I got an early start today as the sun started to rise. I went ahead and made a list for the day and started to make Jakes breakfast. He was going

to need the strength today.

"Mmm, something smells good" he said as he stretched his half naked body.

"Hopefully it tastes ok. I am not really used to this whole cooking thing." I said sheepishly

He sat down and immediately dug in. "Tastes great" he said with his mouth full. I smiled at him. I used to find things like that so repulsive. But I

was sitting here smiling at him and finding it endearing. It's so weird how things have changed. I loved to see him smile now, it was different than

before. I pushed over the list to him while he ate. Not wanting to have to say it out loud. He read it silently, then looked up at me and nodded

saying " I know. It's just going to be so hard".

"Jake, I will be here with you while you call." I said trying to make this task seem easier. It was odd how the thought of him calling Nessie upset

me. I am the one telling him to do so, I know it's the right thing to do. But still I hated it. I hated the fact that she was causing him so much pain. I

resented her in so many ways lately and the fact that I realized this made me feel even worse. I don't know why she bothered me so badly. After

he was done eating, we went and grabbed his phone and came and sat down next to me on the couch. I knew this was going to be hard for him,

but we couldn't risk them coming to look for him. It would complicate things too much. He reached over and grabbed my hand. I held tight and

nodded towards him.

"Hello."

"WHERE ARE YOU JACOB!? WHAT IS GOING ON?! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME???" she half yelled and sobbed.

"We have already gone over this so many times Nessie. It's what's best. For you and the baby. You shouldn't have to deal with any stress. I don't want to fight with you or upset you anymore. You need to stay calm. I am doing this for us" he said pleedingly.

"That's a lie! How can you tell me to be calm when I don't even know where you are or what you are up to?" she cried "Is Leah with you??? "

"No Nessie. I am by myself. Please, you have nothing to worry about. I love you. I want you to be ok. I want our child to be ok. Everything will be okay, I promise." he said still trying to comfort her.

"How can I trust a man who has abandoned me?" she asked still sobbing

"You know that's not how it is. I love you and will be home soon. But until then please take care of yourself and our baby. I will call you again soon, ok?" he said soothingly

"No. Jacob, don't go yet. I miss you" she started pleading.

"I have to. I will call you soon. I love you so much. Goodbye." he finally said before hanging up.

Now that that was done I knew we had bought ourselves some time. Which was the point as hard as that may have been. I looked over at him as

his face started to crumple. He pulled me closer to him into his firey embrace. He didn't speak for what felt like hours. Finally, he said "We have a

meeting tonight."

"Wait, what? With who?" I asked shocked.

"Nahuel. I found him not long before you arrived. I had been waiting till he was alone before I tried to talk to him just in case any of his friends decided not to trust my kind. He of course was very happy to see me and wanted to hear all about Nessie and how she was doing. I mentioned some of what was going on and he was of course very surprised. Not about her being pregnant but being pregnant with a wolf baby. Anyways, I wanted to know more about his kind and how they or if they have reproduced and told him I had many questions. I also told him a bit about your situation. He seemed very interested to hear more when you finally arrived and said he would do his best to gather his sisters, or at very least contact them and find out more information in order to help us out."

"Wow. He has always been so kind to our family, but this is just above and beyond." I said shocked.

"Well, he told me he thinks of us as sort of an extended family in a lot of ways. When you were out yesterday I went out to see him again and he told me to stop by with you in the evening and we could talk more. So, Rosepetal that is the plan." he said through a half smile.

I smiled as I realized he had just come up with his own little name for me. It felt special. He had done all this for me. He took care of everything for

me, just because. I was so overwhelmed with gratitude at that moment that I did something shocking to both him and myself. I looked up at him,

grabbed his face between my hands and kissed him. It was softer and more tender than before, his lips gently burned and pressed against mine

as he ran his hands through my hair. I didn't know what was happening to me. Why did this keep happening? As our kiss ended I was suddenly

hit by a wave of shock. Shock at myself for what had just happened and shock at how it made me feel. The horrifying wave of guilt that overcame

me last time this happened wasn't there. I couldn't make myself feel guilty about this right now. It felt so right. I loved Emmett more than life itself,

but right now I needed Jake.

We spent most of the day just laying around in one anothers arms watching tv and talking. Every now and then Jake would casually reach over

and kiss me or stroke my face. I knew we needed to draw the line somewhere. We couldn't keep this up, but I kept telling myself one more day.

Tomorrow we can get back to normal. Today was just a day with a lot of different emotions coming through. Tomorrow when we weren't so

emotional we would both regain our senses and things would be normal. Or as normal as they could be in this situation.