Author Note: Ok so this is from the last chapter just in other POV's. Sorry for the wait, I was having a writer's block and to be honest I'm still having one. I'm doing my best though. As usual reviews are appreciated but not necessary.
Rose POV
It had been two weeks since the incident, and I hadn't said anything to Reneesme. To be honest, I felt every emotion go through me and I couldn't bring myself to even look at her. The betrayal, the anger, the hurt but most importantly our bond had been cracked and the trust was no longer there. Emmett was there for comfort, and I know this was very hard for him too. I told him last night that it was okay if he wants to talk with her. This wasn't really his battle. He corrected me with that and said it was our battle. My Emmett, loyalty should be his middle name. I had gone for a walk by the beach and when I came home, I was heading towards the stairs when Edward stopped me.
"Rose, this is absurd, talk to Reneesme," he demanded.
I glared at him.
"No.", I said sternly making my way to the stairs.
"Gosh, I swear Rosalie, she's more mature than you are", Edward said. I turned around to face him.
"You of all people know how I am when someone betrays me, but this…..her……I never thought it would be her so get the hell off my back", I said angrily.
"All we are telling you Rosalie is to just talk to her. She's not eating or sleeping. She feels beyond terrible", Bella said calmly.
"I will talk to her when I am ready", I said icily.
"Look, all we have is time anyway, so Rose will talk to her when she is ready, everyone just back off", Emmett said in his deep protective voice.
"Look my child hasn't been herself in two weeks, how much longer will you do this to her Rosalie!" Edward shouted angrily.
"Well, she is your child, you'll figure it out", I said coldly, prolonging on the your child part. Figures he would throw that fact out.
"You guys, please with the emotions, Jasper can't even be in the same room with any of you", Alice said in a stern tone.
"Well if Edward and Bella would quit pushing me…" I said
"We are not pushing you" Edward said
Reneesme ran downstairs.
"Everyone shut up!" she screamed so loudly. Everyone stopped bickering and looked at her, I looked the other direction. I started for the stairs for the third time, when something pulled me back.
'Don't go, look at me", she said I was much stronger than she was and I pushed my arm out of her grip quickly. Jasper ran to guard the stairs. He was trying to calm the room, but I rejected it.
"Move Jasper", I said irritated. He shook his head and looked down. I turned to Emmett, knowing he would remove him.
"Move him please".
Emmett looked down and shook his head. "I'm sorry Rose, but maybe you should just talk to her now". I looked at him, once again betrayed by the other person I loved most. I knew he would give in with the others.
"Humph, I was wondering how long you would last to follow everyone else, as usual it's me on my own side", I said sarcastically.
"Come on Rose, quit playing the victim", Edward said annoyed.
"That is what I am, right Reneesme? That's what you got from reading my diary…poor Aunt Rosalie raped, beaten and left for dead. The curse of beauty, the tragedy in the fairytale", I was walking human pace closer to Reneesme, she look scared and I knew everyone was ready to pounce on me.
"You guys relax, she isn't going to hurt to me", she said looking at all of them. She knew it was true.
"Jasper move, let Rose get by", Alice said. She knew what I was about to do. Jasper moved and I flew upstairs to my room and grabbed the diary. I was back in 30 seconds. I came down the stairs and threw the diary at Reneesme. She caught it and looked at me confused. It wasn't meaningful anymore, it had no more use. It wasn't my diary anymore. That private place doesn't exist anymore.
"Everything you want and need to know about me is in it………feel free to show everyone since I know the dog knows anyway", I said emotionless climbing back up the stairs to my room. I felt so empty. Emmett knew to leave me alone when I'm like this. I had to get out of here. I opened the window to my room, and jumped on the tree next to it. I climbed down, and ran towards the forest.
