I have worked the last few weeks on this chapter, I figured it was time to bring up Peyton's past a little, this chapter will start off what happen and the next one will reveal more, I'm still sorry for the ones who are still confused I don't know what else to say or what to do to help you.. Thank you for reading and sticking with me with this..

Now this is rated M, it's got a M moment between Naley... So you been warned... this chapter is taking a little time jump..Next chapter will be rated m and will be unlike anything I have ever wrote before, I'm working on it now...

Happy Reading

Cindy :)

One Step At A Time

Chapter 8

Peyton was sitting on her bed, doing some reading, when there was a little tap on her bedroom door, "Come in.." she said, without looking up from her book..

"Hi beautiful." Lucas says greeting Peyton who lowers her head and blushes a little, still not quite used to his compliments. The have been dating for six months now, and things were going better than she expected it... She was happy, but was still worried and waiting for something to come between them.

"Hey Luke." She says softly, looking up into his eyes. Leaning forward to kiss him hello.

"Mmm..." He groans as her fingers slip into his hair. "You smell good." He mumbles against her lips.

Giggling she pulls back a little. "Wish I could say the same about you." She said her nose wrinkling a little.

"Are you saying I stink?" he asked in a playful tone,,,

" Just kidding, you know I love the way you smell," she teased, as she pulls him down on her bed beside her..." Did you have a good day?" she asked, as she tossed her book on to the floor, so she could pay full attention to her boyfriend...

" Yeah,but then again everyday I get to see you is a great day..."

" You are so sweet," she said, as she pressing her lips against his, slipping her tongue into his mouth, gently massaging his tongue with her own. Pulling away slowly she grins at him.

" God, I love kissing you.." He whispers, then he presses his lips to hers, taking his time to kiss her, knowing they have all night. Shifting his weight slightly so that one arm supports him and the other is free to explore her body beneath him.

Just feeling his weight pressing her into the mattress beneath her, and knowing that tonight she was going to or at least try to give herself completely too him was too much. Peyton rocked her hips slightly needing to feel him closer, needing to somehow reduce the ache building at her core.

Lucas slowly continues stroking her hip moving his hand lower until he reaches the hem of her nightshirt. His fingers trace over her soft skin reaching her knee he pulls her closer, hooking her leg over him. Sliding his hand up the length of her toned leg and under the material of her shirt, his hand encounters a tiny width of lace on its journey upward. His hips burn a trail along her jaw, and down her neck. His tongue dips in the hollow at the base of her neck and she moans, writhing beneath him.

His fingers tortuously caress the under side of one breast, and she arches her back needing to feel his fingers cupping her. As his mouth follows the line of the material he pulls his hand out from under her shirt and slowly begins unfastening the buttons, worshiping each new inch of exposed skin.

Peyton slips her fingers into his thick hair, guiding him to where she needs to feel his mouth. As he parts the material his lips place butterfly kisses in the valley of her breasts. His free hand cups the weight of her breast and his thumb slowly strokes over the taunt nipple.

Lucas's was over the moon, this is the first time she has ever left him, get this far, without stopping him.

Peyton's was in heaven enjoying what his mouth and his fingers were doing to her nothing had ever felt so good, so right, she wanted this, she needed this, this was turning out to be the prefect moment, but all that changed when he said, " Damn baby your...so sexy..."

Her body frozen at his words, her eyes shut tightly, she starts to punch him and push him..." No!" she yelled, " No...please no..." she begged, as she continues to push him off her..

Lucas was in shock, not understanding what was happening." Peyton.." he said, as he jumps off the bed, so she would stop hitting him. He watches as she continues to swing her fist in the air, she is moving around, like someone had her pinned to the bed, her eyes are closed, " Baby, " He says as he noticed the tears falling..

Her eyes open, and she jumps from her bed, and for a moment she forgets where she is, Lucas just stands there not to sure what to say or what to do...

" I'm sorry, " she whispers a few moments later, as she sits down on her bed, her heart beating a mile a minute.. " I'm so sorry," she cried, as she wrapped her arms around herself, to stop her body from shaking.

Lucas walked over to where she was sitting, " What happen?" He asked, as he reached for her hand..

