I waited in the car for him. It had been two days and he hardly even spoke to me. I didn't know what to do. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything to him but I couldn't keep this from him. He would eventually find out.
We were at the cemetery and I was giving him time. He needed some space. This was a lot to take in for him, it was a lot to take in for anyone. I still remember his face when I told him. His face was turned away from me. His green eyes were full of pain. This was the girl he was going to spend the rest of his life with. This was the girl that he loved before me. I knew that we would get through this... Maybe. I wasn't too sure anymore with everything that has happened.
It had been quite a while and it was getting dark now. I was about to get out of the car when I saw him walking towards me. I could tell that he had been crying. He got into the car and didn't quite look at me.
"Thank you." He said quietly.
I touched his hand and saw him flinch a little. I took my hand away and started driving back home.
I tried to make small conversations with him but he just didn't seem like he wanted to talk. So we kept quiet as we ate. I told myself that he was going through a tough time and I didn't want to push him. I knew this wasn't going to be easy for the both of us but I didn't know that it would be this hard. I really wanted the old him or some part of him but he just seemed to be shutting me out. What was I supposed to do?
I heard the doorbell ring.
"I'll get it." I said getting up instantly. I was hoping that it was Bonnie or Caroline. I opened the door and sighed. "What are you doing here?" I asked him.
"I just wanted to see my brother." He said with a smile. Damon and me both didn't like the other very much. He had visited everyday since Stefan came back from the hospital. I gritted my teeth but didn't say anything.
"I don't think today is such a good idea. He's not in a very talkative mood." I said to him.
"Not in a talkative mood? Or not in a talkative mood to you?" He said. Ouch. That was like a slap in the face.
"Fine, come in." I said letting a little acid seep into my sentence. "Don't say I didn't warn you." I told him and he walked passed me. Ass! I thought to myself.
I had left them to talk in the living room while I washed the dishes. He didn't seem to be in a happier mood from what I could tell but he did talk a bit more.
After I had cleaned up, I walked to the living room. I could see Stefan smiling and I could tell that smile from anywhere. It wasn't his usual smile, it was a polite smile like he didn't want to smile at all but he was being nice.
"Hey guys, I think I might just sleep a bit. I have work tomorrow anyway and I'll give you guys some time to talk," I said with a small smile. "Good night."
"Night Elena." He said with a smile.
"Good night." Damon said to me.
With that I had left the two brothers talking.
I don't know how many times I had woken up in the night. I was so tire though. It felt like I had no energy left. I heard the TV on in the living room. I turned to look at my clock. It was 3 in the morning. I groaned. I remember when Stefan used to do this all the time. He would not be able to sleep so he would watch horror movies and scary tv shows which would make him not be able to sleep even more. So he would wake me up in the middle of the night with a kiss.
"Stefan?" I asked into the darkness. I stuck close to the furniture hoping to not trip over anything.
"Just in here." I heard coming from the living room. I followed the sound of the TV and saw him on the couch. I tried not to look at the TV hoping that he wasn't watching any horror movies.
"What are you watching?" I asked him as I sat down next to him.
"Um... It's one of those home movies you have in the box. It's the one at Lexi's wedding." He said. "I don't even remember my own best friends wedding..." He added quietly.
"It will come back to you." I said looking at him.
He took his eyes away from the screen and looked at me. "Everyone keeps saying that but I can't! It's like the last few years are shut away in a box and I just can't seem to find the key to opening it! I want to remember. I keep trying and trying. You don't know how desperately I want to remember. I want to remember what happened with Damon and me to not talk for years. Or my life with you!" He said frustratedly putting his hands through his hair.
"Stefan, Stefan?" I said to him, "look at me." His green eyes met mine. "I know it's hard. I know that it is frustrating. I understand but you will remember. You just have to believe." I said to him.
He looked down. "And what if I do remember and I don't like the person I was?" He said so quietly that I almost couldn't hear him.
I took his hands in mine and this time he didn't flinch. "You will. Everyone loves you even people that meet you for only 5 minutes loves you." I said to him with a smile. "You are the most kind hearted, loving, caring, amazing guys who would do anything for anyone. The guy I knew loved pizza like crazy and loved singing so loudly in the showers that the neighbours could here you. And from what you told me and what lexi told me about you, your still the same person as before I met you."
"I still sing loudly in the showers?" He said with amusement. "Would you still love me even if I don't remember?" He said turning serious.
I paused for a moment. "Of course I would. I could never imagine my life without you or a me where I don't love you." I said with a smile. He moved closer towards me, his eyes staring straight into mine. We were so close now. I could feel his bare skin against mine.
We sat and watched the rest of the movie. We laughed at the part where I drunkenly stole the microphone from the bad and tried to rap. It was good day. It was the day when I knew that I would spend the rest of my life with him.
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