There was Everest Peak, the prettiest spot I found in the forest. A huge waterfall and nothing but green scenery around me. I sat and once again sobbed. I thought about everything. Who I am, who I was. If I've changed any since. I thought about how I did everything right, I obeyed every rule, and still my life ended cruelly. When I was turned, I could have easily fed on human blood, but I didn't. I obeyed all rules, with the exception of my revenge but even that I didn't drink their blood. When Bella needed my help when she found out she was pregnant, I still did the right thing even if the intent was wrong. I could have been spiteful and said no but I didn't, I knew she got who I was and that's why I helped her. I did accept her as a sister eventually and that was the right thing to do. I did save Emmett from a bear when I could have killed him myself, once again the intent was wrong but the fact is I couldn't let him die like that. It's funny, even though I'm dead; I'm still doing the right thing. And to be honest, I'm sick of it. The whole diary thing was just the tip of the iceberg, everything had been building and building and this just sent me over the edge. I had finally came to a realization that Carlisle was wrong. If there was anything that I am, it is a waste. Emmett, the best person I know in this world. His heart is bigger than him, and he deserves someone who is better than me. Who will put him first and wouldn't trade anything to be without him. Carlisle and Esme deserve a daughter who doesn't walk around moping about her life. Edward, Bella, Alice, Jasper, they deserve a better sister who isn't so vain and self absorbing. Who's actually fun to be around. Reneesme deserves a better Aunt, a better godmother, someone who she can always go to no matter what, she deserves that special bond. I sat looking at the waterfall, knowing what I was going to do. Leaving the family just seemed to be the best solution. I'm pretty sure they'll get over it after a few months. I would never blame them for moving on. I can no longer be happy here, and being unhappy here only brings them down too. I don't want to give them up, but I know it's for the best. I noticed it was now dark, I have no idea how long I've been out here. I started to head for home, where I would spend my last night as a Cullen.
I came in through the back door. I saw Esme and Alice sitting at the dining room table. I glanced at the grandfather clock in the corner, it was 2:15 AM. They were staring at me, with worried faces. I smiled faintly, and they returned the smile. Alice stood up.
" Oh Rose!", she said gleefully. Esme got up and hugged me as well. I had to pretend everything was better, I didn't want Alice to see my future. I knew she would, but I had to block her somehow. She could never know my next move.
Jasper and Carlisle made their way to me and hugged me rather tightly. It only made my decision hurt worse. I faked a smile.
"I'm going to find Emmett", I said releasing Carlisle's hug. I went upstairs to our room, where he was standing near the window, the spot I usually stand in. He turned around with a huge smile on his face. The moon was beaming on him, and all I could think of is how hard our last night will be. I walked towards him human pace, hugged him as tightly as I could. He hugged back and released.
"Rose, I'm glad I can't breathe, you would of cut my air supply", he said jokingly. I smiled.
" I missed you", I said hugging him again. I'm going to miss you so much. Is what I thought.
I pulled him on the bed and he held me for a long time. We just laid in silence, I had no idea what he was thinking where as I, was thinking of how to say goodbye. I turned to face him and kissed him passionately. That night we made love, and for the second time out of all the times we have, I sobbed.
"Rose?", Emmett asked concerned. He was on top of me, his hand brushing my cheek. I looked at him, words could not even escape my mouth. He smiled at me and lied beside me as I moved my head against his chest.
"I'm glad you let it all go", he said. I was completely confused.
" What do you mean"? I asked.
" Well, the first time you cried was our first time, and now this was the second time. This does mean you have let it all go, and your moving on from it right? He asked. I contained myself and looked up to him dead in the eye.
" Yes, I'm moving on", I said as I gave him one of my last smiles. I flipped around so he couldn't see my face, as he grabbed my waist. I was crying in the inside, with the thought of this being our last time.
Em POV
For two weeks, I couldn't be around my niece. It killed me, but then again, I was just as pissed off as Rose. Somehow I always thought she was getting better in forgetting about her past but deep down, I think I was only fooling myself. Not that I blame her, I mean who wouldn't forget that. I know the real Rosalie and I would move mountains for her. Well, I tried once but all I did was create a huge crack on Mount Everest. But if I could, I would. Edward was trying to get me to talk to Reneesme, but I couldn't. Rose has been betrayed her whole life, and she did have a good excuse to ignore Reneesme. I'm sorry but no one hurts my Rose. Reneesme is old enough to know right from wrong, and she had a serious lack in judgment. I was talking to Jasper when I sensed Rosalie coming through the door. She was on her way up to our room, when Edward stopped her.
