A/N: This chapter is from Sakura's Point of view
Chapter 3: Courage
"Courage is not living without fear; courage is being scared to death, but doing the right thing anyway."
My parents have always told me that doing the right thing is the most important. And since you popped into my life, spreading death and destruction, I've found that the rule I have taken for granted all my life, is easier said than done.
In a way, I understand your reasoning for killing. It may not seem like it, but I do. You want to get rid of these "evil" people so that they won't hurt anyone else, or do anything else more terrible. But while you say that I need to see "the bigger picture" it's all rather odd. You see, you believe yourself to be a tool, someone who is used to get rid of others, based off what they've done wrong. But you don't realize that the ones you don't get told to kill, but murder anyway, have a specific meaning. You believe that you don't have emotions, you don't feel regret for the murders you commit. But I know that you truly believe that you're doing the right thing. That this is the only way to keep balance. But you're wrong Ogami! You're so very wrong!
I never realized quite how ignorant I was of the goings on in my own city until I met you. I like to see the good in people, and my friends say I trust to easily. This may be the case. But I believe that all people are essentially good. For them to enact evil deeds there must have been a cause. You think the opposite.
While I disagree with your methods, there are many things I do admire about you. You're emotions always surprise me. At school, you keep a Noh mask on your face, letting other students believe what they want because it makes it easier for you. But I love to see you when your guard is down. The way your feelings come out in little bursts is very funny!
I also admire your determination and courage to do the right thing. You will risk your life to complete a mission. You will also protect me, even if we've fought. You may be afraid, but you stand up and defend what you think is right. We may disagree on the way to go about doing this, but the driving focus for both of us is rather similar.
You are the darkness, at least that's how you put it. I don't think you're dark. You're sad, scared, trapped, and lost. But you're not dark. You're just looking for a hand to hold, a way to reach the sunlight. You showed me the more ugly side of humanity, but still you put yourself in harm's way, if it will keep those you care about safe. This is not darkness Rei-kun. It's actually light. You just don't realize it.
I don't know when or how it happened, but all of a sudden, my entire life has become about showing you that you are truly a good person. Nothing else matters; not your past, Eden's politics, the way you fight with Toki. None of it matters.
And I can't bring myself to care.