She looks up at him, tears flowing down her cheeks, " Please don't" she said, in a whisper, not wanting him to touch her, " Lucas..." she started, but decided not to say anything." Nothing...Umm...I'm real tried, so can y...

" Yeah, I'll go.." he told her in a disappointed tone.. " Are you sure your okay?"

" I'm prefect," she told him, knowing he isn't buying it.. She gave him a big smile, which he knew was fake, and she knew he did...

He just nods, " Night Peyton, " he said, before walking out her door, he wanted to kiss her one more time, but was afraid of her reaction,So he figured it was best just to leave, and pray she will be okay.

She threw herself backwards on her bed, mad at herself, " Damn..." she yelled... Not wanting tonight to end that way. She was doing pretty good till he said those words, that took her back to a life she wanted to forget, She rolled up in a ball and cried herself to sleep.

Haley strolled into the shower ducked under the twin rainfall shower heads.

"Mmmmmm that warm water feels soooo good." She reached up wrapped her arms around Nathan's neck and giving him a soft kiss. Her wet body felt sensational. "I need to spend some time relaxing with my guy, after the sucky day I had." She picked up the bottle of body wash and squirted a big splotch in her hand. Haley worked the blob into a thick lather and said "turn around babe."

Nathan relaxed and leaned against the shower wall as she went to work on his back and shoulder muscles. It didn't take her long to transition from a hand massage to a full body massage, working her perky boobs across the small of his back. while working the kinks out of his shoulders and neck. Without warning she reached around and grabbed his cock and began to give him a slow soapy hand job.

"Baby, that's incredible, I don't know if I can stand that long." Haley giggled as she continued to slowly but forcefully stroke him. Nathan was getting hornier by the second. He took some of the lather in his hand and reached behind him, catching Haley between her legs. She squealed in happy surprise and then moaned through clenched teeth as the initial wave of pleasure washed over her. Haley let go of Nathan's cock, wrapped one arm around his waist and braced herself with the other against the wall of the shower.

Nathan bent down to her, moved some wet hair out of her eyes and said, "Hold tight around my neck." Haley did as instructed and held on as He reached down under her legs, lifted her up and pinned her hard against the shower wall. He had her legs spread wide and the bend of her knees hooked over the bend of my elbows. They paused for a moment, kissing passionately, just to make sure they both had a hold of the other securely. "You good?" Nathan asked.

"Oh hell yeah!" she said while slowly, sexily licking her lips. "Come on Nathan, fuck me!" In one quick motion, Nathan buried his cock, balls deep into her slick, wet pussy. Haley gasped as her clit slammed into his pubic bone. Nathan was slamming into her as deep as he could with each stroke. She had her face buried in his neck and was sucking on his neck and kissing intensely as their passions rose.

After several minutes Haley slowly straitened up and began to lean back. "Mmm, Baby..." was all the noise she was making with each thrust into her. She became more frantic as Nathan continued to pump her. "Babe, yes" "Yes, baby yes" "Ohmygodyes! She pleaded.

. All at once she closed her eyes and opened her mouth in a silent scream. Haley came with every muscle in her body. There were simultaneous crushing sensations around his cock. Haley involuntarily slammed her body against Nathan's, locking her legs around his waist and let out with a scream of mixed pain and pleasure, stifling it by biting his shoulder hard. Nathan came inside her after only a couple of more thrusts.

Haley was trembling and whimpering. She opened her eyes and looked at Nathan, huge grin spread across her face. "Oh my god babe!" "Oh…My…GOD!" She was laughing and trying to talk at the same time. "I have never….felt anything like that, that good, not even fucking close!" She leaned in and gave him a long hard kiss.

Yep Life for Nathan Sawyer was for sure looking up, thanks to the new woman in his life... everything was coming together, he felt like he could tell her anything, he didn't want to keep anything from her..He know she is the one for him, there's no doubt in his mind, she was going to be his wife one day.

A few moments later, they were laying in his bed." Baby.." he whispered, as he pulled her naked body to him tightly.

"Mmm." Haley said, half asleep...

" I think it's time I tell you about the night I got arrested, why I took the blame for Peyton, and what happen to Peyton..."

