Pairings: Hisagi/Kira (it's pretty strong in this chapter)
Rating: M
Warnings: This chapter contains sexual content (steamy kissing) and strong language. There is also slight OOC. This is also the longest chapter in the whole story and it had some yaoi goodness (to make up for all of the time it took to update.) There are also countless errors that I will probably find when I reread it online which I will then scramble to fix (but you know me).
Disclaimer: I don't own Bleach, Tite Kubo does.
Kira couldn't focus, his mind going elsewhere with every passing moment. The instructor kept lecturing them on only God knew what as Kira drifted into another world. All he could think about was Hisagi Shuuhei. He never felt like this about anyone that he met, but he had never met anyone like Hisagi Shuuhei before. Not only was he famous, which he was very famous: extremely famous. Everyone knew who he was; he was something that only came around every few decades. He was sheer perfection. But not only was he famous, but he was also beautiful. As Kira knew he was supposed to be paying attention all he could think of were those dark eyes and that soft tan skin.
"Kira…" Renji whispered. "Are you paying attention?"
Kira shook his head. "Yeah, yeah, kidou, great…" he looked forward in a drunken stupor, a smile across his face.
He could see Renji's look of confusion out of his peripheral, but he didn't turn to confront him. All his mind could go to was that moment. It was luck, nothing but luck that Hisagi was the one who was going to help him after utter embarrassment. It was luck that Kira had discovered that he was more down to Earth than he thought. He looked forward endlessly, a smile upon his face.
"Are you drunk?" Renji asked his voice almost above a whisper.
Kira nodded. "Love drunk…"
"What?"
Kira didn't know what he was saying as he thought of a moment that happened a few days ago. As class ended, Renji remained next to Kira, his hand on his shoulder. Kira looked over to see his friend looking straight at him, that glance made him come crashing down.
"You spent all class just looking like an idiot. Are you sick?"
Kira took a deep breath. "I don't know."
"Well then how do you explain the weird way you've been acting the past couple of days?" Renji was always trying to get to the bottom of everything.
"What do you mean?"
"You know what the fuck I mean. You've been dancing around the academy with that goofy grin on your face. Don't tell me some poor unfortunate soul actually laid you…"
"No!" Kira blushed at that comment. "Can't someone just be happy?"
"You? You're never like this. Usually you're all jittery and neurotic, always worrying. You're working up a heart attack everyday and now all of a sudden, you're so chill…"
"Maybe I've calmed down…" Kira stood up.
"Or maybe there's something going on with you. You can tell me, Kira… you know what," Renji stood up and started to walk alongside him. "I'm worried about you. You've been acting weird…"
Kira walked with his head down. There was so much going on in his life, so much that he didn't think that he knew how to explain the emotions that were rolling through his body. How could he? It didn't make any sense that he was feeling like this. But there was something about Hisagi Shuuhei in that moment that made him now that he was the one that he couldn't get over. The more he thought about it, the sicker he got, the sicker he got, the more he wanted to get closer to him. But as he ran through the process in his mind, he knew Renji would never understand, Kira himself didn't even understand.
Kira walked out of the classroom and that's when he saw something that was going to bring him back down to Earth. Across the way was Hisagi Shuuhei, but he wasn't alone. There he was sitting with a girl, the two of them laughing as her hand was all over his shoulder. His heart started to sink as he looked over at the sight that was across the way, everything was starting to fall apart for him. He took a deep breath as he looked over at the sight that was right before his eyes. He shook his head as he tried to make it all disappear. He was so stupid.
He should have known. He should have known that Hisagi Shuuhei had a girlfriend. He should have known that there was someone else in his life. There was so much that he should have known, but he was too stupid to think of. All of the joy, all of the happiness that was within his body was starting to fade away as he looked at the two of them sitting together, smiles on their faces. He looked at her and then at him. They were perfect for each other.
"Something wrong?" Renji asked, he had taken notice to Kira's mood change, worried for him.
"No…" Kira said meekly. "Nothing…"
He closed his eyes as he tried to take it all in, and when he reopened them, he could see Hisagi Shuuhei staring straight at him. He could see those eyes looking straight into his soul. The older boy stood up as he exchanged words between him and the girl before he started walking toward Kira.
"I have to go…"
"Kira!"
Kira ran away from Renji closing himself off in an empty classroom. He couldn't breathe. He couldn't even begin to think of what was going through his head. All of the happiness, the only ounce he had ever felt in his life, was suddenly draining from him as he fell to his knees as he buried his face in his hands. He took a deep breath as he thought that nothing could get worse. That's when he heard the door open.
"Are you alright?" he looked up to see Hisagi walking toward him.
"I'm fine, just having a nervous breakdown."
