"Well, I know it may seem small compared to all that. And well I don't know if you could possibly understand where I am coming from but, it's like

this. I never chose this life Jake, it was chosen for me. It's been so long now that I rarely give it a second thought but honestly it stills weighs

heavy on me. I was supposed to die that night, it was my fate. Then Carlisle came in and changed that fate, twisted it and set me on a whole new

path. My hopes and dreams and potential plans for the future in my human life would never be realized. I would have to set forth as something

else, someone else. It's a really hard thing to do. I knew who I was then, what I was. But now, who am I?

All I wanted out of life was to be a wife, a mother and to have a name that others envied. This life died that day along with me. I had come to

terms with things after Emmett came into my life. He gave me a purpose, I knew that we were meant to be. No one had ever gotten me,

understood me, even knew me bad parts and all and still wanted to be with me. I knew that we would never have the happy ending I had

originally planned on. But regardless we could be happy. I was content, content enough that is until Bella. I was always endlessly jealous of

human woman as it was, as silly as it seemed. But as soon as I found out she was pregnant it was like a punch in the gut. Being Aunt Rose really

eased some of that jealousy. Watching Ness grow up, being part of that was good enough for me. I mean it was the closest I was going to get

that is. I knew there was never going to be a chance to have my own child, I had accepted this finally.

Then, Renesmee gets pregnant. It just seemed like such a slap in the face to me. It wasn't like with Bella, I mean she was completely human. But

Nessie???? She was only half human and half vampire. She isn't growing and hasn't for some time, how is it physically possible? I mean on top of

things, a wolf father? Is everyone able to give birth but me? In some ways I feel like life is always laughing at me. I mean Bella got her child, her

Husband, her home. She got everything she wanted and more. Even Esmee got to be a mother, though not in the traditional way, she still in a

sense raised us. Alice doesn't even remember her human life, therefore doesn't feel like she gave up anything. She is so happy it almost hurts.

Now, Nessie has her child and you. What is left for me? Is there anything more in store? I feel like I had so much taken from me Jake, so much

lost." I relayed to him as I started to shake.

"I don't get it? I mean so you can't have kids. I understand that sucks, but you get to live forever. With the love of your life. And I mean, well look

at you! You obviously know how you look. What is it you really gave up?" he asked me puzzled.

" Jake, it's not so simple. I guess you don't know how I came to be, well.... this. I won't go into it too much as it's still upsetting. But Jake, I had

everything I had ever wanted. I was Rosalie Hale, engaged to one of the wealthiest most sought after bachelors, he bought me a house with a

wraparound porch. Our wedding was going to be news, I was the envy of every girl I knew. I was going to have it all, or so I thought. The night

before the wedding well, Royce and his friends decided to take me out for a "test drive", so to speak. They were drunk and I was in agony, one

after another. I tried to get away, the more I struggled the more they beat me. They left me in the middle of the road broken and bloodied to die. I

saw everything I wanted slipping away. The worst part was that HE had done this to me, he had humiliated me like this. I didn't want to live

anymore. I just wanted the pain, both physical and emotional to end. I needed it to end.

Little did I know, it never would. That's when he found me. They couldn't just let me die and now here I am. Yes, I have a great life. But as you can

see the pain of that day is something I can never forget. The day all of my dreams died. I guess in some ways it goes a little deeper than just the

jealousy I feel towards Nessie or anyone who can reproduce. It's a reminder of the pain, the humiliation, the defeat I feel. Even after all this time,

he still got the best of me. From beyond the grave he still haunts me.... I know I should be thankful for what I do have now. I just wish there was

more in store for me, I wish there were some way for me to get my happy ending." I had told him.

It really was hard to put that into words, to tell another person. What would he think of me? What's going through his head right now? I wish he

would speak... That's when I felt it, his hot hand on my cheek. He grabbed my face, pulled me into his arms and pressed me against his fiery chest

and just held me tight. Embracing me tightly in his burning arms, stroking my hair. It felt wrong is some way. It was just a hug, but it felt like so

much more. I felt like I should stop him but I couldn't. Not yet.