Peyton was in the kitchen the next morning, going through her recipes book, " Morning Hale's" she said, when she noticed her friend walking into the room.

"Morning.." Haley said, not looking up at her,

Peyton eyed her for a moment, " Haley is everything okay?" she asked, concern with the way she was acting. Haley was always cheerful in the morning, especially after a night of sex with Nathan. Which Peyton knows they had sex, she heard them in her room.

Haley shook her head, " No everything is good," she said as she walked to the coffee pot..She nervously poured herself a cup of coffee, and silently kicked herself for not being able to pretend like she was okay, like she didn't know anything, she promised Nathan, that she wouldn't say anything to Peyton. She actually thought she would be okay with it, but it was eating her alive, to know the hell Peyton has been through, all she wanted to do was throw her arms around her and hug her tightly, and promise her that nothing like that would never happen again..." I'm sorry." she blurted out as Peyton grabbed her orange juice off the table.

"Sorry about what?" She asked confusedly..

Haley looked up at her, " About everything." she whispered,

Peyton raised her eye brow, " Haley you are talking crazy, did something happen between you and Nate?" she asked, as she stepped towards her friend who was crying.

Haley shook her head, giving Peyton a sympathetically smile, and look... " Oh My God!" Peyton said, as she took a step back.." You know?" she asked in a horrified tone. Like she could read it on her face.

" I do.." she whispered, as she try to grab Peyton's hand..

" No,no..." she said, as she started to cry, " Nathan told you...Why?"

" Peyton, he wanted to be honest with me, and he wanted us to have no secrets, and I...

"Stop!" Peyton yelled, " as she walked back wards " I can't believe him,, he promised, he promised..." she screamed as she continued to walk,

Haley sat down as Peyton left the kitchen, knowing that she was going to wake Nathan up,... She promised not to say anything, but after hearing what Peyton had been through Haley's heart broke for her, she just wanted to be there for her..

Peyton walked into Nathan's room, he was still asleep, she threw her glass of orange against the wall, the loud bang, made Nathan jump... "What the hell?" he yelled,

"You bastard!" She screamed...

Nathan grabbed his shorts, " What the hell is your problem?" he asked, as he sipped on his shorts.

" I can't believe you.."

" What?"

" I trusted you, you promised me, you said, that it was our secret, and we were going to take it to the grave, no one was supposed to know, anything, And you told her everything,,, How dare you.."

Nathan was wide awake now and fully aware of what she was talking about, " Peyt,"

She put her hand up, " Don't fucking Pety me..." she said, as she walked over to him... " I hate you," she said, as she slapped him hard across the face... "You promised, you broke your fucking promise..."

Nathan touched his cheek, shocked that she did it, they have never gotten into a fight before, yes they had disagreements, but never really fought.. " She told you," he said, clearly upset with Haley for breaking her promise...to him, even though he knew, he had no right. Cause he to, broke his promise. I promise he's kept for ten years."

"Yep, which means she's probably on her way to tell Luke right now..." she cried, as she thought about Luke, and what he would think of her..

" No she won't, Peyton...I am so so

"Don't say sorry," She cut him off." or that you had to. I don't want to hear it... I just want to know why Nathan Why?"

He walked over to her, resting his hands on her hips, " I'm sorry, I wanted to be honest with her, I love her and I wanted us to have no secrets, she told me everything about her past, and I think it was just fair to tell her, Peyton, she isn't Brooke, she's isn't going to look at you any differently, she told me so.."

She shook her head, " Oh really, then why wouldn't she look at me just now? She was looking at me with those damn sympathetically eyes, I don't want people looking at me like that Nathan, I want to leave the past in the past, and just be happy, now I can kiss my happiness away.. Thanks to you." she said, bitterly.

" Peyton," Haley said, as she walked into the room," I didn't mean to acted that way, I was just shocked, and I felt so bad for what happen to you, to both of you, "

"We don't need you to feel bad for us.." Peyton said angrily

" I know, I felt guilty, "

Peyton looked at her, "Why? you didn't do?"