"Rose, this is absurd, talk to Reneesme," he demanded.
I started to walk towards them with Jasper following me.
"No.", she said stubbornly
"Gosh, I swear Rosalie, she's more mature than you are", Edward said. She turned around to face him.
"You of all people know how I am when someone betrays me, but this…..her……I never thought it would be her so get the hell off my back", she said with such hurt.
"All we are telling you Rosalie is to just talk to her. She's not eating or sleeping. She feels beyond terrible", Bella said calmly.
"I will talk to her when I am ready", she said icily. I intervened.
"Look, all we have is time anyway, so Rose will talk to her when she is ready, everyone just back off", I said in a demanding way
"Look my child hasn't been herself in two weeks, how much longer will you do this to her Rosalie!" Edward shouted angrily.
"Well, she is your child, you'll figure it out", she said bitterly, emphasizing on the your child part.
Did you really have to say your child, always throwing it in her face I said mentally, shaking my head. Edward glared at me.
"You guys, please with the emotions, Jasper can't even be in the same room with any of you", Alice said in a stern tone.
"Well if Edward and Bella would quit pushing me…" Rosalie said
"We are not pushing you" Edward said
Reneesme ran downstairs.
"Everyone shut up!" she screamed so loudly. Everyone stopped bickering and looked at her, I looked at Rose, who wouldn't look at Reneesme. She started for the stairs when Reneesme, bravely grabbed her by the arm.
'Don't go, look at me", Reneesme said Rose paused for about a second and got out of her grip quickly. Jasper ran to guard the stairs. He was trying to calm the room, and I let him but I could see Rose didn't.
"Move Jasper", Rose said irritated. He shook his head and looked down. She turned to me, with helping eyes.
"Move him please".
As much as I would have, I knew it was either now or never. I looked down and shook my head. "I'm sorry Rose, but maybe you should just talk to her now". I dared to look up, and she looked at me with betrayal in her eyes. Her eyes turned cold and hurt filled them.
"Humph, I was wondering how long you would last to follow everyone else, as usual it's me on my own side", she said sarcastically. I felt horrible.
"Come on Rose, quit playing the victim", Edward said annoyed.
"That is what I am, right Reneesme? That's what you got from reading my diary…poor Aunt Rosalie raped, beaten and left for dead. The curse of beauty, the tragedy in the fairytale", she was slowly moving towards Reneesme, and Reneesme looked scared. Everyone was ready to pounce on Rose, I was ready to pounce on them. I would always have Rose's back.
"You guys relax, she isn't going to hurt to me", Reneesme said looking at all of us. We all knew Rosalie would never hurt Reneesme.
"Jasper move, let Rose get by", Alice said. She knew what Rose was about to do. Jasper moved and Rose flew upstairs to what I guess our room . She was back in 30 seconds. She came down the stairs and threw the diary at Reneesme. She caught it and looked at Rosalie confused.
"Everything you want and need to know about me is in it………feel free to show everyone since I know the dog knows anyway", Rose said emotionless climbing back up the stairs to our room.
I looked at Reneesme, and she looked as hurt and dumbfounded as before, but more than anything ashamed. I knew to leave Rose by herself, I always gave her space when she needed it. I looked at the clock and it was only 5:30 in the afternoon. The house was quiet, which was unusual. I kept bugging Alice when Rose would be home, she couldn't tell yet. Esme made Nessie dinner, as I sat at the barstool watching and thinking of Rose. I felt something was wrong. Nessie sat in the bar stool next to me, ready for her dinner. She was eating macaroni and cheese and a ham sandwich. She looked at me nervously, it was now just me and her.
" Are you still mad at me?", she asked timidly. " Because if you are then I can't eat this, and Grandma wasted her time making me food.."
I laughed at her rant. " Okay kid, your forgiven….by me" I said cautiously. She smiled big and gave me a bear hug.
"Oh! I love you! I love you! I love you! I'm so sorry Uncle Emmett", she said kissing me on my cheek continuously. I laughed.
