Colours

by agrajagthetesty

He always closes his eyes as they kiss, as if afraid to see her face so close to his own, as if the reality will be lost if he does... A series of AlWin drabbles and short oneshots. Rated T just in case. All released chapters are K rated so far.

60. Knot

knot

sometimes i want to tell you all my faults—

i want to sit you down and tell you

everything

one then the next

a warless surrender

over the razed wooden field of the table

in the kitchen

and hands under the table

twisting

and knotted fingers—

and i want to tell you because i

should

and because i know you're wrong about me—

i want to put words in your head

pour through your ears

and i know it will harm me

but the truth is precious

like you—

but they stop

half-out

and i try to talk and knots pull tight—

and i smile and say something

something that isn't right

but what else is there to say to you

white flag, and i speak

something like—

I'll tell you later.

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Author's notes: More old writing, and more poetry. Meanwhile, on the RL side of things, it's just over a week until I get my exam results and I'm scared to death. D: