I really thought things were finally at a quiet lull. I mean after that shock some time ago with Bella's pregnancy I really thought that I wouldn't

have to again come to terms with the fact that I will never get the chance to watch my own child grow up. I had settled for being Auntie Rose,

watching little Renesmee sprout before my very eyes. I had settled for watching humans around me grow up. I had contented myself in this, I was

doing just fine. Until today, when once again my world came crashing down on me yet again. It's so hard to be happy for those I love when the

very things I am supposed to be happy about are the very things I will never have. Renesmee is pregnant. It's been so long, we just assumed she

was like us, a genetic dead end. Not to mention what kind of creature will she spawn out. I suppose it will be more human than anything, will it be

a difficult process? What I wouldn't give to be in her shoes. I should be with the rest of the family celebrating, I just cannot bare it. On top of this

news Emmett won't be back from his latest shoot in Zimbabwe until tomorrow. I need him right now, I need his arms around me. I need him to

comfort me and to understand my pain. As selfish as I am being, he understands it like no one else possibly could. I need his understanding.

I could hear everyone in the living room, cooing over precious little Renesmee. Picking out possible names and of course Alice going on and on

about what she needed to buy for the little bundle of joy. I just couldn't take it anymore, it's too much. I needed to get out, I sprinted out of the

house not bothering to shut the door behind me. I could hear their remarks about my "attitude". Of course perfect Edward thinks I am being

unreasonable, of course he like always had to put in his two cents about everything. I ran and ran for a good hour, until I was in Canada. This is

what I need right now, space. Space and time away from it all. I guess I could hunt, something to take my mind off of things and lose myself. Elk or

Caribou, interesting. Whatever, I just need to stay away for a little while. The weather was suitable to my mood, which was a good thing. I doubt

any humans would be dumb enough to try hunting in this weather. Oh well, here goes...... "Ugh, what is that ungodly smell????" I said to myself

out loud. God, here I am talking to myself. " I was just going to ask the same question" a voice replied. UGH, I knew that voice all too well. Could

things get any worse? I come here to get away from it all and it follows me. Worst of all, the dog. Couldn't they have sent someone less vile to

come after me?

"What do you want, Jacob? Are you playing Golden Retriever for them now?" I asked. " What are you talking about!? I came out here to be alone.

Instead I have you stinking up my airspace. You are the last person I want around right now, so whatever you are doing out here could you do it

somewhere else?" He asked me in the most acidic tone. Huh, this is odd. "Shouldn't you be back with Nessy, cooing over your little bundle of joy?"

I asked him in the most sarcastic tone possible. Who cared if he thought I was selfish. I didn't need to pretend around him, he is nothing to me. He

looked up at me from stump he was sitting on and I saw something in his face. I have seen that face before, about 20 years ago. It's the face of

pain, torment and uncertainty. The same face I saw in my brother before his daughter was born. He was scared, worried about Nessy as I should

be. God, I didn't want to have to do this all over again. I don't regret being by Bella's side through it all, that I would do all over again. But the pain

that it caused my family, how it nearly tore us apart. Bringing the heat of the Volturri in on us. Had he been thinking about all that? What would

the Volturri think, a child of our enemy and one of us? This could be just what they needed to come "check in" on us, yet again. "I could ask you

the same thing. Aren't babies your specialty?" he nearly spat at me breaking my train of thought. "You couldn't possibly understand, Jacob." I spat

back. "Neither could you" he said almost so quietly I could barely hear him.

Never before have I felt a strange surge of compassion for someone who normally repulsed me. It was odd, even though I had no clue what

exactly it was that held him here I understood. I didn't feel the need to interrogate any further, we had both come here to get away from it. We

had both come here to escape. Oddly enough the one person I wanted around the least kind I could in a way kind of understand. I did something

completely shocking to myself and I am sure to him. I sat down next to him, curled up into a ball and just laid there lost in my thoughts with him

beside me doing the same. It was oddly comforting, we didn't need to speak. We sat like this for hours. Even though the rain had let up, I

suddenly felt a few ward drops of water fall on me. I looked up and he was crying. I looked up at him, "Jake?" I asked softly. "Just drop it!" he said

bitterly. There is the Jacob I know. Even with this I still felt oddly compassionate to him, I reached up and wiped his tears. He then looked down at

me and nodded. I knew even without words that we had an understanding. This was between us and neither of us would dare to speak of it

again. We were thankful for one another, for this moment at least and words would have ruined it. The sun started to set... I felt something very

hot, almost burning on my hand. It was his hand, wrapping itself around mine. I looked up at him and knew that it was time, time to head back.

Time to try and face the reality of the situation. He gently pulled me up, we looked at one another and I nodded. He didn't let go, as we ran back.

The burning felt nice. I didn't know when this truce would let up but for now it felt good.