Hard on the Heart
We grabbed our food and ate in the living room. Me and Jake sat on the floor and ate our bowls of spaghetti. Mom, Dad, Uncle Jasper and Aunt Rose were sitting around watching TV as well. All of a sudden breaking news interrupted the movie we were watching. There was a brutal murder of a 20 year old female from Seattle, she was missing for months and they found her body. She was beaten and raped and found in the dumpster in some alley near some jazz club. I dropped my fork and thought about Aunt Rose. I glanced at Jacob who looked at me worried.
"Ness, what's wrong?" Uncle Jasper said looking at me. Obviously he felt my panic and sadness.
"Oh shit", I said in my head and I closed my eyes. I forgot my dad could hear my thoughts and I looked at him and his eyebrows were raised.
"What happened?" he asked. All eyes were on me. He just called me out in front of everyone. "Please don't I'll tell you later"….I said pleading. I got up and so did Jacob putting our bowls on the coffee table.
"No, tell us now". Everyone was in the room now, standing next to their mates. I looked down, ashamed of myself.
"Now Reneesme?" my dad said impatiently.
"I…..I….I found Aunt Rosalie's diary and we read what happened to her", I said closing my eyes, feeling the disappointment in the room. I looked at my dad who looked at my Aunt Rose.
"Why…..How…." she said looking at me with such hurt and betrayal in her eyes. Tears started to roll down my cheeks.
"I'm so sorry, it's just when I saw you that night, I couldn't get it out of my head. I tried to ask everyone but no one was telling me anything so I felt like it was the only thing to do.", I said pausing after each of the last words, trying to justify what I did.
Her eyes turned into fury and she looked at me for the first time, in a not so loving way. She turned around and went outside. Uncle Emmett shook his head with hurt in his eyes as well, and went after her. Uncle Jasper and Aunt Alice looked at me with disappointment and left the room too. Grandma gave me a faint smile and left to the kitchen. The only ones left in the room was me, Jacob and my parents. Mom spoke first.
"Reneesme" she said in a how could you tone. I couldn't be there any longer; I ran to the cottage and slammed the door in my room plopping down on my bed. I broke down crying and thinking about how everyone looked at me. I wanted to be left alone; I don't know how I could ever face Aunt Rosalie again. I heard a knock on my door.
"Go away!" I said with anger.
"Reneesme, we need to talk to you", mom said.
"Please go away, I can't stand to look at you two right now", I said sadly through my tears. They opened the door slowly and sat down.
"Reneesme, we didn't come in here to yell at you, what you did was very wrong and this is your punishment. Did you get the answers you wanted? Dad asked gently. I wiped my tears and looked at him with anger.
"Yeah and more, you treated her awful! How could you be so insensitive, did you even care about what happened to her? Did it ever to occur to you that she can't help who she is because she didn't have a chance to learn how to change? Did you?" I said now yelling and standing up.
He looked at me appalled at my reaction which he probably thought was more of an overreaction. It probably was a little over dramatic, but I did wonder if he ever really understood who Aunt Rosalie was with mind reading aside. To see her for once, how we all see her because she gets along great with everyone else. Well, except for Jacob and the pack but that's understandable.
"Reneesme, I know your Aunt Rose more than anybody. We do fight and have our differences, but she is my sister, I love her. I've never doubt that, I might not have liked it at times, but of course I care. If it wasn't for her, you wouldn't be here right now." He said grabbing my hand and pulling me down to sit. I cried some more hugging my dad now.
"I know, I know, that's why I feel so horrible. She would do anything for me and she loves me more than I thought. I betrayed her! She won't ever trust me again!" I said crying uncontrollably. Mom was next to us rubbing my back.
"Reneesme, she loves you and of course she'll forgive you. Give her time; we all thought you would never find out so it's just shocking to all of us. We never saw this day coming, we didn't see why it had to" she said calmly. I sniffled and wiped my tears. I looked at my dad.
"I'm sorry for yelling and for everything else, can you tell me when she's forgiven me or any heads up on her?" I asked. He smiled and kissed my forehead. "Yes, I can do that".
They left my room and I sat there wondering what to do next.