A/N – Here is a weird chapter for you – it's not a chapter as such, more of a letter to Bella. It's going to be one of the last chapters in this story, so yeah…It should give you your answers to the question you all want to know. Sorry it's not up when I said it would be, I had a bit of bad news at the weekend – this chapter is dedicated to my friend Justin, who died at the age of 17 in a car accident. Sleep tight, buddy. X

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Dear Bella,

I don't want you to hate me. I really never deserved someone as loving, perfect and absolutely adorable as you. Even though you could be a stubborn so-and-so, I loved you with all my heart. I couldn't have done anything without you – you made me realise what life was really about – not living without a purpose, not leading a lonely life, but having love.

If you're reading this now, don't cry. Please don't be upset, and please don't hate me… I never meant to hurt you, ever. I never meant to leave you. It breaks my heart to be even writing this, I'm not myself without you, I can never be myself without you. I know you're happy now, found someone's arms to lie in, my angel.

The funniest thing happened today; I thought I heard your voice. I know you weren't with me today, but I swear, I heard you laughing on the wind. I almost died, angel, I couldn't believe it. Every second of the day I miss your phone calls to me. That's one of the small things I'll never forget – your wonderful voice. The way you moaned at me to stop being a grouch, the way you comforted me through bad times. When you were there on the other end of that line, I swear the world around me could have crashed around my ears, and I wouldn't have noticed.

Where-ever you are now, whoever you're with, I know they're taking care of you. I'm sorry things didn't turn out perfectly, my Bella. Anyway, I'm going to speak to my darling like I should, like the old days.

I met someone today, someone you'll probably hate. Messy brown hair, eyes that you would have adored – so special, a voice that could charm the angel's from the sky, if that were possible. I couldn't stop myself. I wanted to kiss them, they seemed so sad and down, I just wanted them to know it was going to be alright. It still wasn't enough for me. I'm sorry.

Bella, my darling, I made love to them. I am sorry.

It's time for me to tell you how much I love you, and that no-one can ever replace you. You truly are the one person in my life I can honestly say I love. I will miss you every single moment of every day, don't forget that. Please be okay, please be happy and well. The sunshine in my life. The stars in my night. That is what you are to me, Bella.

I love you my darling, sweet, baby Bella.

Mum.

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A/N – Yes, if anyone can figure it out, you'll understand why the baby smells like Bella. 10 points to anyone who can.

The next chapter will be one of the last, for certain. But please read and review this chapter guys…

And if you still don't get it – the baby is Bella's half-brother.

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