" For last week, when I kept telling you, that Luke was in need of a good laid, and I was asking you if you was ever going to sleep with my brother, I was joking around. I thought you was just scared, or that you was a virgin and didn't want us to know, If I had know what had happen to you, I would have never made jokes about your sex life.."

Peyton exhaled loudly, " I get it, I do, but I don't want to be treated differently, I like that we joke around, and you treat me like I'm just another normal girl who had a normal girl life... I like are friendship, and how happy you make my brother, I don't want to lose you,"

Haley pulled her into a hug, " Peyton you aren't going to lose me, I ain't going no where.."

"You promise?"

" I promise," she said, as she pulled back, " I love our friendship to, and " She looked at Nathan.. " I love your brother, so I plan on sticking around as long as Nathan wants me, but even if he gets tired of me, It won't changes our friendship."

" Good, I don't want you looking at me different either, I want my past to stay in the past, I want to live in for now, look forward to a bright, happy future, I don't want to be haunted by my past anymore.."

" I get it, I won't look at you different, and I won't bring up the past anymore..I just want you to know, that I am here for you, we are friends, and nothing is going to change that." Haley pulled her into a hug, both girls crying uncontrollable..

Nathan hugged both girls, then sighed, knowing she wasn't going to like what he's about to say" Peyton, I think it's time you let Lucas in.."

" oh No!" she said, as she pulled away from both of them shaking her head, " I can't do that, I won't do that.."

" Peyton, you love him, and he...

" No I don't, we aren't in love we are having fun.." she protested. "So there is no real reason for him to know.." She knew that they were right, she was feeling things for him, she has never felt before, she's never been in love, so she really doesn't know what it feels like, but she has a pretty good feeling what she's feeling could be love, and deep down she wanted it to be.

" Peyton, I see the way you two look at each other, he is in love with you, he might not have said the words yet, but it's coming soon..."

She ran her fingers through her hair, " To be in love you must have three things.." Haley told her, Peyton just looked at her." One trusted..two respect, and three honest..."

Peyton looked down at the floor, " I trusted Lucas, and I respected him, and..." she trailed off, honest, well she can honestly say he is honest with her, he has told her everything about his past, his dreams, his wants, so maybe it's only fair to be honest back with him..But could he really handled her past? That was the big question.

"Lucas trusts you, he respects you, and he is crazy about you, he will understand, he won't walk away from you Peyton, he would want to be there for you, he wants you to let him in all the way..." Haley told her, as she recalled a recent talk with her brother.

Nathan knew she wasn't ready, and still scared, " He is going to want sex Peyton." he told her flat-out. Knowing he had to be real with her, he needed her to understand how important it was to be honest with Luke.

Peyton's head snapped up.. " No...your wrong, we talked, he said, he was fine with waiting till I was ready..."

" I know he is telling you now, he can wait till your ready, and he probably means that, how long you going to make him wait." she didn't answer him.. " A year, two years, three years four...

" I don't know " she yelled wanting him to shut up...

" He's a guy Peyton he's going to want to have sex with his girlfriend, he is probably taking tons of cold showers now, because you get him excited just by kissing him..." Nathan told her..

Her eyes widen, she never really thought about that, " I don't want to lose him..." she said, as she looked over at Nathan, " I want to sleep with him, I want to give myself to him, I do, but every time I try, Something reminds me of those guys and what the..." she tailed off...not able to finish her sentence

Haley pulled her into a hug, "ssh..." she said, as Peyton cried. " I know it's hard, but Peyton if you do care about Lucas, he deserves to know, why you can't sleep with him, or why you guys have dated for six months, and you can't or won't let him spend the night, or stay at his house, he's confused, but scared to ask,... Talk to him," she pulled back locking eyes with her.. " I can promise he isn't going anywhere, "

Peyton nodded, as she thought about what they both said, knowing they were right, " But..." she started, but stopped, knowing there was no sense in debating with them, it's two against one.. " I try, that's all I can promise."

Haley smile, " That's all we are asking...Honey, you don't have to even tell him it all.. Break it down, tell him bits and pieces.. "

She nodded again, as she thought about how and when she should say something, she knew he deserved the truth, especially after last night.. " I'll start tonight, " she them, as she thought about what part she was going to start with..