eyes locked on mine.
"I just didn't get much sleep last night and I feel sick." I said and she leaned back in the chair as Rosalie started her hair.
"Wedding jitters I'm assuming." She muttered and I sighed.
"I know I want to be with Jake but I have a sick feeling in my stomach."
"Maybe you have a sixth sense telling you something is going to go wrong." Kate joked and my face fell.
"Alice?" I choked out and I saw Alice shake her head in the mirror.
"So far I see everything going fine Nessie. Great actually, all on time." She said nodding. I exhaled but my lungs still restricted the air flow entering my body.
"Nessie breathe." Alice said shaking me.
"I'm trying." I protested and Alice made a breathing demonstration.
"It must be your blood sugar levels." Alice said and at that point Mom entered carrying food. She set it down in front of me and as soon as the smell filtered up my nose I forgot about the sick feeling in my stomach and the breathing and scoffed the whole thing down.
"Thought it may of been blood sugar levels." Alice laughed as I licked the plate. When I looked up into the mirror I smiled.
Alice had done a fabulous job.
My bronze ringlets had been curled, then pulled back and delicately hung in place with slides, and clips and other accessories. There was even a sparkle to it.
"Wow." I said standing up and looking at it closer. Alice stood beside me.
"The tiara and veil will go here." She said outlining the front of my hair with her dainty fingers. My eyes glittered from the shimmer dust.
She had done an amazing job.
"Thank you." I said hugging her close. She patted my back then pulled away.
"Go and get fitted into that dress, I need to do Kate's hair now."
I took my empty plate from the room and walked downstairs slowly not to trip and fall. After a successful trip I put the plate into the sink and walked through the living area to Esme's sewing room.
"Renesmee?" A voice asked. I turned around to see Nahuel staring at me. I gave him a small smile.
"I'm so glad you could make it." I said politely and he nodded, he took my hand and kissed it gently.
"Wouldn't miss it for the world." He said cheekily and I laughed. I said a polite goodbye before leaving to complete my journey to Esme. There were a few vampires who smiled and Benjamin waved from across the room.
I closed the door of the room after me and saw Esme taking the dress off the mannequin.
"Hello dear, your hair and make-up looks gorgeous. The boys have just arrived." She said smiling at me. My eyes widened.
"But...but..they can't!" I stuttered out and Esme laughed.
"I've got them busy. There's the garden, transport and other things to organise." She laughed and I smiled running my fingers over the beautiful dress.
"Rose? Bella?" Esme called untying the back of the dress. When I looked to my left Mom was smiling at me, I turned to my other side to see Rosalie was all ready, make-up and hair. She was also dressed in her bridesmaid dress.
I sighed.
"What's wrong?" Rosalie demanded looking at the lilac dress that draped around her body elegantly.
"Is there a point of me even trying to look good with you there?"
"Shut up and get into your dress Renesmee." Rosalie chided and Mom laughed.
I gobbled in deep breaths and focussed on keeping my heart rate down. Each new breath was a challenge.
"Nessie you're shaking." Alice laughed as she handed me my bouquet. It had taken less than five minutes to get the dress on, thanks to vampire speed.
I gave her my best – bust still shaky smile.
"I need my something old, something new, something borrowed and something blue." I said my heart rate accelerating again. I could hear the footsteps of my father coming down the corridor which was a shock considering how loud my heart was.
I took a deep gulp and focused. In a few seconds, my father would arrive to walk me down the aisle...and I wasn't even ready!
"Here's something old and borrowed." Esme offered quietly as she clipped a precious locket around my neck. It hung pretty but I wished it would somehow morph into Jake's necklace.
The one I lost.
"It was mine as a child." Esme continued admiring it.
"It is precious." I said in awe as my fingers ran over the engravement, I pushed the thoughts of my missing necklace into the back of my mind.
"Something blue." Rosalie teased twirling a garter on her finger. "It's not new sorry. It was from my and Emmett's last wedding." I gave a shy smile as the flimsy fabric flew towards my face.
"Thanks Rose."
"Well your dress can't really be classed as new either." Mom sighed standing by the door, Rosalie hitched the garter up my leg as she spoke.
"Huh?" I asked confused, at that moment Dad walked in. My hand ran over the outer skirt. Esme, Alice and the others had created this dress for me. It was custom made of course it's new. I raised my eyebrows towards my Mom and she laughed.
Maybe she was having a mid-immortality crisis or something.
Dad laughed.
"I think you better explain Bella." He whispered into her ear and she nodded.
"It's got bits of all our wedding dresses in." She said rolling her eyes. It was one of Dad's annoying habits that she had picked up. After getting over my initial annoyance shock set in.
"What? Really?" I asked gobsmacked. I ran my hands over the dress again, I loved vintage things and new things but even though this dress wasn't new it held memories and parts of my family that made me feel honoured to wear it actually.
Like a confidence boost in a dress.
"The underskirt and trim is from my dress." Esme mused her hand placing over mine ad tracing patterns.
"The bodice cover and part of the outer skirt came from two different dresses of mine." Rosalie sighed also admiring the dress.
"Everything else came from mine and Alice's dresses." Mom said smiling. Dad nodded as she spoke.
"Renesmee, you look amazing." He said smiling, I knew this day would be hard for him. I'd always be his little girl but I was also Jacobs and as we saw it.
I would belong to a dog.
His eyes flashed as I thought it.
I hated it when Dad saw Jake that way, no not just dad but when anyone who saw my Jacob as a dog. He was a kind and beautiful person, much too nice with a smile that could light up a room...and...and...
I trailed off as Dad cleared his throat.
"Thank you." I replied blushing.
Everything started to move too fast then.
I felt like the room was spinning as lilac dress flew around me and as every chatted and laughed and fixed problems. It held me in a trancelike state, just think about my final moments as a Cullen.
Well, being just a Cullen I mean.
"Esme? Bella?" Jasper's voice called from the other side of the door. I jumped as I was snapped out of my trance.
Mom and Esme gave me awkward hugs, careful not to tear the dress and then tottered out of the room, I could hear mumbled voices from outside. My eyes scanned my bridesmaids but settled on Alice, she looked uncomfortable and my stomach dropped instantly.
"Alice, what is it? What's wrong?" I demanded panicking, I quickly hitched up my dress and paced towards her. I knew something would go wrong, I didn't even have my something new yet!
"Don't worry Renesmee, it just makes her uncomfortable to be blind." Dad laughed and I nodded, my eyes still locked with Alice.
"Hang on! Why is she blind?" I demanded the panic level rising.
"The wolves." Dad pushed again and Alice made a face. My brows furrowed at Dad's answer. Alice could see Jacob, and he was one of the La Push wolves.
"She can see Jake because she's so attuned to him. Just like you." Dad pressed again, highlighting the obvious.
I nodded finally at peace.
Dad walked over to me and took my hand softly as the bridesmaids lined up by the door.
"Nessie, trust us everything will be fine. Just relax and enjoy it." He smiled then kissed my forehead.
"Don't you dare wipe any of her make-up off Edward Cullen!" Alice hissed and her laughed lightly. His lips found my ear as we lined up behind the bridesmaids.
"Your jewellery is new, and so is this new life yo have chosen to lead. You are ready for this."
I looked into his eyes fighting back the tears that started to form in mine.
"I'll always be Renesmee Cullen, Dad. At heart I will always be a Cullen, no matter what name is put on my birth certificate..." I started and he held up his finger for me to stop.
"Nessie I understand but if we do not get a move on you are going to be late to your own wedding."