" Yeah I know you are, but I'm not the one who needs your apology. Give your Aunt Rose some time. ", I said as I got up and I turned around to face her real quick. " I love you too Nessie", I said she looked up at me and smiled.
I went to see what Jasper was doing. We were playing chess, I looked up at the clock it was now 11:10 pm. I started to get worried. I can feel calmness take over me. I looked at Jasper.
"Thanks", I said.
"Hey don't worry, she's coming back", he said as he kinged me. I hated chess, but I need to keep busy. I decided to take a drive but what if Rose came home, and I wasn't here. So I played video games in my room. I looked at our clock it was 1:45 AM. That's it, something is wrong, I was about to run downstairs to gather everyone when Alice appeared at my door.
"She's on her way back", she said happily. I was so relieved. I went to the window, and stood where she usually stands, waiting to see my angel come through the back door. I waited patiently, and then I saw a flash of white run into our house. It was her. Everyone greeted her at the door, and I stood listening.
"I'm going to find Emmett", I heard her say. I smiled when she said my name. It was literally music to my ears. I heard her footsteps come up and I turned around as she stood in the doorway, looking radiant as usual. I smiled big, and she smiled back as she made her way to me. She hugged me so tightly, it was like she was hanging on for dear life. I returned her hug, with such security.
"Rose, I'm glad I can't breathe, you would of cut my air supply", I said jokingly. She looked up at me and smiled.
" I missed you", she said hugging me again. I don't know why her hugs felt this way.
She pulled me on the bed and I held her for a long time. We just laid in silence, I wondered what she was thinking. All I was thinking of how glad I was she was home, safe. I wanted to apologize for not taking her side when she turned around and kissed me passionately. We made love that night, as I was on top of her, I looked at her and saw that she was crying.
"Rose?", I asked concerned. My hand brushing her cheek. She looked at me, and couldn't speak. I knew why, finally this day had arrived. The day where she finally is going to move on and forget her past and forget what she can't have. Finally, she will start to live again. I smiled at her and lied beside her as she moved her head against my chest.
"I'm glad you let it all go", I said happily playing with her golden locks.
" What do you mean"? She asked.
" Well, the first time you cried was our first time, and now this was the second time. This does mean you have let it all go, and your moving on from it right? I asked just making sure. She looked up to me dead in the eye.
" Yes, I'm moving on", she said as she flashed that lively smile. I held her tightly as she moved and once again it was a sublime quietness.
Edward POV
Reneesme hasn't slept or eaten in 2 weeks, her guilt was eating at her. Her thoughts were everywhere, her main concern was talking to Rosalie. She spent a lot of her time with Jacob, but he even said she wasn't the same. Rosalie and Emmett wouldn't even acknowledge her existence. Bella was worried also, I know how Rosalie is but enough was enough. Reneesme was upstairs asleep and I sensed Rose coming home, I got up from the couch to approach her near the stairs.
"Rose, this is absurd, talk to Reneesme," I demanded.
Jasper and Emmett heard me shout at her and they were now in the room.
"No.", she said stubbornly. Esme and Carlisle walked in also, everyone was in the room now.
"Gosh, I swear Rosalie, she's more mature than you are", I said throwing my hands in the air. She turned around to face me.
"You of all people know how I am when someone betrays me, but this…..her……I never thought it would be her so get the hell off my back", she said. She was beyond hurt, and I do know how she is when it comes to betrayal but this was my daughter. Bella intervened
"All we are telling you Rosalie is to just talk to her. She's not eating or sleeping. She feels beyond terrible", Bella said calmly.
"I will talk to her when I am ready", Rose said icily. Emmett intervened.
"Look, all we have is time anyway, so Rose will talk to her when she is ready, everyone just back off", he said in a demanding way
"Look my child hasn't been herself in two weeks, how much longer will you do this to her Rosalie!" I shouted angrily. As soon as that left my mouth, I knew it was a mistake.
"Well, she is your child, you'll figure it out", she said bitterly, emphasizing on the your child part.
Did you really have to say your child, always throwing it in her face Emmett said mentally, shaking his head. I felt bad but I still glared at him. Jasper was having a tough time with the emotions.
