(HQ – Morning)
Morning came slowly at first, the shy sunrays came thought the window to land on Dean's foot on the floor. He was fast asleep on the couch, Castiel wasn't there anymore, Dean smiled softly as opening his eyes;
Cas? – Whispered Dean – Cas? – Continued him, then he stopped, he knew Castiel wasn't there, but he wanted to hear his voice again "When did I become addicted to Cas's voice?" Thought Dean shaking his head and rubbing his eyes before standing up, he felt strange, almost at piece.
Dean walked to his room and let himself lay on the bed, his face against the pillow. Was he having that kind of feelings towards Castiel? Did he want to kiss him like in the dream he had? He stood there for a minute listening to his heartbeats, every time he thought of Castiel's smile it would speed up… Dean smiled, a little confuse, did he wanted Cas?
(HQ – Library)
Sam was already up and reading the note book with a bowl of cereal in the other hand, He didn't find nothing really important, it seemed like a personal diary of a guy that actually was a angel, but usually fallen angels don't remember their former self's – just like Anna – Thought Sam.
He finished his bowl of cereal and walked thought the deposit to find Castiel sitting on a chair in the dark, Sam turned the lights on surprised
Cas?! – Said he coming close – Are you ok?
No, Sam, I'm not ok! – The angel trying to stand up, he was really drunk
Cas are you drunk again? – Asked Sam helping Cas stand up straight
This question is really stupid Sam – Said Cas with a drunken smile
Hun, why did you drink that much? – Said Sam helping him to sit
Its helps me sleep better – Said Castiel laughing, Sam was really confuse
I thought angels don't sleep – Continued Sam sitting in a table close to him
Shhh – Said Cas putting one finger in his lips – Don't tell anyone that, or else I just drank that much to relax… And we can't have that.
Sam smiled while Castiel passed out with a smile on his face; He carried Castiel to the guest's room and placed him on the bed watching him sleep, what was strange, thought Sam, is he losing his powers again? Sam shook his head and left the room so he could keep searching for something to help Castiel.
(HQ –Dean's Bedroom)
Dean tossed and turned in his bed, he wanted to sleep a little more, but he couldn't. He stood up and walked to Sam's room, he wasn't there, Dean needed to talk with someone, he felt like calling Cas, but it would make things worse because now Dean wanted to kiss him.
Dean walked towards the guest's room to look for his magazines hidden there, on the door he saw Castiel on the bed sleeping apparently, Dean's eyes grow wide, he wanted to touch him, but kept control of himself.
Slowly and steady he walked pass Castiel and opened the nightstand
Dean – moaned Castiel on his sleep, Dean couldn't help, but looking at Castiel's face he seemed pretty happy – Dean, I'll stay here.
I know you will buddy – Whispered Dean while looking at Castiel's smile – I'll be here too for you.
Castiel smiled again turning to sleep on his back, his face up to the roof, his arms opened and softly curved upward, his legs lazily loose on the mattress, and he had his shoes on.
Dean came close to him and softly took Castiel's shoes off then left it close to the nightstand, he knew how his feet would hurt if he slept with shoes on, and how his neck would hurt with the tie there, Dean putted his hand on Castiel neck without waking him up and slowly began to untie his tie.
Castiel arm moved and his hand grabbed Dean's arm with an instinctive reaction, Dean flushed red on his face, the angel grabbed his other hand tight while Dean tried to set his hand free.
Dean cursed in his mind while getting himself on top of Castiel trying to set his hands free without waking him, suddenly Castiel pulled Dean close to his face, Dean tried to get away, but something into him felt right, Dean held Castiel neck slightly locking Castiel's nose against his.
Castiel opened his eyes and realized his proximity – Dean…? – Said the angel on the bottom of Dean's body, he blushed confused – What is happening?
Dean blushed too, but his hands and nose pressed against Castiel's face stood there, Dean felt paralyzed, how he was supposed to explain it to Castiel? Castiel looked at Dean's eyes again, but this time the silence was replaced by Castiel's hand on Dean's chest almost trying to get some space between then, Dean's lips opened slightly and slid to Castiel neck making him moan weakly and low.
Dean? – Asked Castiel again, foreign to what Dean was doing and what he was feeling – Stop!
Dean pulled his lips back and grabbed Castiel by his tie almost undone, pulling him face to face to the angel once more, he whispered
Cas, please, don't make me beg – Castiel face's was converted in a surprised expression, his eyes were filled with the same surprise as his face
Dean, I don't understand – Whispered Castiel confuse
Cas, Just tell me if you feel the same as me – Said Dean now breathing softly on Castiel face, their noses touching slightly again
Dean, I don't understand, what is that? – Asked Castiel with a smile on his face
It's emotional stuff, Cas – Said Dean resting his nose on Castiel neck, sniffing it, it's smelled booze, Dean knew Cas was drinking again, he thought why is that.
I don't know what I feel… I feel good with you, and I feel… Like I have a home again – Said Castiel while his hand slid towards Dean's ribs grabbing it slightly – What's it that I feel, Dean?
Dean smiled, Castiel maybe felt the same, but he was an angel, how he was supposed to feel love when he was created to not know it? Dean rested his forehead on Castiel's chin caressing his short facial hairs, and smiled again his green eyes turned to Castiel's blue pacific eyes.
I don't know Cas… You must find out for yourself… That's the fun of it – Said Dean taking his arms away from Castiel with a sad smile; he now knew the meaning of Castiel's sad smile, but before Dean could go away Castiel grabbed Dean's shoulder with his right hand
Don't go – Said Castiel, Dean could feel fear and concern in his voice – I don't want to be alone, Dean… Please.
Cas – Said Dean pressing his lips on Castiel's lips and lying on his chest after – I'll stay, buddy… I got you Cas.
Castiel smiled a little confuse he didn't knew what he was feeling, even so he closed his eyes and slept while Dean held him in his arms, it's felt safe in Dean's arms, safer that he ever was… A thought went to his mind, "Was it what love felt like?"