"Aren't you a little young to be having breakdowns?" Hisagi asked as he walked toward the first year. "Need some guidance?"
"I'll manage without your help…" Kira took a deep breath.
"Like you would have managed before?" Hisagi took a few more steps toward him. "Come on, you know that you can't get through this alone… breakdowns, they come and they go. You have to face what you're breaking down over soon. What's the problem?"
Kira took a deep breath, not hesitating as he answered. "You…"
"I'm the problem?"
"Yeah, you're the problem… I can't get you out of my head. Ever since that day when you took me back to your room, I've been thinking about you…" Kira shook his head. "And now here you are with your girlfriend…"
"I just helped you off of the ground. Sorry for being considerate…" Hisagi shook his head as he turned around as if he were to leave the room.
Stop him, you idiot! Kira stood up. "Wait! You're going to leave just like that?"
Hisagi turned around. "I don't know what to do. Are you doing to start to stalk me until I say that I want to be with you? I can't live like that. It's hard enough that everybody knows my name. I don't need my biggest fan following me around."
"You don't get it…" Kira breathed. "I want to be closer to you. I know it's unhealthy and you're terrified for your life, but I want to get to know you…"
"Okay, crazy person," Hisagi breathed heavily. "I don't even know your name…"
Kira looked deep into the older boy's eyes. "Kira Izuru…"
"Kira Izuru? That sounds a lot nicer than crazy person…" Hisagi chuckled. "So, Kira Izuru … what do you want to know?"
Kira wanted to ask him so many questions. One side of him wanted to know everything that this man knew. He wanted to know how he got here, what he was doing before the Academy, what he was going to do after. But the other half of him only had one question to be answered. He swallowed hard right before he asked something that he knew was going to knock Hisagi on his face.
"Did you feel anything that day?" Kira asked.
"Well not as much as you did…" he narrowed his eyes in confusion. "How hard did you hit your head?"
"Pretty hard…" Kira answered. "And maybe that's why I feel this way toward you. But I felt something that day… something between us…"
Hisagi bowed his head as he inhaled sharply. "Kira, I don't know what to say to that… what do you want me to say?"
"Your answer: yes or no, I'll take it!" Kira looked into the older student's eyes.
Hisagi shook his head as he moved closer to him, Kira's body shaking as he backed up into a wall. "I'm going to stop this…"
Kira froze as he felt Hisagi move closer to him, his hands pressed up against the wall on both sides of his body. The younger student closed his eyes as he could feel Hisagi's lips coming closer to him, his breath condensing on his skin. He closed his eyes tighter as he could feel the older student's arms shaking, his nerves on fire.
"If we feel anything then you win. If we don't, then we give up…" Hisagi's voice was thick with an emotion that Kira had never heard before, his body tensing in confusion. "Tell me what you feel…"
Kira's body shuddered as he felt Hisagi's lips press up against his, pushing him deeper into the wall. The kiss was short, a quick taste of Hisagi's lips. Kira took a deep breath as he opened his eyes to look into Hisagi's, his heart racing in his chest. As he looked into his eyes, he craved to take his lips again, his body yearning to fall against his again, anxiously awaiting another kiss.
"Well?" Kira asked, his breath so heavy he could hardly speak, as he looked up into the older student's eyes, hearing the weight of Hisagi's breath. "What did you feel? Did you feel anything at all?"
Before he could even register the question that he had asked, he felt his back being pushed deeper into the wall as Hisagi's mouth conquered his. Kira moaned deeply as he felt Hisagi's tongue penetrate his lips, ferociously taking him over, his hands moving from the wall to grasp at his blond hair. Their lips moved harshly at each other as if they were consuming one another, saliva rolling from their kiss as tongues battled and endless fight to the death.
Kira had never done anything like this before, he had lived a life all to himself, but as Hisagi took him over, he knew that everything that he had once kept for himself no longer mattered. He gave into him, gave him everything that he wanted. He felt his body being pushed and pulled violently as the older student gave into his new found lust, swallowing hard up against the pressure of Hisagi's lips against his Adam's apple.
He closed his eyes tightly as he knew what the answer was, there was no more need to ask questions, they were all going to be ridiculous. As he felt his lips being possessed again, he knew that he wasn't the only one who had felt something during that kiss. Their lives were going to change forever, and for once Kira didn't care about the consequence.
Again I'm sorry that it took me so long, but I've been getting caught up in other stories, but I missed working on this one, so I decided to update. I really loved how this chapter was long and it was the start of their unhealthy relationship with each other. Yes, Hisagi does have a girlfriend and I guess that means that right now Kira is his mistress. And it's all getting closer to the worst day of their lives. So keep waiting for that.
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