"You guys, please with the emotions, Jasper can't even be in the same room with any of you", Alice said in a stern tone.
"Well if Edward and Bella would quit pushing me…" Rosalie said
"We are not pushing you" I said
Reneesme ran downstairs.
"Everyone shut up!" she screamed so loudly. Everyone stopped bickering and looked at her. Rose started for the stairs when Reneesme, grabbed her by the arm. I knew she should not have done that, no one touches Rosalie when she is upset.
'Don't go, look at me", Reneesme said. Rose paused for about a second and got out of her grip quickly. Jasper ran to guard the stairs. He was trying to calm the room, and you can feel the calmness except Rose she didn't want to feel calm she just wanted to leave.
"Move Jasper", Rose said irritated. He shook his head and looked down. She turned to Emmett.
"Move him please". She asked in a commanding way.
Emmett looked down and shook his head. "I'm sorry Rose, but maybe you should just talk to her now". He slowly looked up at her, and she looked at him with betrayal in her eyes.
Damn it, her eyes are so filled with hurt, Emmett thought
"Humph, I was wondering how long you would last to follow everyone else, as usual it's me on my own side", she said sarcastically. I was so tired of her always feeling sorry for herself.
"Come on Rose, quit playing the victim", I said annoyed.
"That is what I am, right Reneesme? That's what you got from reading my diary…poor Aunt Rosalie raped, beaten and left for dead. The curse of beauty, the tragedy in the fairytale", she was slowly moving towards Reneesme, and Reneesme looked scared. I was ready to pounce, everyone was really except for Emmett. I knew my sister would never hurt her physically.
"You guys relax, she isn't going to hurt to me", Reneesme said looking at all of us. She knew it too.
"Jasper move, let Rose get by", Alice said. She knew what Rose was about to do. Jasper moved and Rose flew upstairs to her room . She was back in 30 seconds. She came down the stairs and threw the diary at Reneesme. She caught it and looked at Rosalie confused.
"Everything you want and need to know about me is in it………feel free to show everyone since I know the dog knows anyway", Rose said sounding defeated. She climbed back up the stairs to her room. We all knew Rose loved her space, and in times like these, we all gave her that.
Reneesme felt even more horrible, as tears were streaming down her cheeks. Everyone had cleared the room except for me and Bella. Reneesme wanted to give the diary back to her but I heard Rose said she had to get out of here, and she leapt out the window, to a spot I knew she was going to.
"She left", I said looking at Reneesme. She stopped and turned around. "Did Uncle Emmett leave with her? She asked. "No, he knows to leave her alone to hunt" I said., even though we all knew she wasn't hunting.
We went to the cottage, and once again Reneesme was up thinking about the last few weeks. She cried every night, but tonight she kept looking at the diary. Finally, she drifted into a sleep. I went to my room, where Bella was laying down reading Wuthering Heights. I climbed in next to her, holding onto my beloved. I looked at our clock and it was 1:30 in the morning. Bella wanted to go see what Alice was up to, I stayed with Reneesme. I walked to our kitchen window, watching the forest. I suddenly saw a flash of white go into the mansion. I knew it was Rosalie. I frowned thinking about the last two weeks. Rosalie has every right to be upset, but Reneesme is my daughter. I try not to flaunt that in front of them, but I can't help it. I always feel bad for my sister. She really did want the simplest things humans take for granted. It wasn't fair. I've known her the longest out of all my siblings, I truly felt horrible when she was turned. Her thoughts of remembering that night haunted me for years, and sometimes, it still does. I remember the first time we actually had a conversation. It had been 3 months since she turned, and I was bored out of my mind. We hardly ever talked and when we did it was just to put on a show for Carlisle and Esme.
Rosalie was on top of the roof, staring at a full moon. She was crying, as I climbed up and sat right next to her. She wiped away her invisible tears. I chuckled. She thought I was amused by her sadness but I wasn't.
"Why do you wipe away invisible tears"? I asked still chuckling. She was annoyed and looked at me with a hard look on her face. She looked away.
"What do you want?", she asked in a tone only vampires could hear. I smiled.
