The second he stopped, I knew it was bad.

" Jake. No. We can't do this!" I said very shaken.

"I know. I know." he said not letting me go.

"This is so wrong Jake. I can't even begin to tell you all the things wrong with it." I said starting to loose it.

"I know it is Rose. But answer me this, does it feel wrong? Because even though I know it is in my head, it doesn't feel like it to me." he said pleadingly.

I shook my head, not knowing what to do. I struggled to break free of his arms. I backed away and went to sit down on the bed. Confused and

thoroughly shaken. I didn't know what to say, how did this happen? How did things get even more mixed up than they already were? He was

staring at me, he looked confused too. He came over and sat down next to me and gently put his arm around me. He barely looked up at me as he

started to speak.

"Rose, I don't know what just happened." he mumbled.

"Me either." I added meekly.

"Look. What just happened can we just forget about it? I mean for now at least? We came here for a reason. We came together to help one another, to get our heads straight. Let's do that, ok?" he said.

"Yeah, you're right. Let's focus on what needs to be done today." I said.

I knew what needed to be done for me at least. I needed to get home as soon as possible. I needed to go to Emmett. I needed to tell him about

our possible chance at being parents. I needed to tell him we had hope. I knew he would be so happy for me, for us. But I knew I would also face

the questions, from Alice mainly. Would she know where my idea came from? She couldn't see us now, but was I certain she would never know

about what just happened? Would Jasper be able to sense any tension between us? Not to mention the second he phased, would his pack know

everything? And once they did how hard would it be to keep it from everyone? Unless he ordered them quiet, even so how would they act around

me now?

"Rose? You got real quiet." he said to me looking concerned.

"Jake, I was just thinking. No one can know about this, us. I mean not that there is an us. I just mean, you know what just happened. No one can ever know!" I said to him frantically.

" I know, I know. And no one ever will. This is between you and I. Besides you know Alice can't see us. You have nothing to worry about." he said reassuringly.

"Oh, so your pack won't ever find out?" I asked bitterly.

"Damn. Yeah, that's going to be tricky. I don't know Rose. I guess if it comes out I will make sure I have their word that no one ever finds out.

Don't worry about it. They answer to me. I can explain it away, it was just a moment of happiness that went overboard. It's no big deal, ok?" he said almost begging.

"Sure, sure." I said unconvinced.

I knew it wouldn't be that easy. But he was right, Alice couldn't find out. If he ordered his pack they had to listen. I just knew they would never

treat me the same, I hope Seth had it in him to forgive us. I felt like the longer I was here with him though, the more deceitful I was being. I knew

we needed to get home soon. I had planned to stay away for a while but I was so nervous now. I just needed to get back to Emmett, once I did

everything would be ok.

"Jake, you are going to hate me for what I am about to say. Or maybe think I am more of a monster than I already am, but I need you to hear me out. Ok?" I asked him.

"Sure, sure." he mumbled.

"I think the only way to fix things with you and Nessie right now is for you to go away. I know she is pregnant and you need to be there for her. I

get that it is going to be hard for you to do. But I think the only way your relationship will survive this is if you do. You won't be abandoning her,

she will be with us. Her family. She will have so much support. I mean I am sure Bella won't want to miss a minute of her pregnancy and Esmee

can't seem to keep away. She will have all of our love and support. I don't think you should go far, in case we need you. But I think it's honestly

best. Probably for her too. She shouldn't be under any stress right now. Her hormones are obviously making it hard for her. I don't know, I just

think it's necessary." I said trying to speak in a way that would make sense.

" I agree. It's what's best for her. But how? How do I explain abandoning my pregnant wife? Where do I say I am going?" he asked.

"You tell her the truth, or at least somewhat of the truth. You go to South America, do some research on her kind. Make sure this is going to be check with the half vamp women, see if they have given birth. If so what has happened. You ease some of the worry you had. While giving her the space that she needs." I said to him.

"Wow, I guess I can't call you a dumb blond anymore. Huh?" he asked with a smile.

"Yeah right, if you didn't make your blond jokes you wouldn't be you. Besides, we need to act normal around everyone. Got it?" I asked.

"Got it." he said.

We decided it best if we parted ways separately. He was going to head back first, go to Nessie and try to face that battle alone. I was going to

stay behind and try to get my game face on. I definitely couldn't go back smelling the way I did. I changed my clothes, combed my hair out, put on

some perfume just in case there was any of his scent leftover. Then I waited, I waited until I knew he had been home for at least a few hours

before I made my last call. I needed to have my story straight for Alice. I needed to be ready to plead my case to Emm. I picked up my phone and

called him. He answered after only a half ring.

"Babe!" he nearly shouted with excitement.

"Hey." I said casually but flirty at the same time. I could barely keep the smile out of my voice.

"Everything's ok? You're safe?" he asked.

"Yeah. I have been doing a lot of thinking. I have an idea, it's kind of crazy. But I am going to need your support on this." I warned him.

"Always, no matter what." he said. I could hear the smile in his voice too.

"What is it?" he asked

" I think we should talk about it when I get home, tomorrow." I said.

"Tomorrow" he whined.

"Or, I suppose an hour or so if you really can't wait" I said almost unable to contain myself.

"I wanted you home like, oh say yesterday. Get your ass back here woman!" he said to me laughing.

"Ok, I will see you soon. I love you so much." I said to him.

"I love you too Nanner. Hurry home" he said as we hung up.

I knew this was all going to work. I just needed to get home and talk this all out. Everything would be ok. Not just for me and Emm, but for Jake

and Ness too. It had to be.