"I just wanted to see if you wanted to talk, I figured it was about time, we have to get along somehow if we are to spend eternity together" I said in all seriousness. She sniffed.
" What do you want to talk about", she asked.
"Whatever you want, we can start with why you are crying", I asked trying to be sincere.
" I think you know, it's the same reason I cry every night." I frowned and nodded as she went on.
" Do you believe in Karma, Edward?", she asked. The question caught me off guard.
" Um…no, not really. I believe everything happens for a reason." I said looking at her. She still was looking at the moon.
" I do. I just don't know what I did to deserve all this. I did everything right Edward. I obeyed every rule, I listened to my elders, I followed every rule in the book, and still, look how I ended up. Maybe it was all too much to ask for. Maybe that was my karma. For wanting what I thought was so little, was in actuality a lot.", she said sadly.
I looked at her and took her cold hand in mine.
" Rosalie, look at me", I said. She turned and looked at me, her eyes showing hurt.
" You did nothing wrong, and it is not a lot to ask for a family, a home. There are always going to be bad people in that world and in this one. I think fate had other plans for you, in this lifetime, you can be the Rosalie you have always wanted to be. We will not tell you what to wear, who to be, there are rules, but it's for secure purposes only." I laughed as well as she.
" It's going to be hard, this life, but what life isn't. We will all be there for you, we won't let anything hurt you ever again." I said with all honesty. She smiled and gave me a big hug. I'm not much of a hugger, well the only people I have hugged were Esme and Carlisle, but I returned the hug anyway.
" Thanks Edward", she said. " No problem".
We continued our conversation and that's when I finally got to know my sister. We only agreed on cars, playing the piano, and very few books and songs. I have always been grateful for her knowledge on cars, it was very impressive. They first time she got under a car, we were taken by surprise. She knew everything, as me and Carlisle watched in admiration.
"Yeah the old Rosalie would never be able to this" she thought.
I laughed when she said that.
" Yet, I'm still shocked you don't mind getting dirty in here but can't stand to get dirty anywhere else." I chuckled.
"Yeah, well this is my forte, I feel comfortable here than anywhere else", she said as grease spilled on her overalls.
I thought about her life, and like Emmett, I always thought she had gotten past it, but we all knew she would never. It was hard for her, it is hard for her. Most days she was fine, but on rare occasions, when we would all go out bowling or to the movies, and men stared at her. She felt uneasy. We would protect her, especially Emmett. The thoughts I would hear, I would get so pissed off about. Which is why I hardly go out.
Bella finally came home and we read our books and cuddled. I laid there waiting for morning to come.
The next day Bella and I were sitting around waiting for Reneesme to wake, when I could hear Jasper's thoughts. I opened the door.
Jasper came in, looking worried.
"What's wrong?", I asked
"She left for good, Emmett is a mess, we don't have the slightest idea where she is", he said worried yet calm.
"What happened?" Mom asked worried.
"Well Alice and I were at the mall when she had a vision of Rosalie writing a note and leaving. So Alice calls Emmett but he didn't pick up, he was taking a swim. Esme, forgot her phone but was with Carlisle so by the time we called him, Rosalie had left", he explained.
"Why didn't you call us?" I asked sounding kind of hurt.
"Well, we thought we could handle it since you guys have Nessie to think about. We didn't want to intrude", he said quietly.
"Rosalie is our family too, you should have called us", Bella said sounding disappointed.
"Alice didn't get a vision of where she was heading?" I said.
"No, it was like she was tuned in AM station when you know Alice gets FM, it's all static. She does know she's in her car", Jasper said.
How can she not see Rosalie. This is bad.
"Well, I know she isn't with the wolves but maybe we should check anyway? Bella asked.
"It wouldn't hurt to ask, it would be the last place we would look at. You check on that and I'm going to help the others with the search", I said.
"Wait, what do we tell Reneesme", Bella asked.
"The truth, god knows what happens when you don't tell her that", Jasper said jokingly. I rolled my eyes.
We headed to the Volvo as I thought something was wrong. Bad sign number one was Alice couldn't see her future. Bad sign number two is I couldn't hear Rose's thoughts. Bad sign number three, we were all worried.